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I am addicted to cocaine, I need help, but have no money to get any
scampy, where are you, i didnt want to make you mad. only to wake you up about the path your life is on. please repost, or maybe you took that walk to rehab? i pray ya did, but if ya didnt, no judgement. just post or message me ok?
amen. well said newmanagement. if there are no changes, this will just continue. we don't mean to sound harsh, but you have not even checked out an N/A meeting yet. this post started over 2 weeks ago and there has been no progress, get some help. either an N/A meeting or post on here more often. it is only you that makes the choice whether you really want this help or not. we care and that's why we tell you this. if you do not stop it will only get worse. do this for yourself and nobody else, you deserve it
i dont want to be rude, but i just reread this entire post. i have to say, you are right where i have been,with steady everyday to every other day use. let me ask ya this, could you walk to a dope house right now to buy some dope?! then you can walk in to Pine Rest and get some help. you need this, for yourself. i can tell by your post that you want to quit, but uncapable of that alone. make that walk, do it now!! please, you are not in control anymore,and if you think you are reread this like i did. there is a life out there waiting for you. i have lived in the ghetto most of my life, and you will get out , when you start to make the right decisions. try this also, b4 you make a call, come on here and post that you are getting ready to use. stay here with us for one hour b4 you make that call, and see if ya dont change your mind!!! but first , i want you to TAKE THAT WALK. we will be here for ya anytime ya need us... much love, you CAN do this...
hey scampy, glad to see you still check in. are you still trying. i know you want this, but it's so hard. you should post more. take care
Well seens how I live very close to Pine Rest, I could, we'll see, I don't think I could walk in and do that though
I"m glad to see you are coming back here. Listen, I have an idea and believe, it is worth trying.
I want you to look in the phone book for a mental health facility in your area. One that has psychiatrist and counselors on hand. In my area of West Michigan we have a large mental health facility full of psychiatrist and counselors by the name of "Pine Rest Mental Health Facility". Unless you are way out in the boonies, and even if you are, drive to town and find that facility; I bet anything there is one. Walk into the facility and go to the receptionist and tell her you need to see a psychiatrist as soon as possible. Tell her you have no insurance, you money, but if you must see one in order to keep sane. (and I'm not certain that would be stretching the truth either because you are here desperatly trying to find answers and solutions). Anyway, tell them it is life or death that you see someone. I guarantee you they will have a pyschiatrist in that lobby as quick as possible to assist you. Once you are there, tell them your problem and he/she will take time to talk with you. While you are talking, ask if they have any programs that you can apply for to pay for your counseling and detoxing. More than likely, they will have a program available. I think every single mental health facility has some kind of public assistance fund to aid in situations just like your situation. I know. I am now in week 5 of my recovery. Taking Suboxone and seeing a counselor at Pine Rest. They had an assistance fund and I am using it. Mental Health facility are truly compassionate and caring full of people that WANT to help you. Please give this a try. I applaude you for making an attempt to stop,but you need some help so go and get some. Don't dismiss this suggestion Scampy. Try it, what have you got to loose....and think about what you have to gain. Good Luck Scampy. I will pray for you.
MikeWithFamily
I want you to look in the phone book for a mental health facility in your area. One that has psychiatrist and counselors on hand. In my area of West Michigan we have a large mental health facility full of psychiatrist and counselors by the name of "Pine Rest Mental Health Facility". Unless you are way out in the boonies, and even if you are, drive to town and find that facility; I bet anything there is one. Walk into the facility and go to the receptionist and tell her you need to see a psychiatrist as soon as possible. Tell her you have no insurance, you money, but if you must see one in order to keep sane. (and I'm not certain that would be stretching the truth either because you are here desperatly trying to find answers and solutions). Anyway, tell them it is life or death that you see someone. I guarantee you they will have a pyschiatrist in that lobby as quick as possible to assist you. Once you are there, tell them your problem and he/she will take time to talk with you. While you are talking, ask if they have any programs that you can apply for to pay for your counseling and detoxing. More than likely, they will have a program available. I think every single mental health facility has some kind of public assistance fund to aid in situations just like your situation. I know. I am now in week 5 of my recovery. Taking Suboxone and seeing a counselor at Pine Rest. They had an assistance fund and I am using it. Mental Health facility are truly compassionate and caring full of people that WANT to help you. Please give this a try. I applaude you for making an attempt to stop,but you need some help so go and get some. Don't dismiss this suggestion Scampy. Try it, what have you got to loose....and think about what you have to gain. Good Luck Scampy. I will pray for you.
MikeWithFamily
so did you not check out an N/A meeting. i told you this pattern wll just continue and get worse and worse. it sounds like your not ready to quit cause you can't make it past a couple days without blow. it will continue, and you already know how this is effecting your life. if you really want to quit you have to do something about it, coke is a dead end road. please consider getting some help, ive told you this a dozen times.
Hi Scampy,
I just wanted to tell you a story that might give you some hope.....
My ex husband was a mainline coke user and alcoholic for about 10 years. He would shoot it anywhere he could, neck, between toes, etc. It got so bad he gave the dealer a watch I had bought him for a special occasion, that cost me more than I could afford (we were in our early 20's then) He wound up with hepatitis and a deviated septum (snorting) and then something inside him "clicked" and he decided to go to AA. He stopped drinking and doing coke. He got very involved with AA and stayed clean 15 years, even though we divorced.
Fast forward 15 years. He had remarried and had another child with his 2nd wife. They started having problems and he also had a pain problem. He knew better but he got some narcotic pain meds from his doctor. Not too long after that he was using crack. I am not kidding this man went from having plenty of money to being homeless and doing illegal things to get more crack. He knew he needed to stop but he didnt until he overdosed and found himself committed by his wife. He stopped again. That was 2 years ago. He has been clean since and is doing very well.
My drug of choice is not coke, but I thought if I shared a story of a hard core user who stopped twice in his life 15 years apart, that it might give you some comfort. Listen girl, 27 is a baby for real! You have TONS of life left if you can step away from Satan's dust. The very thought of coke makes me shudder just from the devastation Ive seen first hand. I also know it can be conquered "one day at a time". Please care for yourself, and know you are good enough to do this. You have made the first step and admitting you have a problem is a big one. Please keep posting even if you mess up. There are many good people here, they saved me too!
Peace.
I just wanted to tell you a story that might give you some hope.....
My ex husband was a mainline coke user and alcoholic for about 10 years. He would shoot it anywhere he could, neck, between toes, etc. It got so bad he gave the dealer a watch I had bought him for a special occasion, that cost me more than I could afford (we were in our early 20's then) He wound up with hepatitis and a deviated septum (snorting) and then something inside him "clicked" and he decided to go to AA. He stopped drinking and doing coke. He got very involved with AA and stayed clean 15 years, even though we divorced.
Fast forward 15 years. He had remarried and had another child with his 2nd wife. They started having problems and he also had a pain problem. He knew better but he got some narcotic pain meds from his doctor. Not too long after that he was using crack. I am not kidding this man went from having plenty of money to being homeless and doing illegal things to get more crack. He knew he needed to stop but he didnt until he overdosed and found himself committed by his wife. He stopped again. That was 2 years ago. He has been clean since and is doing very well.
My drug of choice is not coke, but I thought if I shared a story of a hard core user who stopped twice in his life 15 years apart, that it might give you some comfort. Listen girl, 27 is a baby for real! You have TONS of life left if you can step away from Satan's dust. The very thought of coke makes me shudder just from the devastation Ive seen first hand. I also know it can be conquered "one day at a time". Please care for yourself, and know you are good enough to do this. You have made the first step and admitting you have a problem is a big one. Please keep posting even if you mess up. There are many good people here, they saved me too!
Peace.
Pick yourself up, brush yourself off, and get back in the race!!!!
Glad you came back.....
.I think you should try that NA mtg...this is a "WE" program...I could never do it by myself...and every time i tried to do it by myself.....I failed!
Nothing changes, if nothing changes...you now know that you can't do this alone..so time to change things up a bit!!!
YOU GO GIRL>...YOU CAN DO THIS!!!
Glad you came back.....
.I think you should try that NA mtg...this is a "WE" program...I could never do it by myself...and every time i tried to do it by myself.....I failed!
Nothing changes, if nothing changes...you now know that you can't do this alone..so time to change things up a bit!!!
YOU GO GIRL>...YOU CAN DO THIS!!!
dont be sorry, be glad your honest enough to come on here. not sure if giz is on, but he is inspirtation to us all!! best of luck, i like my NA , find one your comfortable with. cocaine is a strange and mysterious drug, and its pull last forever. i should know.....
best of luck and keep postin
best of luck and keep postin
gizzy, I failed. So I will go to a N/A meeting this week, and Today is day one, and I will make it past this day four thing, and I will not go out unless it was pre planned or is an event. Sorry, I will post tommarow
it is always hard when you first stop!! I took up weed but that only lead to coke - so i stopped
hey haven't seen you for awhile. i also had to give up drinking cause it was impossible for me to have a couple drinks and not use blow. your right, the 2 go hand in hand. congrats on day 4, but today is the big test for you, a very big test. you already know by going to the bar, your setting yourself up. if you have to stay home to stay clean, then make that sacrafice. only you are in control of this decision and im glad to see you know what the right one is. please be strong today.
Today is day four, I really want to go to the bar with my "normal friends" but I associate drinking with using coke, so I think I will have to find a way to stay home
I am also glad to hear you are on day two - take one day at a time!! I have been there - i did coke all the time and lots of it. Like feohmoon said,"don't even think to Saturday yet." so so true - you are not alone and i know that when i used it was when i was alone and i did a lot too!! come on here post or call someone you trust
You are doing great ...keep it up and stay strong - Post often...it helps. I see you have a very full schedule also...that prevents usage. Take it one day at a time...don't even think to Saturday yet. This can be done.
Best of luck!
Best of luck!
alls well today is day two, I called my other and told him this is all my fault and I know he only does it when I call and get it, I told him I want help and he said he would help me, if I fail again, I promise I will go to a meeting, until then I really don't want to have to. Today I have two doctors appts, then working out, then going to ma and pa's for dinner.
I will report later tonight. I should be good thought at least till saturday, I have to work tommarrow during the day, and bartend at night, saturday is going to be hard.
I will report later tonight. I should be good thought at least till saturday, I have to work tommarrow during the day, and bartend at night, saturday is going to be hard.
damn, i missed this post today from you. i have been following you and im so sorry to hear you broke. there is one positive here girl, i told you that you need help, and now you recognize it. you know it's your fault for using and no one elses. that may seem harsh, but it is the truth. you are now left with the choice of reaching out to get some help or chances are you won't quit until you have lost everything or dead. i want to see you get clean and post on here saying how good you feel, because you will feel good again. not the first week, probably not the second week, but soon after just as that fog lifts and you are thinking a tad clearer you will know how good it feels to be clean. i am routing for you and am glad to hear you know what you have to do. we are all her for you if you would just post more. i have no doubt you can beat this, but you have to truly want it. best of luck to you and keep us updated
A meeting is what you need for support. You will meet people there that you can confide in. People who will think no less of you for being an addict. They are all there for the same ****. I would suggest that you look into going to one, Try it out what is there to lose. Don't give up on yourself you can become a RECOVERING ADDICT. I know that it is tuff. Always the constant battle in your head of should I or shouldn't I use. But that all gets easier to deal with after time and the right tools that you will learn at N/a a/a meetings and talking to other recovering addicts. Don't be scared you know that you need help now the ball is in your court and you make the call like Lynn Doyle. Do whats right for yourself and your future. People don't like to goto their friends funerals if you know what I'm gettin at. People places and friends need to change and you can meet some true friends at a meeting. Don't be shy and hide behind your straw and mirror. Make the right move.
three things crossed my mind
say its day 5- thats a lie
tell you guys I am hopeless, and sorry for wasting your time
Last night I did coke, alot of it. I was sitting at home alone, and made the call.
These are not excuses just truths,
my boyfriend has been working out of town, I hate being alone, and I get scared at night I live in a not so good hood.
It was I who called, it is my fault.
I feel like ****, and I wish that I could just not have called, I am an addict, and I cannot do this alone, or with only the help of cyber friends.
I need help, and I am to proud and to scared to get any.
my whole face feels puffy and hurts, my head hurts, why can't I remember this vividly before I pick up the phone.
I really don't know what I am gonna do, I wish I had someone that lived by me that I could confide in, that would help me through, I will look online for help, but I am not going to a group meeting, thats for sure
say its day 5- thats a lie
tell you guys I am hopeless, and sorry for wasting your time
Last night I did coke, alot of it. I was sitting at home alone, and made the call.
These are not excuses just truths,
my boyfriend has been working out of town, I hate being alone, and I get scared at night I live in a not so good hood.
It was I who called, it is my fault.
I feel like ****, and I wish that I could just not have called, I am an addict, and I cannot do this alone, or with only the help of cyber friends.
I need help, and I am to proud and to scared to get any.
my whole face feels puffy and hurts, my head hurts, why can't I remember this vividly before I pick up the phone.
I really don't know what I am gonna do, I wish I had someone that lived by me that I could confide in, that would help me through, I will look online for help, but I am not going to a group meeting, thats for sure
congrats on day 3, keep posting. keep busy and i know you can do this. we are here for you.
Day Three, Yes, today I worked, came home, did the bills, worked out, applied for jobs and did a load of laundry, wow it feels good ttya tommarow
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