getting clean

[maylortade]

I'm recently attending a methadone clinic,I have been addicted to pain meds since I was 18 years old,I am now 24 years old.This is the second time I have attended this same clinic,I have been off as  long as 6 month's and that's the longest.I'm now ready to began my recovery once again to kick it all in all,and would like to know anyones info on how the best way for me to began this process,ex.trying to slowly do this,or quickly try to just quit and put myself in an impatient rehabetc.Hospital,which last time I done this I detoxed all the way down from 80mg down to 20mg,by doing it 5mg every other day after I was finally down to 20mg a day I stopped the clinic and put myself in a hospital,the doctor that was there at the hospital wasn't there all the time for one and for another tried traxadone and other drugs to try and help me sleep,need to say nothing even helped,I finally left there after only 4 days,calling my mother in desperation telling her I felt like I was dying and didn't know what to do,I had told the doctor the same thing he didn't know what to do,so for the next nine days I went to my mother's house just to stay I had no money no nothing,It was the worst 13 day's of my life,It was the first and hopefully the last time I would ever go that long without one minute of sleep,I think maybe I would fall asleep fpr about 10 minutes a night maybe,but not even that really,it was the worst ever,I don't know how I didn't go absolutely crazy  after being up that long,please anyone with good info,please help,because if something doesn't happen soon I've got a feeling the whole hospital thing will happen again,and I have one word for going through withdrawl without help,that word is,SCARED.

[worried878]

From what I have read...slowly is the best way for methadone...someone will post soon...feomoon can help you...she tapered and quit...others go to suboxone and quit..I have not taken methadone but someone will post soon to help...sleep is an important part of recovery and without it, you can be weak...be sure you have a plan to get your sleep to put you at your best advantage for success...keep posting an someone will post soon with more experience

[wait2long]

there are a couple of ladies here who have successfully tapered down and /or off methadone...i am sure someone will be along shortly to help.

i do know they did it very slowly and to the lowest dose possible...and it took around a year or more...the slower and lower the better, it cant be rushed...this i do know.
suboxone is an option too, but you have to be down to 20-30 mgs a day to even be considered for this treatment...so either way, a slow taper is where you have to start hun...
Feohmoon and Penelope14 are the ladies you want to speak to i think they would be a great help to you...

hang in there...