My name is Cortney, I'm 20 years old, and from the eastern kentucky area. If you didn't know, oxycodone runs rampid in this area, i mean people go to florida left and right to hit up those pain clinics. Anyways, I'm addicted to this horrible drug, and its hell. I mean, even when I'm high off of them, i don't really even enjoy it. I'm just so afraid to detox from it ( i know that sounds stupid, but i've been through many bad dt's ) and of course, even when I am clean -- i crave it more than anything. Plus, i'm not in the situation where I can just lay around for ten days. I work two jobs now to support my mother and myself and I need money. I've tried quitting about 20 times now, and the longest i've been clean in the past year and 3 months would be 3 months. I've had little bouts of being sober, but nothing lasting longer than a month. I need advice, or atleast someone to talk to... I take atleast 90 mgs a day, which seems like a lot to me because I do 30's. so I'm doing atleast 3 pills a day. one almost the second i wake up, and the two through out the day. I would really like advice, and support because I want more than anything to be clean. Also, it's really depressing that all of the suboxone clinics around this area have atleast a 3 month waiting list, and are 1000.00. and it's also really depressing that anywhere you go around here, everyone is on them. Anyways, any input would be fantastic. ps. sorry if any grammar is incorrect, its pretty early for me.
-cortney-