creek

[road2recovery]

OMG-- i read your post for dizzigirl and realized what you said about being in the hospital..I am not sure if you read what i went through after a surgery..But anyway i was in the hospital for like 9 days..They would give me 1 7.5 every four hours..I would almost cry..Then when the withdrawlas would kind of set in my blood pressure would go up alittle and they didn't know why, but i did, and still could not come clean with them..i can't hurt my family right now, because they have some stuff they are trying to deal with and i would not help their pain right now with mine.
But i wanted to tell you i know what you felt like..I almost said it and caught myself..But was really scared..But i really think my tapering started their so i am still tapering.
good luck--don't give up

[LIZZIE LOU]

just want to make sure you don't miss my post to you under dizzigirl's post.

huggs,
kim

[creek]

Thank you so much.  You are just amazing to make a commitment like that to someone you don't know.  I think you are dead serious too.  I think you would be here in a heartbeat to kick my ass.  Let me think this through.  

Just when I feel like I am a piece of **** I get the most amazing vibes and encouragement and strength from you.  Your help for others and myself here on the forum in "priceless" as they say.  Thank you for your speedy response that just kicked me out of my "oh poor me" mood and on to healthier thoughts.  Sometimes another person believing...it makes me believe too.

Thank you Lizzie.  CATUF you are right... Everything you said to dizzy applies to me too.  Voices of reason...hard to ignore, but harder to KEEP killing myself like this and seeing the months go by with really no change...just TALK.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart.  I have always said this is a magical place of healing because of the truths of sooo sooo many.  It is a horrible progressive disease that will kill me as easy as the next addict.  Believe that Creek!!!!!   Thanks for the love.