been on tramadol 7 yrs ruined my life

[4harlow]

I too have been abusing trams for a long time. Husband would get them for me I was currently taking zoloft for maj depression and just 1 tram gave me a high I've never felt before well now 7 yrs later they don't work I've tried to stop ween u name it they're a necessity I think I need them even tho high is soo gone I'm now 37 and they've ruined my life anyone know feeling ??

[Imanobody3628]

Yes I know the feeling I lost all 8 of my kid's due to that med. I was taking it 10year's ago for my back pains only 2 per day one in the morning and one at night. I found myself happiest in this medicine cause I was so depressed" it really was working for my pain and depression. However just two wasn't enough after awhile it would were off so I ended talking more and more till I was up to nearly 20 in two days! Anyways my meds would be gone before my refill date so I would call my DOCTOR and tell them I lost my meds or that I even washed them in my pocket by mistake. First time he said OK but every time something else came up till he said um no more and on top of that I can't write this for you anymore. I was sick to the point where I couldn't take care of my 8 kid's so I did what I thought was best so I could get up and take care of them. I played like I was the Dr. And called Walgreen's and called it in myself off an old paper I had used his DEA number with a host of other numbers. Well it worked for about a year till one day I called one in with a greedy amount of 240 Tab's! when before I only did 120 Tab's or 90 , anyways the pharmacy thought something was off about this and called the real Dr. And you know what he said um no I didn't OK or call that in . Well the pharmacy set me right up I called and asked was it ready they said sure come get it it's $100 even I said OK I called a cab cause I never used my own car to pick up and never got dropped off or picked up at my home. Well anyways once I got there I went through the drive thru and ask for a fake name that I had called it in for , the cashier said OK let me go get it . She was taking a very long time and in my heart I knew something was wrong but it was the addiction in me told me to stay cause you just might get it like before but the only thing I got was a gun to my head and the police telling me to get out the cab now ! I never been more afraid in my life but I wasn't afraid about being arrested I was afraid about the withdrawal I was about to go through sitting in jail my own kid's didn't even cross my mind due to that drug! I lost my kid's my mom has them now I got out of jail after 3mom. Still wasn't off it then got pregnant with twins and both my babies was born with tramado withdraw they had to be treated a month for it and they took them too. That's when I said enough is enough I stopped could turkey and almost died in behind it I went into the hospital for help but it didn't work and trust me I tried. I guess what I'm trying to say is pray heard! I'm now on the street talking to you from the library where I go in the day for warmth until they closed . I have no money home family turned on me cause my twin's was born sick cause of me . I have given up on life still seeking this drug I do trick for it as well that's mostly how I get it . There's a real Dr. That gives it to me after sleeping with him yes he knows I'm a additional to it he has always liked me cause I was a well paid model once before but that's all over due to tramadol so don't let it take you over. I been to jail for it about 8 time and sent to get help more in 16 times PLEASE PRAY YOU STILL HAVE TIME FROM WHAT I'M READING I'M ONLY 27 MY GOOSE IS COOKED CAUSE OF THAT EVIL DRUG TRAMADOL OK!

[madtram]

The antidepressant in tramadol is very close to Effexor, generally accepted as  the hardest AD to withdraw from.  It needs to tapered off slowly, ideally you need a doctor to prescribe sufficient for you to taper down to zero.  Depending on how many you have been taking, dropping 25mg a week is a realistic taper for long term users.

The suicidal feelings are also a common side effect, it's not you, it's the drug talking.

As others have said, tramadol also increases serotonin levels so you are seriously risking a seizure by taking them together.  The fluctuations in serotonin are also what contributes to your sinus infection as serotonin helps regulate histamine levels.  You may find taking antihistamine helpful during withdrawal.

Check out Emily Post's journal, (it's worth reading the whole thing as there's a heap of experience & advice on tram withdrawal there).

The current page is:-

http://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/172820?personal_page_id=142

You too can do this.

Best wishes.

[vicki595]

Yes...we know...
How much Tramadol are you taking now?
Is anyone there at your house?

Keep posting here~

Vicki

[micheleTX]

Sounds like you might need aftercare!!  You cannot do this alone, it really is hard, please dont take the zoloft with the tramadol.  Tramadol has its own antidepressant and can be dangerous to take both,,get you some form of aftercare or someone you can talk to or help you do this!!  Maybe you could try tapering your dosage down before you come off c/t,  Ive heard it can be bad if you try to c/t with these meds.  Good luck.  Hang in there  Suicide is no answer at all  for anyone!!

[LeaAnn807]

You need to talk to a doctor.  Maybe they could prescribe meds to help you.  No kidding.  Having depression and suicidal thoughts is not something you should go through without professional help.

Please talk to a doctor soon.  Meds for anxiety or depression so that both are not crippling might be in order here.  

I had a tram problem, but I didn't have what you are talking about, so I have no advice other than to seek help from a doc.  I can tell you how to help yourself thru WD process, but it sounds like you may need meds!

Good luck, honey!

TH

[4harlow]

I honestly do end up at drs **** with bad sinus inf everytime I've tried to stop. My w:drawls r not a measly 7 days were talking 3 & 4 wks severe I literally wack out mind body and the anxiety of it all comes. So close to suicide for me yes I lay there and constantly am trying to figure out ways over and over and over also my dad has depression my sisters both none r as severe as mine they lead productive lives whereas mine cripples me I get so mad cause ifeel its not fair and the y me y me not out of self pitty just its not fair ya know?

[4harlow]

Everytime I get determined to quit them I get sick as in always a sinus infection dr visit I hate cause I have rto leave home.  severe headaches anxiety soooo bad can't sleep for days crycrycry husband ignores me outside the bedroom works all nigjht sleeps all day can't afford detox hosp though there were times I knew I shouldve been admitted I heave severe depression also.

[LeaAnn807]

The best thing you can do for yourself is to stop them!  I am 16 (or 17?) days clean from them right now, and it CAN be done!  It is also not safe to take them with Zoloft.  It will be a few bad days, but it will be the best decision you ever made.....EVER!

[micheleTX]

Tramadol has an anti-depressant along with a pain reliever.  Lots of people say they are really hard to come off of.  You should get lots better info from others here.  I took it, but only for a short time.  How much do you take?