day 1 no suboxone!!!!!!!!!!

[strong_woman]

hey guys i am finally free of this hell...i woke up this morning not feeling my best but the one thing i can say is that i didnt wake up wishing i had any sub or any other pill to take away the wds thats a good thing..i am soo over it...i think what a lot of you have told me has been so true....i felt alot of the wds when i did that taper down the past week...sub is weird...i mean my body really doesnt hurt at all honestly my back a lil bit but what screws me up is i keep thinking i can get up and go back to normal and then  it hits me and can hardly move....at least i can sleep that i one thing i am thankful for, i know so many have probs with that n i pray for you...i did what you guys said been taking my b12s and b6s aminos and alot of green tea antioxidant...but strangely i forget short term things lately like i knw i shouldnt do this but i have diuarex in the house...the water weight loss engergy booster pill i cant remember if i took one or not so now i dont want to take a benzo to try and go to sleep so i will just wait it out...i only take the benzo 1mg at night not during the day i know it will only make things worse doesnt take away wds at all so i do know that much....honestly i am balling my eyes out right now...i have to tell you guys i know i come off as so strong and gung hoe but you are all i got seriously...my fiance supports me but has no idea what i am going through and my mother is a repeat addict seriously sef destructive...cant believe i let this happen to me...but anyway...im really not doing tooo too bad it comes and goes...i am just not used to sitting around i am always going a million miles a minute and having all this fatigue is killing me...i am going to try and work out today i did some push ups this morning and fell back into bed...you guys are all i got...and i just want to say thank you to so many helpin me get through this...tapering really did help thou i gotta say...and staying active rather then lying there helps...seriously i just rolled outta bed and got on here and b4 i did when i was in the bed it was like doomsday but i feel halfway normal sitting here except for when the sweats come every couple min...but NO physical pain....weird i guess bc im such and animal and would slam my head off a wall in front of a crowd if i thought it would make me tougher (exaggeration) i hope that honestly it doesnt get worse from here and i can just the fatigue gotta work out today omg im rambling on im sorry guys just thought this might help some people who are going through or about to go through it with subs...i know everyone is diff but really the physical pain isnt what gets to you its the lack of energy....o and i am completely turned off by coffee which i couldnt live without....but i am scared bc i cant remember if i took that diuarex or not..anyway thanks to all of you and please stay in touch i will be on here alot next couple of days....thanks
monique

[hrsebz]

congrats on day 1...I sent you a pm I hope you got it and it helped let me know if you have anymore questions. And keep us posted on how your doing.

[TysonRed]

Well I can tell you that your positive outlook towards recovery is absolutely wonderful and will only help you get through this. Sounds like your doing really good, so keep up that motivation and good work. The one thing I will caution you about is to not over do it with the benzo's, thats not an addiction you want to have, but I know how much they can help you sleep. Just try not to use them any longer than absolutely necessary. So let us know how things continue to go, we're all routing for you, good luck and take care.

[10356]

I would also like to add my support.. You have read enough about sub for what to expect so keep your eye on the goal and congratulations on day 1 the first step in your journey.. keep posting to get the much deserved support.. (we are all privately vulnerable welcome to reality) warmly lesa

[CleanUpTime]

Hey StrongWOman, glad to hear you're doing ok...Congrats on Day 1...keep it up

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[lisammm]

I am new here but I just wanted to give you some support. I am weaning off suboxone myself and it has been hard on me. I have been drinking red bulls for energy (not that I would recommend that). Sending a prayer your way!