deppresed and craving

[davidr714]

hi im deppresed and craving a drink. i feel so bad, its been a sunny day and good. but now its friday night and im  all by myself my one friend isnt answering his phone has it off. also i dont have any friends in aa. actually meting make feel worse at times. anyway i feel so alone. i was hopefull untl i realzed i have nothing to do nongiht all alone. thats makes me what to drink. i not going to drink though because it i know it will just make matters worse.
david R

[dominosarah]

I am so happy to hear you made it thru last night and tonight!!!!!  Way to go!!!!  I am so proud of you!!!!!   sara

[cathy5841]

if we could learn to live one day at a time it would be some much easier.  i will be in and out it ya wanna chat.

[davidr714]

im craving kinda more for ciggs than booze but this common for me since of of late when i whould drink i smoke and dont usually smoke tobbaco that is. anyway im not drinking tonight its not going anywhere one day at a time.
david R

[cathy5841]

YIIPPPEEEE... i knew you could do it....Awesome

[davidr714]

im a night owl woke up at 5 pm then was going to a movie but didnt when found out the movie was sold out. still sober
david r

[dominosarah]

I hope you are feeling better this morning and had a good night.  Let us know how you are today.................sara

[gizzy32]

See how cared about you are here. I hope you made it through the night ok. You are right about as alcohol being the same thoughts and you are in a war right now man. You need to find something to replace with alcohol. Please keep posting, I can tell you want this. The best thing to do when you get a craving is talk to somone whether it be a friend or any of us. You should start an alcohol tracker, i just did even though I am not an alcoholic, but booze is a huge trigger from me. Hang in there david, your worth it.

[melanaj372]

We all seem like we are alone at times. but the truth is WE ARE NOT ALONE. There are so many people on here. And we all support each other.This is the best website. I love getting on here. Cause when I get off I feel great and everybody always makes me feel like I CAN do this.  So David you did the right thing by turning to everyone on here. Good Luck!!!  And remember your not alone....

[cathy5841]

DAVID....WHERE ARE YOU????

[lboogie7729]

You are in the right place! This is where we all congregate and give each other support, advice, a shoulder to cry, something to laugh at and lend an ear when someone needs it. I am coming up on 4 months and being an only child I've dealt with loneliness my whole life. I understand when you say meetings don't make you feel better, I kind of feel the same way. But the other members are right that the late night weekend meetings are different and you'll find people that are in the same boat, lonely, bored, needing company or just something to occupy their time. Addiction is a beast, the monkey was on my back for 19 years and I'm just getting ready to turn 32! I'm in therapy and it's going to take me a while to figure out how to function as a sober person, because I never learned that way of life considering my addiction started at 12. What you are going through is totally normal, even though most of us joke that there is no such thing as 'normal' when it comes to issues like this there is a pattern and we all struggle with similar issues. Feel free to get on my page and read my journals. I've wrote a lot on here because I enjoy writing, I need to get things off my chest, I hope that it helps others and a lot of people have reached out and been there for me when I was struggling. And I still do. Sobriety is not an easy thing, but nothing in life that is truly worth it is easy. You already possess wisdom, strength and courage and it is obvious to us because you came here instead of drinking! Nothing good comes of drinking. I hope you can get as much out of this site as I (and my mom) have and you will meet some amazing people. Just reach out, let us know how you're feeling, what you're going through, what you need and we'll do our best to help. And definitely keep reading other posts on here. I'm into Eastern philosophy and one of the sayings is that the common thread throughout all humanity is we all suffer. Welcome to our little online world, you're one of us now and you're not alone!

[dominosarah]

We still have cravings too and when we do we come on here and talk about them just like you do.  It doesnt matter what the addiction is too either.  We support each other here.

[cathy5841]

you are not alone.  we have all been right where you are.  and you WILL be right where we are....we are going to help you...tonight you can just hang out with us OR go to a meeting and come home and hang out with us....

[dominosarah]

You are so right........it doesnt matter what the addiction is.  We all come here scared and alone.  The big difference between pills and alcohol is pills are easier to hide as they dont smell!!!  Alcohol is a substance just like pills.  I am glad you are reading other posts and realizing you are not the only one who feels this way.  11 months ago i was in the same situation.  You are not alone here and that is why i have said that to you so many times.  The support here is out of this world.  We understand and know how you are feeling as we have all been there.........

[davidr714]

ive been reading others posts i thoght i was differnt i for instance thought others did think relapse and think things i thought. i reailse i thats others think alsmost exactly like me its scary how similar my thoughts are even to drug addict same thoughts before piking up you know pertty simialr just didnt realise it. i read some posts and take out the drug of choice and its alsmost the same.i dont feel as alone know.

david R

[dominosarah]

David come back here and talk to us..........

[finnda]

If I were you I would catch a AA meeting being around sober people will help

[dominosarah]

I have more fun now that i am not drinking than when i did.  I drank everynight and all day on weekends for years.........It steals your soul my friend.  Do you have any interests like sports, movies, music etc??   You are so very important and worthwhile.  I am so glad you are here tonight talking with us.  I have so much faith in you and you can do this!!!!

[Michelle_Shawn]

when i first got sober i always felt like that. it took time but my life is so full of sober people now. i have a huge network but it took time. i know you prolly dont want to but maybe you should go to a meeting. where i am from usually fri night meetings are packed and a more upbeat than during the week.....especially if you are feeling alone....one thing is for sure you are not alone when you are at a meeting.......just hang in there, picking up will only make things worse....

[cathy5841]

david, i wanted you to know that i am really proud of you for coming on here and posting BEFORE you had that drink.  that shows you are making progress.  you can do this, i know you can.

[davidr714]

took my dog for a walk its upper 50s today. some of the biggest tiggers have been nice weather. makes me think off all the walks i used to enjoy drinking. i realize things are diffent know and drinking no longer helps. its hard to acept that but i have to. it doesnt help i have nothing to do.
david R

[dominosarah]

Hi David.......You will never be alone here!!!!  How about having a can of pop or a glass of water or coffee??  You dont need a drink......remember that just makes you more depressed. Is it nice there today?  Have you gotten out and gotten some fresh air??

[cathy5841]

david,  being alone is not all bad...do some soul searching and maybe try to figure out why you feel the need to drink.  have you tried therapy?  you now you have to deal with the issues that make you want to drink...just like i had to deal with the issues that made me use.  recovery is a process...a long process...a life long process...tonite you do not have to drink....it is a choice...so make the choice for tonite and deal with tomorrow when it gets here.