Nobody knows im quitting. Im failrly successful and its just too humiliating to let anyone else know. Plus, if i told a friend/family that would just make them worry about me. Nobody is too blame for my mistakes except myself, and ill be the only one who will worry about me. But it is getting better so I can see the light at the end of the tunnel now.
If you are open to it.....getting involved in some type of aftercare will give you LOTS to do with your life. You will meet a lot of other people in recovery and make some new friends. It can be a small group, NA or AA, Celebrate Recovery or Overcomers Outreach, or a meetup group that does things together with like interests. There are online meetings as well.
Usually if we "take something away", we need to replace it with something healthy.....or we end up full of holes....and we pull apart easy...kinda like swiss cheese LOL
Did you already tell your dr and your friend that you are clean and want to stay that way? Do you have someone in person you can talk to about what you are doing? Trying to do it alone and keep everything inside of you can lead to relapse.....we can't just stop taking pills and not change anything else in our lives. I hope you find some new hobbies and interests as well as make some new recovery friends.
Thanks. I think the biggest problem for me is just figuring out what to do with my life. I have a good job but thats about all i have. So i have things, like nice car and nice house. But i dont have many friends and the ones i have ive alienated. My family are a bunch of moochers so eveytime i talk with them they need money and its become awkward. But at least when im taking the vics i feel alot better. Im happy, even if its a false happiness. Thats the hardest part for me is i have constantly justify quitting. But ill quit and see where everything takes me.
Congratulations on reclaiming your life! Their is freedom in recovery! Its not easy but IT IS WORTH IT!! You can do this!!!
Welcome to our community..it sounds like u r ready to stop the rollercoaster we all know so well..U come to a good place.Keep posting and think about some aftercare.U were not on for long but,took large amounts.be patient with yourself and u will shine through..
you sound like you have a lot of conviction to stop, glad to hear it. your habit wasn't _that_ long, and I know its a bich, but I think you will come through this ok, you just gotta keep moving forward. good that you have the weekend off work. keep posting here for support ... good luck.
Hi there and Welcome to the forum~
I could really relate to your story....though my time using pain meds was a lot longer.....awaiting surgery. I got up to very high daily amounts, too. You are doing GREAT at 4 days.....and it's good you have a few days to "bum around" as you said. LOL
If you haven't checked out the Health Pages here on MedHelp....they are full of info that will help you and educate you. The Re-Posted Thomas Recipe is there, the Amino Acid Protocol is a good read and there are even foods that can increase your Dopamine levels as you recover.
The Health Pages are at the bottom of this page...Most Viewed and then you can click "see more". I spent a lot of time reading and learning so I would know what I was going through.
Make sure you drink LOTS of liquid....staying hydrated is HUGE...and an electrolyte drink like Vitamin Water or PowerAde, etc. are good additions to just plain water. Eating high protein food/snacks helps the brain heal faster, too.
Let us know how you're doing.....welcome to recovery....it's so FREEING to not be chained to a bottle of pill.