home at last

[Dane74]

Hey all, well i did it, little over 30 days clean and home from rehab.  It feels great to be home and back in the swing of things.  I am feeling and doing great and last night was the first night i actually slept, i am finally starting to feel good and its a great feeling.  I  have allot of work to do making amends with the hubby but over all its going great.  I already visited my therapist at home and i will be seeing her 2 times a week.  Monday my plan is to call the pain clinic and say i no longer want to be a patient, now thats going to be a challenge but i know it needs to be done since that was my one and only source of getting my pills.  I just hope they don't ask questions and just make it easy for me to cut the cord sort of speak.  The mental part has not kicked in yet, but i know it will eventually but as of now i am just looking forward to getting my life back to normal and making the best out of each and every day.  I am slowly building up my strength and energery during the days and just taking it easy when i have too, all i keep telling myself is that its another day clean.  It feels great and i must admit, going to rehab, staying in rehab, detoxing from the terrible opiates was the hardest thing i ever had to do in my life but it sure was worth it!!!!  Everything is brighter and better and i look forward to see what the future holds for me and my family.   For all those suffering out there, my heart goes out to you but please know it is so worth it to fight, it does get better i promise, i didn't think it did, but it does.  Your life is so worth it!!!!!!!

[Dane74]

Marie,

I did go on subs for only a week, and sweetie there is NOTHING enjoyable about kicking these darn opiates, BUT what is enjoyable is the fact that i did kick it and life is so much better clean and opiate/benzo free!!!!!  I am feeling good and just making sure that i am doing everything right this time around and using all the tools that i learned in rehab to help me stay on the straight and narrow.  Stay focussed and know that you and your baby deserve a happy healthy self!!!!

[Dane74]

Thanks guys for all your kind words, i could have never made it this far without the help and support from you all.  I am really not sleeping, still feeling very anxious, sweaty palms and feet....Is this normal?  Also, i am so scared of the mental part, so far i have no desire to use and i am mentally not feeling any impulse to use, will this change?  I know i hit my rock bottom and put me and my family through hell, so i never want to go down that path again, i cut off all ties to get opiates and i don't want to ever get that mental crap.  The detox/rehab is far to fresh of a reminder of what i went through and i know i can't mentally or physically handle going through that again, so my question is am i safe from the mental crap, i am just shy of 40 days?  Today i go to the primary doc and tell him the truth and have him put in my chart NO BENZO"S NO OPIATES!!!!  Then i have completed all i have control over and i still see my therapist twice a week.  I really feel empowered and learned so much in rehab that i can't imagine that i would mess all my progress up.  

[GA_Needs_Help]

I am sooo proud of you.  It is awesome that you aren't on subs.  I went the other route.  Five weeks later i am still on subs.  I am really not able to enjoy getting off the Opana ER because this is such a problem!  I guess I am going to get the last of my rehab experience (another detox). I am probably leaving Monday.  It is very hard leaving my daughter again.  But, you give me strength and hope.  I hear your joy in your last post.  So you are feeling good now, right?? It is very becoming on you.  Sending you a big hug.  What a testimony you have!
Marie

[dominosarah]

I am thrilled to hear you have taken care of this!  I had a speech all lined up had you not!!  lol

[LeaAnn807]

Hey!  Way to go!  I'm really proud of you, girl!

[Dane74]

Hey All,

   I just called the pain clinic and said i know longer want to be a patient!!!!  It was that easy no questions asked.  WOW, what a feeling, next, going to the primary to discuss my addiction and to make sure he can't prescribe me benzo's any longer.  So i covered all my sources and i feel good and empowered by it all.  Now if i can only get some energy and sleep i will be great.

[marycarmel]

Welcome home and congratulations!!!!

[gnarly_1]

Hey congrats Dane on making it threw the whole program you have done well now just apply what you learned get pluged into some form of aftercare and everything will work itself out glad to have you back good luck and God bless......Gnarly

[lulu747]

Dana,
Welcome home!  I am so proud of you...You are on the road to healing and reclaiming your life!  Take care of the things that you can control and let go of those you can't.  Be gentle with yourself, remember it's a marathon not a sprint.  Rebuilding takes time and patience and a lot of love.  You've come a long way, baby....Be proud of you!
xo
Lu

[dominosarah]

Call the pain clinic right away and get that over and done with.  That will be a huge weight lifted off your shoulders.  

[magnoliaooo]

So glad to hear you are doing so well, I always KNEW you had it in you honey!!!! Good Luck!!!!!!!

                                           Love Mag

[london_man]

Congratulations :)

[atthebeach]

Welcome home dana. You did great. Congrats on your clean time . Go easy.keep it simple one day at a time. You are on the healing and recovery road. Be patient. Keep the faith.
Praying for youu and sending hugs
Debbie

[minn66]

Hi Dane, congratulations. I just wanted to say I am happy for you. Glad you are home and hope all goes well. :)