fear of withdrawl(withdrawal)

Through all of this, the biggest fear for me was those 3 days. Once upon a time, around 6 years ago, I quit c/t lortabs & percs. I didnt have any children at the time & I was sick & tired of the game of it all. I got a very demanding job & after the 1st night got back on it. The fear of what I went thru ten, and then knowing withdrals from methadone is intensified by a trillion is terrifying!!! Laying in bed & my legs jumping, running to the toilet, being so cranky is just a few. I know if I can get past the 3-5 day hump it will get better. I tell my husband that the kids NEED me. That I cant just lay there & gripe & moan. He works 18hour days, and it is usually just me & my daughter. I think I am going to have to be in a rehab facility to succeed! And that makes me feel like I am taking away from my daughter. People deserve more outta life then this! I think of myself asa christian, and I am facing the devil with each pill I swallow. Now, there is an inocent baby in the mix. All along I told myself it was ok

[cnoel623]

it was ok cuz its what the doctor said. And i HAVE to stay on it while pregnant! So here's where I'm going with this. I know how hard its been on me, so what is my baby gonna go thru when he's born in a few weeks?

[gnarly_1]

HI WElcome to the forum......your life dosent have to be this way im a little confused on your post are you withdrawing from methadone or are you back on the pills scared to go threw it again??ether way you have come to a great plase for help ...no one will judge you here believe me we have seen it all and know all to well just wat addiction can make a person do
if you will share a bit more and clarafie what your going threw we can try to help this is never ez but we will try to take some of the stivng out of it for you I will wait to here back.......good luck and God bless.....Gnarly

[cnoel623]

I have been on methadone for around 4 yrs now. And got pregnant and they kept me on it all along. To say I'm not addicted would be the biggest lie. I am worried what the effects will be on the baby. So far have had plenty of ultrasounds and he 'seems' fine. I have heard he may or may not have wd's. um, they started tapering me lastweek & it has been the worst days of my life. I would love to be off of them for good but know right now I cant. The doc sd in 3 wks were gonna induce. I went from 80mgs tp 30. I'm at 30 now. Pain doc wanted me to be at 10 by Monday.

[gnarly_1]

wow I realy feel for you thats a strong taper your going to feel like you got hit by a truck.....im personal freinds with a neo/natal nurse thats job is bringing babys off methadone heroin oxy ext your baby is going to be fine as long as they know going in they will give your baby meds to help it threw the withdrawals if it has any as for you I would just live in the tub for the next few days coming off so quick is going to make you really achy I know theresc not a lot you can take being prego but ask about tylonol anything to help you here the lower the dose the worst you feel I came off 150mg of the stuff around 20mg it got pritty hard to deal with if you believe in God prayer really dose help I will say one for you keep posting for support follow your doctor orders and your just going to have to tuff it out good luck and God bless.......Gnarly