cocain abuse

[ready702]

would like to know where people find the strength and determanation to stop using can i do it on my own without medical help im new here thanks

[10356]

Hi Ready, Welcome ! I like you name :) You have received some good advice form the posters above we all come about in our own time. for some addicts it takes loosing everything for some it takes a od and for the lucky one's they get a glimpse into their future and it sticks. I used coke but for a speedball I never liked it in itself as I went for the crank. full blast ya know. You have to turn your back on Everyone that uses.. walk away.. physically you will be lethargic emotional you will doubt everything for coke gives us a false sense of who we are. we are not this amped up super person with the mental ability's that are so awesome.. we are normal everyday peps that are snorting their life away for a lie...  I sure Hope this is the Beginning of you taking your life back. There is much Joy in just being me. I'm sure you will find the same. take care, lesa

[VICourageous]

Hi..I am going to chime in here..If you are struggling with this day in & day out and it is costing Lots of money and taking everything from you Ect..Besides what EnvolverU said I am going to say do not beat your self up..
First and far most you do need Support!!!!! I am no young chic and been using on & of since I was 14..My coke/crank days go back to the 70-80s..There are 3 things that keep me clean today. Giving back to my God
AA/NA and Studying this disease.I would like you to look up all the information on the "Disease of Addiction and the Pleasure Pathway" This is at least make you understand a  bit more on what is going on..Now from my experience the w/d are not even as bad as the opiates..I never even new what a w/d was until I stated the opiates so you sure do not want to start advancing this disease up further.From my experience I would try the meetings and stay on here for support..There is so much that has to change..Like Staying away from user friends..Getting rid of the phone Numbers. You have to a New Life and a New Would around you..BUT A Treatment is good but I think you can do it if you just Educate Yourself about this disease and Get the Support..OK You keep talking with us we will be here for You..
Bless
vickie

[EvolverU]

Just a head's up Eagle101..If you're talking about the above poster, my name is Annie..Nice to meet you, btw. Nice post!

[eagle101]

My bad - - take evolver's advice and maybe sara will also chime in~!! But at any rate do it.

[eagle101]

Where do people find the strength and determination? Its already in your own mind and body. You just need to wake it back up. Just think how things would be if you put as much effort into being clean as you put into supporting a habit. I paid a heavy price for cocaine - - almost dead and 3 years at Club Fed for my deal. For many years I always had a 2 gram vial in my pocket - and I kept it full. Today it doesnt interest me at all. Listen to Sara's advice and use this forum a whole lot. There are people here that have done it and have years of clean time. But it wont just "happen - - you need to make it happen.

[EvolverU]

Hey & Welcome,

It would help if we had a little more info about you. What I would tell you is while Rehab is really helpful, nothing will keep you clean except a deep and overriding desire that comes from within - an understanding that you can not & will not ever be able to control your drug use and therefore can't ever use. This is a deep 'shift' that comes to most of us after many relapses. Unfortunately, for some, it never comes.

I would start with some real soul searching. Identify your triggers, your excuses to yourself and others, identify the damage that you've done yourself & others. Then take a look at what might have lead you to drugs to begin with.

Cocaine is rough. It's extremely seductive and wreaks havoc with mind/body/soul/life. If you really want this you must be willing to do everything is your power to break free, including: losing all connection numbers, cutting off contact with coke 'friends'. You've posted. That's great. The two steps I just mentioned are next.

Rehab, might just put enough space between you and the craziness to get you to a place where you have a better chance of punching through to a new life for yourself. I would definitely recommend Rehab if you can afford it. They'll have meetings there, too. If you haven't been to them before, it'll be an eye-opener.

The other thing you can do is to use this site and all the incredible inspiration and support it can provide you. Right now you're on the outside of this and you can only see people who keep failing. Here, there are many who have succeeded and are willing and able to help. I know that I, personally, couldn't have done it without this site. So, hang in there! You can do this. Please, keep in touch. We're here..