addicted to oxycotine

[oxycrossdresser]

Hi I am new to this forum, hi all. I have  been addicted to pain killers for about 4 years now i got hooked after my 3rd back surgery. I have been to drug rehab once and was clean for 6 months but then my pain management doctor put me on methadone because none of the other non narcotic pain meds were helping with my pain, i am now on 40mg oxycontin 3 times a day and 30mg oxycontin for break though pain. I try to use them as scripted but i often end up taking to many and run out before my next script is due i usually have to limit how many i take a week before i am due another script so i don't run out completely. I really hate what these drugs are doing to me, i want to get of them but i am scared my doctor will just cut me of completely and i will have to go though those horriable withdrawl pains. Oh by the way as you may have noticed from my nick name i am a crossdresser, this has nothing to do with my addiction but i thought it better to let you all know who your talking with up front.
I desperatly need to get of these meds, but i don't want to go into rehab again (that was a horriable place) any ideas what i can do?.  

[avisg]

oxycrossdresser,
Welcome to the forum, have you looked into a doc that could prescribe suboxone
For WD and cravings From what I have heard it works quite well .However then you will still have to deal with your pain level that I am not so sure what you could do It sounds like your back pain is real and bad. plz let us know how you are doing .
Avis

[Mis Take]

I too was addicted to Oxycontin - terrible lil things, hu?  They just about tore my family apart and I consider us a pretty normal group.  It can get to anyone - that's the scary part.  Anyway after my 2nd surgery (fusion) I took Norco until either that stopped working or I wanted to be "higher"  Don't really know which - Ive lied to myself for so long.  Anyway - Last month, I had enough and found this place.  A lifesaver.  Someone was talking about Suboxone and I knew that it was the answer.  I started it on 3.19 and haven't really looked back.  No physical w/d and really no cravings.  Being a full time mom - I couldn't really go through the pains of w/d and rehab was not an option (for me).  Suboxone has worked really well.  I'll be happy to share more w/ you if you would like to know.
If not, I wish you all the best, whichever way you go about getting "clean"  It sounds like you have made the first and hardest step.  Now just find your way, and kick butt!!!  
Being here helps alot as well.  Stick around and ask questions.  There really are a lot of intelligent ppl here.

good luck and God Bless!
M

[kwestent]

if you are just on the meds for pain then the subo's work great but you have to be true to yourself because if your on it for another reason it wont help. I am on subo's which true does work great for the withdrawal and i was taking 300mg of vico's a day and blowing back 160mg of oxycotin(there is an expensive habit). now that i am off i have no craving for the painkillers but i suffer from the emotional stuff i was trying to suppress so just be aware in case you get hit with that

[Needshelp2Bclean]

I am new to the forum, and something you said interested me. I am soooo addicted to pain pills. Mostly Lortabs, and Percocets, I try to stay away from the OCs, but lately they have also been an issue. I have been using now for about 5 years when I was in a car accident. I am very interested to know more about Suboxone. What is it exactly? You mentioned something about it helps with withdrawls, (Which we all know is Hell on earth.) Is it addicting, like replacing one addiction with another? I could really use your input on how to battle this addiction. I have done cold turkey a few times, the longest being 7 months, but tragedy struck in my life causing me to relapse. That was almost 2 years ago, and now the longest I can go without is a week.
If you could please answer my ?s about Suboxone, that would be great, and anyone else that has suggestions for me would be awsome.

Thanks for your input, SRG

[Mis Take]

Hi, I saw your post and wanted to quickly say that I will def answer any questions you may have.  I have to run to the counselor now but there are some posts further down, I think.  I replied to To..somebody.  Anyways the responses are Suboxone , suboxone 2 and suboxone 3.  That may help and I will post more when I return.  Good luck and Keep your chin up - This will work - if its the right thing for you.


Sincerest Wishes,
M

[lightaftdark]

Hi guys. I am new to this forum but feel that my knowledge could be helpful to you as your comments and stories have helped me through my addiciton. I have been addicted to pain killers and heroin for 2 years and have just recently taken the steps necessary to get help for myself. I was motivated by the fact that I don't want to be prisoner to these deamons anymore! They destroyed me financially and emotionally and have greatly (and negatively) affected my relationships and interactions with the people around me. I find great comfort and support from this forum and want to lend my support to all of you. I have started seeing a therapist who began treating me with Suboxone. I would reccommend this treatment to anyone who is ready to get help. I agree with others who say that treatment wont be successful unless the addict is ready to help themselves. I didnt think that I was addicted and I certainly didnt think that I needed help until I was cut off from my family and from their financial support. Suboxone is a partial opioid agonist and opioids like pain killers and heroin are full opioid agonists. A full opioid agonist is one that fully binds to the opioid receptors in your brain, thus giving you a complete feeling of euphoria. A partial opioid agonist is one that partially binds to the opioid receptors in your brain, thus giving you a minimal feeling of euphoria while at the same time, blocking other opioids from binding to those receptors. Thus if you take any type of opioid while you are on Suboxone, you will not feel the full pleasurable effect of the drug, thus giving you less positive reinforcement when taking a drug like heroin, lessing your desire to take a drug like heroin. I find that I am able to achieve a minimal euphoric feeling from Suboxone but mainly, the drug allows me to function normally. I can get up easier in the morning and participate in activities that I enjoyed before my addiction - like going to the gym. I am also less moody. The most important benefit resulting from treatment with Suboxone for me is that I am less focused on combating withdrawal symptoms (since they are essentially nonexisistent with this drug) and cravings and can direct my focus to more pressing issues such as why I began using the opioids in the first place. Attacking the underlying problems to my addiction I believe will ensure my long-term recovery. I hope this helps! Again, I really enjoy this forum and I would welcome any questions, comments, or responses. My prayers are with you all.

-Kate

[lightaftdark]

Im sorry Mis Take...I meant to address the Suboxone info to Needs2BClean...although for everyone

[oxycrossdresser]

Hi and thanks for all your comments. How do i go about getting this suboxone?.

[Mis Take]

There is a great website called Suboxone.com.  On there, they give a place where you can put in your zip and they will list the docs in your area that are able to rx the meds.  Please keep me updated on your progress.  THere is also a great post on pg 3 that is entitled methadone detox by tobbs.  I and others talk about the pros and cons and I found what others wrote very interesting.  Read if you have the time.  Talk to you soon.  Good luck w/ all.

sincerely, M