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how/what made you finally quit
I'm just curious what was everyones final straw.. did you plan to quit? Did something happen to finally get you to quit. I want this to be my last detox and would love to hear everyones story.
Everyone is different and everyone's rock bottom is different. The truth of the matter is that you have just got to be sick and tired of something controlling your life. If I had my pills I could conquer the world that day, but if I didn't have any pills I did not even want to leave the house or even get up off the couch to use the restroom. The roller coaster ride just gets old. I want to conquer the world EVERYDAY without that damn pill. I didnt want to have to plan my life around when I was going to have pills or not.
I began to recognize that being addicted to pain pills (a lot of them) had stopped being fun about a year before I quit. It took an entire year to overcome my addicted mind and actually quit. Also, they were costing more money every month and I was sick of wasting the money. I had a knee surgery scheduled and I decided that once I was recovered from that enough to go off pain pills, I would make my move. My 40th birthday party was about a month after the surgery, so I circled the day after that in red ink and followed through when the time came. That was close to three years ago. For me, planning it all out helped. I knew the date I would quit about four months before it came.
Let me clarify that, he did not make me quit, I was so angry at him, that I threw everything away
Hi there!! I was addicted to tramadol for 5 years, taking 50-60 pills per day. I had to quit (cold turkey) because I just didn't have the money to keep ordering them online, I had maxed out so many credit cards. I started buying them online because my doctor finally said no more pills! At the time I quit, I honestly wasn't ready, but had no choice. So I went from 60 pills one day to zero the next, it was the hardest thing I've ever done, but I'm so happy my life doesn't revolve around those little pills anymore. I'm happy to say I've been clean now for 5 years, it hasn't always been easy, but definitely worth it. ~ Sherry
Way to go Imoverit. getting back up and going for your last detox. Good Luck.
My story is long so here goes the short version. A life long drinker combine with the last 14 years of Xanax abuse. The final 6 months were way over the top. I'll tell the whole story in my own thread. I really thought my liver was long gone along with my pancreas. My stomach hurt so bad I couldn't eat the last 2 1/2 months. Dropped 20 pounds. I was afraid of quitting because I knew I was dying. I was so sick that I starting calling detox centers. No one would take me because of the amounts I was drinking and popping and my health. I needed a medical detox center. So I called the nearest one about 100 miles away. They told me to come on in. I mentioned it to my wife but I wouldn't go. Finally I told them I would see them a 5 days. Next night I practically overdosed blacking out. I woke up to my wife and she said this was it. Off I went and I haven't looked back since. That was sept 3. Today is 161 days clean and sober! It will never be over and I'm now OK with that. Thanks....ike
My story is long so here goes the short version. A life long drinker combine with the last 14 years of Xanax abuse. The final 6 months were way over the top. I'll tell the whole story in my own thread. I really thought my liver was long gone along with my pancreas. My stomach hurt so bad I couldn't eat the last 2 1/2 months. Dropped 20 pounds. I was afraid of quitting because I knew I was dying. I was so sick that I starting calling detox centers. No one would take me because of the amounts I was drinking and popping and my health. I needed a medical detox center. So I called the nearest one about 100 miles away. They told me to come on in. I mentioned it to my wife but I wouldn't go. Finally I told them I would see them a 5 days. Next night I practically overdosed blacking out. I woke up to my wife and she said this was it. Off I went and I haven't looked back since. That was sept 3. Today is 161 days clean and sober! It will never be over and I'm now OK with that. Thanks....ike
Great question....I had lost so much motivation and money. Housework, hobbies, and my job were put on the back burner. I just wanted to use, sleep, wake up and use again. The complete final straw was that I work at a clinic and we had a Nurse who was randomly drug-tested. She worked alongside me and she lost her job...That could have been me.....My 10 year career could have been gone in a flash. I then looked back on the situations I put myself in to get pills...meeting strangers, going to unknown houses, babysitting my phone for hours...wasting gas to drive hours to find pills....yuck....I hate even typing it...Best wishes on your journey...You can't enjoy the destination unless you endure the journey.
Hi all. Thanks for responding. I have been abusing pills for a couple years. Started with a fractured ankle.. soon after buying from a customer at the bar i work at. I knew better my mother died from a methadone od when i was 3.my father from complications from drugs when i was out of high school....Although that happend i grew up with my 'uncle' and aunt and had an amazing childhood. they never hid my past from me but it wasnt something we talked about much.
i had been thru 7 days clean last month when i decided i needed one last time. That turned into 3 weeks until i ran out again. I am on day 4 now. have told my friends who supply me that im done. I am going to look into counseling today. I feel better like a weight is lifted. I have an amazing bf of 10 yrs & we are getting married and want to start a family this year. Between that and all that money.. literally a car payment worth each month. Ive decided to plan a trip on 60 days since i will have extra cash.
thanks for all your stories they make me feel good knowing that even though im only on day 4 that things are only looking up for me
i had been thru 7 days clean last month when i decided i needed one last time. That turned into 3 weeks until i ran out again. I am on day 4 now. have told my friends who supply me that im done. I am going to look into counseling today. I feel better like a weight is lifted. I have an amazing bf of 10 yrs & we are getting married and want to start a family this year. Between that and all that money.. literally a car payment worth each month. Ive decided to plan a trip on 60 days since i will have extra cash.
thanks for all your stories they make me feel good knowing that even though im only on day 4 that things are only looking up for me
quit because I was hurting more - guess I was building up a tolerance and I HATE going to the doctor and having to do urine tests. Just decided I am strong enough to do it if my sister is strong enough to go through chemotherapy - so much worse then withdrawal. I am 11 days out cold turkey, and yeah it is REALLY hard. But not as hard as my sister has it! I think I am past the worst and counting down to 31 days. Hope I will feel better by then but if not, I will just wait til it does end. Hot baths, hot showers, Epson salt baths, BRAT diet ( bananas, rice, applesauce and tea) in small quantities, lomotil, Advil, Tylenol ( If you are allowed to take them) and just plain force of mind. I rest a lot!
Hey! I'm not sure what exactly you're addiction consists of, but... Mine was pain pills....then Subs for 2 yrs, and methadone, again, for the last 4 mos. I've been off of 10-20mgs of methadone now, for 4 days. I have to say, I don't feel great, but I do "feel", which is better than being so numb, as I was before.
I had started a rapid taper, about a week ago, and once I got down to the 2.5 mg mark, w/d symptoms started in. It's been difficult, but like so many others say, it's worth it.
Anyways, to answer your question, I was getting tired of the drain of income, from buying methadone off the street, so I had decided that the next week, I would go check out another sub clinic. Ironically, my Father in Law, made a call to Children's Services, reporting some pretty untrue things about me, but one thing was true, I had an illegal drug in my system, although I haven't gotten high in years, and my Kids had no clue that I took ANYTHING, other than an anti-depressant, maybe. To tie this up, I had to tell the Case Manager what I was doing, and instead of opting for another sub or methadone clinic, I decided to detox and do an IOP. I will never lose my Kids, for any reason! I've never been anywhere near, even a slight inclination of losing my children, so I guess this was my, "rock bottom". Along with that though, I've also had to make the decision to leave my Husband, who is also an addict, and actually is Prescribed Methadone. He was never good for my Kids, or me. It's a lot of changes, in a fairly short period of time. I think that's how it has to be sometimes, though.
I had started a rapid taper, about a week ago, and once I got down to the 2.5 mg mark, w/d symptoms started in. It's been difficult, but like so many others say, it's worth it.
Anyways, to answer your question, I was getting tired of the drain of income, from buying methadone off the street, so I had decided that the next week, I would go check out another sub clinic. Ironically, my Father in Law, made a call to Children's Services, reporting some pretty untrue things about me, but one thing was true, I had an illegal drug in my system, although I haven't gotten high in years, and my Kids had no clue that I took ANYTHING, other than an anti-depressant, maybe. To tie this up, I had to tell the Case Manager what I was doing, and instead of opting for another sub or methadone clinic, I decided to detox and do an IOP. I will never lose my Kids, for any reason! I've never been anywhere near, even a slight inclination of losing my children, so I guess this was my, "rock bottom". Along with that though, I've also had to make the decision to leave my Husband, who is also an addict, and actually is Prescribed Methadone. He was never good for my Kids, or me. It's a lot of changes, in a fairly short period of time. I think that's how it has to be sometimes, though.
Hi, I remember you. You were gonna have a last "hurrah" on your birthday, right? Never works out that way, unfortunately.
Good question. I remember asking the same one. I remember asking myself "What in hell is it gonna take for me to stop?" And then, finally, it was weird, I was just DONE. I just had it. So beyond sick and tired of being sick and tired. Nothing "happened", no horrible event, it was just time. It's true, when you are ready, the withdrawls don't matter, you just withstand whatever you need to. I immediately went to meetings, I was so READY for change.
Where are you in this process right now?
Good question. I remember asking the same one. I remember asking myself "What in hell is it gonna take for me to stop?" And then, finally, it was weird, I was just DONE. I just had it. So beyond sick and tired of being sick and tired. Nothing "happened", no horrible event, it was just time. It's true, when you are ready, the withdrawls don't matter, you just withstand whatever you need to. I immediately went to meetings, I was so READY for change.
Where are you in this process right now?
I'm severely addicted mentally and physically since 12-15 years old is when the addiction kicked in due to ongoing migraines then cancer! I'm now 30 and in the dark depths if addiction but I'm a functioning addict too. I'm starting a new career now and have studied hard for this. Due to my career being in medical files I would be found out if I was on drugs due to drug testing for the job. So iv decided to get clean, go to rehab and fight this...what has made u decide to quit may I ask? Xxx
Good Morning and Congrats on your LAST detox!!!! :) How far along are you? I have 64 days now and am feeling pretty darn good!
I actually quit because my life was just starting to spiral and I was losing "control" of everything! I became a hermit and never saw family or friends anymore...all I wanted to do was stay home with my pills and my dog!!! I called in sick at least once a week and was in danger of losing my job of 23 years. The final straw was when I went to my pain mgt Doc and had to give a urine and there was Oxy in it when he only prescribed hydro for me. I knew I was out of luck there! I got codeine and started weaning myself off and then just jumped after 2 weeks of being in withdrawals anyway. Since I have always been a "functioning" addict I guess the fear of losing my job at 55 years old was enough for me!!! Today is so much better and I am so happy that I made the decision to stop!!!
I actually quit because my life was just starting to spiral and I was losing "control" of everything! I became a hermit and never saw family or friends anymore...all I wanted to do was stay home with my pills and my dog!!! I called in sick at least once a week and was in danger of losing my job of 23 years. The final straw was when I went to my pain mgt Doc and had to give a urine and there was Oxy in it when he only prescribed hydro for me. I knew I was out of luck there! I got codeine and started weaning myself off and then just jumped after 2 weeks of being in withdrawals anyway. Since I have always been a "functioning" addict I guess the fear of losing my job at 55 years old was enough for me!!! Today is so much better and I am so happy that I made the decision to stop!!!
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