came clean to mom

Today was yet another flop. We made it until 6pm when we caved yet again. For those of you who arent' familiar with my story my b/f and i are addicted to oxy's. We tried to go cold turkey AGAIN and failed AGAIN. For those of you who have done this and have children my hat goes of to you. I have no idea how u've been able to do it. I was reading on here one day about a women who had to take her kids to chucky cheese one day while going through w/d's!! I was like holy **** how the hell did she ever do it.

Last night we both cried in eachothers arms becus of the physical and emotional beating we've been  taking and will be taking again. After doing 20 mgs each. I did something i never thought i would be able to do. I picked up the phone and i called my parents. I told them everything. I cried and cried. I explained everything and after expressing her dissapointment she told me "on Thursday when jason finsishes school for the wkd pack your bags and the two of you come home and we will take care of you."

I'm so lucky to have loving parents. So on thursday we are going to to my rents house (1 1/2h's away) No one can contact us. We can detox out there. I felt incredibly unburdend after telling her. I have no doubt we will be able to sucessfully detox. My only concern is relapse. But we will cross that bridge when we get to it. One day at a time.

Just wanted to share. Thanks all.

[worried878]

so great...I broke down and told my mom like on day 4 of WDs....suddenly it is just that much of an awful secret anymore....It was a major relief for me....and when I did that...I knew i could make it as now she will have her eye on me!

[gyrlemt]

I am so glad that you did that , It does help to tell someone you are close to, and I am so glad that they are going to take care of you both! You have wonderful parents and understanding. Good luck and just think about how it will feel when all that crud is outta your system. You can do it!! You both can you have each other and now your parents!!!

[bigd234]

your lucky to have such loving parents..when my parents found out they kicked me out..it just made me go onto even harder ****..im happy for you..you can def. make it now.. just stay strong..once the w/d's are over, you'll just need to have a positive mindset..i am at that point now, just trying to stay positive n trying not to go back, its hard but one day at a time is the right way. god bless

[Beaten]

thank you everyone. It was hard to get the strength to tell them but afterwards it was as though a giant weight had been lifted off my shoulders. They are truely wonderfull people and i am blessed. Bigd234 i am so sorry that ur parents treated u like that. Its truely disgusting. Jason told his mom one night a little while ago and she just shrugged him off and changed the subject. I was completly repulsed by how she treated her own son who was so clearly trying to ask for help.

[cathy5841]

beaten, what a great step you took by telling them.   you are now on the road to recovery. having to be accountable to someone is always best, it makes it a little harder to use.  you are doing great keep us posted.
cathy  

[worried878]

I tell u what...I found out who my real friends are....The one I thought would be there for me through thick and thin was the least helpful of all...I only told a few...I realize now that he is not emotionally strong enough to help me with this...he has always relied on me for strength...he is not an addict but now totally stable in other ways..I did not tell my dad as he is so tempermental....you know people who have not been thru this really can not help you too much because they do not understand....but support is needed so I let them know and if they are my true friends they will not look down upon me...in fact two friends have called with a list of the drugs they take to be sure they r ok!

[Flutterby111]

WOW, that's all I can say!!!  That's so wonderful that your parents are going to take care of you two.  I was the one who went to chuck e cheese (AKA HE** ON EARTH) anyways, I called my mom to take me the urgent care because I was freaking out on day 4 with a temp of 102 and she said "you let yourself get addicted" ...  it was awful, I won't go into details....she apologized and helped with the kids the next day but it still sucked.  This is a great opportunity for the both of you....consider printing out the thomas recipe and perhaps contacting a doctor for the ingredients if you think it would be helpful!  Clonidine saved my life, even on day 5, can't imagine the wonders it would have done on days 1,2,and 3....good luck, we're here for you....please stay in touch...

[Beaten]

my parents were truely exceptional. i actually emailed her jsut a minute ago and copied and pasted your responses just so she can see and understand what this is about a little better. I really hope this goes ok and things work out. We really need our lives back.

[toxictome]

Congrats on coming clean w/ the parents...you need to start making a plan now for aftercare.
Getting clean is the easy part...staying clean is the hard part.

Look into some NA mrtgs. in your area..maybe some conseling to figure out why you use to make yourselves "feel better". If you don't deal w/ some of these core issues, risk of relapse is high.....

Will you guys have access to a computer at the parents.....if so...stay in touch!!

Good luck.. and keep posting!!

[Beaten]

yes i will have internet at my parents so i will definatly be posting. your right i honestly thought that once i got through the w/d's the rest would just fix itself....haahah can u believe i was that naive.

[Penelope14]

I know how being addicted to oxys can be, I used to take 3-4 green 80,s per day, for me this was alot, as I am 5'3 and 115 pounds, I had to have this amount just to survive, or so I thought? One time I did detox off of oxys, & I went thru 3 days of hell, & was just fine afterwards, but after the physical withdrawal was over the mental stuff kicked in, I had forgotton about the 3 day nightmare I just endured & started back up, very slowly, I had the attitude of, well I,ll just take one pill every other day, or just one pill here & their, needless to say, it just doesnt work. 4 years later, Im off the oxys but now trying to taper off methadone, I feel that I was mislead & misinformed about methadone, I wasnt told how hard it would be to detox off of this, I was only informed about what a pain it was gonna be to have to go to a clinic everyday to dose & that I would have to go to groups with other individuals just like me, not one time did anyone ever warn me that methadone would be the hardest drug to ever detox off of. Regardless, no matter how bad you feel, dont ever choose methadone as a form of rehabilitaion, as it is bad news. Penelope

[Sophie20]

congrats to you!!
You are lucky to have such loving parents

I can't imagine you went to Chucky Cheese either, but where else would be worse than that to go?

[CGR76]

Disnyland.....

But on the real. I am glad that you can talk to your parents and that they will help u through this. I am currently WDs from tramadol, and yesterday I wanted to tell my parents. Not so much so they can help, cuz they live 1600 miles away. But so that they could maybe give me some support. But then I thought about it and cansidered against it. My mom would freak out and tell me to go to church. Not that I have anything against that. Ande then my dad would probubly freak and cry and go into a drinking bing. So...But good luck to you and I (for One) am very inerested in how you all do...


CGR