IF you get off easy this time you better never forget that it doesnt get any easier..........keep your head on straight.....it sounds like you always leave a mental opening for yourself.......we all have addictive personalities here....stay strong or you wont ever see the major leagues......or the goal you set for baseball....
doing well so far. amazing celebration last night in the heart of philadelphia. never seen anything like it in my entire life. and i didnt even do a pill!! (did get **** drunk tho haha). but yea the w/d ***** just an exausted tired feeling all day every day. gota stay stong. thanks for the support and PHILLIES '08 WORLD SERIES CHAMPS!!!
You can do it! please keep us all updated! 1 day is better than NO days!...We're all cheering you on!
thanks for the tip. i am trying to stop altogether but it may be too late for this upcoming test. deftinatley going to try doing that thanks so much for the tip!
a good way to get clean faster is drink cranberry juice and do a lot of running and working out. thats how ive always passed my drug tests. drink energy drinks with niacin in them too. but you cant be taking any pills,. working out will make you feel better during the w/d's also. when I was on probation it was the dawn of my vicodin days which is stupid seeing as i had drug tests but i would always quit taking them a week prior to my drug tests and do all of the above. but i didnt get carried away with em till a year after like you, I was a hockey player.
awesome....keep it up! I know just 1 day will feel like forever! Just know it will pass! Remember keep yourself busy!
hey considering in this fight its one day at a time. thats awesome!!
day 1 and havent used :) .. extremely small step i know but its something nonetheless. thanks everyone for your suggestions and support hopefully i can keep it up!
i love music and will definatley try using that too keep my mind off pills. i am going to stop CT tomorrow i have told my girlfriend to stop funding my habit and am trying to get her to stop with me. hopefully that will force me to stop, and it should since im broke from wasting all my money on pills. thank you for the prayers i will need it. thanks for caring guys it means a lot. jail is not something i want to do i am scared to death to go there. its time to grow up and be an adult.
Im telling you that you need to quit cold turkey now if you want any chance of a clean drug test! You do not want to go to jail and especially have to detox there too! I personally haven't been to jail ever but, I have heard that they treat you horribly and don't give a **** about you if your detoxing off drugs. You better stop right this minute! Go take a ride rocking out to music! Listening to music, I know helps people a lot when they detox and keeps their mind off the pills. When I had some energy after detoxing, I went for rides in my car, listening to music, singing. It really hepls! I will pray for ya!
I know you want to quit...you have too. I just quit cold turkey a month ago after taking 5-10mg percocet 5 times a day. After 10 + yrs of taking it after I retired...I never took it when I pitched. If I had been taking it during that time, I would be taking 40 a day because of the tolerance you build up and your size etc....Anyway wing yourself off, you can......you're an athlete. Remember Brett Favre? Since you're a Philliies fan I played with Darren Daulton..bad knees, but battled........Dave Hollins and Lenny Dykstra. Just replace it with running and get in shape...get your legs, play long tss 3x a week and hit the weight room instead of the bars. I probably know somebody where you're at and get you hooked up. Good Luck!
yea im a pitcher as well. i find that it makes my recovery times between starts easier on my arm and that has also helped to further my addiction. i even used before summer league games this summer and thought nothing of it. ive even used during practices for college and its pathetic i know. baseball is my life and its come to a point where its baseball or pills. i love baseball way too much to let addiction ruin my carreer its just so freakin hard to quit. im trying my best to occupy my mind with the phillies and stuff but once its over idk what im going to occupy myself with. its a constant struggle mentally and physically. anyone have suggestions on what i can occuy my time any mind on besides this addiction? thanks for the advice tuck if i cant succeed this time im going to have to do just that.
Real quick........I pitched 6 years in the Padres Org. and just left Coaching Pitchers at a D-1 school here where I live. I've been Psychologically and Physically dependant for 10 years and its worse than anything you can imagine. You are on a collision course with a train and who do you think is going to win?
Do yourself a favor, and call your Dr. tomorrow and tell him exactly what you have posted here tonight. If you don't do it tomorrow then you will never do it and one day soon, if you make it, you will popping 5 to get up, 5 to go to work, 5 at lunch....get the picture? Don't blow your career or your life. Go get help!
great way to put it man that helps a lot looking at it like that. need to stop or everything i have is gona be gone. i realize that stupid pills arent worth ruining my life. easier said then done as im on day 1 without anything and the craving are outrageous, but im trying to hold strong. just trying to keep my mind occupied with other things. thanks guys.
people , places , n things bro.
change the people you hang wit , the places ya go, and the things ya did while using. i know thas harder for pill users, but it does work for all addictions. biggest thing here is , ya gotta stop YOURSELF. thas wuz my biggest problem. if ya dont buy a pill, crush a pill, or snort a pill, you will be clean. I know its not easy as it sounds but thinka this
if you test positive, you won be doin ne more sports in college. If ya get too involved, ya can kiss college goodbye. If ya keep goin ya may end up in jail, which sux trust me, but wut sux worse is comin outta jail lookin to score cuz ya got a monkey on ya back to feed. your young bro, time to kick this **** n live the life you were workin on b4 pills got to ya.
just keep staying busy and moving forward with your life...this will pass.
no pills in easy reach like cathy said...no friends, dealers or doctors..u gotta tell them all u quit..u dont have to go into detail..i told my dealer that i lost my job and never heard from again...told my doctors i was afraid of them and felt i could have a problem if i didnt quiit..i am a nurse so didnt want to tell them i "did " have a problem as they work in my hosptial...but they dont offer them anymore..told my friend who traded drugs with me that I had a problem...my other pill friend quit with me...i also told my mother so she would hold me accountable..and my bulldog/watch dog/best friend who bitched at me but kept me straight..it was hard to do.but i had to
thanks for your advice. i am trying to occupy my mind with other things right now rather than on pills. its so hard after using everyday for so long im just trying anything i can. hopefully i can continute to stay off of pills
sorry about the typing! hahaha...tooypung!ha
Please try your hardest NOW! My son is 18, senior in high school, incredible athlete, had many colleges scouting him, and now.....In rehab far from home. Please as a mother, I am begging you to get some counseling and help. If you can't do that, let your family try to help. I tried for a very long time, but he couldn't get past the DESIRE to keep using. It apparently is stronger than the love his family has for him. We have not given up on him, but are very unsure what the future holds. Try to do as these people say on here. They have helped me for quite awhile now in dealing with my son. They know what they're talking about! Please, start now, today, and make the right choice. It sounds like you have alot of the same things going for you that my son had. Don't lose it! Being an athlete takes alot of discipline and desire, so I know you have it in you! Take care and as a mom, don't go down that road any further.
Hon all you have to do is want it bad enough....more then anything else in the world right now.Desire and commitment to get clean are our most powerful weapons in this fight.Keep posting...lots of great people here to help see you through this.
thank you for sharing your experience. if this last ditch attempt to stop on my own doesn't work, thats what i;ll have to do to put pressure on myself to quit.im tired of the lying and decieving, so ill have to make a choice and hopefully its the right one. god bless and congradulations on your sobriety. hopefully i will be able to do the same
Hon trust me I know what you mean about it being hard.I'm a mom and I have 3 grown kids and one of the roughest most shameful times in my life was having to sit them down and tell them that I was an addict.All the years of me telling them to stay away from drugs and here I was confessing this to them.I knew once I let those words come out of my mouth though,there was no taking them back,my excuses for my addictive behavior weren't going to hold water any more,I was definitely going to be held accountable for all my actions,and I wasn't going to be able to pull the wool over their eyes anymore. Although it was a shameful moment for me,it was also a huge step in beginning my road to recovery,and theres no shame in that.I was ashamed of myself but my family could not have been more proud of me.I can remember crying so hard once I told them I could barely catch my breath and my daughter said to me 'mom why are you crying.You know you have a problem and now you're going to fix it thats a good thing.'From that day on letting them or myself down anymore was no longer an option. Peace...Kim