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Just wanted to say how glad it is to see all of you here. I had to step back for a while and walk through some more darkness. Its been a couple of months since i last posted. I went back to square one on the vikes after two weeks. I also broke up with my girlfriend, so that didn't help. Ive really been in a dark fog as i know we all have. here we go again the end of this week will be one week off. last night was hell, my muscles are sore from all of the contractions during the night from w/ds. i really need you guys. when i try so hard to get off only to give in and get back on, I feel like it will never end it's a vicious hellish cycle that has to cease. I dont want to live my life this way and i dont want to die as a result. I would a appreciate any words of wisdom. Thank you.
ash
what ever happens never stop tring to stay clean.
once ya get past the 1st week then you should find some people that are staying clean to hang out with. also keep posting.
AS far as something wise live one hour at time,then live just for today. try to stay out of the past and the future
peace i got a month
ash
Thank you. i actually have aminos left from the last time i tried to get off. i will be taking them for sure. i really appreciate your response. i hope that you are getting along well. my muscles are sore from all the contractions from w/ds last night. what a horrible thing. sometimes i think thats sort of like a living hell. not to sound depressing, i have positive hope. hope to talk soon. take care.
ash
"Codeine is a narcotic analgesic (pain reliever) derived from opium. It is used alone and in combination products to treat mild to moderate pain and as a cough suppressant.
Guaifenesin is a drug that reduces the thickness and stickiness of mucus. It is used for short-term relief of dry, nonproductive cough and mucus in the breathing passages. Guaifenesin is available in prescription products, nonprescription products alone, and in combination with other nonprescription drugs, to treat symptoms of allergy, colds, and upper respiratory infections."
How long were you using prior to this detox? What dose? Post as you need to, we're here for you.
anyone...don't get any funny ideas about the Robitussin AC. After the Vics or Percs, Codeine does nothing! Just frustrates you and messes with your stomach. Some of us (like me) drink a whole bottle or more for the effect...nothing damn it, just nausea and a bad mood. NOT WORTH IT.
We all are at different stages of addiction, and that is exactly why we are here, to lend support and have a place for people to turn, people exactly like you!
You have found a place where you are welcome to share any feelings you have, and most of us need a shoulder to cry on, so you are exactly where you should be!
Stay close, don't be afraid to post your feelings!
Good luck!
Lv Jenny
Then the doc did a panoramic of my sinuses. She found a deviated septum, bone spur, 3 blocked sinues. So I had extensive sinus surgery. She gave me hydro and propoxaphine (Darvocets). I went home and back to stadol ns.
I was having cluster headaches, and I was very much afraid of the pain. It was a continous cycle. My same neurologist put no limit on the amount of stadolns I took. By 1997, I was snorting a bottle a day.
When they got me off that. I could only get Darvocets. I got tired of hurting and OD'd with the help of enough barbituates to do the trick. Only my husband had lied, he and my daughter came home, and she found me on the kitchen floor.
I was a nurse, so wastages were to good to flush down the sink. I also started using street dilaudid. After enough time and money spent, I went to a methadone clinic. I detoxed after two years of treatment. I stayed clean for 6 months. Back to wastages and street dilaudid (my drug of choice), I relapsed 3 times. I finally ran back to the methadone clinic. It saved my life at the time. I do not recommend methadone for all addicts.
I knew what I was getting into. I attend an NA home group that accepts on methadone. There are sponsors who will sponsor methadone patients as long as you are not using other illict drugs. I am at the best place I can be for now.
Just hang in there. If you want sobriety, it will come, it depends on how much you want it. Good luck and Blessings
No amount of verbal prompting had any effect on the pharmacist to fill that one script...until the blank was signed. He was strictly following the law and was very sorry that he may have inconvenienced us.
I bit my tongue and kept my "cool" and later appreciated the professionalism shown by my pharmacist. T'was a pity, but not the end of the world! Tomorrow's another day and hopefully I'll be able to track down the doctor for his almighty signature.
J.B.
Maybe I am.
If I did not like my pharmacy, I would have changed a long time ago. I did that about two and a half years ago. The other place was much more medically oriented with more pharmacists with whom I was not going to share any of medical history. They were robitic, and I could forget getting my meds when I needed them filled, even if I had a new prescription. I chose to take my business elsewhere. I am pleased at this place. They take pride in pleasing the customer, not making anyone feel dishonest.
Sorry you had the hassle of some wiseguy.
Thank you very much for the words. they are much appreciated. to answer yor questions its been like on and off painkillers for about 3 years. after a car accident. but you see, i was already drinking smoking pot and doing various others. anyway i was usually taking about 9 to 10 7.5 vicodins a day. I thank you again and hope to talk again.
ash
Thank you for the advice, i never did try the bath thing now i will. I sure do a lot of praying though and i dont consider myself religious Anyhow its really warming to know that there are people here like you who care and want to live a happy life. Please post more. talk to ya later.
Ash
How are you doing today? Remember, you are strong, you've been here before and are hanging tough. It sucks, yes, but not as bad as the alternative. Today is good for you, I really hope. Please update when you are up to it. t
I know from my own experence how hard it is to get clean,
and also to do it while getting over a relationship at the same time.
Are you working or even able to work, I know working and being around other people is the best thing for me, and the last thing i feel like doing.
Don't run out of the amino's
you seem to know kip , do you go to meetings, they alway make me feel better. peace
GOD IS EVER PRESENT IN HIS SEEMING ABSENCE.!
I don't know what to say about the Pharmacist. I guess they are regulated by the DEA and they do keep a look out for people who are getting multiple scripts filled. I know it sucks, and must have made you feel really angry though. They sometimes take it upon themselves to police us. I did have a Doc question a script of mine once, and fortunately for me it was completely legit, but I felt pretty annoyed. It kinda served as a wakeup call for me though, and helped me get started seeing that I did have a problem.
love,
WW
That is why we get our business carried from pharmacists to insurance companies to doctors. And it is all legal. But to all doctor hoppers, legit chronic painers pay the price for our behaviors. I do not do that anymore. I was enlightened.
You're also right that we wouldn't be posting here on this board if quitting drugs was easy! It's really hard now though because I found out that I have a slipped disc in my back. So now I feel like I'm entitled to have vicodin. It's going to be a long hard road.
How long have you been clean?
I've been clean since August 26th 2001. It might have been August 29...I don't remember...lol but it was around that time.
I went cold turkey, after several months of posting on this board. At the time, I was two months post back surgery, still in a lot of pain, but in even more pain over how bad my addiction had become.
Cold turkey is very hard, but doable. You get through it faster and the memory of the wds helps keep you clean.
I tried to taper many many times, but kept relapsing on the taper. I just couldn't do it.
Good luck to you..just never, ever give up!
love,
WW
i know in my heart that one of these days, i'm going to have to give up the buprenex and just go thru the agony. believe me, i do not feel that bup is the wonder drug i used to feel that it was...for me it is just as addicting as any of the other stuff i used to abuse. i feel so low today...i'm going to drag my butt outside to do some gardening...that always takes my mind of being depressed. thanks for listening.....
a Dr appointment on the 9th. They kept me where I'am at with the
methadone (10mg morning/5mg noon/5mg 4pm) but, and a big but I may add, they increased my roxicodone to 3 30mg tabs every six
hours or so for breakthrough. That sounds like a lot to me. My
question is two fold. First why am I on the Methadone in the first place? and God forbid what will it be like when I have to
get off of all this. I'll probably be on this for life, like I
stated before, but who wants to be on pain meds the rest of their
life. Hopefully I'll beat this wicked disease I have and will
really need ya'll when I detox. But in the mean time I'd like to
hang in with ya'll and maybe help answer a question or two once in awhile. I don't have very much to offer except my friendship.
I indeed truely love this forum and hopefully I am not getting
in anyones way. Thanks everyone.
Tom
I hope your pain gets treated and that you can have a good quality of life. Methadone is given to a lot of chronic pain patients. You don't sound as if you are abusing the medication, so I'm guessing if you get to the point where your pain is no longer strong enough to call for narcotics, that you would be able to taper slowly and be done with it. I do hope your pain goes away, but if you have to be on it then try to make peace with that. At least these meds do exist..I can't imagine how horrible it must have been for people who lived in times when they had no real treatment or help for chronic pain.
Hang around, no matter what. You're a gem.
WW
Tom
without malice. Good luck with the neuropathy. Are you diabetic? I'm just looking for causes of neuropathy? You do not have to endulge me. Tell me to mind my own business. I can
take it.
that is. That is probably the cause of my neuropathy. Thanks for
taking an interest. I have to watch what I eat, thats about it.
I still don't see what good the methadone are doing. I though
you took methadone to phase out the other meds. Maybe they do
work together.
Tom
I do not want to mess up my methadone by trying. However, you may be right as right can be. Keep trying. Good luck and Blessings, Ava.
From all that I've read this will be almosy imposible.
I have been using for 10 yrs ,that was my first back surgery.
I take 5 ES every day fot at least 5 yrs.
This week I went 30 hrs. before I broke my breathing became labored and I got scared.
Somebody please give me some advise
I must work some how
i for one, suggest finding an addiction specialist in your area. if you are lucky enough to find a good one, i believe they can be a lot of help.
you can try to taper down on the pills, go cold-turkey or try to find a dr. willing to prescribe buprenex. buprenex is a med that is used to rid you of most withdrawal pain. it is also an addicting drug, so you have to be careful.
have you told anyone close to you about your problem? that is a very good place to start recovery...
I AM AN ADDICT , I FOUND THIS FOURM 2 MONTHS AGO, AND I WAS ON
15 VIKES A DAY AND I FELT HOPELESS. EVERY TIME I WOULD TRY TO GET OFF THE PILLS , I SUFFERED FROM SEVERE DEPRESSION AND WITHDRAWLS.THE FOLKS ON THIS FOURM WERE VERY SUPPORTIVE AND SUGGESTED I TRY TAKING THE RECEIPE ,CONSISTING OF AMINO ACIDS AND VITAMINS. WELL I STARTED TAKING IT 6 WEEKS AGO AND HAVE FOUND IT TO BE A LIFE SAVER FOR ME. MY DEPRESSION WENT AWAY.
AND THE WITH- DRAWLS WERE MINAMIL.
i HAVE WORKED DURING THIS WHOLE TIME, THE RECEIPE IS THE REASON I WAS ABLE TO DO THAT.. i ALSO WORK 8 TO 10 HARD HOURS OF CONSTRUCTION . KEEP POSTING AND ASK ANY QUESTIONS , THERE ARE A LOT OF REALLY CAREING ,EXPERENCED, PEOPLE HERE. PEACE.
GROOVY NICE TO SEE YOUR POST.
IF I SAID ANYTHING TO OFFEND OR HURT YOU I AM SORRY AND DID NOT MEAN TO. i THINK YOU KNOW I WAS ONLY TRYIN TO BE A PEACE MAKER.
IN ANY EVENT I WILL MAKE SURE I ONLY POST POSITVE THINGS, BECAUSE THAT IS ALL I HAVE RECEIVED HERE . I HOPE YOUR DAY IS FILLED WITH GOOD THINGS TODAY. THANKS FOR BEING HERE.
Angst, I do not know what your daily dose is, but oxy will get you high. If you are on, say, 120mg of methadone a day, you will need a whole lot of oxy to get you high. I am sure you are aware of methadone having a blockade effect. I was prescribed methadone for chronic pain a while back....80mg a day. It didn't do much for my pain, but it did add a little bit to a couple of procedures I had at the hospital. I had what is called an epidural lysis of adhesions. It is also called the Racz procedure. The doctor injects some type of solution into the scar tissue in the back epidurally, and it is supposed to dissolve it. Anyway, the procedure is quite painful and they used fentanyl (sublimaze) for it. When all was said and done, they had to use 400ug to touch the pain. The first procedure I had, when I wasn't on methadone, it took 100ug to work. Even at 80mg of methadone, it took quite a bit more fentanyl to even touch the pain. The same thing will happen with oxy or any other opiate for that matter. If you are on a stable dose of the methadone, please don't touch the oxy. It will screw with your bodies stability on the methadone. And, you don't want that. You don't want to start getting cravings again. Leave well enough alone.
give it a try. Like you said I'am on a low dose to start so I'am
not getting killed on it. Thanks again for the interest and help.
Incidentally, schedule II drugs(morphine, Oxy Contin, Ritalin)cannot be refilled. You must obtain a new script each time. They cannot legally be called in to the pharmacy, either. Schedule III drugs(Vicodin, Lortab)can be called in or refilled six times. Usually you can get them refilled within six days of the refill date.
I'm sure everybody has a horror story about the pharmacy or hospital or auto mechanic and so on...that's life!
J.B.
I still have bad chronic pain in my legs, probably a side effect of taking prednisone for asthma and shooting where ever I could get a good vein. My counseller wants to up me to 100mg. I am thinking about it. I know what a ***** it is to come off of methadone. I did it too rapidly last time according to my counseller's opinion.
Hey, I did not mean to bash anyone. I knew that was why some folks were talking of leaving a little while past. I agreed with the original idea, but never got acknowledged. I should have let it go at that. My ego is not that starved. I appreciate the good advice you give us medically. It is wonderful to have good information when you need it. Thanks again. Good luck and Blessings, Angst.