best friend is "supplier"

[Pill Popper in AL]

hey everybody! hope everyone is good tonight. i'm not doing so good. I just took my last lorecet 10/650, well make that 2. I took one and then took another about 30 mins. later. now i'm trying to have a panic attack!!! LOL what a cycle i'm putting my self through. I have a question: does water make the "high" go away faster if you drink alot of it? and if I eat something will the feeling start to go away quicker. anyway, about the subject line. as you can see, my best friend sells these things to me. and i know what you are thinking, she's not a very good friend, but she is. we've been friends for almost 20 years now and we've been through thick and thin together. what bothers me now is that i cannot be around her for a while. what kinds of bounderies do i put in place besides the obvious one of not buying them from her? maybe just phone calls for a couple of months, or total cut-off? I know if i tell her i'm stopping, she will not pressure me or anything like that. i'm so confused and upset about the whole situation. she didn't offer first, I asked. she has a bad back and she was just telling me what the doctor gave her and I was like, CAN I HAVE SOME PLLEEEAAASSEE! she had no clue about my use up until that point. I had been taking them for about 3 months before we had that conversation. anyway, i'm rambling, i'm just trying to get some suggestions on how to handle this situation.
thanks,
pill

[carr]

sometimes its better to walk away...a least for a lil while....until ur on ur way to being clean and sober for awhile....i am in alabama too, birmingham area...where are u?

take care and stay strong,

carrie

[NautyOne]

That is a tough situation you are in.  Test her loyalty as a friend and tell her what you are doing and tell her to not give them to you whether you kick, scream, tantrum......Under no circumstances.  You will then see what a friend she really is.  If she doesn't abide then I'm sorry, hun, but you have to let her go.  I wish you all the best.

Nauty......................

[Zurich42]

I had a friendship for 20 years also - however, after 20 years people change.  And although 'change' is good - it's not good for everyone.  My gut feeling after I read your post was that if she were a true friend - she wouldn't be selling pills to you.  And if you were a true friend - you wouldn't be asking.  Please don't take that the wrong way - I'm honestly not here to judge you - rather - I would like to see you embrace a drug free life.  Carr has the right idea - far more poetic than mine by just WALKING AWAY.  If your friendship survives - great.  If not - YOU will go on.  I did - and I HAD to walk away.  And to be very, very honest - I feel 100% better not having her in my life.
Start a tapering plan to get off the drugs.  Do it for yourself and commit yourself to it.  
Sending positive thoughts your way...

[flmagi]

Be honest.Tell your friend that you aren't doing them anymore, Please do not bring them with you if you come to visit, don't offer any, and if i ask for some, tell me you have none.  Like I told my friends " I know you love me, NOW I need you to love me MORE".  And since they are real friends they have abided by my wishes.
Good luck to you.

[loriegurl]

hey, i am located right down the road from you, anniston area.
small world isnt it??

[Pill Popper in AL]

thank you so much for the words of encouragement. i will take everyones advice and sit her down and let her know the real deal. i know (hope) she will be strong for me and be there for me when i need her, NOT THE PILLS. I live in Phenix City, AL. it is a small world. our local paper did a story on prescription drugs and i found out a lot of good information for addicts trying to quit and how normal everyday working honest folks get caught up in this mess. like mine, i had 2 teeth pulled and one root canal and BAM, i'm an addict. thanks for everyones words of encouragement. I cannot taper, for one I do not have anymore and two, i don't trust myself with a taper. I've been through the withdrawls one time and I know what to expect, I'm just scared and it's getting me anxious just thinking about it. but i didn't give myself enough time to heal before I started right back up again. I'm spending too much money for these things, when I could be buying Christmas presents instead. Anyway thanks for listening guys! you really helped me!
love and hugs,
pill

[carr]

why do i feel like singing 'its a small world after all"?

[marcatj]

pp - i would normally say you have to cut her off.  but if she is someone you can say NO MATTER WHAT - DO NOT GIVE ME A PILL!! and you think she will do that, i see no reason why you can't still be friends.  if she takes them for legitimate reasons.

but the moment (if it happens) you ask and she gives you ANY - if you do indeed tell her NEVER to give you any - well, if that happens, then you know the answer.  you will need to severe ties for awhile...

that's just one kids opinion...

i'm so sorry you're in this spot.

take care,
mj

[Pill Popper in AL]

it is a small world indeed! the internet makes it even smaller. marcatj, i will take your advice, and everyone elses and talk to her tomorrow. I will be in total withdrawl come morning and i will post and let everyone know how i'm doing. good night everyone, sleep tight and don't let the bed bugs bite!!! LOL!
pill

[LIZZIE LOU]

hey...your close neighbor here...lol...columbus.  

wow...what a situation to be in.  do you have to choose?  i don't know.  i just know that whenever my boys have relapsed...it has always been "with" one of their best friends.

i'm sending you a private message in a few minutes...please check.

kim

[dove3053]

You don't need that friend. Having someone like that around makes it to easy to get your hands on pills. Nice friend to have when you were using, but if you want to stop you need to take the temptations away.  

I think a good friend would not sell you pills so you could become addicted like her. Misery loves company. Get rid of the so called friend and they you may get rid of the pills, and move one with your life.

What do they say if you have friends like that who needs enemies.

Dove

[steve_rtr]

LOL I guess we got ourselves an epidemic yall...............Ozark,AL here.

[YellaStella]

You have a drug problem and you want to remain friends with a drug dealer.

Sorry, the friendship has got to go.

[xyborx]

I was just wondering what you think you should do? Try imagining if you were in your own situation, how you would handle it. You may find this process very self-actuating. I know it sounds obvious, but you must get a grip on yourself if you want to deal with this. Self control is the solution.

[Lotsatrout]

Jeez.... Whasss up with all the Alabama junkies?  Does this particular state have a bigger problem than others?  Sounds like a band name.... Alabama Junkies!  LOL

Hey... don't rip on me... I'm jussss havin' sum fun which ya'll.....  boy howdy!

:)

[nogie1717]

I have a friend, a true friend, like yours.  My family and wife despise him and think he is the reason for my addiction.  The truth is that I have probably hooked him up more than he has me.  about a month ago, I went needles for the first time with him.  We then went pheasant hunting and had a wonderful time.  I had to hurry back to meet my mom for a lutefisk supper (I am a norwegian) and she was extremely upset that I was with him.  I can't break it to her what happened b/c I don't think it is a big deal.  How is that for an addicts response?!?!?!

The truth is, if we want to get better we need new playgrounds and playmates.  Sorry for the 12 step cliche, but it is true.  We both love to get high and know each other better than anyone else.  It is very difficult, but I have refrained from contact for a month now.  It bothers me and I can only wonder what he is thinking.

Life as an addict gives us these curveballs, but we must focus, swing with all our might and hope to hit a homerun.

I don't think you should cut ties with your friend, or tell her not to give you pills under any circumstances.  If she sees you dopesick, she will help you out- this I know.

This is your fight and each person has a different situation to deal with and I hope yours turns out for the best.

Luke

[uphill7584]

Friendship does not have to go and your friend is not a drug dealer. Just stop buying them from her. She won't bug you about it and you will be friends like you always were. LIke you said, you initiated to drug exchange, so just stop it and that will be it.