That is why it is called addiction. You need to get real help. Find a meeting an get to them. Does anyone in your family know that you are using ? What are you doing to help yourself? what are you willing to do? I agree with girl_interupted why did you go back to it ? did you see someone or talk to someone that you know is using and has it . You have to see where and what there reason is. I feel for you. Talk to your mom she seems like the type of person that will understand and know that you did try.
Good luck to you, and I hope you'll try again, and keep trying till you are done with it.
I'm happy that you came back.
Hey Buddy,
I have been where you are so many times I cant even count. I trip out too why and how I keep doing this to myself.Everytime I do it too its always harder than I remember. Espeically the 1st day. no matter how much I try I cant stop either. Im already counting the days until my refill. Im not sick as a dog right now that was the week before last but Im craving bad enough I have no strength or enough control not to get my refill. How long can this go on? I feel like until it gets to the point where I just cant them at all ever I will not be able to stop. I have become so manipulative. i have alwaws been such an honest caring person but when it comes to the dope it totally over takes my mind and I do things that I never thought I would do. I guess until we hit our bottoms this will go on.Sorry your sick.
Relapse is a part of recovery, probably the hardest part to deal with. We are creatures of habit, always have been and probably always will be. You need to figure out what the main things are that cause you to relapse. Like is someone calling you or coming around with the drug.
Is there somewhere you can go to get away from everybody for a while? That could help.
Making friends with former recoveries can also help. Sometimes you have to change other habits like, certain people, in your lfe that remind you of the habit your trying to get rid of.
Good luck!!!!!!
kim is right..you have to have aftercare.....you disappointed yourself and only you can fix it. please seek some aftercare.
First of all hon,I am so happy to hear from you.I was really concerned about you,especially when your mom posted a few weeks ago that she hadn't heard from you and she was concerned you had slipped.Second you haven't let down or disappointed anyone here,we let ourselves down when we slip up.You seemed to be doing really well and in good spirits those first few clean days,what happened to cause you to slip? I know you mentioned that you were going to start attending meetings as part of your aftercare,did you follow through with any of that?