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cravings...
Once a person gets thru the withdrawl when will the actual cravings stop. I find that to be the worst part. Its annoying because i associate such pleasant memories with the damn pills. They give me energy, made me happy and made the a person that i thought i was happy to be. Energetic, happy, enthusiastic. When i am off them i am sad, tired and dont feel like leaving my house. I just feel so lost i really do. The depression is what hurts the most...
I think we all have to remember one VERY important thing: Life is Hard. It is not uncommon for the average person, or anyone, to get up and feel tired, depressed, unmotivated. It is WHAT they do when they feel that way that separates an addict from a non-addict.
We want to take a pill (path of least resistance) instead of face reality. Instead of taking a morning jog or do at least 15 minutes of riding a stationary bike when we feel that sad, depressed feeling (to get a shot of endorphins), we pop a pill. Its easier. It takes less time.
We have got to remember that those feelings of unmotivation are quite common in everyone. We have to RE-TRAIN ourselves. Is it easy? Not for most of us, which is why we are on this forum. You mentioned that you associated pleasant memories to taking pills. I do too. HOWEVER, that feeling wont last forever. One's body becomes acclimated to the drug, and then it needs more. Or a stronger drug. This vicious cycle never ends. You eventually run out of stuff and need to find more. You cant find more? You have to wait till you find a doc that will prescribe more. Shopping doctors? What a pain. You have to wait for the pharmacy to open. You have to find the money to pay for it, even tho it can be very inexpensive with insurance.
FOCUS on the bad experiences related to being addicted.
We have to look at the big picture. What do we want for ourselves in the future, our children, our reputation. It all matters, but when we are numb from vic or whatever, its hard to "see the forest for the trees".
This is what I try to encode on my brain every day. I still have vicodin left, but I am tapering off. However, today, I was just thinking of flushing the few "halves" I have left. I don't even feel the effect of those little half pills I have left. What's so fun about that? If ya can't feel it.
It is VERY hard. I am sitting here shaking like a tree. I want to run a few miles. My chest feels heavy and tight. But, I am truly feeling some sense of accomplishment.
I am going to post this on the open forum, because I feel like it can probably help others.
Hang in there, stargazer and everyone else.
We want to take a pill (path of least resistance) instead of face reality. Instead of taking a morning jog or do at least 15 minutes of riding a stationary bike when we feel that sad, depressed feeling (to get a shot of endorphins), we pop a pill. Its easier. It takes less time.
We have got to remember that those feelings of unmotivation are quite common in everyone. We have to RE-TRAIN ourselves. Is it easy? Not for most of us, which is why we are on this forum. You mentioned that you associated pleasant memories to taking pills. I do too. HOWEVER, that feeling wont last forever. One's body becomes acclimated to the drug, and then it needs more. Or a stronger drug. This vicious cycle never ends. You eventually run out of stuff and need to find more. You cant find more? You have to wait till you find a doc that will prescribe more. Shopping doctors? What a pain. You have to wait for the pharmacy to open. You have to find the money to pay for it, even tho it can be very inexpensive with insurance.
FOCUS on the bad experiences related to being addicted.
We have to look at the big picture. What do we want for ourselves in the future, our children, our reputation. It all matters, but when we are numb from vic or whatever, its hard to "see the forest for the trees".
This is what I try to encode on my brain every day. I still have vicodin left, but I am tapering off. However, today, I was just thinking of flushing the few "halves" I have left. I don't even feel the effect of those little half pills I have left. What's so fun about that? If ya can't feel it.
It is VERY hard. I am sitting here shaking like a tree. I want to run a few miles. My chest feels heavy and tight. But, I am truly feeling some sense of accomplishment.
I am going to post this on the open forum, because I feel like it can probably help others.
Hang in there, stargazer and everyone else.
Boy you hit it on the head, "They give me energy, made me happy and made the a person that i thought i was happy to be. Energetic, happy, enthusiastic." I am a 64 yo man off opiates 3 weeks. I just don't have any energy...really miss the energy the pills gave me...how sick is that! But I am determined to overcome this. Some serious weight loss and exercise are next on my agenda. I used to jog 4 miles a day and felt great until I developed back problems..this started the Vicoden 7 years ago. To tell you the truth, quitting Opiates was EASY compared to quitting smoking. STAY STRONG IN THE BRAIN AND YOU WILL MAKE IT.
well the wd's and cravings came back so i took about 10 mgs already today to subside them. i cant sleep and barely eat. i just dont understand why 48s hours after i took the suboxone they damn withdrawls came back, maybe i wasnt on it long enough.
Today is day 20 for me and I haven't "craved" the pills in a week. I am starting to feel really good naturally (aside from a slump the last two days) and it's my goal to feel good naturally so taking the pills isn't going to speed that process up, only slow it down. So I can't really see any good reason to take the pills anymore. I'll admit I go through depression and circular thinking throughout the day but I'm in a different world than I was living in a month ago, and my brain is pretty depleted so I can expect to feel this way. Knowing what is going on inside of my brain (reading about it, and other peoples stories) makes me feel different about feeling down, knowing its completely predictable and expected and will eventually go away.
How long did you stick it out with the depression before your relapsed?
How long did you stick it out with the depression before your relapsed?
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