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[oxygirl487]

I've been taking pain  pills for about 4 yrs now and recently started doing oxy's 80mg,3 or 4 a day. I've been doing these for about 8 months straight  I have 2 kids and i feel like I'm letting them and my whole family down...(no one knows except my husband hes an addict to)I'm just sick and tired of withdrawing eveytime I'm out of pills.he can't work without them,i cant function.I've never made it more than 1 day so can anyone tell me how long this will actually last?(did my last oc last night at 10pm) I've also heard that withdrawal from oxy is worse.Is that true? I think it's all bad myself..well I hope someone can answer my ?'s  and maybe give me some encouragement before i go to my "friends"house and spend money i don't have...thank you for reading

[jessica555]

Good to hear back from ya.  I am scared about your heart skipping beats.  I know for a fact that when you are in serious withdrawal your heart rate will sky rocket.....mine goes up to like 147.  But I have never felt the heart palpitate nor have I ever heard of anyone elses.  You really might want to go to the ER and have them check that out.  I think they can give you a prescription for Clonodine which some people say have helped them thru their w/d's.  That and ativan sometimes the hospital will prescribe as protocol for withdrawal.  For me though, neither worked.  THe Clonodine though will bring your heart rate down.  IT made me very dizzy and felt like I was going to faint every time I got up.  Yuck!!!  I hope you do consider getting that heart thing looked at.  That is not a very good sign and worries me.  Please take it into consideration, you have a family that needs you.  You know your body better than anyone else and if something does not feel right it probably isnt.  Be safe and take care.....I will post later.  Tomorrow will be the start of day 1 for me in HELL........I am already freaked out over it and anticipating the worst.  MY mind is playing tricks on me already.  Man, this disease sux.  Well keep me posted on how your doing.  Hugs~Jess

[oxygirl487]

hey sweetie thank you so much...i just dont wanna replace one habit with another u know..my kids r 12 and 6 and pretty independant   thank god  lol   ive heard bad stories about methadone too i feel for u girl but ill be here im here now sick as heck...no maybe to it we will support each other ok? my heart is skipping beats..do u know if thats a withdrawal thing or what?never had this before weird...this is alomost as long as ive ever went without breaking down and doing one ive been at 24hrs before is all that was months ago....im sick of wasting money on oc's   when i could be shopping with my girls..It's at a point now that we r so behind on our bills its not even funny weve pretty much sold everything we havw worked so hard to get    if i have to i will sit here and type to u all night if thats what it takes to get us thru this....ive never talked about it with anyone and i c that it does help alot...so u hang in there to girl  we havea long road ahead i think   love u take care

[jessica555]

HI hun...
I too have a husband and 2 kids.  I know the feeling of withdrawaling and having to take care of the kids.  Its nearly impossible.  I used to be on oxys, norcos, and fentanyl for about 6 yrs and then switched to methadone (for about 3yrs) to get off the pills (BIG MISTAKE).  I too am trying to quit taking opiates and get my life back for myself and my family.  It has robbed so much joy and time away from my kids.  They are 5& 7 and starting to realize that mommy is always sick all the time.  Or sad.  I definitely want to do this for myself but its the children that are making me really do it.  I will be either cold turkeying tomorrow off of methadone (the worst drug ever to c/t off of) or I will be going on suboxone which is going to send me in serious precipitated withdrawal because I messed up and couldnt go the 48 hrs without taking anything before the sub.  So either way I will be in the same boat as you and maybe we can support one another thru this.  I know that myself my withdrawals seriously are so painful and I do feel like I am going to die.  The worst for me is the bones aching, skin crawling and feeling my legs and arms flutter and jerk like they want to fly away.  That is when I get weak and want to give up.  HOpefully we can do this together....keep in touch & keep posting. Take care, jessica

[imanaddict]

What works (or  doesn't) for one may not be the same case for you. I haven't hardly heard of ANY failure rates for the sub, so maybe it could work for you if you wanted to give it a shot. I was ready and willing to try absolutely anything instead of going through the hell of withdrawals with Norco. I cannot even begin to imagine what it would be like with Oxy's!

I wish you luck! Please keep us posted!!

[oxygirl487]

no suboxone is not an option i have a friend who tried that and it didnt work for her she now is actually taking those and ocy's  so i think cold turkey is my only option here  

[imanaddict]

Are suboxone an option for you? if you need any information on it, I posted all the info. I could find on my profile.

[oxygirl487]

why did the dr prescribe oxy to u while pregnant? if u r not addicted now  please do not take these   if u do u and ur baby will become addicted and what im going thru right now is terrible and i wouldnt want to c u or ur baby go thru this   DONT TAKE THEM

[melaniee]

can someone please  help me i am 10 weeks pregnant and have a script for 10 mg oxycontin and i am asked to take 1 to 2 a day!  is that a horrible amt. for a fetus..and what about birth defects...please help me

[jenny8575309]

your not going to die.  You'll wish you were dead, but you'll be ok.  There are things you can do to help. some of the things I know are here, but others know things too.  Vitamins can help.  Your legs will probably feeling like your want to move them.  You'll feel like you want to jump out of your skin. You'll be very uncomfortable.

1. Hot baths.
2. Heating pad for the muscle aches
3. Ibuprophen
4. Brand name Immodium AD
5. Tylenol PM for sleep  (I haven't taken codeine in 30 days, and I still have sleep issues)


good luck, and I look forward to hearing about your milestones of success!

[oxygirl487]

thanks guys... u give me hope...i havent even made it 24 hrs yet but i know i can do this...im sick now shaky, diarheaa,stomach cramps and my back is killing me...i know ive not saw anything yet but if u guys can do it so can i    sorry i can barely type  and my mind is very foggy    i think ill go lie down in a few   can withdrawal from oxy's kill u?cause i feel really realy weird right now   love u guys    later

[jenny8575309]

I made up my mind it was time and I did it.  My sickness, depression, anxiety, hopelessness, helplessness, and my feelings of unworth, made me angry, determined and hopeful.  There is no try, when it comes to pills honey your right.  No try, only do or do not.  (yes its from starwars)  One month ago, all I could think about was pills.  Today, I'm thinking about the new sober friends I've made, and what I'm going to do with the rest of my life, that I've been given a second chance at.  NA is helping  me oxy, it can help you too.   Being clean, I'm upset at all the life I've wasted and all the people I've hurt.  Not only this time around, but my whole adult life.  I haven't always used, but I've never had any piece of mind.  My problem is myself, not drugs, drugs were just something I used to get away from myself.  You have to have a plan to STAY clean.  Some sort of program, so you can fix either fix what's wrong or learn to accept it.  NA is completly anonymous, you don't have to worry about your family finding out.  Tell them your going to aerobics class or something.  Another thing, if you quit, and your husband doesn't, that could be another problem.  I had a bf of a year and a half, he didn't quit, I broke up with him, and I do not regret that decision in the least.  Your sick oxy, your family's sick, I would suggest you and your husband making a serious commitment  to get clean, and to do whatever it takes to get there.  love you!

[natalile]

( DON'T NO WHAT HAPPENED THERE ENYWAY ) my sleep paterrn will come back just like my look's are coming back .When i first started posting on here i was really vain i really want to look normal again & it's a great feeling when that happen's you can see the difference's.well i think i've done your head in enough by now lol. I tend to start waffeling on & on & on ha ha. Keep posting on her coz where all here to help you just fight hun you've got it in you. To start posting i think you've made a huge start well done nat :)

[natalile]

hi & welcome to the family he he. We'll i car't lie you are going to go throgh hell for the firt two week's the first will be the wosrt emagin having the flu but every muscal is in pain, i don't think eny explanation of how you are going to feel will prpare you for it.BUT o n the plus side soz about that but you have to no hun. Enyway as i was saying you have to really want to get clean every fibre of you must want it. But the joy's of a few week's fain will way over take the feeling of having to rely on a pil to get you through the day, your sence's will come back that you didn't even realise you where missing. quality off life with your kid's will be a joy.God i must sound like a right preacher & belive me i'm the biggest not preacher.I've only been clean 18 day's & one relapse. Jenny is a good person to take to as shez new to recovery just like us & we can all be strong.I also have a partner who i've been with for 14 years he's a user aswell but were doing it together which can be hard but at the same time my fella's my rock i must admit. I do think i would ov crumbled before now a few time's.I feel stronger some day's you will have your up's & down's after the 2 week's. the pain's will go i don't no the exact w/d of the pill's you take but i take heroin & my sleep paterrn is shot to bit's that will come back.  

[oxygirl487]

oh my god   how did u do it? no trust me they wouldnt understand ive heard then talk about other people on pain pills so no....i do want to quit my whole life revolves around if and when i can get a pill....yes i want my sanity back  pills make u crazy u dont realize it at first u think its a good thing and boy can u clean  lol  but is after u realize ur addicted is when it begins to suck  i am so goona try to do this no  I HAVE TO DO THIS!!!   thank you  ur such and inspiration to me   god bless u and ur family

[jenny8575309]

I was sick for 2 weeks, and I have 3 kids. And I work. Are you sure your family would die?  Alot of people get hooked on painkillers I would think they would respect your determination to quit.  You will feel bad for at least a week.  I wanted to kill myself.  It's like detoxing from herion.  I didn't realize what I was messing with.  You'll have diarreah and muscle aches, you'll feel like ****.  You have to really want to quit bad, and make up your mind to do it.  Good news, it will pass and a point will come that you will feel better everyday.  You can have your life back, you can have your sanity back.  Do you want that?

[oxygirl487]

unfortunately yes i do snort them....i started with a script from my dr of percs 7.5/500   90 of those for a broke back(car accident)then i started doing more and more of those.. by this time my husband had started taking mine(complaing with back pain)so he ended up going to the dr and getting a script also etc...then we did our first o c about 8 months ago....no he isnt worse than me i cant function either its just that when we r out of pills mainly oc 's (percs dont  help anymore) hes sick and he cant work    butr he did go to work today because we r both so fed up with this ****  its like we both woke up so mad at our situation   we r both so ready to stop   we both do can do upto 3 oc 80's in one day each but can make it on one each(i get a script for them) but end up buying more and more each month.....any hope for us?

[oxygirl487]

I don't want to use anymore   yessss I'm so tired of this **** its a never ending hopeless cycle...yes he wants to quit to he actually got up and went in to work today with nothing  thats a good first step for him   im sure tommorrow will be a different story    how am i suposed to b sick for 2 wks with two kids?god i feel so hopeless   im sorry ive been starting to withdrawal for about 5 hrs... now any ideas on a good plan?   i cant do rehab   my family would die if they knew    thanks for responding

[beachtowel]

I'm curious are you snorting the 80mg oxys?

You mentioned your feelings of letting your 2 kids and your whole family down.......
My question is how about yourself?
I think your letting yourself down........your so lucky a good family two beautiful children..........

Your husband sounds worse than you, he can't work without them?
He could work without them if he wasn't using......

W/Ds vary from person to person.....it depends on what drug your using and how strong.....and a big factor is how long you were using..........

You mentioned four yrs it that the total amount of time you have used and has it always been oxys?

[jenny8575309]

don't do it!  You don't have to do use anymore.  Aren't you tired of having pills run your life?  Arent you tired of feeling powerless?  Two weeks  for the physical with the first week being the worst.  The mental/psychological withdrawls could last much longer.  You should have a plan, or at least think about how you will deal with this in the future.  Is your husband wanting to quit also?