drank again

[davidr714]

i drank again i  cant stand this i keep drinking i cant stop i m out control i went and bought more beer. i cant do anything good. the good people have helped my here but i cant stop i wish i could go to rehab but i dont have insuranse i did last year and went to brighton hospital twice last year but my insurance expireed i got to old my moms a techer at 28 they cut you off. any way i a loser i want to stop  but i cant stop.. people here have stoped but i am still drinking
david R

[dominosarah]

You will never be made fun of here or ridiculed.  Those people that did that to you are not worth losing your self worth.  They are the ones with problems.  Go and be really honest at your meetings and tell them some of the underlying issues you have mentioned here.  Sounds like you started drinking to fit in and numb your pain.  Take back your life David......You are so very important to us here and we will also help you get that self esteem up.  You stand up and be proud of who you are!!!!       sara

[gizzy32]

I agree with sarah, you need to try to be positive and right now it sounds like your gonna have to force yourself to do that. Surrounding yourself with negativity has bad effects on us and if you started to feel better about yourself I bet the drinking would be easier to stop. Since your issue is feeling like your not worthy, maybe you could talk to a professional about that, we need to get to the bottom of why we use. I am glad to see you continuing to post and be honest like you are, that is important. You already have a few that care about you on here, so you are important. Get back to those meetings and believe in yourself man, the pity party ends today:)

[davidr714]

your right drinking isnt any fun anymore all i get is a stomach ach from to much drinking that istn any fun i feel sick from drinking i want better, i am going to be honest at meetings and say i need a sponsor. i am worth it. i guess i have always felt that i wasnt any good, was made fun of in school and rediculed. i have always have felt less than. not worthy. stupid a loser since 6 th grade. thats been 16 years.
david r

[dominosarah]

I would of never thought i would be on a forum like this either but here i am.  I am an alcoholic and drug addict.  I have been clean from pills over 310 days now.  I am going to be 48 yrs old in a couple months........I just dont want to see you waste any more time.  You will never drink it fun anymore.  Those days are over.  You can be sober again and life will be good.  Drinking will only bring misery anymore.  Tomorrow is a new day and it can be a new beginning for you.........

[davidr714]

you are right drinking isnt fun anymore for me, and i been trying to make it fun again but i also realise that isnt going to happen. thanks for the support its mean a lot. i just cant emagine how my life got the way its is. my best time of my life was when i was sobrer almost two years.
david r

[dominosarah]

You matter David........Dont give up on yourself.  I know it is tough not having a job but drinking is only going to make it worse.  Drinking can cause depression......we need you to start thinking positive so when that job comes around you will be ready.

[dominosarah]

I have followed your story since you came on here.  I know you want to get sober and you have it in you to get that way.  I too remember feeling like there was no hope but there is.  Drinking isnt fun anymore is it??  Before you go out and get that beer get on here and talk to us.  Tell yourself 10 times a day you are a good person and that there is hope and you are worthwhile.  I know that sounds corny but you will start to believe that and that is what you need to do.  I am here for you........sara

[davidr714]

i dont know what is real and what ist real i just am so lost i cant figure out any thing. i guess not having a job not feeling like anything matters anymore. things used to matter. it justs seems i confused i dont really know why. thats just the way things seem.
david r

[dominosarah]

Yes you can get back on track.  You are such a worthwhile person David and you are important........We care about you and want to help you get sober.  I have been sober going on 7 yrs.  It is damn hard work but so worth it.  Are there other things in your life that are stressing you out??

[davidr714]

thanks for the support . its hard to see hope. i been going to aa for 5 years. been trying to stay sober for 6 years. anyway i geting a month sober was once easy now its hard. i mean i just cant get back on track.
david r

[dominosarah]

David i know you are struggling so bad right now.  Try and start being positive about things.  You are NOT a loser.  You are a good person.  You have to want this more than anything and be willing to fight like he!! to stay sober.  You have it in you.  Come out fighting.......AA is free.......check it out...........sara

[davidr714]

im been goin to aa for 5 years i even sposered someone i had  sober for one year eight months. then i also was sober for 9 months then 8 months and  4 months. anyway i go to aa regularly.
david r

[worried878]

have u gone to any AA meetings?  just asking cos without any aftercare, quitting anything addictive is hard.....what r u doing different ?  gotta change sumpin or nothing will change....there is also an alcohol forum here but posting here is good as well...so keep posting