going to quit...scared to begin

Hey all,

Im a 26 year old female and Ive been addicted to Roxy 30 mgs 4x a day and Oxy 80mgs 2x a day. for about 2 years now.
I have health insurance, but have never been prescribed these meds. Have always bought them off friends or just people i knew. I've been through the withdrawals, but only could last 3 days into them, and i wold go out and get more just to stop feeling like ****.
I just did my last Oxy 80 today and decided that i no longer want to be a slave to these pills. Does anyone know if its cool and ok to go to a doctor , be completely honest with them and tell them you have just been taking these pills without prescription? i mean its illegal but can i get help and get meds to ease or prevent the withdrawals? and if i cant go to a doc. what should i take to do this cold turkey? vitamins? sleep meds? anything at all?
any help or advice would be greatly appreciated.

thank you so much,
LadyLay

[gizzy32]

Welcome to the forum. So many people here have quit c/t and come out on top. It's very difficult, but worth it to be free from these pills. If you look in the top right you will see health pages and in there is the thomas recipe which can help ease w/d's a bit. There is also an amino acid protocol page in there too. The only sleep aid I have ever used was melatonin and it worked for me.

Stick around here and read some posts and learn how others have done it and STAYED clean. If you still have contacts around where you can get these pills so easy it will be VERY hard to stay off them. Most of us have to make some changes to keep our sobriety. Good luck, you can do this:)

[10356]

Hello what a great decision you have made for yourself.. congratulations.. You were entering your worst days when you went back on day 3 were very close to getting the painful part over with.. Sleep will be a issue during this time and nothing will really help with that.. many use the forum read talk through your wd and get support.. Hot baths and showers often as often as you can.. and I know this sounds crazy but start walking today and everyday that you can force yourself.. Your energy will be low but this will help speed up the process help with the anxiety and over all pain.. They have a product called Hyland Restful leg at walmart.. or tonic water.. it has quinine in it and should also help.. for the restless legs.. Attitude also plays a major roll in wd.. keep it strong and go to war on the oxy and you will come out victorious.. I wish you well and stick around for support.. lesa

[Dezdon]

Congrats on taking the steps to help yourself. Getting help for the w/d's (withdrawels) is not a bad idea. Especialy coming off oxy 80's. Theres two sides to this coin. I dont want to steer you away from getting help, and this maybe your best option for long term sobriety, but if you go to a Dr for w/ds to quit, this could be noted in your medical records.This may not be a bad thing, it may actualy keep you in check later when your clean.  
  Most people here that have been clean for a long time, referance their stratigy of cutting off ALL supplies, medical and dealers and attribut thier sucess to doing so. There is also a awsome feeling of victory when you do take that big step and cut/off, stop the ability to access the pills. Burn those bridges. If you have a dealer on speed dial, or have a script due to be filled in a few days, its like imposible to quit. That would take some crazy will power and most addicit just dont have it.
  If you talk to a Dr, you would want something like clonidine or ativan for the anxiety part and to keep you calm. It also helps with the spasms if you get those in w/ds. You will also probebly need some imodiam for the trips to the bathroom. And alot of people here swear by banana's. Thier easy to eat when you just dont feel good and full of the stuff to replensh the body.
  I SOOOOOOooooo wish you the best of luck. You HAVE to get in the mind set of quitting and never going back. You HAVE to tell yourself, you CAN do this and WILL do this. Cause your going to have cycles in a few days when it feels like the end of the world and you may feel like you just cant make it. Remember, those are just cycles, they will come and go, you WILL feel better soon. If you can just find the inner strenth to get past day four, its going to get SOO much easier everyday and you will feel a little better everyday past that. But you have to tell yourself, YOU CAN DO THIS!
  Also, keep posting here alot. It helps to chat about what your going through. Almost everyone here has been through eactly what your trying to do and there is so much understanding here and support. You wont find a better place to hang out. It also helps to just hang out and read. I have learned so much on this site about what opiates do to your body and peoples lives. Before i came here, i thought I was just all alone in my miserey. I couldnt believe other people were living the same hell as I was with thier Drug of choice. And they had the same goals as me. Stop the abuse and get your life back.  
Good luck and keep posting.

[bigalspal]

I'm so glad you found us!
Listen, I'm day 19 of the Fentanyl Patch & never would have made through WD's (I went through WD's at home) without this forum.
I posted ALL the time! Day & night.
Sick as a dog.
But...I made it!
I've never taken Oxy's, but I'm thinking lots of folks here know what to expect & will help you.
I used to WD from Hydro a lot, but the Fentanyl was waaaay worse.
Same WD syptoms (symptoms) x 1000.
Really watch out for THAT drug, ok??
Anyway, if I can do it, you can too.
It won't be pretty, but it is do-able.
If you can get through the first week of physical WD, you'll see the sun start to come back out. I promise!
Good luck!
Bigalspal

[stuckinOChell]

Thank you all..WOW! i had no idea of the support and wonderful ,caring people out there. I woke up today. and im just starting to feel the snakes slithering around my whole body and the need to jerk around and cant sit still. ugh! ive been throught this day 1 maybe about 20 times. I hate to admit this but i texted my connection today to see if he could stop by. i quickly texted back "never mind, im cool" and deleted his number. although i have friends that can all get them for me. they all are addicted to em just like me and amongst maybe 4 girls (including me) we all know about 15 people that can get em. One of the girls is my best friend. im just going to tell her what im doing and she will respect the fact that im trying to quit. or I will just have to distance myself.
So, just to get this straight, if i go to my family doctor and tell her that lets say. my uncle gave me a a bottle of pills and told me that they would help me with my migraines. (i do have intense horrific migraines, and my doctor knows this) So i start taking these pills and they help beautifully, blah blah basically make it seem like i took them not knowing what they were and now i feel like ****. honestly im just a little embarrased to tell her that a druggie and have been buying these off the street to het high. I currently have a script for klonopins 1 mg. 4x a day, they dont help me much or i dont notice them. but when im all out i can feel it for sure..

thanks again, i feel like i can be totally honest here, and maybe find some long time friends. anyone from vegas?

Always,
LadyLay

[toaster99]

I just posted a new topic which is very similar to yours.  Im using 6-8 roxys a day 30mg each.

Trying to figure out the best plan of action.

For me, im thinking taper or a super short term suboxone treatment, maybe one or two weeks just to get me through.

My heart goes out to you and i do know how u r feeling right now.

xoxo

[toaster99]

wow, im already feeling like ****.  my eyes are burning and my nose too.  I cant believe i feel so bad from a max of 8, (have done 10), to 5.  Any advice??  Im so sorry to be posting on your post.  This will be the last one.

xoxo

[stuckinOChell]

i caved in...god i hate myself. but i cant miss then next whole week of work. the following check is rent check. and i cant afford to miss work. so i have to make it through this one week with the oxys and roxys...and then i have to stop. im not even doin em to get high anymore. i just got the minimal amount to prevent any withdrawals to kick in at all. I feel really bad. But im commited to stop, the timing is just not right. ill be out in the street because im broke and coudlnt pay rent. dont hate me you guys :(
i really appreciate all ur support, and love this whole forum. its my new home :)

[betterwithout]

Hey sweetheart!! I really have no room to say "bad girl" cause i haven't even quit yet. I however don't take OC's, but hydros are my best friend. I set aside four days next week to do the cold turkey thing and am considering maybe doing the weening thing. Nobody as far as i've seen is holding you to do cold turkey. Weening is a possibility. This is your choice. I have family who uses oc's and want to quit but are scared of dying. The dr told them that they have to ween first. They take 80mgs twice a day as well. try and lower it, but please don't split a 80 in half for they are extended release and will kill you by gettin that all to you at once. i've seen 40 mgs split and 20s, but not 80s. Try to keep loweing them. I've also heard that ultram helps with wd cause my father had a liver transplant and has been on ocs for over a year and they were trying to reduce it now since he no longer has cancer. they said ultram helps (but is also addictive so don't use it long) and so does klonopin with anxiety. These are just things i've heard i'm not a dr, but i thought it might help. Just keep lowering...don't go higher please. I'm in the same boat. plan for your way to get better. thats what i'm doing. i have my grocery shopping/vitamin and feel better shopping for the day before. I am cleaning my whole house monday and tuesday so i can spend four days in bed if need be with no pressure. I've let my bf know too about it all so he can be my support. I know you have to work in order to pay bills, but anything is explainable. Let ur job know you will be on sick leave for a few days and give a promise to pay to your bills. They will understand and best of all you don't have to explain your whole story to them. Just say you are sick and you will be taking care of your sickness and you will be able to pay on such and such date. hope this helps. just my thoughts.
take care hun and email me anytime

[betterwithout]

not to sound like a ***, but i bet the oc's were pretty expensive that you bought as well. that money could go to rent hun and you could afford to take off. think of how much you will be saving that could make you not broke. i know around here they are worth dollar for mg. be careful. this could be the problem and if you hold out a week you could have your rent paid for early and be able to take work off for awhile!! drugs are expensive i tell myself exactly what i just told you everyday!!

[stuckinOChell]

thanks guys, unfortunately, I always have peeled off the coating from the 80's and cut them up into powder form and snorted them. the rame with the roxys, snorted them as well. my best friend gets the pills pretty cheap, round here the oxy 80's go for bout $30-$35 and the roxy 30 mgs are anywhere between 15-20 for $100. but i understand what you're saying. i could save that money for sure. my rent is 845. and i have well bills backed up like crazy. i know i can miss the week following this week. since it wont be rent check. man it is just taking alot of will power to just not crush up another pill. but im stickin to my plan. and will for sure do the thomas recipe for sure. im just still torn on wether i shuld go to a addiction specialist, i really dont care if i get flagged or whatever they call it. cuz i was never succesful in gettin these pills from docs anyway, so i know it wont affect me in terms of getting pills i need anyway. and plus i DONT want to have the option of getting any pain meds from docs for recreational use anyhow.

thanks all for not crucifying me hehe,
Lady Lay

[betterwithout]

wow, snorting them!! i've never heard of that, but there is so much ppl do these days.  anyhow i'm glad your sticking to your plan!! i tryed to add you as a friend and it wouldn't let me :( Anyhow I hope all is going well and i'm glad you have set aside a week to stop. Good luck to you hun!!

[Ryno394]

Hello everybody..Ive been searching the web for a group of people that i can share my addiction problems with. My family listens to me but they just dont comprehend how these oxys have the strongest hold on my body and mind.I wake up with oxy on my mind and its on my mind all day long. I am an amputee with severe phantom and nerve pain..it all started out legitamately but as doses increased tolerance did too and the dependence turned to addiction. i didnt know it was a problem and my mo. in law started bitchin at me about addiction and i got on the web and did a search about oxy addiction and abuse...well i found a new world out there, people were using these pills for fun and i wanted to try..i was so depressed that my foot was amputated and from the wreck that I had been in,(i almost died from a closed head injury, i was in a coma for 26 days and didnt come back to normal for about 6 months, plus numerous other severe breaks burns and injuries) i just wanted to feel better...anyhow that was 8 years ago last week . Ive quit twice, once for four years but the pain got really bad again because of some stress i was going thru and i started taking them again. as perscribed at first then more and more and more...until it doesnt matter how many i take it doesnt make me feel good, im just sicker than **** if i dont take. My habit is between 400-800mg a day. Im so tired of being a slave to this pill, and it costs so much money, i have to buy more because the script only lasts for a few days...anyway im on day number one without and am prob. gonna be on this forum a lot for support. I want to thank u all in advance for your support and willingness to hear me whine and ask questions i already know the answer to.

[123456m]

Hi nice to have you here. You are coming off a very old thread that has been googled. No one reads these anymore just google indexing old pages.
SO feel free to click on post a question and then you will be in real time.
Good to read the guidelines first
Enjoy if that is the correct word lots of help and even a few smart folks here(joking)
keep posting
Peace

[bullygirl3]

I was also VERY addicted to Roxys and Oxys, I snorted them as well, about 6 months ago i decided that it was time for me to stop blowing all mt money and health on those little blue and green pills that ruled my life. I searched Suboxone online and found a Dr in my area that prescribed them to me. Suboxone helps alot with the cravings and you WILL get off of the roxys n oxys, although i did go back and forth between Suboxone and Roxys for the first 4 months. I will warn you though, if you do decide to get on Suboxone i reccomend doing them for the shortest amount of time possible. They are much stronger then roxys or oxys and while they dont make you feel high they are VERY addicting. I am currently on Day 8 without Suboxone and i will tell you the withdrawal from Suboxone is just as bad if not a little worse then from Roxys/Oxys. Any way you look at it you are gonna get withdrawals but it is worth it! I still cant sleep much but today is much better then yesterday and i know tomorrow will be a little better then today. Keep your head up, you can do it!!!

[rxqueen67]

Hi! Welcome to the forums. I didn't read through everyone else's posts so if I repeat something they already said, I apologize in advance!! You may want to try the thomas recipe with amino acids, it helps with the withdrawal symptoms and helps your brain chemistry get back to normal. You may also want to try to go to a subuxone doctor. Yes, you can be completely honest with them and they will give you a prescription for subuxone which is an opiate blocker (from my understanding) and helps you completely with withdrawals. I had a friend who did the same thing, and she says her life has improved by a lot. You should look up a subuxone clinic near you. But be careful, because subuxone can also be difficult to get off of. But it does help your withdrawals. Especially with the amount of opiates you are taking. I wouldn't suggest cutting it CT because that can be dangerous with the amounts you are taking. I was only taking 60mg oxy a day, and I tried to quit CT today was day 2 CT and I ended up with suicidal thoughts and aches all over and blurry vision so I had to cave and take 20mg just to feel a little normal. I wish you the BEST of luck, feel free to ping me for anything if you ever need to talk. Keep us updated with how you are doing!! Much Love!