bein a baby...

Im starting this off saying yes I know im being a baby ( so what lol) I have a couple cavities and Im getting the fillings this morning....I know they aren't going to give me any meds for pain neway (cuz they do those numbing shots) and ne normal person does not need anything for pain b/c it isnt really but my old way would have tried to talk the doc into it ne way or at least called my dealer when I got home...IM NOT DOING THAT TODAY I KNOW IT@!!! but it would be nice to come home to some positive words from my dear dear friends about how good im doing and how that would be of no benefit to me (to score some)....and yes im bein a baby but o well Thank you guys as I say everyday for making this situatuon bareable....hugs and positivity :) HAVE A GREAT CLEAN AND SOBER DAY!! :)

[minn66]

Hi amber,

Offering some encouragement! You are doing great and you know this is a trigger for you, so now that you know that, be prepared! Go home afterward and snuggle up and watch a movie you've been wanting to see. And, of course, come here and read and post.

Good luck. You've got this!

Minn :)

[minn66]

Hi amber,

Offering some encouragement! You are doing great and you know this is a trigger for you, so now that you know that, be prepared! Go home afterward and snuggle up and watch a movie you've been wanting to see. And, of course, come here and read and post.

Good luck. You've got this!

Minn :)

[marycarmel]

I think the anxiety of things can often be worse than the actuality of it.  I had a tooth pulled on Monday and I sat in front of the dentist's office for half an hour before I could go in.  I was so afraid of the pain after the lidocaine had worn off but really, ice was all I needed.  Good for you for not looking for pain pills!

[MikeInFrance]

It's wild when we are put into those old situations again and when we used to handle them haphazardly by taking a pill to solve it. You have been doing great! And really there is no reason to revert back to this...you've come to a point where you are able to see things more clearly and to reason with yourself that this wouldn't be a good idea at all. I have faith that you will make the right decision because u know it's about being a whole person again and not being trapped in a fog anymore. Stay strong girl!! I know you will! ;)

[amber22245]

aww thank you guys so much....i really was being a baby ( i used to think that **** was super painful) its not though and so for now im numb and sober lol I cant wait for the local to wear off so i can eat I finally got my appetite back :) Day 5 is going great thanks again :)

[Charetti]

Every time I see someone able to write me a script I would play it up and try to get something.  This is a hard habit to break.  Also the habit of wanting narcotics for pain when over the counter stuff works just as well in most cases. Lots of distructive habits but your insight is amazing. Keep up the great work!

[amber22245]

Thank you I'm really feeling confident in myself and I have never felt that way before!

[selfinduced]

You done good girl, you past a test. As soon as the shot wears off eat a huge hot fudge sunday to reward yourself! Proud of you :)

[MIkanik]

so proud of you!! DAY 5!!!  WOOHOO!!  Stay strong and courageous!  <3

[amber22245]

Thank you guys I am so proud of myself and now im going to work (feeding horses) and enjoying this wonderful weather we are having in Georgia.....much love *hugs*

[bmdad]

You're so right. Anyone that is not an addict wouldn't even consider trying to get an y pain meds for a cavity. That just goes to show how "our" brains work at times. Before I injured my back I never ever took a pain pill. I even broke an ankle and told them I didn't need anything for pain. Once I injured my back and became hooked even the least amount of pain makes my mind wander to pills. Well, not anymore but during the first year it did.

It just takes time and some work and you will get back on track. The thoughts become much less.

Hang in there and know that you're doing an awesome job. Keep pushing forward and don't rewrite this last chapter of your life. It's completely worth the pain we have to go through to get there! You're not only bettering your life but you're also bettering your family's life. You can do this!

Best of luck!




Brian

[amber22245]

Thank you Brian that means a lot. I know its weird how an addict's mind works haha it must have been so damn obvivous to the doctors and stuff that I saw what a "junkie" i was....well no more im sober :)  and i feel like screaming it from the roof tops!!

[minn66]

Great job, amber! I knew you could do it :)