how do i stop taking pills?

[sammy309]

i am 26 yrs old and i started on pills about 4 yrs ago. i started out with oxycotins, whatever milligram i could get. first it started out as a recreational thing then soon turned into a daily routine. before i knew it, it became over a yr sniffing oxy's.if i didnt have one i was having terrible withdrawals, not being able to go to work, not sleeping,not eating, diarrhea, watery eyes, tired, weak, cold sweats, goosebumps all over my body.. i finally got into seeing a suboxones dr and he put me on two 8 mg suboxones a day. as the year went by, i was down to 2 mg of suboxones a day. i was gettin alot better but sometimes, i still did oxy's in between, but i always had subs for the withdrawals. i ended up moving to another state so i lost my dr and my script and insurance. when i moved , and ran out of subs, i thought i was able to stop everything, but i was wrong, after two days of not having subs, withdrawals started coming back, not as bad as it use to, but i was still gettin the cold sweats, weak. not being able to sleep. not to mention, i had a minor surgery and the dr gave me 5 mg percs . after that, i was back doing pills . whatever i could get, perc 5's, 30's . recently i started doing oxys again, and some perc 10's and zanax. the opiates help with the withdrawals and since ive been on pills i get anxiety at night so i also take zanax. i also use to be on prozac while i was on subs because i told my old dr that since doing oxy's i started to become very depressed. i recently started doing oxys again not only for the withdrawals but some things are going wrong in my life and doing oxy's help me forget about my problems for the moment being high. before gettin into pills, i was so responsible, good with managing my money, i use to work out three times a week, took care of things. now im always procracinating, lazy, dont work out, blow my money on pills and i sometimes hate the person ive become and want to go back to the old me who was always so responsible and healthy and have my priorities straight. i dont have insurance or a dr, not to mention, goin to see a dr and paying for a sript for subs are too expensive. i just cannot afford it all at once. i have recently finally got a hold of subs again. but how do i come off on subs? i tried to wean my self off but when i dont take subs, i feel still feel the drawls and have bad anxiety and freak out. my ex boyfriend use to also do oxys then started on heroin. he had to move to get away from everything, and he said he took subs for three days and just stopped everything and withing two weeks he finally felt better and now is 100 % better and doesnt need subs or any pills and has been clean since. i dont understand how he was able to just take subs for three days and got off just like that. how do i come off on everything. i feel like i still need to take subs, and sometimes i still get cravings to do oxy's and i still need zanax to calm my anxiety to help me sleep... if you have any advice for me, please let me know. i dont know what to do, i just want to be off everything completely and not do anything anymore. but i still feel like im not mentally or physically strong enough to get off on everything. i feel terrible every morning waking up with goosebumps and cold sweats.. plz help!!!

[broknbck]

well a decent doctor would help. the way i got off painkillers was i had found an understanding doctor and he perscribed enough pills to tapper down with for a month. he gave me 4 sleeping pills and i picked a date in 1 month and made it work. only used 1 sleeping pill. some people have said an antidepressant helped too. cymbalta is a good one. and then in a few months taper off of that.
tappering is a hard road to go, but the cold turkey was no picnic either. it is different for everyone. just a suggestion.
i hope you find a solution soon and are feeling much better. i do remember how horrible it was. i am clean for 15 months now. god bless

[bionic_man]

Sammy,
I'm not an expert by any means but it sounds like you need to see a doctor about your addiction.  I too was dependant on Oxy's but started tapering a month ago and still have the occasional desire to "chew an Oxy" but know I want to be completely off these so bad that I don't.  I tried to do it cold turkey but having to work for my family I couldn't take off work due to the withdrawals so I went to my doctor, explained the situation and he gave me some Xanax for the anxiety, flexoril for the muscle spasims and some Ambien to sleep.  Then we are lowering my dosage each month until I'm finally off.  June 1 is my target date to be clean forever.  I can tell you I still have the cravings (I don't think they'll ever be completely over) but I want to be clean so bad I'm hoping and praying I can overcome those feelings.  I do have insurance that will pay for some type of rehab but that would be my last resort.  I work in a very large company and if it ever got out I went to rehad it would really hurt my career however my health and family come first and I would do it if I couldn't stay clean.  
I'm not sure I'm helping you but it does help to know others are going through the same thing you're going through. You will be in my prayers and thoughts and if you ever need someone to talk to, please send a note.

Good Luck,
Bionic Man