addiction

i need a friend who can relate to what im going threw,ive been addicted to hydrcodone for 2 years and i lost everything i own,my husband of 11 years walked out on me and im on my own.i was taking 20 pills a day,but trying to wing myself off.i have no kids thank god,but im lost and feel real scared.i tried to go to rehab,but noone will exept me with no money.i have insurance but my deductable is 50%up front.and thats around 1000$im very sick and in alot of pain...how did this happen?im ready to give up,if it was not for my mom,i already would be up in heaven with my dad.is anyone out threre that can talk to me?nomoretime

[kolo13]

So many of us have lost so much through our addictions and trying to stop can be so frightening and lonely. But you are not alone. There are a lot of people here who have been where you are and we can help you through this. You don't need to go to rehab. You can cut down on your pills and then stop. It seems awful at first but then you will start to feel better and better. The withdrawal from twenty pills a day is doable and in a fairly short time your thinking will clear up and the fear will start to subside and you will begin to get your life back. Tell us more about where you are at in this process and people will give you specific information about how to get through it and all kinds of support to help you make it. You were brave enough to make this first step and you came to the right place. Talk to us.

[kim715]

Kolo is right,you're not alone,many of us have gone down that same dark road.Are you still taking them or have you stopped? If you are still taking them do you have a plan as to how you want to quit,cold turkey or tapering? If you have stopped already what day are you on? Keep posting,we're all here to help you through this...Kim

[desperatetostop]

Count me in as a friend/fellow addict too!

we are here for you...just keep on reaching out and we will continue to provide you with words of encouragement and comfort as best we can.

[leeisgettingclean]

u r not alone at all!! ...you just have to do what you have to do, if you cant go to rehab, you dont have any options...stop takin them and go through about 5-7 days of flu like sickness and start rebuiling your life, WE ARE ALL HERE FOR YOU!!!!! you would be surprised at how your life turns once you get clean