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[clicked]

Hi this is very hard to do. I am sick as a dog and can't stand it anymore. I have been taking lortab for a year. I am day 3 of this torment.  Been trying the home remedies but nothing makes me feel ok. Was so dehydrated I went to the ER last night and got some fluids put in me. Oh yeah and some demerol and toradol for the migraine I had developed. I felt good for about 2 hours then the drugs wore off. I tried to eat but it just stuck in my mouth very hard to swallow food. Gator aid goes down better.
I have scripts but too soon to fill them. Guess whos fault that is. Mine of course. I have fibromyalgia. it hurts so bad but honestly not as much as this withdrawal does. this is so sick . I take lortab 10 twice a day except when I am really bad then I take 3 in 24 hour period. I thought I was safe because  I dont take handfulls of pills.
My question is when does it stop.

[smiles4eva]

Everyone is different, I hope you can do this.  
For me, not so much.  After my 1st detox I didn't take them everyday.  I gave them to my husband.  The mental was too much and I would just say screw it.  I have legit pain, I will take just one a day.......we all know what happened next.
I hope you can taper, there are many on here who have.  You know you best.  Wishing you lots of success.

[frjs85]

just joined here and wanted to say that there is a lot of supportive individuals on here.
to clicked-- i dont take opiates for medical use but for recreation use. Either going cold turkey or significantly reducing dose are both really difficult. I have tried at both and failed every time, I think with weaning it is inevitable, theres going to b a day, maybe tomorow or 10 years from now after youve conquered the addiction which u say to urself "ahh 1 or 2 wouldnt hurt, i got it undercontrol" or something.  U kinda almost teasing urself, but than again i dont have fibromyalgia. So i dont understand the pain u r going through there. Opiates are horrible, i was addicted to cocaine for 5 years and it was easier coming off that than opiates for 1 year! amazing that the legal drugs can b more addictive than illegal ones. If i was u,idk maybe u could ask ur doctor to put u on a painkiller thats less addictive, i think they may have non narcotic painkillers, but of course they r less effective. in any case i really hope u will conquer this i fell ur pain with the withdrawls, i often said it feels like my souls being sucked from my body, it feels so impossible to live without the drug. Please take care of yourself.

[clicked]

I could have said ******** like a pet coon... but I thought bathroom issues sounded better. I want to know if I am just fooling myself with this weaning thing .  I want it to work. My husband says just stop. He went to rehab long ago and was there until he was well. I don't have that option. I need some real advise.

[buddycrunch]

bathroom issues, just made me laugh.  


I'd like say i'm past them, .....BUT NOOOOOOO!!!  was just constipated for a day.

Don't make me laugh too hard or I'll have to go in the house and change my pants!    again!

Stay with us Clicked, the battle is raging all around us!

[clicked]

Well went 14 hours with out a 1/2 pill. May seem like not much to some but every hour I can stretch it is a victory to me.  I am so afraid of this med now I have to do this. Anything that can cause this much pain and destroy so much has to be stopped. Every story I read on here makes me more and more determined.  I am on a travel job right now and I hope with Gods help (and the help of all of you) that when I finish  at the end of december I can be rid of this ****!

[Pat1956100]

That's all you can do is your best.  I agree with Self.  Make sure you eat well and take care of yourself.  The better you feel, the easier it will be.

[selfinduced]

Be sure to treat your body right while your weaning. Lots of protein, a good multi vitamin, and a bit of exercise. It will then better handle the process. xx

[clicked]

I am still jittery and can't sleep. This lets me know I am still in the fight. Still having bathroom issues so I know my body is still waging war. But I now know that this is what has to be. I am just gonna do my best.

[selfinduced]

Hey There, So glad the pill thing finally "clicked"(couldn't resist) in your head. This whole detox/w/d seems to be for most of us a process. You have a new respect for the pills that you didn't before. Another member on here (free) has said, once we have seen the damage these pills cause, we can no longer enjoy the high. SO true. Chances are your original pain will be less once you taper completely off these pills. Cheering for you, be diligent with your taper and you got this.

[Teresa1717]

Dont be sorry to us for disappointing. We all understand how this monster works and most have been right where you are now! You will get there when your ready and you are making the right first steps in reaching out here to us for support. Eventually you will have the strength to say enough is enough and we will all be right here for you when you do!

Dont beat yourself up over getting the rx's. Take one day at a time and figure out your plan and just put it into action! Weve got your back! :)

[Pat1956100]

You've got my prayers and don't ever be afraid to come back and post if you run into trouble.  Lots of us have been where you are.  Just remember it's very easy to slip back into abusing as we build up a tolerance to them quickly.  They are probably working nicely for you now because you have been off them for a few days.  Be very, very careful or you will be back in the same situation.
Hugs
Pat

[clicked]

I am feeling better and think that this may work. I have a completely different idea about the drugs. I went from thinking I needed more, to deciding to try to do with as little as I can. I have a bigger respect for how much damage this drug can do to people. I am 56 years old and it seems I have just found out I am worth the effort and that I am responsible for my own care. I know that sounds stupid, but a light went off in my head. I cannot and do not expect this to be easy. I have been so mad about having this stupid fibromyalgia that I have been medicating to numb myself. I am not willing to go through the torment again that I went through this last weekend. That means that I am accountable. I have had a couple of very close friends die and I believe I have been not dealing very well with the loss and being afraid of my own mortality. The seemed easier when I was numb. I found out that has a very high price. So far I haven't cheated. I know it will be a hard battle. I called my sister and told her about my addiction. She was very supportive. I have to be careful and try my hardest. I want your prayers.

[Dane74]

Don't beat yourself up, you are doing great.  Get yourself on a slow and steady taper plan and stick to it, and you will do great.  Make sure your husband has complete control of the meds.  Congratulations for reclaiming your life back.  

[freelysurrendering]

i am wishing you all the best. i know you will continue to come here im totaly hooked on the amazing support on this site... hang in there  try to taper off the meds slowly and then stop taking them ..there are other things you can do for the pain .all you need to do is ask the doc for  non narcotin pain relief..im pulling for you as said in an earlier post this only gets harder every time... take back your life now ..end the cycle......

[buddycrunch]

KEEP COMING BACK!


go ahead and do what ya gotta do for now, i think you are trying.
I'm really struggling with the "mental stuff", so don't feel like saying much right now, just keep coming back.

[Pat1956100]

Nobody here will judge.  I am just grateful that I don't have a script sitting waiting for me because I don't know what I would do.  
Let us know how you are doing.  We will be here for you no matter what.
You are lucky to have a supportive husband and that he is aware of your problem.
Hugs
Pat

[clicked]

This thing is bigger than me. I got the scripts. I am determined to continue on my journey to reduce the need for this med. I bought a pill cutter and halved all my pills. I have taken only 1 pill today 1/2 this morning and 1/2 tonight. and my body is screaming for more. However I realize that I have to remain strong. My husband has promised to help me and monitor my med intake. I am sorry to dissapoint all of you who were pulling for me. I am committed to reduce my meds, If I can I will continue to come here and get strength and support from all of you fine folks.

[Pat1956100]

I am still feeling rough.  It is really hard.  I am just hoping to get the withdrawals over with and then I know I will have to deal with the mental stuff.  I have to stay clean this time or I will lose everything.  I need to get back to feeling good and dealing with everything that I have neglected for so long.  That is why I don't want to see you start again.  I just don't want to see you having to go thru this again and maybe ruin your life.  It's a horrible disease and we do so many things for pills that we would never do in our right minds.  I wish I had stayed clean the first time I tried 6 months ago.  I would be in a lot better position right now. The hole just gets deeper and deeper.  Sorry for rambling.  Please keep posting.  I know how hard it is.

[clicked]

Pat how are you doing?

[clicked]

Omg this mental thing is tough. Up and down. I am shaking like a leaf
I wish this stuff would stop.

[Pat1956100]

If you don't have the strength to cancel it. don't pick it up yet.  Let yourself feel better first.  You are almost out of the woods.  If you pick it up and take them you will have to go through this all over again when you run out the next time.  You will just become more and more emotionally drained each time you have to go through this hell.
This is about my 5th time doing this so I know how hard it gets.  Think long and hard before you get that script.
Hugs
Pat

[littlebit667]

There are several here that are in the medical profession in one way or another and they are just like the rest of us.  Doctors don't always have all of the answers.  My doc thought she was helping me with my severe back pain and for awhile she was.  But, at the end I told her what was going on and she helped me get back on my feet.  

Telling her was the HARDEST thing I have ever done.  But, by doing so I cut off my drug source.  

Keep coming here to garner support and strength.  I promise it helps...it sure helped me!  

[Teresa1717]

Is there anyone else that you can have do it?? Your husband? A friend? Trust me honey, IMO if your not strong enough to cancel an rx, then there is no way your going to not be able to get them filled and take them! Somehow, Someway, you need to cancel that rx!

[clicked]

  I know I am not strong enough. I am feeling really bad again.  I don't think I have what it takes to cancel the scripts.