climbing for recovery

[wait2long]

Just when you think you have started up the ladder of recovery, there is always someone or something at the top to try and kick your *** back down...

[wait2long]

thank you Rose... actually thought i was having a pretty good day until i came to the forum,  but that was yesturday...and today is today!   are you still like the hindenburg?  my calves and ankles are now one...they are cankles  (LOL)   not sure what is going on with my body physically, but something is up...and i am getting a little nervous about it...i really seriously cant get any of my shoes on   and i WAS supposed to go school shopping for my boys today....  have a good one hun...

[VOsRose]

Was there a full moon yesterday or something??  I had the same kind of day it looks like you had!  I'm sorry, sweetie.  Hang in there...don't leave us!  You're doing fine and you're doing what you need to do for you to get through this.  Sometimes getting p*** ed off is just what you need to keep you going...so get mad!  Then take a deep breath, calm yourself down, and keep going!

I'm in your corner.

Rosie

[wait2long]

actually i do have  plan which i thought was a good legit one, but then i hear OTHERS COMPLAINING about which route to go and it being the ONLY way...kinda tends to **** a person off, and i supposed you didnt complain once when addicted or detoxing,  but then again...MAYBE YOUR ONE OF THE MASTERS OF DETOX...i dont remember asking you to read my complaints, and if you are implying that i dont know the process of listening to others, then you simply have only read this 1 post....i happen to be a very good listener...how about you?

[narc-vet]

It  takes what it takes.  You sound like somebody killed your dog... when the only thing is your an addict.

I never attended AA/NA and I recovered from a horrible opiate addiction.  I never posted on this site when I was going through the long months of detox and recovery, only after I was clean for four months did I feel worthy.  But the simple process of listening to others and accepting my fate as a addict in recovery did I really find the road to sobriety.

What is your plan for staying sober?  Complaining to us?

[FLaddict]

Keep your head up sista.. Only you can judge yourself. Only you know just how far you have come.

[Two222]

then you are being very brave. i know what you mean about certain people on here, but like i mentioned before (and you will notice more and more) some people get really arrogant when they get clean and think everyone else needs to do it the way they did it and all. It's cool to give advice and all but to full on tell someone they are doing it wrong is a completely different story. No one can say exactly what is the right thing. Different things work for different people. You will find all kinds of morons in N/A, but give it time and you will find good people too. Every time I get clean it seems like everything seems to go wrong too and it's just something you gotta push through without getting high. We just don't know how to deal with any **** sober so when bad things happen it seems 10,000 times worse then it is. So don't worry. You are doing what you need to do and you are staying clean and thats the important thing. Just ignore the "masters of addiction", they are just rambling on to make themselves feel like they are so wonderful for accomplishing something good for once in their lives, and they love to feel that they have done something that some people haven't quite accomplished yet.

[wait2long]

well i actually thought i was doing real well, my husband is proud of me, my therapist says i am doing great (obviously have alot of past issues to work out, but never an overnight success), and i saw my suboxone doctor today and she is in awe (a good awe) of me dropping my own dose without her knowledge... and then i come here to the forum.. only to read posts from people saying that newbies are still in full blown addiction, certain people are defending their addiction, not facing recovery, doing it wrong, change nothing...nothing changes, blah, blah, blah!!!  just sick of people trying to make me think i am not doing anything right, i hated NA, and AA, so that makes me not ready to face my addiction, blah,blah,blah...i'm not involved,   WHATEVER dude...i am sick of it, and probably outta here if all its going to do is bring me down...i let my ******* vehicle get reposessed so i could afford to get clean, but i am not dedicated enough.... thats BS! this recovery process is costing me more than when i was in full blown addiction!!!!   it would be sooooo much easier to just go back to it....BUT I WONT!!!    

[Two222]

thats the trails of recovery. it's never easy. i wish it were, but it isn't.