cravings

[jess8487]

Ok I went to rehab for my out of control pain pill addiction..I have been back home for almost 2 months now and the cravings get unbearable at times AT LEAST once a day..I refuse for this addiction to control me again and want to feel good without pills..I get very agressive when cravings hit which results in people i love suffering but at the moment im not thinking straight..How do I get on with my life after this terrible addiction? Help please!

[micheleTX]

way to go Trammy!!  Glad to hear you are doing so well too!!  

[Trammy717]

I totally advocate aftercare.  Once you went to rehab for 2 months you're not cured in that short amount of time.  It didn't take you 2 months to get here and it will take you awhile to get back.  I love AA and NA.  The poeple are working on a higher standard of living and its the best show on earth.  Very entertaining and you meet some of the reatest people once you get over feeling strange there, and make friends it is your best resource for staying clean.  Of course, I think that only God can and would if He were sought, releave you of your obsession to use.  You've done well, but you can't do it alone.  You need God and others.  Just my opinion.  I stopped much harder drugs, Keep Coming back, You need to work at your recovery, like you chased your drug.
Make good friends, people places and things, you know.  You can't do the same thing and exspect different results.  
If nothing changes, nothing changes.
You neeed to change from the inside now.
find good people who are further on the path with you, get a sponsor, this is your life and your future, take it seriously.  Once you substitute a healthy life for the unhealthy one you're use to living life with get easier.  You'll forget what it feels like to be obsessed.  You'll be free.  I've been on very mind controling drugs I'm ashamed to admit, but many of us our living completely different lives again.  I don't want to be controlled by anything.  I took these pills because they weren't suppose to be addicting.  I'm no saint, I knew I was abusing the crap out of them, but I kept using them.  Now I'm fighting back too.  I still go to meetings and have been clean 2 years off hard drugs.  God Bless, you can do it, but NOT ALONE.  

[Addict63]

Jess,

All of the above from micheleTX

It's much easier to get clean than to stay clean. That's why I'm an advocate of aftercare. I couldn't do it without it. Somewhere close to you will be an AA or NA meeting. Even in small towns. Even once a week will help. Somehow... getting with other recovering addicts/alcoholics. Anyway you can. Your life depends on it. Finding a female sponsor, a friend, even on here, someone you can form a partnership with and bounce stuff off of. Writing us on here, helping others on here. The whole idea is to not feel alone with your addiction and get with other addicts.

[micheleTX]

Try your best to get your mind off the pills...it's a hard thing to do, especially since you went to rehab to get off them.  I really wanted to quit, I was tired of being broke cuz all we did was spend our money on pills, etc..I was determined to quit them, so my mind was prepared maybe??  Im not sure.  Different for everyone I guess.
Try to find something to do when the cravings hit.  Talk yourself out of them>? I dont know, may not make sense but that's what I did.  My cravings went away pretty soon after detox cuz I had a horrible detox...
I hope you can find a way to cut the cravings!!  Are you eating real good?  That and sleeping well?  I dont know what else to say.  I am not a doc or medical field person...
Good luck, you can do this and stay off those pills! Keep posting ok