day 49 with the old me

Day 49 not perfect but nothing is so I go on.Still not comfy taking Ibuprophen[liver problems]but I have to take something for pain.I read that honey and apple cider vinegar is a natural pain reliever, gonna give it a try. Been meaning to try it for awhile now is as good a time as any, what do I have to lose, time that is free. Hope all are getting healthy and God Bless

[hungouttodry]

Starting to feel like the old me little more as each day passes

[meegWpaw]

Hey hungout, just a quick post to tell you I really admire you ... day 49!!!!!  Wow that is great.  They say around here that it's a process and you have to be patient.  I'm way behind you ... Day 12 ... but I'm with you.  It's a struggle but we keep trying right?  Sorry to hear about your pain.  I'd be interested to see if the homeopathic remedy works ...  Take care!!!

[hungouttodry]

Im back, just dropped in to say depressios really *****. About an hour or two ago just started crying out of nowhere.I was told by my psych Dr that I was clinically depressed whatever that means u see I never asked. He put me on paxil, didnt like it cuz it dried my mouth out really to the point that I couldnt stand it. Threw out the paxil and never went back to Dr that has been about 7 years. I dont know how I dealt with it until two years ago my son was shot 8 times almost right before my eyes, since then my depression has returned. By the way he survived, took 2 years to get back to work but he did it. Ive since lost my 3 brothers inlaw. Then the mess Ive been going thru, I guess it is just catching up to me. I DONT want to go on meds again, what should I do? I guess I just have tough it out like I did before. Oh yea I live in Oakland Ca and just that is distressful enough to make somebody depressed. I want to believe it is cause is my detoxing cuz there was a time going all this mess that I was depressed.meegWpaw asked me to let her know how my homeopathic pain reliever works. I am going to start with that in the morning. it is 1 tbshoney 1 tbs apple cider vinegar and 1 cup of warm water drink it kike tea every morn and evening. Got that somewhere on the net. Any way God Bless and keep up the good fight

[hungouttodry]

Dat 50 that seems like alot but its just the begining of recovering my old life back. Im gonna really work hard to get my old self back not this person that is afraid of everything like I am now. I suddenly was real depressed last nite and it is still with me now. Cant go to Dr till Oct,cost to much to go to ER. Just have to deal with it till then. If it gets to bad I will go to ER thats only if I get crazy and want to hurt myself or something like that.Other wise Ill just tough it out. Feel really emotional today and am crying alot, atleast that gets alot of frustration out and I feel better for awhile.Hope everybody out there is having better day then me. Just want to say people here really helped me out and got me through the darkest days of my detox. You guys and gals really are something else, didnt know what to expect when I first came to this site its really been a pleasure communicating with u all. Now I have to deal with this depression, think I need to get out of this house not good to be so isolated all the time. Problem is I have no car right now coz my truck has been torn down since March, doing a frame off restoration on it. Its a 1960 chavy Apache truck been in family since 1963. S because of that I cant get around unless I take wife to work but Ill manage to get out some place even if its just going across the street. Oh I really hate this depressed feelings need to get out soon. So Im going to go to the park and try and read for awhile. God Bless to all

[hungouttodry]

51 days and for today all is fine, really had  a good day almost pain free just a little from the wound from the surgery.

[donewitis]

Good to hear the good news. You deserve a good painfree day.

[hungouttodry]

Day 52 and I really think I am in control now, have had 3 great days in a row. Pain is minimal sense of humor is back, I just gonna relax andenjoy the rest of the day. I came through this and I know for sure that every body else on here can do it just put your mind to it and dont let the small stuff stop you remember you control your destiny Well G od B| less

[hungouttodry]

Tried the applecider and honey seems to work alright but I had to stop taking it cuz I have acidreflux and it upset my stomach to much. I tried for maby 5days hoping my belly would settle down didnt but I felt like it works so good luck and God Bless

[hungouttodry]

53 daysclean and sober used a total of 5 valium to get here but Im here and sober.Proud of my self cuz I came through this ok. The valium was used early on in my detox not later or were they used for fun they were simply just a tool. Felt guilty before during and after using them cuz I thought I nessed my detox but Im alright.Now I sit here like my normal self starting to enjoy my life again. Dont get me wrong I know I still Have work to do and have been going to meetings here and there, guess its time to get serious and go more often. I feel good now there are  no excuses, think Ill go to atleast a couple a week. I have no problems going I sort like them plus it gives me something to do. Well anyway God Bless and Im still praying for all my friends here