addicted to pills!

[monkey231]

OK,  I need advice from someone.  My boyfriend and I are both addicted to percs/OCs/Dilodid(however its spelled) and it ruining our lives.  We have to stop and we cant.  I dont know what to do.  We both hate being addicted to this stuff.  I feel like a junky, he feels like a junky, but we cant stop.  I hate it.  Whenever we try to stop we feel like ****.  My legs ache, I get real sweaty, but Im freezing cold, I cant get comfortable, I cant sleep, I cant breath, I get irritable, and I cant function like a normal person.  I just want to be normal again, I want my life back.  I have a son, and I cant be a good mom when Im addicted to pills, and my boyfriend cant be a good dad either.  We're broke because we spend all our money on pills.  Both of us really really really want to stop this.  Someone please help me.  If anyone knows any way to get off of this stuff without feeling like Im going to die, please help me.  This is ruining my life.  I want to be a happy family agian, and we both try so hard.  If we dont stop we're gonna lose our house, our son, and everything else.  My family is the most important thing to me.  I feel like I should be able to just stop for my family, but I cant, and its making me feel like a horrible person, and I dont want to feel like this any more.  Please help me.

[toothfairie]

hi and welcome...and congrats on your clean time! that's great....but i would suggest you post a new thread here....this is an old one....just click "ask a question" at the top of the page and start a new discussion.....and maybe you could go to NA meetings to meet new people?  that's what was suggested to me.  

[Peaslee]

Im 27 and Im a college student and i was addicted to opits. Ocy's, vics, anything like that. I was spending so much money on any kind of pill i could get. I was clean for months the first time. Then i got with the wrong crowd and started in again. I was doing them almost every other day. Then it got to the point where i was stealing them from familly. When they found out that was the worse thing. I lost my parents trust and i could of gone to jail but my parents wanted me to get better and get clean. I wanted to do that to not only for me but for my family and little brother and sister that looked up to me. So we had a family meeting and my parents are like " you can eather go to rehab or jail" i chosed rehab because i new i could do this. I new i was stronger then i felt. So i went to rehab and i have been clean sencs August of 2012. I feel great, im starting to get my family's trust again. But the only hard part that i have been dealing with is finding people to hang out with. All my old friends are still into the drugs and they dont understand why i wont come hang out with them. I cut everyone out cuz i dont want to go back down that road. I almost lost everything. So i know how everyone feels. It's hard to get off drugs and stay off them. So if anyone out there could help me figure out how i can hang out with people that would be great. Thanks for reading my story.

[warmheart_38]

Monkey, look into suboxzone it helped me so much I did that for a while and now I am clean..It will makes things alot better I was kicked outta 4 DR. offices and did alot of pills, it was hard on me I am married to a man that dont do nothing, wont take nothing, for a while he didnt understand it almost cost me my family, my kids are almost grown but I still love them the same.. just please check into this and see what u think or give it a try...good luck!!!

[mamag21]

I have significant pain that is very distracting- I am unfocused, bitchy, panicky when in pain, and this is not acceptable at work or with kids. Advil doesn't help, and has it's own problems (makes your stomach hurt and the lining can bleed).

I only take two oxycodones/day (low dose 7.5mg); I split them in half so as to spread them out and not get too sleepy; I need to be able to function 100%. I have pain from several sources that nothing else helps.

Am I addicted, or at this low level, should this be considered doing the minimum necessary to deal with pain, and don't worry about it so much? I've been on meds for about 2 years. Blood tests show my liver to be fine. I don't know what I'd do about the pain if not for the oxys. Thanks for your comments.

[Klo420]

I reached da end! I take precz.. Recently started herion cuz i didnt have my percz! I need help fast! Im losin control fast! I dnt want 2 lose my family

[Kornbred84]

Hi, there... I seen ur posting and just wanted to say, u are not stupid however ur very strong for opening up and i commend u for that. If ur able to go to meetings do it, i swear to GOD it absolutely helps and u will notice a difference soon as u do, aswell as suboxone it also helps u kick the pills, "BIG-TIME" and then just stick to ur support group and u WILL MAKE IT, u HAVE to want to do it for ur-self tho. Goodluck @ godbless, and hope to see u on here again

[donthurtme]

I'm addicted to pills also. I am 28 I lost my 7 yo daughter because I was in an abusive relationship. My dad has her. I have been taking pills for 6 I've tried rehab and came home and relapsed I hate that I feel like I have to have them. Now I don't even feel normal without them. I hate me life. I can get my daughter back but I have to quit and get my life together. I want to quit so bad. I'm on day 2 I'm trying to tell myself it took time to get to this point it will take time to get better. I feel so bad I hurt I can't sleep or eat I'm sweating shaking I don't know what to do I'm scared and alone I feel like I'm going to die. Please help me get though this

[donthurtme]

I'm addicted to pills also. I am 28 I lost my 7 yo daughter because I was in an abusive relationship. My dad has her. I have been taking pills for 6 I've tried rehab and came home and relapsed I hate that I feel like I have to have them. Now I don't even feel normal without them. I hate me life. I can get my daughter back but I have to quit and get my life together. I want to quit so bad. I'm on day 2 I'm trying to tell myself it took time to get to this point it will take time to get better. I feel so bad I hurt I can't sleep or eat I'm sweating shaking I don't know what to do I'm scared and alone I feel like I'm going to die. Please help me get though this

[MissynShawn]

GO TO A METHADONE CLINIC PEOPLE  OR @ least a DETOX CENTER, i been off PERCS N DOPE for 2yrs. Trust me when the pills get 2 exspensive you'll be at the dope mans door to! Detox b4 you get there.

[Tree86]

If your smart you would ask for ultram it is non narcotic and the best way to go it you every try to get off pain pills you can take 2 ultrams when you feel like the world is ending and it completely takes away the withdraw symptoms just tell your doc you read some articles on the web about non-narcotic pain meds and you would like to try it too I promise it helps I've had 11 surgerys and I'm 25 years old and you need to take vitamins and make sure you are eating good meals too keep your strength

[butterfly_cuttie]

My name is Renee and I've been addicted to opiates for over 10 years... I had cancer and I got addicted to the pain mess... I know what your going through... I live in Fairbanks,Alaska! Ive been clean now for 4 years! I got on the methadone program and it changed my life..  I tried everything to get clean but it didn't work so I heard of the methadone program... It's a good program you get counciling and classes to help u understand addiction... The methadone makes you feel normal again and it a opiate blocker so if u try to take pills you won't get high... They have these methadone clinics all over the world... I wish you both the best of luck...

                                   Sincerely,
                                     Renee

[Abby71]

I just seen the commercial for this turn2help. Here I am. But, I dont see any up to date stories. So, is there anyone on here still?

[thickboo]

Me and my boyfriend is addicted to opiates and we recently got into this methadone program its. A great program and its in different states. We save. Money.now and we don't have to worry. About being sick cuz we go to the clinic each morning to get our liquid methadone dose

[poohbear4life]

so i have a question please? is it possible to wean yourself off the pills? i cant stand feeling bad...i dont take them anymore like i used to i just wanna be off them completely its stressing me my kids and my relationships

[IBKleen]

Hey Romeo-Welcome!

This post is some 4 years old and the OP is no longer an active member. If you start your own post and ask for help there are many members here who will give you just that and support you. Click on the link below and follow the instructions. If you need help just give a shout out and someone will guide you through it. Hope to see you in your very own post so we can get to know you.

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[RomeoZulu]

I'm a totally disabled vet, broke my back on a night jump in North Carolina. Was blown off course and went thru the pine tree's breaking my back at L-4,5. My silk was caught high in the tree and it would lift me up when the wind blew, redering me unconcious each time. I have been on pain pills for many years and have had 4 back operations. I find it nessassary to stop the pain pills about every two to three years to see if I am truly still in pain or not. These pills will mess with your head and make you think that you are still in unbearible pain. I once quit for 11 months and was nearly pain free until I made a quick reaction to catch my grandchild from falling into a ravine. That has been two years ago and I am about to stop my pills again to see if I'm still truly in pain. The Veterans Admin. gives me roxicodone 30mg and I am up to about 16 a day. I do not use other pills like suboxone to detox because you are just trading one narcodic for another (even if your pain doc tells you that suboxone isn't a narcodic because it it's). I prefer my way. I first start taking Amodium AD Max the first day, the second day I cold turkey and start taking Lasics 40mg twice daily to pee as much as possible, I also take prescription Potassium, and drink gatoraide for elecrolytes. I'll be honest with you the first three to four days is like a bad flew. The Amodium is inportant or your gonna have a very sore bottom side. This isen't for everyone you have to have willpower like was beat into us in the Army. Good luck however you do it,  just be safe. These pills are pure poisen and I know I have shaved off some years from my life, but if I need them I have to take them, and I will know again next week when I detox again. I just hope that nobody out there are using these things for recreation, because they will kill you, my 29 year old step son died from them one year ago. Please be careful with them!!!

[doudlej]

My name is James,I'm also an addict . I to was in your situation. I was doing at least 5 to10 m box 30s a day and was always chasing the next one. I found help at a place called Hands Of Hope. The people there really want to help. I go to group meetings, and have lots of people to talk too. I'm on suboxone to help with withdraws. I have been clean for 6months now. And my life is coming together again. I hope everything works out for u. I'll keep u in my prayers.  Here if u need to talk at, Jackson1965.***@****.

[Ogremo]

Sadinjersey235, last June I decided I was tired of being numb, I had been taking pain meds for a little over nine years to treat spinal stenosis, decimated disc's and arthritis from head to toe. I spent eight years as an Army Ranger early on in my life and basically destroyed my body. When I decided enough, I was taking 12 Methadone (20mg ea.) a day, 12-15 Norco (10mg Hydracodone) a day and two 100 MCg Fentynal patches every three days, all being prescribed by a pain mgt whack and or quack, the doc actually would give me an additional 60 percocet when ever I asked and called it help for breakthrough pain. I tell you this because now a year later I hurt less without the pain meds than I did when I was taking them. They screw with you physiologically and destroy your mental health. The withdraw was hell, the doc turned his back on me when I told him I wanted off of the meds. It wont be easy but you can do this and be a stronger person for it. I did not feel good for six months, now a year later I am starting to get back to myself. I live on Advil and will never put myself back in that position again. Some advice, eight years is a long time and you are destroying your organs. Whats the point, I would rather hurt and live my life with feeling versus it all be a numb blur.

[sadinjersey235]

i know how everyone feel's i've been addictive to pain pills for 8yrs i have chronic pain but i take just to get thru tha day 27-30 codeines/percocet im in soo much pain everyday i cant take it anymore i been taking it 4 soo long it doesnt take the pain i take it so i wont withdrawal i dont want to take pills anymore but i dont want to be in pain either any advice would help

[Bearclaw2]

Drives me nuts people don't pay attention to the date escpecially when there is the hourglass showing!

[noone63]

you all realize that you are talking to this monkey person that has not had a post sence feb of 2008.

[LovelyChina]

I know all to well about the feeling the pills give when not in the body its horrible...you would think something giving to help pain or whatever would never leave a person feeling so horrible and trapped but they do i TAKE NORCO AND KLONOPIN  AND SOMA and without them i feel like im gonna die its horrible and i want to normal the happiness i use to have pill free will that ever come back ???????

[loveturtles]

You are not a bad person please dont ever think that.The most important thing is that u no u have a problem and want to do something about it.How many people do u no can be so up front and tell there story like it is well not many girl not many at all

[tryin4lyfe]

I got addicted to heroin after seeing it for the first time in an orlando jail. So I'm sorry but I know pills are tuff to kick but they are 10X easier than heroin so maybe y'all haven't hit rock bottom yet and realize that long term effects are real and u get to experience em worse n worse no motter what u do or take everyday.