Sorry to hear about your grandfther. You have my sincere condolences. Your question,"Is it really too much," is a question that we ask ourselves usually in a time of trial. You have to also ask,"What is too much?" When pressure builds up and an added amount comes through a sudden unhappy event such as your grandfather's passing, you want to tear your hair out and lash out at the world. There is no elixir that can heal this except your memory of him. This is not the time to quit. This is the time to do it as a gift to his memory. Do not fault the doctor for attempting to help by moving to weaker drugs one at a time. There are doctors who are lackadaisical about treating addicts. At least this one is trying to help. Trial and error is a good theme if it eventually helps. Give him a chance. Maybe he knows somethingyou don't. If it works it can help others as well. I have read your posts on and off over time and I have never seen you with as much self doubt as you are exhibiting here. This is not the you that I have come to know. I know you have the strength to move on but for some reason you are hesitating. You know what they say,"Every journey starts with one small step. Take that first step and follow it with another, another and another. You have in your life combatted other health problems, flu, colds etc. You have managed to overcome them and move on. This is harder but still beatable. Firm up your resolve, bite into your willpower and strength"Gird your loins," so to speak and get moving. I'm betting on you.