i am 18 years old, 5'6'', 123 lbs, and i am in the habit of taking 4-5 12.5 mg ambien cr a night. even when i take four, i don't really feel anything, so i take around 5 benadryl capsules to get at least drowsy. i'm also taking 100mg of zoloft, and 300 mg of welbutrin for my depression and anxiety. i don't know what to do. about a week and a half ago i went two days without it, and then i just couldn't handle it. i ended up climbing out of my window, and trying to sneak into my dad's study/office, to get some of his. when i couldn't find it i drank a bottle of benadryl cough syrup. i just want to sleep. why can't i sleep? i used to completely hollucinate when i took it, then eventually all i got was a euphoric feeling, and now i just settle for feeling heavy. on my worst night, i think i took 9. i always cut them in half to bypass the slow-release. at one point i was snorting it, but it gave me a sore throat so i stopped. i need to sleep. i don't know how to do this. any suggestions would be greatly appreciated. i don't smoke pot, and i don't know if that would improve this at all. i don't know. i don't know. i just need to SLEEP.