feeling better

[oxygirl487]

I'm not as sad as i was yesterday....thanks to all the jokes u guys sent me....i finally got a really really good nights sleep lastnight....hubby has been sleeping good for almost 2 weeks now....he is doing so much better that me im happy for him and very proud but yet part of me is a little jealous....is it normal to feel this way?....i feel guilty....its just that he gets up every morning takes his shower and off to work he goes and somedays i sit here and i cant even get out of my pj's.....whats up with that?......on the weekends he does things with the girls and im like ugggggg i can barely walk......im just venting i guess...better u guys hear how i feel that him i suppose....love u guys....god bless u all

[dove3053]

I get the feeling from reading the posts over the last few weeks that men maybe recover quicker as a rule than women.

I'm glad to hear you husband is doing so well. Hang on to him and he will help pull you the rest of the way.

God Bless,
Dove

[oxygirl487]

im not skiny either but i had some friends who got on the oc's and lost tons of weight...not me which im kinda glad because i didnt look as unhealty as they did...i still look good  lol......better now my eyes r so clear and pretty(not conceided)...were u guys doing oxy's or?....yeah i think the reason he is doing better is because he was only on them for almost 2 yrs where i was on them for over 4 almost 5 that has to be it...plus i could do more than he could....he would do without and go on to work just so i could have one and try to function..... i was doing 3-5  80mg oc's a day...and still felt like ****.....he could do 1 or 2 and be boucing off the walls.....but i guess its my own fault....so thats why im suffering more than he is but thank god hes understanding....i try not to complain but i still sneeze ansd sweat and hes doing just fine.....so jealous....love ya god blees  

[BlotOutTheSun]

THANX FOR BEING THERE 4 ME OXYGIRL ANY QUESTIONS YOU HAVE FEEL FREE TO ASK ME I MAY NOT HAVE THE ANSWER BUT I WILL FIND IT FOR YOU

THANK YOU SO MUCH
KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK

[uvlvrebel]

we quit smoking at the same time... kinda regret that, just so i'd have something to do, but I found that one vice leads to another, and I just wanted to be free.  I was smoking a ton while taking lortabs.  I lost 14 pounds, my clothes are baggy- not a skinny person to begin with, it's about the only thing (right now) that I look forward to each am- weighing myself to see if I lost weight.  I have started to do sit-ups, I remember when I was 16,grounded for something, oh yeah- for my mom discovering my birth control pills LOL- anyway, I had to stay in my room, I would listen to music and do sit-ups, come out to fix food- which was limited since my mom was too busy being "into herself and her divorce"- so I ate crackers and soup all the time- about a month, was miserable, grounded, but happy that i was losing weight.  this experience feels the same (on day 12, anyway), minus the music, since hubby ruined that for me (venting).  

Smoking is making you eat I'm sure.  I remember reading something that talked about how eating and smoking are inter-related, just don't remember the details...

I thought the same about my hubby- even asked him, when we first started, to share his "stash"- LOL...knew he must have had one because he was no where near as miserable as I was.  Then I thought, well, maybe he just didn't do as much as I was doing... and therefore, wasn't having the wd's like me... I really don't know why he's having an easier time.  I am jealous and mad.  I wish he could offer more support since he's doing so much better.  and if he's pretending to do better, teach me how to lie to myself and pretend too.  

[NautyOne]

I never had the heavy leg thing.  Just very weak, physically and mentally.  I also sleep well now.  As far as pain.......oh, yeah.  I am struggling with that now because I am slowly becoming more mobile.....not much but some.  That scares me because I don't know how I am gonna deal with it when I really get up off my rear.  I just hope it doesn't get worse, but because of my condition, there is a good chance it will.  That's when I am really going to be put to the test.  Just take your time.  You have good support it seems with the hubby, so just be good to yourself and try to be patient.  It has to end eventually, but I know how frustrating it can be.

luv,
Nauty.......................

[oxygirl487]

do your legs still feel heavy? mine feel liek thy weigh  100000 pounds each....and do u still have bad pain?  

[oxygirl487]

exactly...jst to feel as good as he does id be happy.....ive even let myself think"maybe he's still using"  but i knwo for sure hes not....no money missing etc....was just my addict side trying to come up with an excuse for me to sneak and do a pill i think.....u know how most people get on pain pills and lose weight or most people i know did....well, not me overe the last 4 yrs ive gained 35 pounds....but during my w/d i did lose about 5 pounds but of course thats right back on my butt  lol....now that i can eat better.....course hubby lost during c/t and didnt gain it  back...men!!!!!!.....oh trust me unfortunately im eating lol...i seem to have replaced pills with food actually....and smoking...i am smoking like 2 packs a day sometimes more....uggggggg........thanks for the reply....how r u feeling?any better? have u lost weight?....sounds like we have alot in common?...love ya god bless u and hubby

[uvlvrebel]

5 weeks, please give me hope that all 5 weren't bad... how do you do it?  you have my respect. it takes a mighty strong person to go that long feeling lousy and still maintain the resolve to "keep going".  what a wimp I am for complaining today! LOL I hope you are feeling yourself again soon.  did you have succes or try the Thomas thing?  or did you take any vitamin supp's?
-Rebel

[NautyOne]

Don't feel bad, hun.  Some people recover faster than others.  Just give it time, and you will be right with him.  I'm at about 5 weeks and still feel like poo and don't want to get out of bed half the time.....don't feel bad.  It can't last forever......Be good to yourself and be thankful that hubby is doing well, so he can help take care of things right now while you get better.

Luv,
Nauty..............

[uvlvrebel]

I feel exactly the same.  Only I can't say that he has work as an excuse on how he's able to cope. we are both c/t"ing" at home, together and he is doing so much better.  I hate it.  I don't want him miserable, I just want to feel like he does.  And if he's NOT doing well, then he has an excellent way of hiding it.  Don't have anything to offer, just the knowledge that you are NOT alone...Have you lost a lot of weight? stated that you were weak- me too, wondering if it's the weight/ not eating well/enough. -Still in my PJ's

[GoingToMakeIt]

Yes that is normal. Of course you want to be doing as good as him. Sleep sure helps face the day better. I am glad you got some.