ahh this is not the time. help

[forumryder]

so i quit ct off oxy 3 days ago and i told my gf and she was so mad.  she helped me get clean 2 times before.  well the second time didnt work i kept using and didnt tell her. actually i lied to her and said iw asnt.  but ya im on day 3 of going ct and i told her yesterfday and we havent spoke since. today we talked a bit and she absolutly lost it.  shes like leaving me and everything. shes going partying tonight and im here sick.  people calling me if i want oxy its like **** this i want to do this for us and now shes leaving.  ahh this is bull ****.  she doesnt understand waht its like.  she just has no idea

[Holliee]

Sorry for all that your going thru but I'd say b/c she thought you were off them before this its a big smack in the face to her, She feels hurt and lied to and she is lashing out at you. Give her some time and if she really loves you she will come around. If she has never been through oc or opiate w/d then no she don't understand how could she its pure hell. I hope everything works out for you keep off oc and win her back by showing her that u mean it this time. Stay strong day 3 is always worse for me , Keep posting this site is great an many wonderful ppl on her.

[theeagle]

Can you think of anyway that a non-user could adequately describe what its like to withdraw from something to a non user?  Its like a lady tying to explain childbirth to me! Now i have some medical exprience and have been around a birth and c-section or two - - - but i will never ever know fully what its like.  Its something that you cant verbally explain.  Right now you may need to change your thinking somewhat....you dont do this for her. You need to do this for you right now - - all else will fall into place as time and energies dictate....  If she should split she wasnt worth the using or the getting clean for her.......and thats currently her problem....  Keep working on yours - - you will have some decisions to make as to which direction to take for satisfatory treatment.....but those are good problems. Not like being down to your last pill and needing to score again - - those are the old problems - - you dont have those currently.......Now you have to concentrate on the new problems that come with life..... and everyone has to deal with those eventually.........so at least its easy to find help and groups that understand .......  The amino acid protocol would probably help you a great deal.......find it in the health pages and take a shot at following it - parts of it will help wih depression and anxiety -others help well with lack of energy/fatigue ...... and some helps with sleep ......  Make the effort and at least read through it......

[forumryder]

ya thanks a lot.  ya its true i need to do this for myself.  and not having the problem of worrying about my next score is true too.  ya i hope all works out.  i just gotta get thu this first.

[jt808]

i have been were ur at before and it suxs i was bout to get engaged with my ex gf and she found out that i had a problem with pills and she left me i was so upset wth her that i didnt kno wht to do i wanted her to stay wth me and help me get thru ths terrable time in my life and figured she was gona help me and be there like a true person who cares for u would of well she left moved out when i needed her MOST and i hated her for that and i knew that if she wouklda stayed i woulda quit fir her i no i no ur suppose to quit for yourself BUT if she woulda stayed and helped me i woulda been done wth this but she left and ive been struggling ever since and that was over a year ago. so unfortuantly i kno way to much how u are feeling i was wth my ex for over 6 yrs and once she found out 1 time she left me so i feel ur pain buddy. so if u wana talk at all or anythng just go for it. good luck bud...

[Brokenbutglued]

Well this is a tough one and I'm sorry you're going through this. With all due respect and with much admiration...do you really think it's honestly fair of you to even expect her to stick around? She was there for you, fighting for you, believing in you, trusting in you, helping you two times before but you failed yourself, you lied to her, you've kept secrets from her. Of course she's going to be livid. Not one person on this earth deals with stress in the exact same manner, she has the right to be angry, she has the right to experience whatever emotions she has just as you have the same right. Ya know, somebody here told me the exact same thing, that I had the right to feel how I do because I've earned them....I won't mention their name out of respect for their privacy but they were 110% right. I NEEDED somebody to tell me that, that is sorta sad. But, it helped...I was no longer sorry for how I felt. Anyway, enough about me, back to you. :)

You need to want to do this for YOU, nobody else. People in life come and go but you'll always be with you. Think of YOUR life in 5 years. What type of person do YOU want to be? Do you want to control your life or do you want your life controlled by drugs? Thinking of your next fix instead of what to fix for supper? Afraid to go out of town for 3 days because you don't have enough money to buy enough pills to last that long? Do you want to be in a serious relationship with a fogged up mind, almost ready to marry somebody but in reality you don't really "know" her? YOU are the most important person in your life right now if and when you chose to share your life with somebody else you owe it to yourself and to them to be the real genuine you. You can do this sweety, I KNOW you can. But more importantly YOU know you can. It's ok to be afraid just don't let fear stop you from doing what you know is best.

I agree with theeagle, the amino acid protocol is a great idea!!! IMHO I'd go ahead and get the L-tyrosine and theanine, better to have that on hand now instead of when you think you might need it. Don't forget pedialyte or gatorade (G2 was suggested by our family doctor), go ahead and make some calls to find some AA or NA meetings to attend. *BIG HUGE hugs*
                                                                                                signed,

                                                                         ~the proud wife of a recovering addict~