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drinking after hydros
I never wanted to drink when i was on the pills. Not at all. My counselor told me it was a slippery slope and was he ever right. I have been having wine a couple of times a week for weeks and it isn't just a little. I cannot stop with just a glass or two. I want to drink and do, the whole bottle. So, i have got to stop IT! I hate myself when i do that and my husband is worried about me. It seems i have just gone from one addiction to another. So, i am going to try my best to just leave all booze alone. I believe i can do it. I have gone for months before with no liquor of any kind.
I think the other night on that vh1 show that is one of the things the dr. mentioned, binge drinkers who don't do it all the time have a real hard time getting off of it. Did anyone else pick up on that?
Anyway, one day at a time. I definitely am compulsive and have issues. thanks. TJ
I think the other night on that vh1 show that is one of the things the dr. mentioned, binge drinkers who don't do it all the time have a real hard time getting off of it. Did anyone else pick up on that?
Anyway, one day at a time. I definitely am compulsive and have issues. thanks. TJ
You folks are the best! I love reading your posts. I will keep reading them too. No drink (wine) today or yesterday. But, i know it will be coming into my mind one day soon and i am saying NO. Or at least that is what i hope I have the courage to do.
We are headed south to some sun and heat next week and i hope to be outdoors walking and changing my attitude. This gloomy northwest gets old this time of year. It is okay till after Christmas and then Yuck! Anyway, you people ROCK in my book. Thanks a million for your encouraging words of wisdom. I will keep you posted.
We are headed south to some sun and heat next week and i hope to be outdoors walking and changing my attitude. This gloomy northwest gets old this time of year. It is okay till after Christmas and then Yuck! Anyway, you people ROCK in my book. Thanks a million for your encouraging words of wisdom. I will keep you posted.
i had drank heavy yrs ago also and i said the same thing "atleast no one else was on the road" but WE WERE ON THE ROAD i am so glad to finally be clean and look at things from a different point of view i also use to get behind the wheel alot good luck to you stay strong
I see sooo many people saying the same thing. "I quit for years but slipped up". Whether it be drinking, drugs, over eating, shopping, gambling, etc.
The one thing we all have to remember is, once a junkie, always a junkie. And we have to continue to support ourselves, and reach out to others for support.
Once you taste that monster called addiction, it stays with you forever. And NA/AA helps immensely when you get those cravings.
I live in Alaska, a VERY small town. Everybody knows when you fart. But, a lot of people in this small town, are junkies, alcoholics, gamblers, etc...and and some of them are in AA/NA.
Hold your head up high and know that you have the balls to say "I am an addict". And feel good knowing that you are getting help and want to control that monster inside of you.
Detox is just the first step. It takes ongoing support to pull through the rough times that are ahead. I am a full blown junkie right now, and I am tapering off of everything. But I know that if I do not find NA/AA, or any type of addictive specialist group, I will fall back in to my deadly addictions.
Am I ashamed of being a junkie? Nope. I learned to accept what I am and move ahead. I feel blessed that I can truly say "I CAN DO THIS". And no one, NOBODY, can take that away from me.
If one thing I do or say, after I am clean, helps just one person, I will know that I have done my part and feel proud of myself.
When you walk into that first meeting, and hear everyone else's stories, look around, and feel how damned hard it is to accept and love yourself, but also how strong everyone must be in order to say "I am an addict."
Peace : )
The one thing we all have to remember is, once a junkie, always a junkie. And we have to continue to support ourselves, and reach out to others for support.
Once you taste that monster called addiction, it stays with you forever. And NA/AA helps immensely when you get those cravings.
I live in Alaska, a VERY small town. Everybody knows when you fart. But, a lot of people in this small town, are junkies, alcoholics, gamblers, etc...and and some of them are in AA/NA.
Hold your head up high and know that you have the balls to say "I am an addict". And feel good knowing that you are getting help and want to control that monster inside of you.
Detox is just the first step. It takes ongoing support to pull through the rough times that are ahead. I am a full blown junkie right now, and I am tapering off of everything. But I know that if I do not find NA/AA, or any type of addictive specialist group, I will fall back in to my deadly addictions.
Am I ashamed of being a junkie? Nope. I learned to accept what I am and move ahead. I feel blessed that I can truly say "I CAN DO THIS". And no one, NOBODY, can take that away from me.
If one thing I do or say, after I am clean, helps just one person, I will know that I have done my part and feel proud of myself.
When you walk into that first meeting, and hear everyone else's stories, look around, and feel how damned hard it is to accept and love yourself, but also how strong everyone must be in order to say "I am an addict."
Peace : )
Hey there. Wow do we have some similarities. I LOVED booze and pills. They both kick each other in so well. I remember getting my script filled and then a stop to pick up a six pack of pounders(16oz Coors Light). I would drive around till the beer was gone and then look to party. I live in a rural place, so country roads were my place to cruise. Not that it makes drinking and driving better, but at least there was no one else on the road.
Once I quit pills, the booze was easy. Like I said they were hand in hand. I understand the difficulty of stopping. Why stop what makes you feel more and more euphoric?
If I were you, I would take a look at both. If there is a pain issue. Stop the boozing. AA is a great place for this. While it is always your choice, becoming part of a program and becoming friends with sober people really helped me out.
I graduated with 9 kids in my senior class. I know the small town "pressure" of having all eyes on me. Don't let that hold you back and do what is best FOR YOU!!
Once I quit pills, the booze was easy. Like I said they were hand in hand. I understand the difficulty of stopping. Why stop what makes you feel more and more euphoric?
If I were you, I would take a look at both. If there is a pain issue. Stop the boozing. AA is a great place for this. While it is always your choice, becoming part of a program and becoming friends with sober people really helped me out.
I graduated with 9 kids in my senior class. I know the small town "pressure" of having all eyes on me. Don't let that hold you back and do what is best FOR YOU!!
It's a small world made big by the WWW. :)
I find comfort in knowing I am not the only one. I too quit alcohol and a few weeks later got rear ended and the drug cycle started.
I find comfort in knowing I am not the only one. I too quit alcohol and a few weeks later got rear ended and the drug cycle started.
Thnx for the honest answer,,alot of people shy away from na/aa especially those in small communities because of percieved shame or emberrasment but it would be people finding out because your making a positive step in your life. Think of all the times we risked being found out by negative steps,,dui,dr shopping,illegal connections,etc.I"m like you,,I think some people (especially those close) actually applauded when I started na and are grateful for every meeting I attend.Thnx for the reply
OMG......have I ever...all of those and worse... falling down drunk...D.U.I's...if you stay out there long enough w/ a drinking problem, you may get to claim all of these too! If you THINK you have a problem, you probably do, because people who drink responsibly...these issues never cross their mind... hope that is what you were asking....
question for the small town folks who drink,,have you ever been intoxicated in public,not necassarily falling down drunk but enough to do silly things or say something you may regret ? Have you ever drove while even slightly intoxicated ?
I think we are all on the same page. Addictive personality's, no doubt. I use to eat eat and eat. Had by pass surgery and lost half of me. Okay, so i can't do that anymore and moved on to other things to make me feel or not feel, as the case may be. Thank you all for your input. It does help knowing we aren't alone in all of this.
Hugs, tj
Hugs, tj
i am just realizing what an addictive personality i really have i never thought this far into it probably because i was to darn high and i think it does have alot to do with control i am very independent and i always have to give my all or nothing at all lmao...lol...in my head i truly believed everything was all good until 5 yrs later and 28 days of being clean i have realized what a mess i have made WHAT THE HE## WAS WRONG WITH ME now i know i am a full blown addict wether it be pills or alcohol if some one through a rock in my face i would probably have smoked it and would of ened down this same road but a different DOC now that i have realized it is time to truly take control and get my life back....msinsane
I'm laughing as I read your post...that's my story....see...people really can relate! Addictive personality I am also.....all or nothing.....I can relate to the housecleaning..and if everything looks good...hey..you've got control of something....but you're spinning out of control in the meantime...it's a vicious cycle!
You really don't 'need' something. You need to stay clean and sober.
It is my opinion that once we cross that barrier of casual to abuse, we can't look back. Whether it is booze or drugs, there is now a much higher chance of abusing again. 1=1000 it's bad math but true. But the good news is 0=0! It is a good lesson learned.
It is my opinion that once we cross that barrier of casual to abuse, we can't look back. Whether it is booze or drugs, there is now a much higher chance of abusing again. 1=1000 it's bad math but true. But the good news is 0=0! It is a good lesson learned.
I am also an alcoholic, have been sober for 15+yrs....once I stopped drinking, I never picked up another,,,but i still go to AA mtgs....now, Over the past 3 yrs.i have been doing vicodins..never the urge to drink..I know where that got me...now i just replaced one drug for another...things started happening in my life and I didn't like how they made me feel...I wanted something to take the pain away (emotional pain)...so in AA we say it's a THINKING problem, not a DRINKING problem. Trust me you guys, people at those meetings feel just like you.......hope this helps
i use to drink all the time and i never thought until now that maybe it was an addiction i guess i never realized i was an addict then because as soon as i started to take the pain pills i quit the alcohol kinda like R2R so i guess i did the same thing so i must have an addictive personality i traded one drug for another with out even knowing i was an adddict i think i have more issues than i thought ...lol i am so glad i am realizing this because now i know not only am i addicted to pain pills but i have an extremely addictive personality the more i think about it the more i realize everything i do i do to the extreme even litle things like cleaning the house i go to extremes.... i am so glad i am figuring myself out i am on 28 days clean and every day i am clean i am learning more and more about myself....msinsane
Okay, let's support each other. Are you able to leave the drink alone? About every 2 or 3 days, I think i just need to have some.
I will just have to get on this site and type till i get through it.
Stay with me here. TJ
I will just have to get on this site and type till i get through it.
Stay with me here. TJ
I hear you. I know what you are saying is right. I also know 1 drink is too much and 12 is too. I have got to leave that first one alone.
thanks.
thanks.
No, it's not ridiculous to worry about people seeing you there. That's why I haven't been! I'm so embarrassed! I want to go, but feel degraded....and ashamed. That's why I stay on here for my support.
One step at a time, one day at a time...I understand about the small town, etc., but those people are there for the same reason you are.. to get sober, stay sober, to help and support each other.....you will find your way...just don't pick up that 1st drink!
Thank you both for your posts. You are right, r2r. i traded one for another and i think the counselor knew exactly what would happen.
As far as AA/Na goes, i am not ready for that step. I live in a small town and i know this sounds dumb, but i might see people who know me. Is that ridiculous, or what? I will work at this and see if I can make it. Thank you for your encouraging words. I will keep posting and let you know how it's going. TJ
As far as AA/Na goes, i am not ready for that step. I live in a small town and i know this sounds dumb, but i might see people who know me. Is that ridiculous, or what? I will work at this and see if I can make it. Thank you for your encouraging words. I will keep posting and let you know how it's going. TJ
i understand exactly what you mean...I am also an alcoholic...I quit drinking almost 3 yrs ago, and i was clean from that for 3 months, when i started having all that pain and was put on pain meds....I was so proud of myself for not even craving a drink....Until i realized i had traded one addiction for another...That happens to so many...Glad you caught it early , and yes you need to stop now, you have come so far, as i remember your whole story...
YOU are stronger then any substance....U remember that
good luck
r2r
YOU are stronger then any substance....U remember that
good luck
r2r
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