day 11

[lesleyf79]

hey guys,,, startin to feel a bit normal again,,, that fall from my lovely fluffy pink cloud was quite a hard one,,, after being so positve and energised and full of life i really hit the ground hard!!!!!!!! one positive thing my house has never been so clean!!!!!!!! i washed all the walls the skirting boards and doors,,,, then deck scrubbed every tile in the house so that kept me busy,,,very busy and it paid off im still clean!!!!!!! 11 days and no opiates yet!!!!!!!thank you everyone who sent a message or just even thought of me its much appreciated!!!! now i must go my 4&3 year old are in the bath and they are killin each other so i have to go refaree!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[merrymaria]

cngrats to you.....glad you are feeling so good...keep on cleanin then you can come clean my house OK?  lol...take care...maria  :)

[tylersblueeyedmama]

Way to go girl!!!!!  I am so proud of you :)

Keep us updated!!!

[wings444]

Grats to you
Keep up the good work!!! Just dont tire yourself out too much LOL
Its so nice to read post on positive people like you!!
All the best to you!!

Wings (day 8) :)

[spongeboy]

Great. Amazing you are able to work that hard so soon. I am having to really force myself to do anything.  Stay positive and keep us informed.

[hjt101]

Great to hear u on the up babe. Ur doing bloody fantastic. Yeah it sure can be a bummer when we fall off that pink cloud!!! We fall so hard!!! howeva its good that ur levellin out, instead of highs & lows. I had a wee giggle to myself about the cleanin, I was EXACTLY the same at that point in my recovery, tho to look around my flat now u certainly wouldnt think so!!! lol  I was totally obssesive bout the cleanin in the beginning, but I know it was to keep busy, which is a good thing. Any thing to take u out o urself and just think uve been SO VERY productive at the same time.
Hope u sleep well tonight. U got any plans for wknd??? How is the weather with u??

Im workin in the morning, then off to a barbecue for friends who are emigrating to New Zealand, should be fun, lots o adults & just as much children. I really enjoy these sorts o thing these days, tho I have no children of my one (wasnt meant to be!!) i really enjoy runnin round & playin with other peoples or my family ones!!! In fact I luv doin "normal" stuff like that.

Anyhow off to bed now, early start, tho Im always up early anyway!!
Thinkin of ya & sending u big fuzzy hugs
(((((lesleyf79))))
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[lesleyf79]

thank you soooo much other that house cleaning ive been on youtube looking for songs i havent heard for years!!!! you know the ones you dont know who sings them or what they are bl**dy called but you know you loved them!!!!! thats keeping me super busy that and the fact that the sun decided to make an appearance!!!! so much laundry to catch up on !!!! feeling much better today a little more energy and way more optimistic than before,,, had a tough one today though in my local shopping centre,,the pharmacy was right in front of me and of course i though1 wont hurt!!!!! i bought a dress instead!!!! i thought i deserved a treat for fighting temptation!!!!! my arms and legs are still pretty restless and the magnesium doesnt seem to be doin the thing so i asked again in the healthfood store and the lady recomended a dose of b.vitamins so im trying them out now!!!!

[spongeboy]

Funny about the youtube songs. I was doing that same thing. Only problem is it was 3:30 in the morning last night and i had not been to sleep.  Was trying to figure out anything to make me quit tingling all over, LOL.  I am on day 7 and today has been really rough for me. My grandkids are here and i just dont have the energy to play with them like i normally do. Thank god my wife is handling them this time.  I have NO desire to take any pills but the thought of sleeping well is huge to me.  I am actually dreading when the sun goes down.  Anyway, keep up the good work!!

[lesleyf79]

Oh spongeboy thats me most nights!!!!!!! the sun is just startin to set here now(Ireland) and all the kids are in bed so its me and the tele for the evening!!!!! thank god for Dr phil!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[spongeboy]

do u ever feel like you cant even sit still at night? much less lay in the bed?  That is whats making me nuts.  If i could just sleep.....

[Jimmy1975]

That's wonderful that your starting to feel normal again . Congrats ! Jimmy

[hjt101]

Hi Lesley

How ru 2day?? Gee the sleep thing - thats always what gets me. I recall it so clearly, lyin there with a head full o mush with a body that feels absolutely knackered from lack of sleep, it can be such a tuf time. But......I can assure u that bit by bit, nite by nite it will get better until suddenly u find yourself getn a solid 6, then 7, then 8hrs sleep & boy does it feel good. Try not to focuse on it too much. Have u tried Valerian Tea - ur local Holland & Barrett do one in a purple box called Sleep Easy Tea or Dr Stuarts brand (can be found in most supermarkets) do one called Valerian Tea. I still have one o these about an hr b4 bed at nite & find they help me to relax a bit. Worth a try - im not promising u a nite's sleep with them but like I say they may help u relax.

I think ur doin great & am enjoying logn on to see how ur doin. This warm weather is good as well coz it gets u out of the house and sum fresh air in ur lungs and it always makes me happier when the sun is shinin. I was out wi family ystrdy to a barbecue in the countryside at friends o thers, was great fun, scorchio was not the word - was toastin!!! Such a good evenin, got back to my bruvs this mornin as we stayed over so that both him & his wife could have a drink. Sat out at thers for a bit then into town for sum shopn wi ma sis in law. Now Im home alone & I always find this a bit hard. I live in a flat so have no garden, so Im away to take my book & my MP3 and head down to the beach (I live 5mins away from it) and soak up sum rays.

Ill be back online in the evenin, got loadsa housework to do but u know what.......life 2 short...........it can wait!!

Keep it up babe ur doin amazingly. Thxs for bein my cyber buddy ;o)

[lesleyf79]

ha ha ha !!!! have the dr stewarts tea!!! and valarian hops!!!and some zimovane (which im tryin not to take!!!! was prescribed them about a week ago and have only taken 1 so far dont mind not sleeping much its the lethargy thats a killer!!!!!i have 3 littleones to try and entertain daily and when you feel like trash its not easy,,,,ive been taking glutamine and vaious other amino acids and am startin to feel much better a bitmore energy is comin back every day!!!!! the beach wow your lucky were a good half hour from the beach and the weather is really bad here its rains ALL THE TIME!!!!!!!! RLS still bad and diahorea still yucky too!!!!!! but feelin better have lots of books also to keeep me entertained!!!!


good luck to you also and thank you for takin the time to chat!!!!!!

keep up the good work!!!!!!!

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