how long will i be in hell ?

[free_me_pleezz]

I'm 32 and my fiance of 4 yrs is 33 and our New Years Resolution is to quit the pills.  We've been snorting up to 6/10mg percocet a day each, for the past 3 yrs.  We each did our last pill at 1:30 am Jan. 1, 2010.  We've both been miserable.  I have 2 daughters, he has 2 sons, all of which live with us.  I don't know what i'm more ashamed of-being addicted or having my kids see me an absolute mess trying to get off of them.  I've been to nursing school so i understand some of the WD symptoms.  However i didn't graduate{b/c of the pills} so not all of the knowledge has stuck with me.(b/c of the pills}  yesterday i felt like my arms and legs were being controled by someone else today its not as bad.  I feel fortunate to have him with me through this but its a two way street and we've been enabling each other for so long i don't think it would take much to be back to a $300/week habit and looking for our next home because we've been evicted again.{b/c of the pills}  However, I have a doctors appt. with a new doctor coming up in a week or so and i'm not sure how wise it would be to lay it all out on the table.  We've went cold turkey and i'm not sure when to say "i've tried and this just isn't working I NEED HELP!!!"
ANY suggestions would be greatly appreciated

[subsavedme]

I had an addiction to pain pills and benzos. I went to a addictions specialist, and he put me into detox, where they started me on a "synthetic narcotic" called suboxone.  I was up to 2 x 8 mg tabs/day. I am now down to 1 x 8 mg tab/day.  It has been about 3 months where I have felt no withdrawl symptoms, or ANY cravings.  The only thing is that subs are very expensive.  But I have my life!  I go to groups once a week, with other suboxone users, and I really do see the light at the end of the tunnel.  I am going to stay on them as long as I need to, which hopefully will only be another few months.  Good luck to all of you.  If you can't deal with the withdrawls, find an addiction spec, who will help you!  It's worth it.

[gnarly_1]

hey girlee glad to see you made it this far ...the energy thing is a real bit## but you will find once you start doing something it does get eazer..its just getting going that the problem...the energy thing takes time...time for your brain to reset itself to sleeping
again and producing endorphins again...you guys are doing great your almost there
just hang in there a little more and you will start to see the light ...you so lucky to
be doing this at your age....my addiction to pills was just taking off at your age
did them for 10+ yrs and then methadone for another 6 1/2 yr so you can see where this leads if you dont stop now...im proud of both you ....YOU CAN DO THIS..YOU WILL BE SUCCESSFUL ....just start planing ahead and google N/A meetings in your area now and get out and get to some it will help out alot and give you guys some where to vent and some people that you can relate to and with..agian great job so far
good luck and god bless....Gnarly  

[free_me_pleezz]

Thank you for all the advice i will be looking into the Thomas Recipe.  Today seems a little better for me.  I'm not as achy i just don't feel like i have much energy and i have to work this afternoon.  You wouldn't think working at a gas station takes much energy but those cases of beer don't lift themselves.  I figured out the 'keep yourself busy" part yesturday.  I'm really more worried about him than myself.  He's the one that found this site and when we talk he's positive about what we're doing but I can see it in his eyes he's ready to give in.  He's always had trouble sleeping, but this is rediculous.  About 6 hours in 3 days.  He's broke down in tears,  Extremely short with the kids.  I think he's afraid to try the xanax for fear of another addiction to deal with.  All i can do for him is say "it's going to be ok, we've already got 3 days in just a few more to go"  As for the doctor,  I never did have a doc prescribe me pills.  I've always been able to find them on the street.  I have everyones refill schedule memorized.  Needless to say when i told my "friends" we were quitting I lost ALL my friends.  Noone has called to see how we are or if there's anything they can do for us.  I'm wondering if  some of them aren't a little envious, that they can't seem to give it up.  It amazes me how many times We went through this exact same thing b/c we couldn't find any pills and the moment something popped up we were all over it when if we would have gave it just a few more days we'd have been done with the hard part.

[bmdad]

I'm right there with you. I'm at my 74 hour mark without any pills. I feel very motivated about this which I feel is very important. If you have a strong mental attitude and want this more than anything, you will succeed.
There are some things that will help. Check in to the amino acid protocol in the health pages. It lists some vitamins and supplements that will help your mind and body recover a bit faster. They do help but are not some miracle cure. There is no miracle cure except time. What's one week of hell compared to a lifetime of sobriety? It's a very easy trade off. Be sure to get plenty of exercise and get out and about. If you lay around thinking about how miserable you, you will feel worse. Also be sure to push the good fluids and eat healthy. Pick up some immodium for the you know what.
Most of all just stay strong. Tell yourself that failure is not a option.  Know that with each passing day it will get better. Life is so much better off the pills. I know both of you can do this. Look out for another and don't drag each other into using. If one uses does not mean the other has to. Stay strong and  push through. You guys will make it!
Best of luck!
Brian

[gnarly_1]

hi and welcome to the forum....as for your withdrawals its usually a 4 or 5 day ordeal
for the physical part to be over ...go to the health pages on the right of the screen
and look up as much info as you can the thomas resape is a good start other then that
all you can do is take hot baths to eaze the pains a bit  some motrin helps...if you got any zanex or other benzos it will help with sleep a bit but dont take the benzo more then a few days they have there own vises ..about all you can do is ride it out and get comfortable with the frase "you just got to be ok without being ok a wile..the more time that goes by the closer you will be to feeling better...you will need to find some aftercare
something like N/A orA/A or a good drug consolor  the physical battle is only your first its the mental stuff that takes all the work...I dont know if you believe in god or not if you do its a great time to start to pray ...hes all you got at 3am and I found it helped with my withdrawals alot ..hang in there ..you guys can do this its just going to take some perseverance...good luck and god bless...Gnarly  

[corey411]

Hello and welcome to the forum. Please don't give up. You are about 2 1/2 days into this and it takes 4-7 days to get over the physical part. Most seem to be over it on day 4. You didn't get addicted in a few days and it will take more than this to get your life back. Have you read the Thomas Recipe and amino acid proticol? You can find it under health pages in the upper right of the forum. Are you seeing a new doctor to get more pills or to get clean? If you really want this the chances of being successful is to lay it all out on the table. Cut off all of your sources. You can get an otc medicine called Hylands for the restless legs. I went ct off of a 10-12 a day hydro habit about a dozen times. I promise it does get better and your almost there. Planning some kind of aftercare like aa/na or seeing an addiction specialist will help you in your struggle to remain clean after the physical wd stops and the mental starts. I didn't think this was important...hence the dozen relapses. If you want to stay clean and get off of these demon pills use all of the support you can get. Post here often and get to know members through messaging them. This site offers alot of support and is great to keep in touch and post alot through your physical wds. Get your husband to post as well. You can do this. I promise your life will be great again. It just takes time and you have to really want it and accept help. Feel free to message me if you ever need to talk. God bless, Corey