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Hope this helps and lean on anyone you can!!!! Here's my story which is a bit long but worth reading to at least pass some time as this is a minute by minute thing while in d/t's
I am about to embark on this seriously scary part of detoxing from hydros 10/325's 3x day and fentanyl patches as high as 100's x 48hrs. and now I am down to 25's and will reduce to 12's tomorrow which I plan to take until this Sunday. This is my second try at getting off the patch as my pain mgmt doc rapidly reduced me off the patch per my request going from 100's to 12's in a short 5 weeks. I had a surgery back in sept. of 08' that went bad and lead to 5 more surgeries over the next 7 months that was living hell. I had never been on opiates of any kind other than the occasional hydros given for when I pulled a muscle in my back or groin, etc. I had only been given about 10 to 14 days worth and never experienced w/d's from them. I had no idea what I was getting into when they prescribed me the patches!!! I feel so stupid for not researching out how hard it is to get of the ****!!!! I am a very intelligent man and did read up on what the medication was and it did state it would be addictive but never explained to this level of w/d's.... I am furious with the docs as they should clearly explain the end result of the road you about to go down. Anyways, after the rapid detox off the patches I had no problems for the first 7 to 9 days as I was still on the hydros. and then it all hit!!!! Every w/d symptom you can put in the book hit me and it was living hell... I went to the pain mgmt. doc cuz I was going out of my mind and he told me I was having a reaction to gabapentin which I was using due to a nerve being severed in my leg on my 3rd surgery. I didn't know any better cuz it was a nerve medicine and I felt like I was crawling out of my skin!!!! I thought it was from the nerve meds. This went on for 2 1/2 wks. of sweating, sleepless nights going out of my mind along with all the other things associated with w/d's!!!! I finally went back to my pain mgmt. doc who was on vacation and I had to see his partner and she confirmed it to be w/d's and not a reaction to the nerve meds. I was devastated as my suspicions had finally come to reality... This was last Wed. and she told me to go home and put a patch on as I had a couple of 12's and a 25 left.... What kind of an answer is that!!!! I no longer have pain as I have recovered from the surgeries and am dependent upon the drug... I didn't know what to do besides follow her advise to keep from going insane.... Now I feel like I am back at step 1 again. Since putting the patch back on I have not taken a single hydro and plan to use the Thomas Recipe to try and kick this **** once and for all!!!! It has been devastating as I called my primary doc and he didn't even call me back!!!! I feel so alone with no one to turn to as I asked about Suboxone with the pain mgmt. doc. and she would not even engage the discussion. Maybe cuz i'm not her patient or maybe cuz i'm $$$$ to them!!!! If I get off the drugs I can no longer make that Benz payment for them... Who knows with how screwed up the system is.... Anyways, I live close to the Mexican border and went and picked up the necessary drugs for the Thomas recipe and am going to face the BULL come this Sunday.... I am scared and called my primary doc back yesterday and threatened complaining to the board if he didn't contact me so I can talk with him about all this and make sure I am doing this right!!!! I know it can be done and I will be successful as this has gone on too long and I feel like I have no life or energy.... I am a successful structural engineer, but am about to loose my job cuz I can't go back to work like this and have been out since my original surgery on 9/17/08. My benefits are about to run out and reality has just set in. I am very depressed but I WILL PREVAIL OVER THIS MONSTER!!!! All your comments and PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE your success stories will be much appreciated. I plan to write on many blogs starting with day 1 as this is going to be part of my plan to stay off the ****!!!!
Thanks for listening/reading and God Bless us all....
None of us deserve this misery that I believe the system wants to keep us in.... You break down a person's will and desire and you control them!!!! That is what all these insurance and pharmacy companies want along with our doctor's as we are $$$$ in their pockets too!!!!