day 1....

[dustin0320]

i am currently addicted to percocet and i am quitting cold turkey and so far tonight has been horrible! is ther anyway to cope with the WD? please help

[Htownnofrown]

Glad you decided to quit, I quit oxy cold turkey 14 months ago and never looked back so rest assured it can be done. I would also recommend a 12 step program, it worked wonders for me. Good luck!

[LeaAnn807]

Dustin, you are doing so good.  You have to stay away from people, places or things that could make you want to use.  That friend falls into the people part!!!! : )

Don't go back over there, ok?  You may not be as strong next time!  

[NorcBgone]

Hey Dustin - Just wanted to let you know I wish you the best. I'm on my 6th day clean and starting to feel better than i have in a long time. Keep up the good work! It stinks that your b/f is doing that with no plans to quit. Does he know you have a problem? I would recommend staying clear. With us addicts its just too tempting especially during our peak of wd's. Hang in there! You've gotten great advice already on here.

[gnarly_1]

HI Dustin im glad to here your doing so well so soon.....aaah what it was like to be young again...LOL  but seriously your doing great ...the painful truth about friends that use is your going to have to break ties with them...I know its got to su@@ if its your best friend but anyone using is going to become a liability to your sobriety especially if there using right in front of you...I know I had to walk away from all my pool shooting buddy's when I quit the alcohol and weed 5yrs ago...for the narcotics it was different for me I was a closet addict and I dident share the addiction with anyone but today I still avoid situations where there is alcohol weed or pills being used...its tuff at weddings but I manage ...I just wanted to take a minute and encourage you your doing great...your making good choices and getting to a meeting will really help you get thew this keep posting on your progress I see you have a getting clean buddy now...someone that is right there with you on the front lines fighting the good fight
it helps to make some friends in here...again good luck to you and God bless....Gnarly        

[dustin0320]

i live over by belmar mall!!! thats so awesome you used to live hear!!!! :)

[dustin0320]

thanks you guys today is day 3 clean! i still hurt but i have a serious question i went over to a friends house and he is perscribed oxy 40 mg that he takes through out the day, but he snorts them and he was doing this right in front of me, so i got up and left. Should I let him go and unassosiat myself from him, because he is my best friend but he does not want to quit nor does he care who is in his house while he does it but I think I need to remove the pills from my life in every aspect. Am I doing the right thing by doing this??

I am starting to feel alot better, This morning I got up and went for a run, I haven't done that for years and it felt great, also i notice that my shaking is gone and the only side effect i have now is a lil bit of insomnia, un comfortable, and back pain, although those hot baths do work wonders OMG!!! haha i could sit in there for hours my back feels great when i do, so thank you thank you for that tip.

Oh and retreadfred it would be great if i could go to a N/A meeting with someone who knows what I am going through. Is there anyway i could go to your meetings? If not it's cool.

I will keep you guys posted on how I am doing and what I am going through! Thanks a million!!

[Rhirhi87]

I guess the emotional pert effects everyone different, All I wanted to do is cry all day, It will subside soon just try and control if you need to vent do it here we are here for you. You can cuse us what ever you need to do,

[LeaAnn807]

(((Dustin))) I'm so glad you told your mom!  That's so great!  Asking for help was the LAST lesson I learned in all my years of using.  That, and one more thing.  That it's ok to have a bad day.  That I don't have to medicate every day into being "good".  Especially when that became impossible!  Anyway, your mom will be a lot of help to you.  You did a good thing for yourself by telling her!

You can do it!  Let us know how you're doing today, ok?

[retreadfred]

hey dustin! I am 12 days clean and happy to report feeling much better. less back pain than I ever had taking the pills. I had built up a tolerance to 240mg oxy/day. so this is definitely doable. I did what was suggested on here tapered then went cold turkey when i got down to one pill/day. Ive been going to NA meetings regularly and they are a great help. by the way i live in Aurora.

[salsinator]

Hi Dustin - welcome to the forum.  You are in a good place, looks like you are making the right steps - communicating, asking for help, and taking the advice the others are givng you.  Most of us on here have been in your shoes and walked down the same path.  The good news is that with the dose you were on and type of medication, the withdrawal should be fairly short - a few days - and you should start to feel much better fairly soon.  Hang tight, keep posting and expressing how you feel and most of all, go to a meeting - it will really help.  Best of luck to you.  S

[kmw6]

Hi Dustin!

I'm somewhat in the same boat.  My pain medication usage started out with valid reasons (surgeries, etc) and only recently did I start thinking OMG am I going from physical dependency to full blown addiction.  My doctor was absolute no support at all.

It made me homesick when I saw where you live.  I lived off of Kipling and Simms area for years until we had to move closer to family down by the Gulf.  I wanna come home wahhh.

Anyway, I wish I was still there.  I think we could support each other throughout the next days and weeks.  Thank god your mother is being so supportive.  That will help you more than anything else.  Just tell her (same thing I told my husband) that even if they see us in pain they have to let us be in pain until the worst is over.  You CAN do it and so CAN I.  Let's do it together and here in a week or so we'll tip an imaginary cup of coffee or something to each other okay?

I'm praying for you (and also knowing that you and I are going through the same thing at the same time is in some strange way kind of comforting...I'm am not alone and neither or you!)

[gnarly_1]

Hi Dustin....im glad to here you told your mom....thats a huge step in recovery and you couldn't find anyone to be behind you more then your mother...im an addict but also the father of a ex/methamphetamine/crack addict...my daughter put us thew absolute hell for almost 5yrs but I never once stop loving here or trying to get help for her.....like many addicts she quit when she hit her rock bottom and has been clean for 4 yrs now...getting involved in a 12 step program will help you bound measure so many on this forum resists the very thing that will help the most it is a great decision on your part...this is all part of a great attitude and that will get you threw this...the next few days will be a little ruff but with your attitude and a strong will YOU CAN DO THIS wile power on its own wont do it but with the help of others and some good guidance this will be over b/4 you know it....I already gave you the pep talk now lets roll up your sleeves and get down to the dirty work...we will support you all the way but its up to you to put in the work...you got to want it bad....real bad and be willing to put up with a few days of discomfort to get there but in the end it is SO SO WORTH IT good luck and God bless.....Gnarly          

[dustin0320]

Is there anyway to control my anger? I am getting mad or irritated at the stupidest things and i dont know why and i cant seem to control them.

Oh and Tramahater i told my mom tonight and she is going to help me through this and I am going to N/A 12 step meetings starting tomorrow night. I am really excited to go!

[lady67]

Cold turkey sounds horrible, but that is the only way I could get sober.  I had to decide to quit and quit for good.  I have had several relapses over the past 17 years, but this time I have been 126 days off of hydros and I must say I feel great.  I didn't use the Thomas Recipe, but many have and it has worked great for them.  Good luck Sweetie, and keep posting, that helps as much as anything else.  You will find an abundance of support from people who have been where you are now.

[MattTheAttorney]

So glad you decided to give up the pills.  My finace (overit2day) and I are proof that you can make it through the wd's.  I am at one week, I was right where you are only a few short days ago.  I am feeling better everyday.  You have been given some great advice, by the same people who stuck by me during the really hard times.  Just keep posting and keep fighting.  It is so worth it to start to get your life back.

Everyone here is so supportive and encouraging.  I'll be keeping an eye on you as well. Good luck.  I KNOW you can do this.

Matt

[gnarly_1]

Hi Dustin first of congrads on just wanting to get off the stuff that a big step and where all out here to support you wile you go thew this...im with Tram on getting some outside support both N/A and A/A have excellent programs and all you need is the desire to quit
you will find them very welcoming to new comers and you can hook up with some people to get some phone # for support....its also not a bad idea to let your family know whats going on ...our secrets keep us sick...enough said...as for right now get comfortable with the saying "you just got to be ok without being ok for a wile"...expect to be up the next few nights it a normal part of detoxing...hot showers help but if you have access to a tub hot baths are priceless ...they help the creepy crawly feelings as well as a lot of other symptoms...remember this is 1/3 physical 2/3 mental so attitude is really important ...go into this with a win win attitude you wont be chained to a pill bottle when you get thew it...use your symptoms to strengthen your resolve to quit
and if you get the desire to use get on here and post thats where your N/A or A/A connections really come in handy but if nothing else post theirs usually someone up to talk to but its a little slow at night...last dont forget God if you believe..he helped me get thew my darkest moments and still helps me make it thew the day....keep posting and let us know how your doing where all here to help you good luck and God bless.....Gnarly        

[Rhirhi87]

Sounds like your making some great decissions regaurding your gettting your life back and I am ver proud of how far youve came,. One day at time bro one day at a time. Soon it will be over, its great your posting and also supporting others, that whats we do.
Play it forward as I heard some one say. Im still posting after almost 30 days, It helps there are a lot of people far worse off than I or you are, I know right now you dont feel that way but you wait your whole way of thinking will change for the better, I promise you that

[LeaAnn807]

Way to go, girl!  I am just so proud of you.  See?  It CAN be done!  Hang in there.  It gets better!!!  ((((HUGS))))

[overit2day]

Hang in there! I know how you feel.  My fiance and I were taking oxys for 7 months.  I am now on day 6 without them, and this forum, along with the fiance have helped me get through it.  The first few days are the absolute worst!  I would lay uncomfortably in my bed, and get so frustrated!  I am finally sleeping more than the first few days.  Each day gets a little better.  I will check on you because I know how much it helps to have people that support you.  You can do this! Seriously.  It is really hard, but possible. Make it happen!

[LeaAnn807]

I respect your decision to keep it to yourself.  However, I think you should share with SOMEONE you trust, ok?  You need some support besides the computer!  How about going to a 12 step meeting?

[dustin0320]

thank you so much for the support you guys are all the support i have cause no one knows thaat i was addicted, and i am to affraid to tell anyone. so i really do apreciate it :)

[LeaAnn807]

Yes...keep your head up!  And congrats on getting rid of the pills. That is a brave thing to do during acute withdrawal!!!  

You can get your life back.  It really feels great!!!

[dustin0320]

I just wanted to let everyone know that i almost caved into this but i just told myself NO and i dumped my supply down the toilet, so now im am in this boat for good and i am going get my life back :) i feel great ( by that i mean my spirits are high everything else though feels like hell) but i jus have to keep my head up high and just keep thinking that this will pass right? these things can no longer control me!!

[Rhirhi87]

With that attitude it should be snap for you. Witha a winn winn attitude anything is possible  You will be amazed on how much better you will feel once this is behind you. At this point I have never been closer to God or my family, It has just turned out great for me and it will for you to. Its not like we woke up one morning and said HMMMMM today I think ill be a addit it just happens to some of us, but with alot of support and love we can over come anything, Do you have any support , anyone who knows about your little problem? I had my wife who helped me and some great people here. I finally told my inlaws and mother, brother and finally my doctor. I recieved so many I love yous and we are here for you.Be strong, hopefully you have got rid of all your pills, cut off your source. You can do this  Dustin, be strong and pray it worked wonders for me
Darrin