how can i say no

[kimkim454]

as mentioned before i was on 40 5mg percs per day and now on sub. my dealer has 360 percs ready for me on tuesday. i am so scared. i do not think i can say no. i can stop the sub now and save it for when i run out of percs, i don't know what to do. i don't want to kill myself. help.

[beachtowel]

How can I  say no?

That is easy Go to 90 N/A meetings in 90 days when you first quit.............

[beachtowel]

Kim every time you take a 5mg perc you are killing yourself.....
do you like the way your living?
Would you mom and dad be proud of the decisions your making as there daughter?
Would would your mother and father hope that you did?
1. Get the percs and take narcotics that you know are killing you slowly?
2. Or start the Suboxone and get clean?

If I was your friend and I knew this person who had these percs right now I would beat him until he was close to death........
He is the devil in human form......do you think he cares for you if you live or if your die.....

Kim look into the mirror and have a conversation with yourself you cannot lie to that person she knows you better than you know yourself.......ask her what she should do.....try it......

I hope that you wake up and do the right thing.......

[GA Guy]

Like someone pointed out..if you really wanted to get those pills you would have never posted here asking for us to tell you not to. You will have all the support you need here. If you have to..post every second here during the time you should be picking up the pills..then take the money you saved and buy something for yourself. Get your mind off of it..that's all that really helps..God bless...

[wantlifeback]

I do not judge ,i try to support so you will not be letting me down.  I am really routing for you to succeed.  Like everyone says on here, we are all addicts here and just want the best for everyone who reaches out for help.  We are here for you...don't feel the pressure of letting people down, put yourself first. when it is your time you will know it.  I pray it is now but ultimately that is your decision.  I am here for you either way.  have a great night.

[Curls]

If you can get them Tuesday, you can get them another time.  Let it go for now.  Finish the sub, and then see what you think.  It's not like fruit that goes rotten if you don't get it right away.  Hope that gives you a good way to look at it.  You're trying to hard to do this now.  You aren't letting anyone here down.  You are letting yourself down - you wouldn't have posted if you didn't feel that way.  Yet, it's not Tuesday yet, so you can still live up to yourself for you.   And know that if you do, everyone here will be cheering for you.  (If you don't then they will be here to help you some more.)

[allaboutmary]

You are an addict and so are we. Never give up on getting clean. I don't think any of us succeeded the first few trys. So now you have to decide to go cold turkey or get the perc's and then get back on the subs. Is there any one that can hold your pills so you won't take so many ? You really were on a high dose of perc's. Please at least slow down on them and get back on the subs. You have to muster up the courage to take them as prescribed.  Keep trying. You sound like you want to be free of these drugs, so never give up on that.  Read the posts on this forum. You will see you are not alone.  Let us know how you are doing.    Mary

[kimkim454]

thanx for your concern. it means so much yet you are just another person for me to let down.

[wantlifeback]

i hope you can find someone close to you to help you through this...it is time to make a change in your life but it has to be your decision.  Once you make your mind up you can do anything, i just hope you can turn these percs down and start fresh...You are really hurting your body with these pills.  We are here for you if you want to talk.

Be strong

[kimkim454]

i think i will take the ambien the doc prescribed me and call it a night since i had one shot of vodka  and two glasses of wine. i am toasted. maybe tomorrow i will have more will power since i have half a sub. thanks for the encouragement.

[kimkim454]

i have become a habitual liar that i do not think anyone trusts anything i say. i have even been abusing the subs to get a buzz and now i am out. i cannot believe i did this to myself.

[wantlifeback]

Please say no....i can tell part of you wants to because you posted the question.  The sooner you can get off the percocets the better for your health.  The amount you were taking really concerns me as they have tyl in them.  You will really hurt your liver and then you can't go back  Please put yourself first and make the choice to say no...you are on sub so continue with that to get through the wd.  Grab this opportunity to change and get off the percs.
Keep up posted as we do care!

[alicenwonderlnd]

Please say no.  We really do care.  Do you have someone you trust to tell.  Maybe they could stay with you all day Tuesday for support.