hooked on codien contin

[lmb]

this is a very long story,hoping you can help me through this,thank you,i will post probably every day its just that im scared, about someone finding out who i am!it started with tyl#3 then perc,now codien cotin 200 mgs,a pill,i take more than 5 of these a day thats on a good day,well this stuff is unbelievable you think things are fine until one day you want off then poof your hooked!i am healthy to my knowledge.but now i want off!!!i hope someone in here has gone threw this stuff,codien contin...soo many pain killers soo little time i want off please suggestions,i have kids job,fiance,going to get married should i wait to get off these meds,oh yha stuck on dizapam too.until i get married then go off. far as i no its gonna be a battle!!! but who i am im up for it the reason for waiting is to get more info first? im really scared every day i think about it min after min.           i will let you no how easy it was for me to get these pills,and how easy it is for the ones giving the meds soo easy to forget.      please dont wright anything in here for me to get scared,     thankes for your support!!!!!!!!! marriage i want to first because im scared that i wont be the same guy for a long time

[Its ok]

I have to tell you that I have been there and done that and still struggling. No body, I mean no body knew or knows about this addiction I have. I have a great job a wonderful husband and a two year old girl. It seems from the outside, I have all that I need but inside I am filled with pain. Pain from child hood pain from mom disowning me. Long story short, I understand. Take each day one by one. I withdrew for about 10 days and I am not trying to scare you but it sucks. However, I was still able to do my job and take care of my husband and child, I just felt like ****. I took lots of Tylenol Pm's to help me sleep at night. The Diazapam, I have not been addicted to but hey you gotta like that feeling. I think if we could just find a way to deal with the stresses of the world and life's ups and downs, then we would be ok. Also a lot of prayer. I don't know where your life or walk is with God, but mine is struggling. I know right from wrong and I know I have done and sometimes still do wrong. But God is forgiving and will never leave you. I have found that when I am at my lowest, is when I feel him there the most. But for yourself and for your future you have got to get a hold of this. Don't let the pills control you, you control them. I know its hard when you hear that little Devil on your shoulder saying AW come on its just one, or two. But the point is, we should not be abusing our bodies this way. I will pray for you and everyone else struggling as I am.

[lmb]

hi. thanks for the post!like i am the same i guess u could say,great wife to be soon,well in aug,is the big day!looking forward to it..best day..she knows about my problem shes not happy about it but would love to see me clean,as for myself,it would be the best ever thing im gonna do it just that stupid little devil on my shoulder keeps making exscuses,,its like i get my prescriptions no problem,to be honest i feel like not going to get them,and then suffer the consinquences,but im scared i will die or something like that..i need to go in detox,or some kind of programe.i believe i need it ..everyone thinks oh he only takes this stuff to get through the day working,well thats not the truth . i take way to much off these pills,they dont no that neither,,,bottom line is i guess im gonna need someone to HOLD MY HAND threw this garbage.............thank you again,,,,,,,,,its ok,,,,,,,,

[Its ok]

Bless your heart. I understand. At least your soon to be wife knows about it and I never realized how addicting they are. I will pray for you, even though I am still struggling myself. I am very disappointed in myself because I was clean for a month and then thought Oh well I will just get them for my back and take them only when I need them. Of course you know that did not work. I don't think anyone can "hold your hand and walk you through it" you have to make up your mind. Like I said I did it, I was so proud of myself, the world was a better place. I was not so clouded minded, but I slipped. I saw an MTV special on Oxycotin and that is something you do not want to mess with. It will kill you. You will be ok and I will be support for you, we can struggle together. Do it for your wife, I am going to do it for myself and family. Life was so much better when I was not dependent on them. Back to square one but I know I can do it. Keep your head up and trust me, you can do it. It might suck royally but you can do it. Just remember, when your done with it life will be so much better. I just wish I had not slipped. I can do it again. My heart goes out to you because I am walking right along with you. Keep posting if you want and I will check in atleast once a day.

[lmb]

thanks again for getting back...i hope you and your family are doing good . for me its going good,only for that stupid addiction.for now this is only talk regarding my addiction,and soon enough it will be reality.some people say that it is hard for them,and some say it is not to bad.i hope in a way that i will have the easier route with alot of prayer,with the support of my wife to be ,it will make things alot better,thank god she is on my side to do this.my son the youngest is a big motivater,dont want him seeing this around him,,cant wait till the day i wake and im clean from these pain killers.hope the same for you and your family,and for anyone else reading these posts can you reccomend a way to ease the discomfort of getting off codien contin it would be very helpfull,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,thank you                                                                                           really appreciate this site thx again,lmb

[AnnieS]

Hi lmb, my name is Annie and I feel your pain. I was also addicted to oxycontin. Opiates are a hard thing to withdraw from but it sounds like you're on your way to recovery just by knowing the hold they have on you and wanting to quit. Read down through other messages on this forum and you will see that you are not alone my friend. There are many of us who are fighting the same battle. Keep your eyes open for all the advice and vitimin therapy. You will find help and encouragement here. Welcome to the place. Peace, Annie

[lmb]

hi , ive takin tons of tylynol #1 not bragging its that long ago they are easy to get, to easy i think,long time ago i would finish my prescription early as usual then i would go to the drug store to buy #1s hundreds and hundreds,doctor still askes me how do i live ,he says anyone else taking this stuff as much as i did  they would be gone! i dont no,anyway i think a big thing to me still being on this garbage. is due to the easy access to the tylynol 1s ,,,if i could go back in time before this major drug problem,i would not take the tylynol #1 . thats what acctually kept my addiction going,then i would go to the docs get the threes run out of those go again get the ones,,,if only they were not sold it wouldnt be the day it is now....please.i know for a fact it is hard not to go get them the next step u could be like me ,,please do not go there..you dont deserve that kind of life no one does...if you can give those up please do! thank you

[KariJam35]

hi I just want to say thankyou for posting a message back to me!
Im going to try and not bye them anymore and I dont have very many left here. Im having trouble understanding WHY is it (this sounds dumb) that we or I cant beleive it is possible to not have any kind of buzz? Im not unhappy I dont think anyhow Im married with 3 boys and things are really not that bad. Mind you I blame my husband for my unhappiness all the time but it has to be the drugs and alcohal (alcohol). (when I think Im unhappy) I dont know I guess Im just confussed and dont like to think I can never have that feeling again.Please dont think Im feeling sorry for myself cause Im really not.I need to ask one thing though.
With codeine withdrawl can it cause you to get headaches alot?
Anyhow thankyou very much again!
Kari

[sunny1]

Kari
3 kids here too. 35yrs. old and still kicking...yes, the codiene withdrawal will cause headaches, depression and many other physical aches and cramps and you will feel like you have a bad case of the flu for up to a few weeks. Do not kick yourself
our spouses do that enough...Just focus on getting better.  i mean, would you be angry at yourself if you had cancer or a car wreck.  NO.  So, do not take it personally.  This stuff is a trap and some fall into it and some do not.
lol sunny

[KariJam35]

Hi again. Im doing like you said trying not to blame myself to much. Im on my 10th day with no alcohal (alcohol) but I broke down and took tylonal 1's after work cause the headache was too much to get me through making dinner and everything else. My husband is very supportive BUT Im afraid if I do relapse in anyway he will be extremly upset and dissapointed in me. That could be a good thing cause im more likly to try to stay clean and sober this way its just alot of pressure. He totally HATES me taking tylonal he has actually hid them until I pracically begged him to give them back cause I said I had a really bad headache which at the time I did'nt I just needed the high from the codeine.
He dos'nt understand the addiction at all really but he is good with me.

[hjp]

Hi Kari, hope you're hangin in there...just a few thoughts about your comments thus far...you sound very depressed.  I think you should start with a good doctor to check you out.....call the nurses at the local ER, they'll be able to tell you who you need.
You should also hook up with a good shrink, one who has experience treating addiction.  Don't do more than 8-10gm of tylenol daily..even that may be too much if you are drinking alot. Super tough on your liver.  Be careful and get some help.

[KariJam35]

Hi everyone I just found this web site last night cause Im desperate to find someone who is going through the same thing as me, not that I want to see anyone suffering I just feel alone.
I will try to keep this as short as I can ok? I have stopped drinking for 9 days now.Drinking is not my only problem Im hooked on codeine. It started with tylonal 3's but now cause they are hard for me to get I take tylonal 1's cause I can bye them at any drug store.How convenient. NOT! When I think of it Ive been taking these dam things for over 3 years now.Sounds dumb but I dont enjoy my wine without taking 3 to start and 2 an hour later and so on until I go to bed. This has been going on every single day no matter how many times I say I wont do it. Anyhow like I said I have stopped drinking for 9 days buttrying to stop the tylonals but I get headaches sooo bad I cant stand it anymore. Im starting to think there is something else wrong with me. I cant live this way anymore I want to know what it is like to actually live without the high. I blame the world for my addictions but I guess its not doing to change even if I keep doing this I dont know Im confussed.
Anyhow thankyou for taking the time to read this.

[sunny1]

HI KARI
I AM NOT REALLY SURE WHAT "PILLS" YOU ARE TAKING BUT THE FIRST THING I WOULD DO IS GET A COMPLETE PHYSICAL FROM A "GOOD" DOCTOR
(HOPEFULLY ONE THAT KNOWS ADDICTION OR HAS BEEN ADDICTED) THEY ARE LESS APT TO THROW PILLS AT YOU. I HAVE BEEN "CLEAN AND SOBER" BEFORE (NOT NOW...BUT ON THE WAY AGAIN) AND IT IS A WONDERFUL GREAT PLACE.  NONE, OF THOSE SICK ASS THOUGHTS ETC...BUT THE TRUTH IS LIFE IS NO BED OF ROSES BUT WITH DRUGS/ALCOHOL IT IS A BRIAR PATCH!!! ALCOHOL DETOX WAS NOT TOO BAD. I 1-2  PINTS PER DAY  10 YEARS AGO (I WAS A FULL BLOWN DRUNK).  THEN I HAD TO STOP. I WAS OUT OF THE GAME.  2-3 WEEKS PASSED AND I PUT BACK ON SOME WEIGHT, LOOKED GOOD AND FELT BETTER.  HOWEVER,  YEARS LATER I WAS RUN OVER BY A CAR AND THEN CAME THE PILLS.  ANYHTING ALL THE TIME. THAT IS WHERE I AM TRING TO GET HOME FROM TODAY.  BUT I TRIED TO KEEP IN MIND THE DOOPE THAT REALLY KILLS YOUR NOBODY.  AND TYLENOL IS VERY VERY BAD IF TAKEN MORE THAN DIRECTED OR EPECIALLY WITH ALCOHOL.

[lmb]

thanks annie.i really didnt believe i was hooked until one day i was going to work(self employed)my van was gone.no insurance,all gone!out of my 16 yrs of doing what i love,was gone well no more money to get my prescriptions out.the day came i ran out of these codien pills ive been taking daily for years,i could not get them out,did i ever cry.2 days after none,i knew i was hooked.do or die i knew i had to get these darn things out,i managed but wasnt happy..till this day it hurts to think it ,know it .it isnt good period...today im still taking codien contin,alot of it .it makes me soo sad that this is driving my life.top it of valium,restoral,daily!i came to this site bye accident and to me this is acctually a blessing,to no im not alone,thanks again everyone for listening,im am very happy with the feed back,..the thing is the day is coming very soon to get my life back..im gonna do it,and when i do it im gonna have a lot of people to thank,because its all starting here,im talking about it almost on a daily basis is what helps me..soon i will walk in to the doctors and instead of sitting down not saying a thing writing out my script,,,,say no i want off,,that is my first goal...thanks again everyone

[sunny1]

Kari
Hang in there!!! That is very right.  Tylonel with alcohol can SHUT the liver down.  We never know when it is going to happen
(hours-years???) but eventually when a toxic level cannot be broken down by the liver it will shut down and become almost useless and it is very hard to get a transplant.  In the meantime tell your doc. what is up.  Maybe he can help???  There are other less risky things you can do until you get it sorted out and decide you are done.  I know there is more to life than that warm buzz of pills and drink that last only a while then leave you chasing after it...a ghost.    I am going into a rapid detox to "break" the chain.  I do not drink at all and drug just to keep from seizing up and getting violently ill.  Please do not let the things you take send you off to a fate like mine.
  I tried the cutback and cold turkey ordeal with this ultram bs and almost fell out.  I have come off all opiates except H and these ultrams are by far the worst hell I could emagine.  It has too much interplay on the brains' chemistry.  Not enough is known about it. But in a few weeks I am going to find out what it is like to have it washed off my opiate receptors and be detoxed...
I will pray for you.  Reach out to someone you trust who can help.  And lay down the boose if you can.

[hjp]

Kari, if your husband is "good with you" ask him to read this site one end to the other. He needs the education too since it sounds like he's the one who loves you enough to help you get sober and make sure you stay that way.  You will find you'll owe him a little more than dinner when you're free.. good luck hjp

Sunny..good luck with the rapid detox....it will work and you'll be out.

[lmb]

got a appointment with the top doc..wondering what i could suggest if anything.scared sort of..well its going to be regarding methadone.is there anything i should no?but be possitive,thank you

[hjp]

imb, if you're several days without narcotics and way down the road to detox...try to get the idea of "some other narcotic" out of your head!  Continue your detox, and tell your "top doc" to give you all the other "stuff" that's not addicting to ease your withdrawal.....otherwise you're just going to keep losing your van. PLEASE read all posts on this site....it all applies, and its all you!  Good luck imb...you've got to be tough to have hung in this long.

[lmb]

got kinda lost about the van thing,,anyways its nothing ,,im still on meds,my doctor got me another app. with the doc regarding addictions. hes apparently the top doc,wondering if theres anything i should no before i go,like to make things easier if possible,,,thank you

[tortilini]

Why would you take tylenol 1's they do not have any codiene in them.  My friend who had terminal brain cancer killed herself intentionally drinking and taking tylenol 1's.  It killed her liver and that is what she wanted and it really didn't take that long.

[tortilini]

Why would you take tylenol 1's they do not have any codiene in them.  My friend killed herself by drinking and taking Tylenol 1's intentionally.  She had terminal brain cancer and couldn't handle anymore.  She did not tell anyone, but her autopsy showed.  Tylenol and booze is a big no no!

[hjp]

i thought tylenol #1 had an eighth of a grain of codeine, #2 had a 1/4 grain, #3 has 1/2grain and #4 has one grain. They get stronger as the number gets higher. Being addicted to codeine though has to be really miserable.  Nausea, bad constipation, and to get your dose high enough to feel anything you have to be killing your liver!          hjp

[J.B. to Brian and Vicky]

My God, you are such an alarmist! Tell us another horror story.

[tortilini]

Just trying to help, you go ahead and drink and do alot of Tylenol and see what happens.  Some people do not know this and most usually appreciate my comment.  Obviously you must have an addition, and feel offended, because you don't want to hear the truth!

[tortilini]

I didn't spell addiction correctly, because my phone rang at work, but you must alittle sensitative, because you are addicted and don't like to hear the truth, because you probably did alot of drinking while doing Tylenol and I wouldn't want to hear it either.

[Telby]

Humility is an important part of recovery, it means to have the willingness to learn from others.  JB could teach you alot. telby

[J.B. to Brian and Vicky]

I'm sorry. I haven't been too cheerful the past few days. In fact, I relapsed after after having been clean for 30+ days. Today is my birthday and this has added to the feeling that I deserved a reward today. Though medically I'm considered a chronic painer, I've tried to clean up my act in order to be as helpful as possible to my wife. She has cancer and will be having surgery soon. She's in dreadful pain so we have plenty of opiates here. I just caved! I wanted to get high again and feel good for a change.

Keep posting and disregard my hateful commentary!

J.B.

[Telby]

Don't be silly you are never hateful, you don't have to be perfect even on a bad day your heart is bigger then Texas.  Happy Birthday, you have had an awful lot to deal with lately so go easy on yourself and know that you are loved, admired and needed.  Telby

[jennyfla]

Happy Birthday to you JB!!!!!
Don't kick yourself too hard, you've been under a tremendous amount of stress, and you really should be proud of yourself.
Just get yourself back on that track and try again, you just slipped, you are only human, it happens to all of us.
Focus on your 30 DAYS CLEAN and get back to what you wanted to accomplish!
(((HUGS)))
Lv Jenny

[Witchywoman]

Happy Birthday JB!
Don't be too hard on yourself.  The world is a better place because you are in it.

My love to you and your wife.

WW

[IrishRose]

J.B., no more self ass kickin! You have been very strong, and I know you will continue to be regardless of the presence or absence of chemicals in your life. Wishing you a happy birthday and sending prayers for you & your wife.  IR>

[skipper]

JB:
first of all HAPPY BIRTHDAY! i've always felt that adults get
screwed out of the big deal birthdays were when we were children.

i guess i kind of echo what everone else has said about your us-
ing. ya' know you've had an awful full plate of some real un-
pleasent and disturbing stuff lately. add in your intractable
pain and i'ld say you've done pretty damm good lately. i know
what it's like to have constant pain underscore everything else
that is going on in  your life. there are days where i wish i'ld
never been exposed to dope. and then there are days where dope
is the only thing that keeps the gun out of my mouth. neither
one of us asked for any of this...but it is our respocebility
to find a way thru. i guess it's all about striking some sort of
balence. i think i'ld probably handle this pain/dope thing a lot
beter if i wasn't an addict, but of course i never considered
what i would do if i ever actually needed an opiate pain killer.
so we play out the hand that is dealt to us. JB, you are not do-
ing that bad of a job (far beter then me anyhow).

anyhow HAPPY BIRTHDAY! your wife is lucky to have you for a hus-
band!

so...keep an angel on your shoulder
kip

[J.B. to Brian and Vicky]

What has happened to this board lately? All these pop ups and error messages are a pain in the ass.

Yes, I had a slip that started night before last.  My thinking and focus came crashing down and I let it.  I did a BUTU..."building up to use" for maybe a week beforehand. I also didn't seek help to curb my desires. At this point, I really don't feel all that bad about myself. Just disappointment. I love myself unconditionally as I do my wife and children.  Save for me and all who read this, nobody here knows that I have a problem with addiction.  I don't know if I'm making any sense so I'll just shut up for now.

J.B.

[ssfr]

can you handle at least one more (albeit belatedly) happy birthday- and many more to ya-  i just wish that half the planet had the gumption and bravery you have and the courage to face lifes problems that have been sent your way- if there were more folks like you- the world would be such a better place
vic

[J.B. to Brian and Vicky]

You bet I can! I celebrated the big 50 yesterday and had a really nice time.  And I can remember all of it! And I didn't manage to become obnoxious and offend anyone.  That's the important thing.  Thanks for the wonderful compliments.  I think that the majority of us addicts are amazing people, don't you?

J.B.

[ssfr]

actually i was  quite surprised to find that that unique slice of humanity had some of the nicest folks there are- and as far as the big 50- i am right behind you friend- ahh- time marches way too quickly doesnt it?

[J.B. to Brian and Vicky]

Yep, time marches on but there are times for us when it seems to be at a standstill! In my heart of hearts, I believe that we all will suffer the pains of hell as we live this life here and now. Haven't we all comitted the seven sins that doom us? I have and am paying the price. We can all live in the garden of Eden too, if we pay the price. Live, work, play, do good, do bad, have fun times and dreadful times. Maybe in the end it balances out?

Incidentally, I just wanted to tell you that our mindset is the same.  Your posts have hit the spot with me. I want to tell you that I for one, am reading them. Sometimes it feels like what we say falls on deaf ears.

J.B.

[ssfr]

i guess you get to visit us over at the other forum from time to time- i enjoy coming back here for the knowledge i gain, and to see some of the old timers like you and skip- medhelp is a good site and does a lot of good- the other forum is a little more informal and we tend to be a more tighly knit community-
both boards are valuable and have much to offer
anyway again- happy birthday to you and it was good seeing you- and you and your wife have my continued prayers and support
vic

[jennyfla]

Hi JB,
Just wondering how you're doing today.
You have a good attitude, that is so important for your overall mental frame of mind.
I'm glad you stopped kicking yourself, you are one strong person!!!
Hope your wife is doing ok.
Lv Jenny

[J.B. to Brian and Vicky]

I'm doing and feeling pretty darn good at this moment.  I haven't been on line for a couple of days due to being quite busy. I took my wife to the med center today for a consult with two surgeons. It's been a long day and maybe I can elaborate better after a good night's sleep. Nighty night!

J.B.

[jennyfla]

Awww, nighty nite sweetie, and sweet dreams for you!!!
You're a good husband and I'm glad you are feeling better! :)
I'm feeling a bit drained lately, just having a hard time keeping up with life.  The kiddies are so demanding sometimes, especially my 23-month old.  Just playing the chasing game with these darn pills, i hate withdrawals.  I used to think i had it all figured out, but once i did, it would change, continue to grow (the monster!)
My hub and I are getting along, although this world of addiction is tricky, it's like trying to balance on a stack of bricks unevenly stacked that could fall down anytime!
Stay on the other side, it so much better (I remember!)
((HUGS)) for you and your wife!
Lv Jenny

[J.B. to Brian and Vicky]

Thanks sweety! I feel so blessed to have friends like you out there. My daughter called about two hours ago to tell me that she and the grandkids were on the way! They are coming down from Chicago for the weekend to celebrate my wife's birthday(the 13th of February). Anyway, Grandpa(me)is excited and will be on his best behaviour as usual. If they only knew the turmoil we addicts go through even when anticipating something so good as a visit with loved ones! But the furthest thing on my mind is to be SH*T faced when they get here.

J.B.

[jennyfla]

Awww, enjoy your daughter and your little grandkiddies!
Also, Happy Birthday to your wifey!! :)
They do keep us in line a bit don't they.  Thank god for my kids, I always try to keep one step over the line into reality at all times!!! :)
Talk to you soon, Enjoy!!!
Lv Jenny

[kennymack1]

Hello, everyone, you have all made my night a little more hope filled, I am addicted to oxy's I take five a day since December first, I tried to stop today and I felt like I was gonna die, I took my last patch of morphine and have an appointment with the doctor tomorrow, I am terrified, I have my fiance with me and I feel like such a loser for being like this, I can't even go outside cause I feel so sick and anxious, I am praying the doctor will give me something to help but in this small town the doctors don't know about oxy's that much. I have an appointment with a drug specialist on Monday as well. What amount of time will it be until I can sleep and feel half way ok,, I love all of you people for expressing your feelings, I thought I was a freak or something, I could keep taking these oxy's but I want to be married and have kids go to ball games and live happy, I knew I was in trouble when I plan my baseball trips (giants games) around my oxy's, before the oxys I was at 10 to 15 750 vicodins. Please give me some hints on what I can do to lessen the pain and anxiety and should I try to run adn exercise when I feel like I am coming out of my skin? I am 26 years old and feel like if I do not quit these my life will be filled with turmoil.Thanks again so much , God Bless all of you, I will keep you filled in on my journey that starts tomorrow,With Love, Kenny

[Aussie2]

hi,

I live in Australia, so I am a little confused!  Is "codien" the same as "codine"?  We have panadine forte which has 30mg of codine in each tablet - is this what you guys are writing about?  If so, I looked up this site because I would like to know how much is too much?  It probably sounds like a dumb question but I don't need them every day, although if I could get them I might, they are prescription drugs over here, the highest amount you can get over the counter is 12mg per tablet.
It feels weird to me that you all have the same kind of lives even though we are half a world away!!!  Kids, husbands, jobs, money worries etc etc etc........!!!  It actually makes me feel a little less lonely!!  although, you are all probably asleep right now!! it it 7.30pm in Sydney, and it was a very hot day!! In fact, I am only guessing this is an American site!!
I have to say that I don't blame you all for your various addictions, it is very easy to fall into the pattern, especially when the drugs/alchohol etc kind of takes the worry away (for a while!)  good luck to you all, I will keep checking this site to keep track of how you are going.

[ash]

I feel ya brother. I'm 27 and have been dealing on and off with vikes, lorcets, and other drugs. but it is the laboratory made synthetics that are the worst. oxys, vicodin ya know. I have almost a week  so I am feeling better. But I had a suggestion when you mentioned exercise. It will definitely help the detox. Also do you have access to a sauna or steam room? this will speed up the detox sweating out all that **** will get the withdrawal over with faster. I do martial arts and It really kicks my ass into gear. keep busy too. Do something everyday to keep your mind busy and not on the drugs. I know the struggle man, Alot if not all the people in this forum know the struggle. So, your not alone. Just remind yourself when you got a couple of weeks under your belt how bad and out of control those little devils cause you. My best is with you brother. Take care. I'll be around if ya needs to chat.


  the ash

[kennymack1]

Thank you my friend, I went to the doc today he gave me dicyclomine 10 mg for the stomach pain, clonidine 0.1 mg for ?, ativan 0.5mg for anxiety and some **** called toprol-xl, Do you think I am gonna be ok? I am starting tomorrow I sold my last 20 oxys and am somewhat prepared? I am nervous as hell Bro, My girl is scared too for me, but I think I should be OK with all this meds? I see a drug treatment guy on Tuesday, I want off these pills so I can live and do things, but I am already feeling like I don't wat to be caught up in classes and group therapy adn all that ****, do you know what I mean? Do you think it is possible to bag the pills and then just kick back or will they come back and bite me in the ass and this **** starts all over again, I guess I will take it day by day and see how it goes, can anyone tell me how bad the withdrawals will be with the meds doc gave me and with marijuana to help too, Thank you all so much I will make it with all your help, Love K

[ash]

Meetings and group therapy is definitely an option, but there is always an alternative to something. Search around and find out what works best for ya man. we are all scared, and not sure how anything will turn out sometimes. Pot certainly helped me with nausea and sleeplessness. Let me know if you wanna talk or have any questions man. I'll do the best I can to help. There are also others here who have years of dealing with this and can help as well. Stay strong brother it will pass. Maybe write down how you feel each day. After ten or so days you might be surprised at what you have expresed. Take care. Talk to ya.


the ash

[hangingon]

Well I will start by saying that I am brand new here and have read all the postings. You people for the most part are very caring and supportive. By this time your asking yourself....." why am I dropping by these boards" Well 2 guesses and the firstone doesn't count. I am an addict.....WOW I said it, that is that first time that has coome out of my mouth...I never even thought that I needed to say that. Those  are very powerful words. I even feel better for saying it. My thoughts are if you guys can be so inspiring it was the least I could do. I have a story of my addiction but I won't go into it at this point, I will say this much I hope we all find our peace and strength to beat this horrible thing that traps us into being somone else. In the words of Meg Ryan I have to beleive that I have a second chance.........We all do!!!!!!!!

[Mari82]

Hello.....Im Mari.....

I dont think I could be addicted.  I think I can stop tomorrow or maybe cut back then quit.  I dont know.  I use to have a lot of anxiety attacks when my husband started cheating on me.  I was really hurt so my friend had a percacets, somas.  It helped calm me and make me not hurt as much.  Im a bit better and Im dumb enough to forgive him.  But when I cant sleep or when i think to much..well you know.  I take up to 8 pills a day.  Is that already way too much?  What are signs?  Is percacets not as huge a deal?  Just wondering.  Been a bit worried with a few pains ive been experiancing and i think im ready to quit next week.  But i was told its not safe to quit cold turkey yet I fee that i can.  Why cant i just stop and focus on my workouts and my job.  I feel so retarded even speaking of this beings i have not told a soul but my friend that gave me this of course.  Im just afraid to hurt or hurt myself more.  I dont know.  
Thanks

[wait2long]

you need to repost your question, this thread you are on was written in march of 2002, try again hun...you can quit cold turkey as long as you dont have any other underlying medical problems..or  you can taper down slowly.. but get a handle on it now or then it will not be in your control...post again in newer forum...good luck

[Beaten]

not sure if anyone remembers me or not its been a while since my last post. I feel like i'm loosing my mind. I thought i was doing well with giving up the painkillers. Then last week i got my tonislls out. The pain was so bad i cant even describe. I had a really hard time. Whats worse is that i used this to my full advantage. I vistited the emergency room constantly to get shots of demerol. I cant believe that i have turned into the manipulative person that i am. Recently my 14 year old cousin told me that she thought i had a "problem" with pain killers. I of course went on the defence and told her it was none of her damn business. I was supposed to go vist my parents today after having a completly awful day came home and popped a couple of demerol  and atesol 30's. (i cant believe my tolerence level). My mother called me and said that my dad was having a lot of Arthritic pain and asked if i could bring him home a couple of my demerol pills. I imediatly came up with an excuse as to why i couldn't come home, just so that i wouldn't have to give my own father my pills. I have never in my life been so ashamed. right now i'm as high as a kite and my father is in a lot of real  pain. I dont even remember when i became the terrible person that i am. I have no idea where to go from here. What worse is the only thing i'm really concerned about right now is how i'm gonna get more when these pills are gone.

[bettie1976]

Im sorry but Im confused. Do you live in a country where they sell codeine over the counter? Because they certainly dont here. Not to my knowledge anyways....

[Beaten]

sorry for the confusion. i live in Canada. in canada where u can get tylenol one's over the counter. Everything else requires a prescription. I've become such a good liar that i have manipulated doctors and used situations such as my tonsillectomy to get more painkillers. I came clean to my b/f last night. He actually wasn't at all surprised. I'm not really sure what will happen from here.