all bummed out

hello my friends!

i don't know if any of you remember me saying a week or so ago that my son that is in jail had these swollen lymph nodes all over him.  well he had a scan done last week.  the doctor came back down to the jail today and told him that he thinks he has cancer and he is scheduled for a biopsy tomorrow.
i am so scared!  i feel like i am going to just puke.  i know that i shouldn't get myself all worked up until we get the results but come on now...this is my child...good or bad.  he is only 29 years old.  it is so sad that he is down there having to go through this all alone...no one to talk to...no one to try and reassure him that everything will be ok...i know he just sits and thinks about it all day...i feel so helpless and just want to hold him in my arms.

so please excuse me if i don't seems my "chipper" self today...got alot on my mind and in my heart.

huggs,
kim

p.s.  if you believe in God, as i do, please, please, please say a prayer for him

[singha]

You are a mom and you don't have to apologize for that. We all sympathize with you and I will pray for you and your family. Good luck and keep us posted.

[addictedtoloratab]

Take a deap breath and let it out and then I just read that he hasnt EVEN had the biopsy yet.  You have already got him with cancer.  I know this has got to be the hardest thing to do but, what happened to the power of positive thinking.  You already have him diagnosed.  You are as much as a worry wart as I am.  He could have ANYTHING or NOTHING.. We are all going to pray, but, I think you need to get your big book of problems out and worry about one of them,lol.  I love your girl, but, you know worrying about something is going to change nothing.  Especially when its not even anything to worry about,, He has used for along time and maybe thats why.. It could be a number of reasons.  Give this one to god, your going to give yourself a ulcer if you dont already have one.. Take a deep breath and have faith.  If it happens then we will get through it, but, nothing has even happened yet.  We are all going to pray here at my house and I know you are Miss Popular on this forum,, we love you girl, give yourself a rest,,,, B_R_E_A_T_H_E... Peace and love, G

[Mariyah2]

Lady,
Please know I am thinking of you and will pray for your son. I can not imagine the pain you are going through now. I am at a loss fpr words. What is his name so I can pray for him personally?

God Bless you and your boys,
Mariyag

[rooftrash]

I lost my son oct 30th 2005.Richard "Bryan" Goller . I have prayed for you and will again.Don't give up hope no matter what. he was 30.

[hellc@mst]

hey liz.seems like u just cant catch a break.im sad 4 u.yr boy must b hurting.jails bad enuff without havin health issues to deal with as well.i sincerely hope its benign and is quickly resolved.take care.
regards J

[LIZZIE LOU]

his name is Christian
and thank you for the kind words

[LIZZIE LOU]

maybe the scan showed something and that is why the doctor said that he thought he had cancer and ordered the biopsy.  i am going to call down to the jail in the morning and ask the nurse if it is possible for me to be there with him... to meet him...i think it would make both of us feel better.

got your email...two peas in a pod!

huggs,
kim

[LIZZIE LOU]

i remember you telling me about that...what an awful thing to have to go through.  my son's middle name is Brian too...Christian Brian.

my cousin lost her 14 year old son 4 years ago this April 13th...he fell off a waterfall...she is just now starting to "live" again.

my prayers are with you too as i know you must still suffer this loss.

kim

[LadySundown]

I'm not gonna say I know how you feel because I can't even guess how horrible it would be. We don't just raise our kids and when they become of age stop worrying about them. I worry more about mine now then when they were still at home. I can't tell you not to think about it because how could you?? I know from experience, there is no feeling worse than when a dr. mentions the word cancer to you. They have come a long way in medical treatment. Twenty years ago my arm would have been amputated, but it wasn't and my cancer is gone.

Still when I put myself in your place as a mother I can almost feel your fear and anxiety. I can see your tears and hear you cry. We are past the day when cancer was an automatic death sentence. They can do so many things now. Keep posting and get all of your thoughts out here. We are here to help. Vent when you need to. Of course, you and your son will be in my prayers.

(((((((((((((healing hugs))))))))))))....LS