In the past 9 months i have been using esctasy on and off. when i first started using esctasy, it was maybe one to two pills on the weekends for 4 months. i stopped for 3 months without any problem. in the ending of may, i started using the drug again, but this time it got out of control. i have been using it almost everyday. At first I would be taking 1 to 2 pills a day. then after a week or two i would be taking 2 to 4 pills a day. then last week i have been taking 4 to 5 pills a day, for 8 days straight. i had alot of difficulty sleeping, eating, my mood swings were out of control. I was diagonsed with depression in april, and have been put on zoloft. I know, I shouldn't be taking esctasy with zoloft. But I couldn't stop. This weekend that just past, I decided I would stop my use of esctasy. So, my boyfriend, a friend of mine and I decided to get rid of 33 pills, in 36 hours. So we didnt have the temptation of the pills being there. The first night, i took a total of 6 pills. then the next night, i lost count after 8 pills. we didn't sleep at all that whole 48 hours and finally i crashed and slept for 4 hours. I have been trying to catch up on my sleep, but it's hard. my body is very sore. I have a hard time breathing, i have chest pains, my arms are numb, my head feels like mush. I am trembling, i can hardly walk without feeling the need to fall. I feel very weak. i don't know what to do.. sometimes i feel like dying. i am very sad and depressed. not just from the pills. any suggestions on how i can make myself feel better?