craving bad

hi havent drank since this monday and i am craving a drink bad i dont want to drink but i am having intese cravings. well i am trying but it feels so urget that i drink. ive been pray but havetn gotten any results yet from prayer as far as drinking goes or craving a drink goes i still want to drink after i pray for the cravings to be lifted. any way i am in bad way tonight. i dont think i will drink tonight.
david R

[j34]

David I too have felt this way. Call somebody who is in your corner reach out,change your routine, Just take it one minute at a time. I wrote my last 90 days of my boozing and that really helped. I was totally honest with feeling words and then I was like oh ya it is not like what my mind is telling me. it really was the *****, the shakes ,wd,the ***** the totally despair,Funny we put booze into our system to feel better yet it is a depressant. We have a disease which tells us we don't have one.In the early days I prayed for God to remove the obsession to drink,it is your choice to go back the way things were or find a new way to live today David  can be your step to freedom!!. I now have 7 1/2 months clean and I tell you without AA and NA I would of never wrote out the 12 steps of the program and never would of learned that it is me that is the problem after I removed the booze and then I had a solution to work with a program to follow and people who had been in the same place as I was in and feeling. This is what worked for me and though one day at a time I have found peace and serenity David please give yourself the greatest gift of all... the gift of freedom from the most cunning,baffling and powerful disease Alcoholism .

[Ronnie152]

Sorry your feeling this way, but I am glad you said no. Maybe go out and take a walk or a hot shower might help. Stay strong you can do this. Keep up the good work!

[addict3]

David,
I hope I am no too late to put my 2 cents worth in, If you can make it thru this craving it will only give you strenght for the next one and that one will strengthen you for the next and before you know it you will be able to put it away almost as soon as it hits.
You have to take these small steps to reach the end, and I can promise you it will be worth it. Keep praying, I sometimes wonder why I have not received an answer for a prayer asked, and I just haven't realized maybe it has been or it is not time for it to be yet...just keep praying you will get an answer and you will get sober, just try to get your mind on something else, I know that is hard to do but it will help.
Try to go to bed and go to sleep early and maybe tomorrow it will be better.
I know that bad way you are in and you will be so happy that you did not drink in the morning. I am glad you said you did not think you would drink tonight. You will be so proud of yourself,
Good luck, stay strong, and let us know how you are doing........
more people will be on tomorrow but I will stay a bit longer tonight, if you need someone to talk to!!!

[dominosarah]

You are doing so good David.....Dig deep and fight this craving.  I know you can do it.  Get busy doing something.  Turn up the music, go for a walk just do something to keep your mind occupied.  You can do this!!!!!!!  You did the right thing by coming on here and posting.  Keep talking to us...........stay strong        sara

[worried878]

there is an intervention for cravings article in the health pages that helped me alot...also writing down the reasons i quit could bring back the memories/most not good/of why i quit my doc...do u attend AA?  support is so important especially at the beginning of recovery..but often for a lifetime..cos recovery lasts a lifetime..good luck to u...and one day at a time...if u make it to bed tonuight without caving then tomorrow is another day...good luck

[davidr714]

thanks i am feeling better today, although really worried about staying sober i mean i have find another sponsor and i cant seem to find that many people with more than five years sobers in the meeting i go to. one old timer told me to pray for the sponsor that didnt work, i had one but he fired me.
david r

[davidr714]

thanks i feeling better today still sober thanks.
david r

[davidr714]

thanks for the support i m feeling better but scared that i will fail in the future, though i know all i can do is one day a time. i know worring about staying sober doesnt help it just puts closer to a drink.
david r

[davidr714]

thanks and yes i do go to aa although i need to get a sponsor as my last one fired me cause i kept drinking  relapsing.  any way i have a hard time reach out for help calling someone is hard when i want to drink. i trying but i have hard time saying at meetings how i really fell. like i dont often say when im craving i just pass most times i just feel like everyone looking at the failure the one who been relapsing for 5 years in the rooms geting sober for a time. it makes it hard to share.
david r

[kim715]

You're wrong my friend.The people in that meeting won't be looking at a failure,they'll be looking at a fighter.The ones whos had some bumps in the road but has kept fighting for 5 years..You don't lose unless you stop fighting.You haven't stopped fighting....All the best..Kim

[backagain11]

Relapse is not a part of recovery but something that happens in recovery. If the person you chose as a sponser doesnt understand that then they shouldnt be a sponser. I belong to a 12 step program and know many who have relapsed  often or just took a little longer. In na they say that some are sicker then others just like any disease.A sponser is someone who has taken and applied the 12 steps to their life and can guide you in applying them to yours. The 12th step is about carrying the message to the addict who STILL suffers,doesnt sound like he"s applying that step to his life.

[davidr714]

thanks for the support well in some of meetings i go stag meetings they say that people should wast time with people who keep drinking. although i have had another sponsor who i had to let go because i felt uncomfortable as a sponsor even though i still on good terms with him. so  i dont know but theirs those who stick with the ones who relaspe and thouse who move on two someone else. i offen think he though i wasnt tring becasuse  i have a hard time talking about how i feel i get uncomoftable with that. i dont really express my real emtions. alll in all i really dont know aa is a bit differnt than na i heard any way i mean they are the same steps but the people are a bit differnt. i dont know if people in na tell poeple like in aa heres x bucks take it and get drunk and get  fxxck out of here, or sit down and stop wining. i never been told that but heard about old times saying. it may not eqact to na but you get the picture most are like this. in fact none of sponsors eer where like that. anyway thanks and i think i am going to start going to meetings where thier are more people with good soberity so i can get another sponsor .

david R

[backagain11]

When I started na I used the 1st 30 or so days but I went to multi meetings every day, I couldnt keep doing both so I called a guy up and asked him to sponser me,,I convinced him to sponser me.He did and 8 yrs later he"s still my sponser and I did relapse once but thats when I needed him the most. The goal is to be a recovering addict and some just do it a little differant or take a little longer then others. When you 1st make that decision to quit and until your stable in your recovery people shouldnt be suprised if you use,they should be suprised if you dont use,,,,your an addict.Plz keep trying

[j34]

Hello David at least you are trying so be strong and just keep it up!!. All will be well just don't' pick up and things will fall into place.Have hope and faith David it I can do it so can you. The good thing is we are never alone again,we have people who are willing to help us and that is the main word people... sponsors are just people too. For me my sponsor is somebody who is leading me and guiding me though the steps I haven't found a person who has "kicked my ***" I was willing to do the work and that is what recovery is all about Willingness.

[davidr714]

thanks for the support doing much better now. i feel like i might just stay sober this time. i can see life being enjoyable and much better sober than drunk. today i could understand the feeling of my last several drunks and it simple drinking no longer povides any pleasure just sedation most of the time. i didnt realize this till today. still scared but i have some hope today.
david R

[gizzy32]

Hi david, it's great to see you keep posting and feeling better now. YOU WILL STAY SOBER THIS TIME and you will see with a bit of time and support how much things will change. Being scared is normal, we all have been scared, but it's because giving up alcohol and drugs is like giving up our best friend. Please keep posting, your doing it. How many days sober now?

[davidr714]

thanks its 13 days sober today. right now i craving a drink very bad anyway went to a boat show today with a friend who doesnt drink. anyway was supprised that they were selling beer thier. i didnt drink im still sober, but im really craving. for a hour it really seemed like it whould feel so good. even more of a trigger was walking though a hotel next to boat show nowing thier were bars and how now would know is i snuck off and had got drunk. i m  gald that didnt but it sure sounded good.
david R

[j34]

Yes places with booze is bad business that is for sure. I am almost 8 months clean and you wouldn't catch me at a place that there is any booze!!!!. i had to change everything. Plan my plans different and don't worry once you start doing things that are "different" they will become your new. Good job on the perseverance.Glad to see you are still here. post anytime ,any questions, there is no stupid question when it comes to your sobriety k Hope you are feeling better too.

[davidr714]

just didnt think thier would be beer at a boat show, you know. i would have realy been in trouble had thier been long islands. anyway i am feeling better. my friend doesnt drink. i dont have to really change much since none of my friends drink. i for the most part was loner drunk. thanks for the support.
david R

[davidr714]

the one thing i am really worried about is denail coming back i would start to compare you know to others who had stories so horrific i would think i dont belong here. i do know that i do belong here i not at the present in denail i know i am an alcholich i just really scared of drinking again.  
david r

[gizzy32]

So happy to see you keeping us updated and staying sober David. When admitting we are powerless like you have done now, we can move forward and make those changes. Being scared of drinking is a good sign, that means you know the destruction it causes.
Like j34 said, try to stay clear of places that serve alcohol (people, places, things). Your doing great and congrats on 2 weeks today:) Awesome man.

[kim715]

David,keep in mind that you were walking down the same path as the people that have had the more horrific experiences.Eventually if you would have continued on that path in one way or another your life would have become just as horrific.Congrats on the 2 weeks,thats fantastic!!!!!!!!!!!! All the best.....Kim

[j34]

Yes our disease it the only disease that tell us we don';t have a disease!! How screwed is that! Suggestion for you,I did this when I went to a recovery house they asked me to write about my last 90 days of addiction,wow what an eye openner...see so when my sick little mind decided that it wasn't that bad ..Ah I'll just have one, I read my last 90 days and there it was in plain black and white EXACTLY how ****** it was so my denial was smashed! I used to think that it was the 8 th beer then I lost control but that is not so! It is the FIRST one that started the obsession again,I can't count how many times I tried the theory that I could control the booze,HA HA it just got worse and worse if I would of just listened to people who had done this before me instead I kept thinking that I was unique......Today I have a choice to stay clean as long as I don;t pick up the first one.You are doing so well David glad to share what others have taught me.

[davidr714]

thanks for the support having some  craving tonight but they will pass. anyway i am hanging in their. i realize that the only way i can be relived of pain of alcholism (alcoholism) is to suffer short term not drinking. but up with the cravings. so i can get to the stage where i dont crave all the time. the only way for me to be free is to no drink even though it hurts not to drink sometimes.
david R

[cathy5841]

you are soo right.  the only way to get better is to suffer through the cravings.  it will pass.  i have never had an problem with alcohol.  but i know cravings are hard...there is an alcohol forum.  you can find it in the forums list.  good luck and stay strong.

[j34]

Yes and the good news is when you are really ready like it sounds like you are nothing is impossible. I am so happy for you it is so worth it!!.I am free from the bondage of drugs and booze today,they don;t enter my mind hardly at all anymore!this week is 8 months for me.I tell you it only gets better and I find that I am facing stuff I had buried for years head on and with humility and recognizing my part in things truly I am growing up.I wish I could express my joy for you to know what I know now in how things will be and how you will feel SOOOOOOOOOOOO much better. Gotta run head to AA all the best till next time..... j

[davidr714]

thanks i m been having drinking thoughts some thoughts about going out this weekend and drinking i not going to do or at least i hope i dont i just need to well not keep these thoughts to my self, craving kinda bad now not to worried about cravings right now since its in middle of the night. any way not doing to bad other than that.
david r