higher power

[bluewaterlover]

It has been nearly impossible to have God as my higher power when I put all my thoughts into pills.

[dragon999]

So many people that going to church will heal all their addiction problems, but I have a personal relationship with JESUS. I have found that focusing on the one that said on the cross "It Is FINISHED" then I realize I am free from every addiction and bondages that this world offers. Just like checking the bank account of yours and finding out you were rich. A personal SAVIOR is the best choice. But i am saying look at JESUS, HE GAVE US the total victory over what Satan stole in the garden of Eden. Freedom from the power of sin; AKA Addiction.

[weaver71]

It became more clear to me when a meeting member asked me, "So you're so all powerful and in control, you can't think of anything more powerful than yourself?" I looked at this man with 26 years clean after iv cocaine use and thought, "Well, you have more power over your addiction than I have over mine." That became an on-going process for me, thinking of all the people and things with a HIgher Power than I have. God to me is an infinite mystery that the human mind can't rap itself around. Creater, source of life, infinite being, how could my limited little human self ever put all that inside my tiny little brain? Solving the universal questions is not the goal of my spiritual life, solving my individual problems and living a life of grace in sobriety is my goal for now. The little pieces of "God" that I can glimpse, like falling in love or selfless service, that is enough to help me get over my obsession in addiction. I don't have to have a defined Higher Power to improve myself, but I must humbly recognize that I am not the Highest Power in the Universe. 30 addicts sharing in a room to me is a miracle, that's enough power to start believing. I think of the acts of God as anything that all human hands combined could not do. Make a seed for example, simple by nature, impossible to replicate. Sometimes I have to be satisfied with seeing where God has been, not necessarily knowing exactly what performs all the miracles I witness, but knowing for certain, it was something more powerful than myself. Don't try too hard, looking for God is like searching for the back of your head, one must rely on faith and those who affirm that you're head is still in tact. It takes two mirrors and exact angles to see the back of your head, and then you're only seeing the reflection, not the real thing. If you can believe your head is there, because it's working and you can feel it, then you already have faith. I know my addict mind loves to over-think anything. Those who seek, find, those who ask are answered, and those who knock, the door will be opened. You just have to be WILLING to believe.

[BluCrystal]

Go to church.  Get involved in church functions.  Talk to your church leader and see if that person has any good, Christian help for you.  God Bless - Blu

[OpenMind24hours]

Personally, I first saw my higher power as simply a power greater that me that can help me. For example: a little over 6 months ago I finally wanted off my daily drug disaster. I felt powerless and my life had become unmanageable. I also had become spiritually bankrupt you might say. (long story which I'll spare you from lol)  So, I came here to this forum and typed out my story. Bingo! The very first hit on my post was vicki595 (God bless her) who wrote "Hi there-  You should be able to do this...it sounds like you want it." Just by reading that, a feeling of "I think I'm going to be okay" came over me. The powerlessness wasn't completely gone, but I felt much better about what I was about to go through. And then I felt more power over my plight from all the following posts from the members of this forum. I got quite a few comments. This group instantly became a power greater than me. A Higher Power you might say.

As for me, a HP can be anything but me and my own addict's thinking. I personally find that my own thinking will never fix my own thinking. My own thinking got me into that mess I just came out of. These pe

Now I'm completely back to having  "God as I understand Him" in my life. And I ask Him for help every morning without fail. I "don't leave home without Him!!" But that's me, and it seems to work for me.

[meegWpaw]

hey blue I've always had trouble with the higher power thing too I mean as God per se but god can be whatever u want it to be.  if you want to get off the pills then you need to stop worshipping them.  well, I had to.  after you get clean you need to find something else to anchor you.  usually this is something that was important to you before you started using.  just my .02