clean

nothing but a lil ibuprofen for 30+ days.
sleeping well again now, body feels very relaxed and tired. mind is calm.
mood is relaxed and good.
i cant reccommend it enough to you all.
its a big contrast from the chemical life i have been living for the last few years.
in a subtle but very welcome way.
i didnt and dont want to pill my life away, and im sure i could if i didnt have an internal desire for my life.
my addict and the pills can kill that desire, i feel grateful that i got out,
i was lucky.
it could have gone on and on. and then i would have missed 5 or 10 years of my life,
not just the 3 i did?
thanks 4 being here :) you did help me a lot.

[tztlady]

Congrats on your 30 plus days.  Are you going back to 12 step meetings?  Just curious.  I spent almost 2 decades in NA and feel I need to go back to some type of program but just can't seem to make myself go back to meetings in my area.  It isn't pride or embarassment, just the makeup of my local meetings and the drama involved.   I'd like to hear what you are doing because I know you had 12 years clean before the script drugs.

You are an inspiration, keep up the good work.

[justlikeyou]

i never stopped going to 12 step, and i will continue to go because

"people that attend regularly stay clean"

i have always avoided the drama at meetings, i go for 1 reason, to stay sobre, not for friends or something to do or sex.

ive never been to a meeting that wasnt good for me in some way, i have seen examles of what i want and exaples of what i dont want at meetngs.ive sat thru hundreds of meetings barely able to sit still because i figured everyone in the room (except me) was a complete @sshole, and always in the last few moments of the meeting someone sais something that made the whole afair worth while for me.

recovery was the begginning of my life, and i know i only get to keep it by giving it away.

not 3 times a week but maybe 3 times a month?

x

[shelby74]

Hi guys,

Thanks for posting that information about the meetings.  I have found a NA in my area and once I am feeling a little more normal - I am going to get the courage to go.  I have never been one for public speaking, let alone sharing my feelings but I know this is important.  I am still scared sh*tless!  I have gotten through 10 days of detox though - so I am sure I can get my butt to meetings.  Thanks again.

Love,

Shelby

[justlikeyou]

theres a lot of very unwell people at meetings, (some of them look very good on the outside)
there are also some very loving and beautiful people, (they are less obvious, but look into their eyes)
choose wisely who you become friends with and meetings can be a great resource for recovery.