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hydrocodone withdrawal

by tlb63, Nov 30, 2002 12:00AM
Hello,

I have been taking hydrocodone 10/500 for over 1 year now. I am desperately trying to quit on my own.I cannot go in for treatment as I have 4 kids and a wife to support. Is there anything at all I can do to help me with the withdrawal symptoms? I have a very stressful job and work alot of hours and I cannot afford to be "sick" at work. Is there anything over the counter I can take to help me out? I know I need to quit taking the hydrocodone now as I do not like the way it makes me feel any longer and feel it is taking it's toll on my health as well. Thanks for your help. This is a very helpful web-site.

tlb
Member Comments (159)

by Bodymechanic, Nov 30, 2002 12:00AM
To: Tlb
Reduce your dosage by 10mg or 1 pill per week.  If you cannot taper post back and we try to give you other options. There is nothing over the counter (here in the US) that will help in any significant way.

by Rex1, Nov 30, 2002 12:00AM
To: Tlb63
Welcome.



Well you have arrived with an identical problem to many here ont his forum.



to answer your question, Yes, there are many things you can do to get off of these drugs. Give us some more info first though. You didn't mention much about why your taking them, or if you are in pain. Also, you may want to take a look at the challenge I p[osted here and ask yourself if you want to try this.



If you do, we'll help you, OK? Here's something called the Thomas Recipe for Vicodin withdrawal. MAny here, myself included swear by it.



We are NOT doctors, just fellow users. Check with your doc first, tell him everything, in all it's ugly detail. Then ask him about this plan.



Rex



p.s. Not sure I agree with Benzo item below. I did it using Klonopin VERY VERY sparingly!



--------------------------------------------------------

THOMAS RECIPE



If you can't take time off to detox, I recommend you follow a taper regimen using your drug of choice or suitable alternate -- the slower the taper, the better.



For the Recipe, You'll need:



1. Valium (or another benzodiazepine such as Klonopin, Librium, Ativan or Xanax). Of these, Valium and Klonopin are best suited for tapering since they come in tablet form. Librium is also an excellent detox benzo, but comes in capsules, making it hard to taper the dose. Ativan or Xanax should only be used if you can't get one of the others.



2. Imodium (immodium) (over the counter, any drug or grocery store).



3. L-Tyrosine (500 mg caps) from the health food store.



4. Strong wide-spectrum mineral supplement with at least 100% RDA of Zinc, Phosphorus, Copper and Magnesium.



5. Vitamin B6 caps.



6. Access to hot baths or a Jacuzzi (or hot showers if that's all that's available).



How to use the recipe:



Begin your detox with regular doses of Valium (or alternate benzo). Start with a dose high enough to produce sleep. Before you use any benzo, make sure you're aware of how often it can be safely taken. Different benzos have different dosing schedules. Taper your Valium dosage down after each day. The goal is to get through day 4, after which the worst WD symptoms will subside. You shouldn't need the Valium after day 4 or 5.



During detox, hit the hot bath or Jacuzzi as often as you need to for muscle aches. Don't underestimate the effectiveness of hot soaks. Spend the entire time, if necessary, in a hot bath. This simple method will alleviate what is for many the worst opiate WD symptom.



Use the Imodium (immodium) aggressively to stop the runs. Take as much as you need, as often as you need it. Don't take it, however, if you don't need it.



At the end of the fourth day, you should be waking up from the Valium and experiencing the beginnings of the opiate WD malaise. Upon rising (empty stomach), take the L-Tyrosine. Try 2000 mgs, and scale up or down, depending on how you feel. You can take up to 4,000 mgs. Take the L-Tyrosine with B6 to help absorption. Wait about one hour before eating breakfast. The L-Tyrosine will give you a surge of physical and mental energy that will help counteract the malaise. You may continue to take it each morning for as long as it helps. If you find it gives you the "coffee jitters," consider lowering the dosage or discontinuing it altogether. Occasionally, L-Tyrosine can cause the runs. Unlike the runs from opiate WD, however, this effect of L-Tyrosine is mild and normally does not return after the first hour. Lowering the dosage may help.



With breakfast, take the mineral supplement.



As soon as you can force yourself to, get some mild exercise such as walking, cycling, swimming, etc. This will be hard at first, but will make you feel considerably better.

by Rex1, Nov 30, 2002 12:00AM
To: Coral Calcium user
Someone here one time mentioned that they used Coral Calcium for withdrawals. Could we get more info on that.



Please post the details on this supplement if you any info on it, or have used it successfully.



Rex

by tlb63, Nov 30, 2002 12:00AM
At first I was taking them for another one of my knee surgeries, for the past 6-8 months I was taking them for the hell of it, just liked the way it feeled. I am trying to quit cold turkey. I was taking 6-8 10/500 per day for about a year. I took 3 yesterday and I am taking 1 today and 1 tomorrow. I am completely out. I have not been using DR's for my hydros, I was getting them from friends who are professional DR shoppers. And to tell you the truth I cannot afford to pay for them anymore and I hate the way I feel........

by Pinkit, Nov 30, 2002 12:00AM
To: Rex
Hi I was just reading your forum above and wanted to ask a few questions.  First of all, as you may know from my posts I'm tapering off vicodin.  I'm down to 5 a day 7.5/500.  Do you recomend I start the Thomas Recipe now or wait until I'm completely done w/ the taper?  ( having a very hard time only taking 5 a day) Also why do you recomend the Klonopin and valium v/s the ativan.  I'm on Ativan for the withdrawls I'm starting to feel.  I take 3 1mg tabs 3 times a day except for at bebtime and then I take 2 pills. Are the other benzos better? I'm having trouble sleeping ex. Except for last night I took 3 before bed and it really helped w/ my anxiety and to sleep.

Thanks for your posts. They really help me alot. I'm glad you're here.

Love to all,

Pink

by Rex1, Nov 30, 2002 12:00AM
To: Pinkit
Start the Thomas Recipe immediatly!



As far as the Benzos, I don't recommend them at all - they are part of the original Thomas Recipe I found here.



Listen to me carefully Pink - be VERY careful with these drugs, because from what I read withdrawal from these is a greater hell than from opioids. Stevie Nicks had a well publicized detox stay from Klonopin, and I would not wish this on anyone.



As I have mentioned, for me the mental pain of anxiety and depression is a thousand times worse than the physical pain. You may want to jump over to the mental health forum and have a lok around or post a question over there. So please consult your physician before continuing with any plan.



Having said that, they can help in low dosages to help you sleep, and take some of the WDs away. Ativan, klonopin, and Valium are all in the same family - benzodiazapans (sp) and are basically tranquilizers. Ativan works faster, but Knlonopin lasts longer - I have no info on Valium other than it's the oldest of the drugs.



Take these in low doses or not all if you can stand it. Use the other items in the recipe to help you.



Were you the one who said that you never prayed, but you have just started? If so, I will be happy to provide more info on God to you, but only if you want it. I will say that I know God has been watching you and waiting for you to take a step towards him. He's got a plan, that's so much better than our own plan.



Let me know if you want more info, or if I can just answer any questions.. OK?



Rex



Rex



by tlb63, Nov 30, 2002 12:00AM
OK ....I just went and bought all the things you listed on the recipe, except the L-tyrosine they did not have it at CVS I will go by GNC after work. I am going to do this and make it work...The last time I went through this I was totally flu-like sick for 5 days, this may sound stupid but the only thing that made me feel any better was drinking alot ( of whiskey). It really took the edge off. The hard part for me is knowing I could have my medicine in one phone call. But I am pretty tough and I am going to try my hardest to make it work. I have a great wife, 4 awesome kids and I need to get this freaking hydrocodone out of my life forever, it has totally taken away my sex drive, made me moody as hell, I guess generally made me a real ass for everyone to be around.....what do you think????

by tlb63, Nov 30, 2002 12:00AM
another question everyone? how much truth is there to what i have heard that a big part of the withdrawal is from the acetaminophen? should I continue taking a few tylenol for a few days????? thanks for the feedback

by Rex1, Nov 30, 2002 12:00AM
To: Tlb63
I like to say to folks who have made the decision, that, effectively, you have realized you are on the wrong road. You have pulled over, taken out the map, and said to yourself, "What the hell-  I am way off course!"



But now, you are turned around and speeding back the other way, and for many THIS turnaround is the hardest part.



Many of us are way down the wrong road, thousands of miles even, but we know once we turnaround, with some rough spots ahead, there is hope we get back to where we once were.



Congratulations on completing one of the toughest parts of detox - the admission!



I would focus on detox in two parts:



1) Taper down on the narcotics first, until you get a very low level, which you will then take to a NO level



2) Worry about getting rid of the other non-narcotic stuff next, like the ibuprofren



One more thing - all the experts, of which I am not one, will tell you that the alcohol and drugs go hand in hand. What I mean is while you consider Detox, why not consider COMPLETRE sobriety?



Good luck - don't forget to harness THE MOST AWESOME POWER IN THE UNIVERSE - God and prayer!



Rex

by tlb63, Nov 30, 2002 12:00AM
thx Rex, I am so glad I found this site. I am going to do it...I really wish I could tell my wife but I think she would never forgive me, and she just had our new baby 6 weeks ago, and she does not need any more stress in her life....

by Thomas02, Nov 30, 2002 12:00AM
To: Pinkit
Rex1 is being a bit alarmist about the benzos, such as Valium, Klonopin, Librium, Ativan. The fact is, if you're doing a cold turkey detox from a healthy hydrocodone habit YOU WILL need the benzos for the first week. After that, you can dump the rest of them if you feel it necessary. But in the first week the benzos will make the difference between succeeding and failing. Rex's warnings are well intentioned. Benzo addiction is a *****. But one week of them isn't going to produce either the addiction or the dangerous withdrawal Rex is speaking of. If you want the recipe to work, get the benzos. Valium is best (and cheapest), Klonopin is also good. Librium is one of the preferred detox benzos but only comes in capsules, so you're tapering options are limited. But for one week, tapering can consist of lengthening the period between doses of Librium, if that's all you can get. But, as I said, good ole Valium works the best for sleep, muscle tension and body aches. I'm not sure if you've gotten the entire recipe from the abridged versions I've seen on this forum. To use the recipe correctly, you need to know how to time the introduction of each ingrediant. Here is the "real" recipe if you choose to take it (good luck):



Thomas Detox Recipe



PLEASE NOTE: I am not a doctor, simply a long-time Rx opiate junkie who has had many opportunities to develop a way to detox. This is a recipe for at-home self-detox from opiates based on my experience as well as that of many other addicts. It is not intended as professional medical advice. It is always wise to make sure none of the recipe ingredients or procedures conflict with medications you may be taking. Likewise, if you have any medical condition, disease, allergy or any other health issue, consult your doctor before using the recipe. Thanks, Thomas



This recipe is designed for cold turkey opiate detox. It assumes that you can get about 5 to 7 days away from your job or household responsibilities during which you can sleep, veg and act as miserable as you feel. Opiate WD mimics the symptoms of the common flu, so, if you need a smokescreen, hide behind a bad case of the flu.



If you can't take time off to detox, I recommend you follow a taper regimen using your drug of choice or suitable alternate -- the slower the taper, the better.



For the Recipe, You'll need:



1. Valium (or another benzodiazepine such as Klonopin, Librium, Ativan or Xanax). Of these, Valium and Klonopin are best suited for tapering since they come in tablet form. Librium is also an excellent detox benzo, but comes in capsules, making it hard to taper the dose. Ativan or Xanax should only be used if you can't get one of the others.



2. Imodium (immodium) (over the counter, any drug or grocery store).



3. L-Tyrosine (500 mg caps) from the health food store.



4. Strong wide-spectrum mineral supplement with at least 100% RDA of Zinc, Phosphorus, Copper and Magnesium.



5. Vitamin B6 caps.



6. Access to hot baths or a Jacuzzi (or hot showers if that's all that's available).



How to use the recipe:



Begin your detox with regular doses of Valium (or alternate benzo). Start with a dose high enough to produce sleep. Before you use any benzo, make sure you're aware of how often it can be safely taken. Different benzos have different dosing schedules. Taper your Valium dosage down after each day. The goal is to get through day 4, after which the worst WD symptoms will subside. You shouldn't need the Valium after day 4 or 5.



During detox, hit the hot bath or Jacuzzi as often as you need to for muscle aches. Don't underestimate the effectiveness of hot soaks. Spend the entire time, if necessary, in a hot bath. This simple method will alleviate what is for many the worst opiate WD symptom.



Use the Imodium (immodium) aggressively to stop the runs. Take as much as you need, as often as you need it. Don't take it, however, if you don't need it.



At the end of the fourth day, you should be waking up from the Valium and experiencing the beginnings of the opiate WD malaise. Upon rising (empty stomach), take the L-Tyrosine. Try 2000 mgs, and scale up or down, depending on how you feel. You can take up to 4,000 mgs. Take the L-Tyrosine with B6 to help absorption. Wait about one hour before eating breakfast. The L-Tyrosine will give you a surge of physical and mental energy that will help counteract the malaise. You may continue to take it each morning for as long as it helps. If you find it gives you the "coffee jitters," consider lowering the dosage or discontinuing it altogether. Occasionally, L-Tyrosine can cause the runs. Unlike the runs from opiate WD, however, this effect of L-Tyrosine is mild and normally does not return after the first hour. Lowering the dosage may help.



With breakfast, take the mineral supplement.



As soon as you can force yourself to, get some mild exercise such as walking, cycling, swimming, etc. This will be hard at first, but will make you feel considerably better.



PLEASE NOTE: If you have any medical complications, first check with your doctor before detoxing to verify that this regimen is safe for you.



Though they frown on such things, I'm listing my private e-mail here for you (and only you, mariposa partisans are not invited). Call on me shoud you have questions about detox or just want to talk to someone who's been there more times than you've celebrated birthdays): ***@****



Thomas

by Rex1, Nov 30, 2002 12:00AM
To: Thomas02
Thanks for your help on this.



I agree with your comments completely, and I am also glad you listed the recipe along with the steps and timing issue.



My feeling on the benzos is that if you know the potential dangers of the addiction factor up front, you'll be be ready if that llizard turns into an alligator ;-).



Glad your here, and thanks personally for your recipe which likely saved my life, or something like it as it existed while in Vicodin hell.



Rex

by Pinkit, Nov 30, 2002 12:00AM
To: Rex
Yes, I am the one who said I never used to pray. I blamed god for some horrible things that happened in our family and to me so I just never prayed. I always believed there is a god, I was just angry w/ him. What happened to us was not his fault and I realize that now. I used to go to church until the age of 10 so I do know much about god. My children have always gone to church though.  I make them go w/ my parents. I havent gone to church in about 15 years, but I think it's time for me to grow up and forget about what happened in the past.  I know my children, my husband, and I all need god in our lives. Thanks for caring...

by jule1, Nov 30, 2002 12:00AM
To: Valerian for sleep
Valerian root works very well for the restless leg and not sleeping part of the withdrawl and the best part is you cn find it at any drug store even some grocery stores carry it.  It smells horrible but really helps and its a natural herb.  Best wishes to you all.  I hardly post because I am having a hard time even wanting to be clean but hopefully a day will come soon when I yell HELP ME to all of you.  I am ready for that day.  I just don't have that want deep in my heart any of you that have gone through it know what I mean.  Its what makes the saying, you can only do it for yourself and when you're ready, ring so true.  OK bless your hearts and I will pray for good sleep for all of you.  Jules

by I'm Done, Nov 30, 2002 12:00AM
Okay, I am sitting here. Today I have curbed my 800mg hydro habit with 3 OC 80 (OxyContins). I am starting to feel it though. I have Clonidine Patches, 2 10mg meths and 60 tabs of Bupropion (what is that??). What should I do? Which should I try first any why?



Thanks anyone!



I'm Done

by Bodymechanic, Nov 30, 2002 12:00AM
To: I'm Done
Bupropion is welbutrin an antidepressant, put that on the shelf till much later.  Clonidine will do you no good whatever unless you are going cold turkey.



Your habit is huge, one you don't develope without years of practice.  Unless you are putting us on about your habit size, I suggest you get professional help. Either in the form of an inpatient detox, 7 day methadone program or a 5 day buprenx program.  Even with professional help I think you are going to have withdrawals well into the 2 week mark.  You may even be a candidate for methadone maintainance, which is something I almost never suggest.  



You must be doing something illegal to support that kind of habit. If you are'nt now you will be very soon. You need to do something fast or you will be doing your detox in jail where there are no choices.  The way to stop a hydrocodone habit is the topic of this tread.  Go back an read it again and then you will have all the information available.  The rest is up to you. Either way you are in for a rough ride.



Keep posting, I am saying that you should expect this to be difficult, not impossible.



Peace



by I'm Done, Nov 30, 2002 12:00AM
To: Bodymechanic
I am not putting you on about my habit size. I have been able to obtain the meds either locally or through various websites. I have about 12-14 sources that will send meds once a month. It still puts my short quite a bit for a habit like mine. I respect your words and I may end up eating my own pretty soon but I am going to do this without an inpatient or outpatient program. I have an unsupportive wife, 3 kids, a company to run and I cannot do it any other way. I am just looking for people who can give me some encouragement and help me understand the different phases of getting away from this hell I am in.





I'm Done

by theGolden1, Nov 30, 2002 12:00AM
To: I'm Done re: withdrawal
If you can stay motivated and cut your dose once every five days, you will get there. Be very patient and write down a slow tapering schedule from BodyMechanic or Rex. If you are taking this much .... you can shave it down a tad, and probably not feel any different. When the new dose feels comfortable .... do it again. Keep going and be very grateful you have found this place. The love you feel for your family will see you through. Keep it simple. Lower your dosages over the next month and see a doctor (descretely of coarse) for  support. When the time comes, use the patch. Don't forget to pray ..... Goldie

by Rex1, Nov 30, 2002 12:00AM
To: Pinkit
I'l go even further. This place, what happened to you as far as drugs, everything is part of His plan, and so now he has your attention.



How you respond is more important even than what you do about your habit, IMO.



The one concept I never understand when I was growing up was that of Grace. Grace is undeserved kindness, and I'm telling you, I did not understand that fully until I really needed God and bad.



Why not suprise your family - parents, kids, heck everyone, and go to church tommorrow? Just go without any expectations, just go as you are, broken, just to say thanks and to worship. I promise you will be amazed at how He will touch you.

Rex

by hellbent, Nov 30, 2002 12:00AM
To: I'm done
How are you taking the OC's? Swallow them if you want best tapering results.

by Nod, Nov 30, 2002 12:00AM
To: Rex1
One thing that eats us addicts up is the secrets and secret lives we lead with our pills.  For your wife's sake and yours, I would fess up to her and get that secret out of the way.  Once you do, quiting will get easier because you are no longer alone and you have someone you love that you don't want to let down.

It really helped me in the past.  Its kind of how this board makes you feel, not alone with people who care.  



I know this could be hard but you should really consider opening up to her.  Get rid of as many of the secrets as you can and you will feel better and more motivated than ever.  Take care

Nod

by theGolden1, Nov 30, 2002 12:00AM
To: Rex
Rex .... you are a spiritual person. That was beautiful. I don't know if you are into the 12 step program, but they say the 12th step is the most important in maintaining our sobriety. "Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these Steps, we tried to carry this message to others, and to practice these principles in all our affairs."

by tifmichaels, Dec 01, 2002 12:00AM
I am so in hycodone hell.  I have wanted to stop for so long but just can't stand the w/d's.  I have tried every thing i know to stop but i must admit i like the high, however it's not worth what i have put my family through much less myself.  The family is gone tonight and i was searching the internet for more drugs stronger ones than i am takeing at that.  My reasoning if i take one stronger pill less often then i don't have a problem.  Yeah Right Thank God i found your site and shredded all the info for online drugs i had aquired.  All i want is to be free of this hell i know. It's really sad when you can't function because you don't have your pills for the day.  Help Me.

by Rex1, Dec 01, 2002 12:00AM
To: tifmichaels
So glad you found this site too.



Come back in the morning (Sunday) and read my post, if I can get in on the board concerning this little 4 week adventure of ours.



It all starts tommorrow, Dec 1st a new day of a new month.



AND, with your strenght and ours, plus God, it ends January 1st 2003, a new year with a new future free of pills.



I don't care if I am laughed at, I believe every single person on this forum can do this...



We shall see....see my posts in the morning.



Welcome to our forum, and Yes, you will find help here. I know because I did.



Rex

by Rex1, Dec 01, 2002 12:00AM
To: Nod
Funny you mentioned that. That's how the turnaround got going, me tellig my wife, who is awesome by the way.



I said, "I'm addicted to Vicodin" and she said, "Heck I have know that for years".



Funny how we believe we're living these Jams Bond secret lives and we are actually more like Keystone Cops.



Rex

by Bodymechanic, Dec 01, 2002 12:00AM
To: I'm Done
If you are determined to do this yourself and you have access to street methadone take it as follows.  Day 1 40mg, Day 2 40 mg, Day 3 30mg, Day 4 30mg, Day 5 20mg, Day 6 20 mg, Day 7 10mg, Day 8 10mg.  The methadone will stay in your system up till day 10.  You will be over all but the worst of it by then.  Use valium to sleep after you are off of the methadone.  Keep in mind that both methadone and valium are very, very addicting.  Both are a ***** to kick once you are hooked. The methadone is especially so addicting that if you fail the first time you will need to wait two weeks until starting again. The last thing in the world you need is a methadone habit. If you use these drugs as tools and not as crutches they will serve you well.



Keep posting





by mrmichael67, Dec 02, 2002 12:00AM
To: I'm Done
Please e-mail me at ***@****.  I would like to talk to you about what is going on.

by motorcycle, Dec 02, 2002 12:00AM
Hello,

This is my first time posting, it was very relieveing to hear that I was not alone in my situation when I was going through the first few days of this horrible experience. I did not know what to expect and was very scared to start my road of recovery. My addiction started after a severe car accident over 2 years ago. I started on Vicoden (500) and Duragesic patches 25 ugh and then up to 100 ugh, there was a problem with medical payments and I could not afford the high price of the patches. The alternative for me was Methadone (40 mg) and Vicoden (750) 240 per month. I have been on this and other meds for a year before I realized that I had no motivation and my ability to have normal feelings and emotions were lacking severely. Being petrified of going through withdrawls I had prolonged this for a few weeks before first tapering down to 10 mg of Methadone, felt like **** already. I stopped the Methadone cold turkey and tried to counter the withdrawls by taking more Vicoden (stupid), after 2 weeks of withdrawls and NOT sleeping I went to my family doctor and told him what was going on (highly recommended). He gave me a few options, start the meth. again, admit myself into a detox clinic, or try it on my own with the help of some medications. In order for me to start this I needed to quit both Methadone and the Vicoden in order to do this properly. The meds that he perscribed were Phenobarbital (barbituate) and Clonidine (blood pressure med). I waited a day and then bit the bullet, (cold turkey from 8-10 750 vic.). The withdrawls were unbearable at times and the worst was the inability to sleep combined with the various other w/d symptoms. I drank plenty of fluids and stayed in bed for the first few days. Expect the worst part in the first 2-3 days and then the following days are much better, 5th day was much much better and even slept.



For everyone that is considering quitting use my experience as some relief; I was using alot of meds and was able to get to the 6th day now. Mentally I feel as though someone turned the light on and I have morefeeling and emotions than i have had in years. It is well worth the sacrafice and the rewards far supersede the initial pain and tears. These drugs are evil and fool you that they are affecting your quality of life, don't waste your precious years and love that is suppressed. It is mind over matter, if you don't mind it don't matter;) I believe I have a long road ahaead but it is good to know I am not alone. The good lord is here for everyone if they CHOOSE to accept into their hearts and he will guide you through this. There is much valuable info. here that will help with teh withdrawls.....and thanks to all the people that have posted previously.....it made things easier whne they were rough. BELIEVE IN YOURSELF!!!

by mrmichael67, Dec 02, 2002 12:00AM
To: Motorcycle
Your post is very much appreciated.  Someone with your level of use would most definitely experience withdrawal symptoms along the lines that you did.  But, this person is coming down from an 800mg a day hydro habit.  He is not going to be better in 2 to 3 days.  Your heart is in the right place and it is nice to see that.

by tlb63, Dec 02, 2002 12:00AM
To: Back Again
Well it's Monday and I am back at work again..It has been 26 hours since I took my lasy hydro...I took 1 Sunday, 1 Saturday, 3 Friday, and 6-8 a day for the past year...I started the Thomas' recipe on Saturday (except for any sort of Benzo's of any kind). I feel Ok right now, just really fuzzy and kinda out of it....I felt pretty rough yesterday but not as bad as the 1st time I detoxed... I think I am alot more prepared than the 1st time, mentally and physically.... I have to work 13 hours today ( hopefully)....I do think that since I HAVE to work and HAVE to support my family it does help me mask the WD's somewhat...I took about 3 hot baths yesterday, which helped alot, that will not be an option today....I am in sales, and today is the last day of our month so I HAVE got to be able to perform I hope .......I am praying and fighting through this...I was around my kids all day yesterday faking the flu, just looking at them and my wife is helping me want to stay off this ****....I know I have probably done alot of damage to my liver as I am also a pretty heavy drinker...I want to be around to see my kids get older...I will posting and reading on here all day ....good luck everyone and god bless.....

by sonogirl, Dec 02, 2002 12:00AM
To: i'm done
I am another oxy user.  I am hooked on 240mgs a day.  It sounds like a lot but is very easy to get up to.  I also need and want to get off of these hellish pills!!!  Maybe we should start tapering together.  If I knew there was someone in my same predicament, it may be easier.---I have heard that one should taper no more that 15% per week.  That is what I am going to try.  let me know if you are interested in keeping in touch during this awful trying time.  (e-mail of course) thanx, sono

by tlb63, Dec 02, 2002 12:00AM
Hey everyone...I have been at work for about 5 hours now,,,It is pretty rough today..I was doing Ok until a few of my connections called me offering to come by and ( hook me up), I was feeling ok until then,,,I am struggling to keep saying NO....I actually think I should go home and turn my cell phone off, I have come pretty far in the last 4 days and hate to throw it away...it sucks knowing I could feel better in 15 minutes..................

by Rex1, Dec 02, 2002 12:00AM
To: Tlb63
Yeah, but how will feel tommorrow?



Go home and disconnect the battery from your cell phone - don't think just do it.



What if one of these suppliers gets busted? Are you going to be caught up in the same net? Nothing - I repeat nothing - is worse than jail, please trust me on this one...



Remember your committment, your climbing the stairs now. Don't stop and don't look down - you can do this! You will do this!



Rex

by Rex1, Dec 02, 2002 12:00AM
To: sonomama
Look at the post above this entitled "any advice for tapering over holidays". In this post you will find my invitation and details on our Sober by Jan 1 Sobriety challenge.



I invite you to joisn us and welcome...



Rex

by tlb63, Dec 02, 2002 12:00AM
THX again REX.....I just talked to my boss, told him my "flu" was killing me,,,he said to go in a little while,,,,I agree about the whole jail thing, i have through that about 10 years ago , and will not do it again.....i still think i can do this,,,,

by Bodymechanic, Dec 02, 2002 12:00AM
To: tlb
At day four you are almost through the worst of it. You will improve quickly over the next 24-48 hours.  Resist

by sonogirl, Dec 03, 2002 12:00AM
i'm so frustrated.  it is so hard to taper.  please send your prayers my way.  i have tried this so many times.  never with much luck.  is there anyone out there who has succesfully tapered off of oxy?  i need to no that it can be done.---------

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by Witchywoman, Dec 03, 2002 12:00AM
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good luck,

WW

by djknows, Dec 04, 2002 12:00AM
I finally decided that I was a hydrocodone addict and wanted to take my life back.  My dosage was 3-4  15/100 mg tabs per day over the last 8 months.  At first I felt like a "normal" person since I had started taking them for leg pain due to an injury to both legs 20+ years ago.  The "high" was enjoyable and allowed me to feel like I assumed everyone else did:  pain free.

Then I noticed over the last 6 weeks that upon waking in the morning my lower back or possibly kidneys seemed very sore and tender.  That was my wake-up call to do something about my addiction.

They did seem to give me a lift or more stamina throughout the day.  But I feel it was only a substitue for being clean & sober.  I stopped drinking completely a few weeks ago and took my last pill Dec. 1.  The next day I felt very sluggish and notice small aches & pains that I did not notice before.  Today is better and got a good nights sleep but also know that I must continue with this pattern of healthy living and will introduce a small walk into my routine within the next few days.  Any other advice for a recovering addict?

by Rex1, Dec 04, 2002 12:00AM
To: Djknows
Just keep on keepin on.



So what you you can to support others here - it will help with your own recovery.



The worst, if not over now, will be over soon.



Way to go - great job



Rex

by djknows, Dec 04, 2002 12:00AM
Thanks Rex for the support.  while working from home today I pulled from my sweat pants a "hydro" and promptly put it back in the bottle where they will stay.  I have not gotten the nerve to throw them away as of yet but I have a strong will to suceed and usually get what I'm after.  This addiction will not keep me.  I will overcome it.  I see why the Imodium (immodium) was listed in the ingredients list!

I was afraid to take these concerns to my family physician for fear of my employer would discover my problem and arrive at the conclusion that I was no longer able to perform and be dismissed.  Does this happen?

When should I expect the fuller nights sleep to arrive.  This has plagued me since I quit taking the hydro's.  Maybe 3-4 goodhours of deep sleep and then awaken and feel restless and unsatisfied with who I've become.  And no amount of rationalizing can make me come to any other conclusion that I'm addicted and WILL stop.  I'm glad I found this site and it comforts me to know that others have the same problems but have learned how to overcome their addictions and take it a day at a time.  Hopefully getting stronger each day.



Thanks again Rex for the support and hope everyone here gets back on track.

by Rex1, Dec 04, 2002 12:00AM
To: DjKnows
How many days are you out without the hydrocodone?



As far as the doctor goes, I suppose it depends on the country you live in, but in the US i think it's illegal for your doc to say anything to your employer.



You don't need to use the word addict with your doc, just do what I did. I told me doc that "the previous dr handed out Norco like it was candy and I became dependant on it. I would like some help getting off of it..."



I will only give you one "If I were you..", OK?



I would flush those Vicodins right away and then symbolically give them the middle finger when you do - bery liberating and also reminds you oh how strong you can be when you set your mind to something.



I am on day 11 or 12 (lost count) with no Vicodin and just flushed my Tyelonol #4s, so I amy need your help over the next couple of weeks.



Great job and hang in there...



Rex

by bare, Dec 05, 2002 12:00AM
About two years ago it was found that I needed ortho. surgery on both my knees. I am not the type of person that anyone would look at and say "oh, shes a user," but that is exactly what has happened to me. At first the hydro was a real help until the surgery. A crutch so to speak. After the surgeries they were helpful because I had real pain. It became apparrent to me that I continued using them afterwards even though I did not have any apparrent pain. I dismissed these small times when I would reflect in the back of my mind of the abuse of this pain killer. If there were times I had a stressful day at work, mid-day I would just take 1/2 of a 7.5 and use my bad knees as a reason. Those 1/2 pills grew into a full one tablet dose, and for varoius reasons up to two to three but rarely four in a twenty four hour period. If I was especially busy at work I would take one because these pills have a wonderful way of convincing you that you are more efficient, wittier, more able, and of course, these knees of mine. I would take tablets at night-time to wind down, to sleep heavier, If my spouse and I were arguing, etc. On the story goes. I have longed to get off these for a while. I went to my physician a few times and told him my fears of early addiction possibilities. He looked at me strangely then asked how many daily? I told him 2 to 3 max in a 24 hour period.He went over the times he has prescribed to the time of refill, he noticed some gaps even. He laughed at me. He told me addiction is habitual use such as 20 or 50 pills daily.  I fear for my health, liver, kidneys. Well, balls to the walls (so to speak) two days ago I let my prescription run out. I suppose taking 3 to 4 max, NEVER letting my prescription run over etc. may not be considered a problem in the medical world, but I have been on these things for a year and 1/2. I went to a pain management center yesterday for help and he gave me something called Ativan but it made me feel worse. I only took one and that is all I am going to take. I need some advice. I feel comatose almost lazy but bored too. It feels, I guess scratchy inside my body, almost like I am winding up. I have a huge headache but the worst thing is I can't sleep. I went to bed last night and woke up with a disturbed feeling that left me very uncomfortable. This sleep/wake process happened about every 30 minutes. So what am I in store for? How long is this going to take? Amazingly, I still really do have knee pain but I think I blew the proportion of pain up to validate the usage. After all these hydro are fun if nothing else. I am not going to start using again but I would like to know what else is in store for me. Also this doctor for pain mgmt. suggested a liver profile for me. What is it and if I do have damage then what??? Thanks for input. Help is appreciated. Sincerely. S

by hatenarc, Dec 05, 2002 12:00AM
I'm new here.  I'm not new to addiction though.  I am a recovering alcoholic, sober for almost 19 years.  At this moment, I am scared to death.  It started out with neuritis in my arm.  Ibuprofen didn't touch the pain so I got some 7.5-500 hydrocodone from my mother.  That was two months ago.  The neuritis has been long gone for a long time.  However, I was unable to quit the hydrocodone.  I tried to taper off.  That seemed to work somewhat but when I went from 1 a day to none, I felt like I was going to fly apart.  It's been 2 days since I stopped them (I ran out).  I told my mother what has happened.  She's pretty understanding.  The only thing that is keeping me together right now is darvocet (also from Mom).  I have called my doctor and am waiting for a call from them as to what can be done to help me get off of this ****.  All I want to do is cry.  My "hate" list is:

1. Narcotics

2. Alcohol

3. Loneliness

4. Christmas holidays

5. Withdrawal



I just want the pain to stop!

by Rex1, Dec 05, 2002 12:00AM
To: Bare
Bare,



Welcome. If you have gone off of these completely, you may 4-5 days of hell, but the worst will be over soon. Just hang tought and remember the feelings you have are not your real feelings, they are feelings induced but the taper or elimination of the Vicodin.



You are on a low enough dose that I would not worry about your liver, although it can't hurt to have it looked at.



Take a look at your calendar and realize that by the end of the weekend, the worst will be over and normal feelings will return. For me, I had great feelings physically, but felt pretty bad emotionally. You just gotta hang tough, and read some of the other posts here.



Check out the Thomas Recipe - you'll find it in one of the threads above.



We'll be praying for you.



Rex

by Rex1, Dec 05, 2002 12:00AM
To: Hatenarc
Although I am not a doctor, I believe I have some good news for you. Your on such a low dosage that these feelings you're having are likely gonna pass once a few days have gone by.



Is there anything non-narcotic you can do to deal with the pain? If possible, go off of the darvocet too if you can find something to deal with the pain.



There are people here who would give their right arm to have caught this problem so early and when the dosage is so low. Hang tough for a few days and also check out the Thomas Recipe (posted in a thread above) for some Vitamins and other suggestions.



Good luck and we will be praying for you two new folks...



Rex

by 2bpainfree, Dec 05, 2002 12:00AM
Hello Everyone,



I have been a behind the scenes reader of this forum for over 2 years give or take time off due to relapses. Today is day 4 off a severe hydro/codeine/oxy/methadone habit over the past 3 years.  It started as most legitimate pain therapy of 4 pills a day to a raging 30-40 pill a day habit.  I realized this was a problem (after a year) and started methadone to stop.  This worked for about 3 weeks until I started adding hydro on top of the methadone.  This lasted about another year.  I finally detoxed off methadone completely in October.  Which by the way is 100Xs worse than any hydro detox.  Over the past 2 months I found I still was taking 20+ hydro a day and substituting in DHC to avoid withdrawals.  I finally stopped hydro November 30 and stopped codeine December 1.  All thanks to my desire to finally quit and reading all the supportive posts in this forum.  Thanks Everyone Today is day 4 and I am feeling better.  I still managed to work all week but it was hard.  The only symptoms I am having is extremely tired and achey (achy).  I finally started eating OK today still a little nausea.  The only thing I had to detox with was clonidine, which helped me sleep.  I have been here at least 30 times before and relapsed back but I am hoping this time will be different.  Thanks Everyone and God Bless.



Brian

by Rex1, Dec 05, 2002 12:00AM
To: 2bpainfree, Methman
You may never know how valuable this post is - a sign to others here that you can do it.



Use the Thomas recipe above and stay positive. Maybe my pal Methman will jump in and give you some advice.



He has already walked a mile in your shoes.



Thanks for posting - don't be a stranger!



Rex

by bare, Dec 05, 2002 12:00AM
To: Rex1 and hatenarc
To rex1 and hatenarc, thank you so much for responding. I am not sure how to message you personally but I don't feel quite so alone anymore. After reading most of the postings I feel very badly for those others who have been ensnared in this trap. I can say that I am feeling much, MUCH better today after only three full days of nothing. No crutches of any kind and even though two days ago I wouldn't have said this, I think that it is the way to go. Unless it is such a severe addiction that seizures could occur. Again I am just talking about my experience. I did not sleep as well as pre-drug sleep but I did not sleep/wake every 30 like the night before. I woke up to drive my daughter to school feeling refreshed. Although, I still feel as though I would like to lay around and be lazy. I need to just get my rear up and start doing what is normal. Anybody want to help me clean my house??? Just kidding.. Seriously, how about x-mas lights??? ;-> I am feeling just a tad off, but I imagine that it is like you said Rex that it is just the effect of loss. As for Darvocet, hatenarc, I never have taken it. I was prescribed hydro. Also, I was prescribed Ativan but that **** is just that, ****. It made me feel awful. I did only take that one pill. That bottle is bound for the trash! I'll throw the doctor a loop and give the pills back. I hope everybody that is within their own struggle can overcome their demon/s and if you can't do it alone, find help. Tell someone. I am a young mom of two girls and it was pretty shaming for me to tell that I had a drug problem. Good mothers don't do that sort of thing. (is that not what is said?) I suppose now I will always have a drug problem. Right?? Oh well. We are all problem solvers. Thanks again rex and hatenarc. Talk to you tomorrow. I've got some lights to string. Sincerely, S

by Rex1, Dec 05, 2002 12:00AM
To: bare
Don't be a stranger - glad you're feeling better..



The next few days may come in waves but each day should be better than the last. You're not a bad mother, you're someone who stepped in to quicksand, and has been fighting to get out ever since.



A willingness to get out brought you here, and that also means your good.



"We are not what happens to us, but we are how we respond to those events".............Tony Robbins



Rex

by MethMan, Dec 05, 2002 12:00AM
To: 2bpainfree
You detoxed with just clonidine?  Man... THAT is amazing!   I've detoxed from Hydro and methadone.  And you're right.  Methadone kick is a lot tougher than what I felt coming off hydro.  If you kicked the methadone, you should be able to hang in there on the hydro.  It shouldn't take nearly as long to get over the hump as it did coming off methadone.  

Your drive and determination is amazing to me.  Revel in the fact that you're strong enough to endure this short term discomfort in the grand scheme of your entire life.  What makes your drive?  Where does your determination come from?  Why didn't your addiction kill you?  There is a purpose for your existence on this earth that has not been fulfilled yet. Answer these internal questions and build on your amazing success.

Don't THINK you are strong, KNOW it.



Peace,

Mike

by helpingsis, Dec 05, 2002 12:00AM
I have a sister that has a very bad hyrdrcodone addiction.  I knew she had it for awhile but she would never admit it to me.  She is at the point that she just wants to quit.  Everytime she's tried on her own she gets very sick.  She has admitted to me that she's taking 10-20 pills a day.  She wants to check into a rehab for 30days but has lost her insurance.  Any ideas on what she can do?

by 2bpainfree, Dec 06, 2002 12:00AM
To: Rex1; Methman; Everyone
Rex1 and Methman, Thank you soooo much for your words of encouragement, they really mean a lot.  It makes the whole process easier and seem worthwhile.  Today is day 5 and feeling a little better today.  Today I noticed:

- the world thru my eyes looks clearer

- I actually still have feelings that are returning slowly

- Food tastes much better

- I enjoy the time with my wife and kids much more

and I am sure I will notice more as the day and next few days go on.  Its funny how you can forget how great things can be once you get out of the drug haze.  I am just trying to keep in mind how terrible is was to go thru the withdrawals, (again) and how great things look and feel once the numbness wears off.  Now comes the hard part, staying clean while dealing with some intense chronic pain issues I deal with everyday.  Thanks again Rex1 and Methman and to all who posts supportive comments.



Brian

by bare, Dec 06, 2002 12:00AM
To: rex, 2bpainfree, everyone
Hi everybody! How are you doing on your tapering? Rex are you tapering as well? From what? I hope all is well. Hang tight. Well today is better than the last. I am still having a pretty rough time sleeping but I have, for the last two nights, slept about 5 hours. I have had a few anxious fits though they don't last very long. I went to my primary this afternoon and I told him my concerns. He told me that the dosage I was on does not constitute addiction because I never abused or went over the prescrip. ammt. He said that if I, in my mind used the pills for knee pain in conjunction to the euphoric feeling then that was a pattern of abuse. He told me the withdrawls were expected due to the legnth of time I have used, that the body gets used to it. (2 years off and on) I had a liver profile done which he felt really was not necessary but I gently insisted. I will let you all know the results when I recieve them but he did help alleviate some of my fears. He seemed a touch irritated. I do believe he thinks I'm a bit paranoid. He then gave me samples called Bextra. Is this safe? For knee pain that is? My husband just came back from a three day buisness trip and seems detached from my problem. Fix it and stop is his advice but it is not that simple. I still hurt. I guess I need to come here to post because even though I have stopped it seems lonely emotionally goiong through this. He doesn't understand. (sorry about bouncing around on text) Here is a question. If I was prescribed to use 1 to 2  7.5 hydros every 4 to 6 hours and used no greater than 3 to 4 tablets daily, what percentage is the max and what is so damaging to internal organs? ie liver, kidneys, etc.? I know that it consists of a type of narcotic and a type of tylenol. What is considered dangerous levels for both? I am not generalizing an excuse to start up again but I am wondering. Also, 2bepainfree, I think your incredible. I cannot imagine your pain but I hope you stay strong. You have overcome and prevailed. Best wishes. S

by Rex1, Dec 06, 2002 12:00AM
To: Bare
Great news.



take some advice and follow the old addage;



"You can take care of the problem right now with a scalpel, or later with a meat axe"



Kick it while it's kickable - this advice, had it been given to me two years ago would be worth millions...



Just trust me on this....



Rex







by pillhell, Dec 07, 2002 12:00AM
To: tlb63
I sincerely hope your still doing as good as your post stated around Dec.2nd.Me and my husband have been hooked on pain pills for about 5 years,and took methadone about a year ago to kick.We took it for 3-4 days,then stopped.We kicked the pain killers for about a month.Then stupidly enough started again,because we had the magic drug to help us get clean.So we would get high for a while then use the meth. to kick.now we are abusing the meth.and take pain killers when we can get them.But we get 30 40 mg.wafers of meth.a month,just so were not sick.We each take 20 mg. a day.The reason I wanted to write to you is this:

We have 2 great kids.We would do anything to be clean.He is the only employed one.Everyone I've called for help won't talk to me with no insurance.Even a private doc.Inpatient treatment is not an option.We cant afford for him to take time off work.Alot like your situation.My kids are 9 and 2.The kids alone are enough reason to want to stop.I'm petrified.To be sick(detox)and function taking care of them is impossible.I know you are trying yourself to come out of your own hell.Your situation is just so much like ours.I felt we might be able to help each other.If you want to e-mail me feel free.***@**** luck in your journey.

by tifmichaels, Dec 07, 2002 12:00AM
To: rex
hey you seem like such a cool guy. It's really sweet that you really want to help people.   so many people are so into them selves.  Its really nice of you to welcom everyone into the forum.  THANK YOU FOR WELCOMING ME.  I went to my dr today and was totaly honest with her, i told her that i so wanted to  get off the vicicon and just be normal.  she is helping me .  I feel sooooo much beter.

by bare, Dec 09, 2002 12:00AM
To: Rex, Everyone
Hi. Thank you for the advice Rex. How are you?  Just a quick check in. How is everybody doing on their taper?  I feel pretty good. I am sleeping almost normally now. I almost have no withdrawl twitches anymore and when I do they are pretty minor. Hot showers are a good remedy. I suppose it helps that I have stayed at home during this. I am very scared about going back to work where everybody is on loritab and handing them around like tictacs. I do still have thoughts about how I felt on them. I know the difficulty of quitting and it just doesn't seem worth it but I hope I can stay strong. Relapse is scary and seems too near. One day as it goes. Keep it up you guys it is nice on this side so far.  Sincerely S.

by 2bpainfree, Dec 09, 2002 12:00AM
Hello,



Just an Update,  Not so good of a weekend.  After 6 days off, I took a step backwards for just 2 days but back on track again.  Starting over today is day 1, not bad WDs at all. I am at work trying not to think abolut it.  



My downfall started (again) as severe pain on Saturday which I couldnt take any longer.  This started the ball rolling and I ended up taking about 50+ hydro 10 over the weekend.  Due to to it only being 2 days on I dont expect much additional wds due to this mistake.



Is there anyone out there who has to battle permanent chronic pain in addition to the addiction.  I tried everything from accupuncture, nsaids, physical therapy, cortisone, ibuprofen, ultram, etc.  unless I take 1o time dosage, it does nothing.



Thanks everyone and have a great day.



Brian

by Rex1, Dec 09, 2002 12:00AM
To: 2bePainfree
Well, get back on that horse and try and remember where that first step was that tumbled you down the hill.



I too, dream of Norco days. Days where I lived without pain, physical anyway. The temptation to go back is always there.



I truly, I mean TRULY, believe that God showed me something two weeks ago, because I went into a depression where I didn't know what to do, where to go, who to call, what to take, I mean it was a living hell in my brain.



I stopped. It stopped. My back hurts. And here we are.



And so, I think all I can say to you is;



1) get back on, and do the opposite of what you did when you relapsed

2) Tell yourself over and over that ENOUGH VICODIN TO KILL A HORSE could kill you, or worse, cause a stroke or something else that could impair you and ruin the life of someone close to you. Yes, I know this is a severe statment, but it is true and is very motivational, would you not agree?

3) Find a non-narcotic way to deal with the pain. Make this your mission in life!



Tell you a mildy amusing story that happened to me over the weekend. Went to see the new James Bond movie - Die another Day. Now, no matter whether people think they're stupid, which they are, or exciting, which they can be, or whatever, everyone agrees that they grab and hold your attention for most of the movie - right?



Guess what I realized at the end of the almost two hour movie. During the movie I was not in pain! Well, I was, but I wasn't.



Because my mind wasn't running its pathetic little dialogue, that goes kinda like this:



"Oh you poor guy, your back hurts doesn't it? Yeah it does. Man it really hurts! I mean it hurts worse every second. I mean now its really unbearable! I can stand it anymore. Man, I hate this. Do you feel that? Yeah, I feel it! I can't even sit still. My legs hurt too  - where's my vicodin....?



Thats how it starts for me, anyway.



Instead I was thinking "Now - who came up with the idea that "in this scene, we're going to have Hally Berry come out of the water, and swing her hips from side to side more dramatically than any woman in the history of mankind has ever swung her hips since the freakin stone age and the beginning of time itself, and possible forever more!"



Or I was thinking, "now lets see, if a helicopter was dropped from the back of the plane at, say 40,000 feet, doing 4 or 5 hundred miles per hour, while on fire, after being flow through an amplified ray from the sun, and subjected to several internal explosions and gunshots, 007 and Hally Berry can get in it, back it out of the cargo door, and at around 500 feet off the ground, start the thing up, because it's dropping perfectly level! And not only that - they both still have their hair in place!



Or (finally, and mercifully) I was thinking, whoever made this movie knows how to push just the right buttons at the exact right time, triggering that dom-dom-domdom, dom-dom-domdom bond music, when you know he's gonna use a gadget.  And then my mind drifted and I thought " and so their getting 8 bucks a pop, and maybe a buck or two goes to the theatre another buck to the production company and millions of people worldwide are gonna see it so thats, what - a truckload of money!!!!!!!!!! and I wonder if they are really any better at computers than I am or even have a higher IQ BECAUSE THEY ARE CERTAINLY MAKING A HELL OF A LOT MORE THAN I AM!!!!!!!!!!!........sorry, got carried away.



You get the idea. Distract your mind and you eliminate the pain, without pills. Find a way to do that long enough and your body stops craving the drugs so much. Clearer think returns...



Then you stop seeing Bond movies ;-).



Good luck and let me know if I can help (in my typically long- winded way)!



Rex







by Rex1, Dec 09, 2002 12:00AM
To: tifmichaels
Your welcome.



Glad to hear your doc visit went good.



Stay focused and visit here as often as you can.



As you start your plan, make sure you let everyone know what it is and don't be a stranger.



Rex

by teeitup, Dec 09, 2002 12:00AM
Just found this site and finally got the guts to admiit ES's have taken over. I've been on them for about 6 years at around 2-3 a day EVERDAY, not alot but enough. Unfortunately I have some medical problems and old injuries that require some form of pain relief. Just recently had hand surgery and upped my intake to around 6-8 per day for about three weeks. Because of my other medical problems I have severe pain attacks about 3-4 times a year that require a trip to the emergency room for a demerol shot. Just had one last wed. and the demerol must have triggered something because this is the first time I've had withdrawal type symptoms trying to tack my NORMAL 2-3 ES's quota. Is it possible for that 3 week increase along with the demerol could do this? I'd like to get off the hydro all together but I've tried every RX none to man to help with my other problems and it is the best. Any ideas? Great site and good luck to us all!

by Rex1, Dec 10, 2002 12:00AM
To: 2bpainfree
GREAT NEWS!



Glad to hear it's going well.



Just remember your one step away from going back though, so avoid all the places and habits you had before.



Keep chugging along.



Rex

by 2bpainfree, Dec 10, 2002 12:00AM
To: Rex1 - Everyone
Thanks for the helpful words Rex1, I needed you around last Friday.  Anyway I decided enough is enough and the problem is having the pills around which would make anyone weak.  So last night I did the ceremony - I flushed all opiate pills in the toilet and gave them the two middle finger salute.  That made me feel more powerful than ever before!  So here I go again, day 2 not as bad as last weeks day 2.  I think and hope this recovery will be pretty quick since 1 was 5 days into it last week and only fell back a couple of days.  It actually feels more like a day 4 than 2, I am at work doing good , eating, still alittle queezy, achy, tired. But If I can get my ass up at 5:00 and drive 2 hours each way to work and back, I am doing pretty good.  



Rex1- I liked your last email and I also believe getting your mind off the pain is the best way.  This is one reason I always go to work no matter how bad I feel, I tried the stay home thing a few times and sitting around thinking about how bad you feel is worse.  Please keep in touch your posts and methmans posts have helped me tremendously.



Good luck to all and God Bless.



Brian

by Upwards, Dec 10, 2002 12:00AM
It's nice to see these comments.  I've been off of Hydrocodone for 5 months now.  I had been taking them every day for three years and by the end I was taking the 7.5 strength and anywhere from 20 to 30 per day, depending on the amount I could get. My life was a mess and you can only imagine what I went through to get them.  I went to Brattleboro Retreat in vermont to detox and I was a mess. They detoxed me with methadone and I'll tell you even after 5 months the depression is so bad.  I have detoxed from alcohol, amphetemines and other things, but nothing is as bad as opiates.  I am in heavy duty counseling, am taking heavy duty anti depressants and whatever else that I can legally take but it's not good.  I thought that the lortab was helping my depression, but I guess I really did some permanent damage to my brain cells and circuetry.  They say that it will get better, but they also say that after such a long period of time, that the brain may not be able to function without opiates.  We'll never know.  I do go to an AA meeting every day and am trying.  My craving has lessened with other medication I am taking.  I hope this posting will help others who are just toying with hydrocone.  Don't get carried away with it like I did.

by teeitup, Dec 10, 2002 12:00AM
After finally seeing my distruction and reading all the great responsess from everyone else, I got up the courage to confront a long time friend who I knew was in trouble. She said I must have been sent from heaven, she promised to tell her husband and family and get help. It was the greatest feeling! Add 2 more to the list of those trying to get help thanks to the stories you've shared!!

by teeitup, Dec 11, 2002 12:00AM
Been tapering down for 3 days now and doing so so. Any suggestions for sleep, I haven't had a sleep that wasn't either weed, alcohol or chemical induced  since 1975. It's so hard to belive that hydro is so hard to break, I've always been able to put everything else down and walk away (or into the next one)!

by captain G, Dec 11, 2002 12:00AM
I have been taking Loracet 10 for about 6 months for cronic back pain.  At one point I was taking 10 or more per day and decided to stop taking them because I was feeling just not right.  I stoped taking them for a week and used the thomas recipe.  I started taking them again just at a much lower dose, 3 to 4 per day.  Is there an amount that you can take per day and not get withdrawls.  I am going to stop taking them once again.  I also have a perscription for ultrum.  If I stop taking the Loracet will the ultrum help with the withdrawls.

by 2bpainfree, Dec 11, 2002 12:00AM
To: Captain G
Captain G welcome.  The problem with this is even though you intend on taking only 3-4 a day it usually turns into your old habit very quickly.  I dont know how many times I told myself I will only buy 100 more norcos and take them 4 a day as prescribed, by day 2 I was at 20 a day and by day 3 30 a day.  In my opinion you have to stop completely.  And yes 4 a day will give you withdrawals if taken over time, they wont be as severe or as long but they will come.  The ultram will help with the withdrawals but be careful and look at the ultram posts because they can be addicting and cause withdrawals also.



Think about tapering back over the next few weeks if you can it will be well worth it in the long run.  Commit yourself and join the 2003 challenge.  Read the posts here, they are very motivating and supportive.



Good luck and stay strong.



Brian

by Susan3, Dec 11, 2002 12:00AM
Hi everyone ,  I've been addicted to hydrocodone for 3 years. 100mg a day.  I'm on day 5 detoxing at home.  Having all the withdrawal symptoms.  Been taking a Xanax .5mg before bed which helps with sleep.  My doctor gave me Ultracet for pain . I'm a licensed nurse whose had problems with alcohol and other drugs in my life. This is the worst. But, I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. The chasing and money for the drug.  One day at a time . Thank God

by teeitup, Dec 12, 2002 12:00AM
Starting day 5 of tapering, actually slept 5 hours straight last night and woak up with less fog and back stiffness. Took 1 1/2 ES's yesterday and a .5 zanax last night. Today, NOTHING. Keep your fingers crossed for me and good luck to all!

by Hman, Dec 13, 2002 12:00AM
To: Not a newby
Thanks everyone for your comments and courage.  I received IV morphine in incredible amounts for 16 days last year for pneumonia, was cut off cold turkey, and given a bottle of vicodin 10s.  You all know what happend next- Hello vicodin.  I had an incredible come down with super withdrawls for roughly 5-6 days (They all ran together),following an abusive stretch with Vitamin "V".  Even so I knew I had a duty to take control of myself, my life, and take care of my beautiful wife.  Life went on as usual....Just had knee surgery 3 months ago, and am now ready to get back to work.  My habit has been virtually just enough to keep me wanting more-3-8 7.5s/day.  I run escavators/backhoes in underground engineering.  Obviously I know this would not be a safe situation, so time to drop back again.  Its been tougher than I thought this time would be, however it HAS to be done.  The withdrawls..very mental with physical antics reminding me of last time, yet will be over soon.  



You see people tend to justify things so freely, and the next thing you know..f@#ked.  I told myself I'd just quit, when I had to. However feeling scared is what landed me here with you all.  I thank you again for being on this planet with me, sharing something with me so personal and absolutely scary, but belief brings relief.  Believe in yourself and love who you truly are, and better yet what you'll  become when "life" appears again after the dope.  May we all have the best of luck and make the holidays with your loved ones the best yet, you owe it to YOUR LIFE.  -Hman

by JHydroHelp, Dec 14, 2002 12:00AM
Hye guys..  I have tried alot to get off of this stuff.. I have been on for over 3 years due to accidents auto and otherwise...    they injured my neck causeing very nasty headaches.. but I cannot stand the stress the drugs are placing on my relationships, or I anymore.. so I will be stopping here for help.. God knows we all need it sometime.. I was reading some of your posts and I know those symptoms all too well..  I really feel this time I am going to do it...  btw can I substitute zanaflex for the valium?  about 12 hours in and I feel like hell thankfully I wasnt taking as much as I could have been.  I wish everyonethe best of luck in their sobriety and remember,  it can only get better if you stick with it..  but thats the hardest part..  :(  



Later guys  Ill check in later today..  its about 5 am

by NeedSomeHelp!, Dec 14, 2002 12:00AM
Hi everyone.  I have been reading these posts in total horror that any doctor would be so irresponsible as to allow this to happen to people.  I mean, it's not like codeine addiction is rare or unheard of!  Just look at the little red sticker on my pill jar.



Compared to many here, my story is extremely short-lived.  I'm a 140 lb., 5'8" 33 year-old woman.  Nine days ago, on Wed. Dec. 04, I was admitted to the hospital nine days ago for severe OHSS (ovarian hyperstimulation syndrome).  Basically, I did in-vitro fertilization and, as happens 1-2% of the time, my capilaries leaked litres of fluid into my abdomen until it was crazily distended.  My waist went from 27" - 40" in just a few days.  I put on ten pounds of fluid.  I couldn't breathe, eat or drink, and I was in so much pain I was actually screaming out loud and passing out. Never had real pain like that before.



I was admitted to the hospital and given IV morphine every 2 hours as needed (which was often) for about 4 days.  The morphine started making me really sick, so they tried oral Vicodin and anti-nausea stuff in my IV (Zofran &d Regalin) Because I wasn't eating, oral Vicodin made me even sicker, so they switched me to IV Dilaudid every 3 hours for about 2 days.  Finally my abdomen started shrinking and was able to eat, so they sent me home with Vicodin and Xanax, to help me sleep.  I've been taking "Vicodin 5/500 tablets" every 4 hours, including overnight, for 5 days now.  I've taken about 3 half-pills of Xanax in that time.  



In total, I've been on heavy-duty, round-the-clock barbs for nine days, and the last five days have been just Vicodin & occasional Xanax.  I've taken 16 Vicodin in about 64 hours.



I'm still in pain from this problem, but today I started really weaning myself off of the codeine.  Instead of every 3 hrs., as prescribed, I took a pill at 8am, one at 12noon, and 1 at 7:30pm.  



Then tonight, when I tried to go to bed, I felt suddenly horrible!  I absolutely can NOT hold still.  I feel like someone is regularly pumping away at my adrenal gland.  I'm jumpy, jittery, and totally exhausted.  All I want to do is sleep.  My eyes keep drooping closed but my body will not calm down.  Even as I sit here typing I keep squirming around and having to change sitting positions every few seconds.  It's 4:50am and I've been up all night.  I can't even read because I can't concentrate worth a cr@p.  Every few seconds I feel this strange "buzzing" in my head, kind of like being electrocuted.



Now, I'm someone who has never even smoked pot.  I am not a fan of feeling dopey and drugged.  I hated having to take these pills, but had no choice.  I was especially terrified to take anything because it turns out I am PREGNANT, but my doctors have SWORN that these drugs this early in pregnancy for a limited time will not hurt my baby or cause problems.  I had no choice but to believe them.  



If this adds anything to the mix, I had been on a tiny dose of Zoloft for depression before finding out my in-vitro worked and I had become pregnant.  I had been taking 25mg once daily for about five months, and went cold turkey the moment I found out I was pregnant.



So my questions to the board are these:  



1. Given my history, how long do you think it will take for these withdrawal symptoms to go away so I can get some sleep?  One day?  Five days?  A week??  HELP!



2.  How big a dose do you consider "Vicodin 5/500, 1 - 2 tabs every 3 hours" to be a big dosage?



3.  Also, do you think it's Vicodin withdrawal doing this to me, or is it also exacerbated by the morphine, dilaudid, and/or Zoloft?



4.  Any drug-free suggestions for these creepy-crawlies????



I really do feel like I'm about to crawl right out of my skin.  I have 1 refill on the Vicodin and one on Xanax.  I'm afraid to take one single more pill, though, because if this is what it's doing to me, I no longer believe that these drugs aren't hurting my baby.



My heart breaks for so many of you and your stories.  Hopefully we will all get through this soon and be all the stronger for it.



Any advice is greatly appreciated.  Many, many thanks.



Susan

by teeitup, Dec 14, 2002 12:00AM
To: NeedSomeHelp
Read through all the questions listed in the forum, there are bites and pieces of things your looking for in all of them. Also go to www.presciptionabuse.org click on recovery stories(abusers) you might find some things their!



Good Luck!

by NeedSomeHelp!, Dec 14, 2002 12:00AM
Hi, me again.  I'm so sorry for all the rambling last night, I was out of my mind and could not hold still long enough to read through even one post.  It's Hour #25 after my last pill and I still haven't slept yet, but the jumpy/crawlies are better and I've been able to sit still long enough to read through most of this thread.  If you could have seen me last night -- I sat here typing with my legs moving all around, my shoulders, my head, jerking & squirming around for about 8 hours straight.  Pretty weird & scary.



There's no way I'm sleeping tonight either.  I'm fluey, and I'm achey (achy) all over.  Hopefully the crawlies will be better tonight so I can at least hold still.  That would be nice.  I tried to take a nap this afternoon because I'm so dead tired, but couldn't hold still either.  I've never experienced anything like this in my life & it was totally unexpected.



Something must be really screwy with me that I could have w/d symptoms after such a short time.  I mean, I read here about people who would probably kill to be on this stuff for only nine days...so what is my problem????  Why am I detoxing here like I've had a years-long habit????  I feel like I'm losing my marbles.



I think everyone here has so much courage.  I hate these drugs.  I really feel for all of you.  Strength and hope to everyone, especially Rex & MethMan for being so helpful and kind.



Susan

by JHydroHelp, Dec 15, 2002 12:00AM
hey guys..  its around hour 36..  not feeling too bad..  zanaflex and multivitamins are helping ALOT... right now all I have are minor stomach cramps, muscle fatigue and a minor upset stomach.. I hope everyone else is doing well..  I will check back later...



Thanks alot guys

Jason

by Rex1, Dec 15, 2002 12:00AM
To: Susan
You might want to go see the doc about this.



I know what you mean by the aches, but I never experiences to shakes you described.



Maybe someone else here has. Have you tried any exercise?



Goodluck........



Rex

by JHydroHelp, Dec 17, 2002 12:00AM
Hello.. just checking in with everyone to see how everyone is doing..  Im going on 4 days clean... got the urges to take hydro but didnt give in.. I hope everyone else is doing well..  

thanks for all of the posts above

Rex  you rock

later guys

by Rex1, Dec 17, 2002 12:00AM
To: JHydroHelp
It only gets better from here, bud. Don't look back - look forward. The worst is over.



Now, go in to protect mode. Remember well how difficult is was to detox and promise you'll never ask yourself to do it again. That will help you protect your sobriety. It and the folks on this forum are the only things keeping me from using again.



Great job!!!!



Rex

by JHydroHelp, Dec 18, 2002 12:00AM
Hey guys!  how is everyone?  Thanks rex... woke up this morning.. wednesday with a natural high after my first natural sleep in a long time..  it feels sooooooooooooooooo good...  thanks a ton guys..  I will keep checking back on everyone and hopefully everyone makes it to here..  I will keep pulling for you all  :)



Thank you all for the advice

Jason

by Vampy, Dec 18, 2002 12:00AM
PLease forgive me for posting the same comments on several different Questions... but this is my first time, and I wanna be sure SOMEONE sees my post. *smiles*



Hello everyone. *waves*

I don't even know where to begin... *sigh* So many of your stories have "me" in them.

I was never prescribed Vics... but when I broke a tooth once, someone gave me their scrip, and the rest... as they say, is history. *heavier sigh* Sometimes I take up to 15 11 milligram pills a day. My husband... who doesn't do any other drugs, doesn't drink, or smoke... has gotten hooked as well. We cannot believe this has happened to us. We live for the days that our "connection" gets her scrip filled... We have done no Christmas shopping yet because.. *hangs head in shame* well... you all know why...(they cost us $4 a piece) and we have two kids. My husband keeps saying that he is too smart to have let it get this far...(aren't we all!) It was just a fun way to relax and buzz at first. Now we need them just to feel normal. *sigh* I am supposed to start Nursing school this coming fall. But I dare not do that till I kick this. This has been going on with us since May of 2002. We ran out for four days and we both just wanted to die. He works but I am a stay at home mom... and it's maddening! When we run out this time.. we both agree that we are DONE, and need to go cold turkey and just suffer cause we deserve it. Forget any help from doctors... we have ZERO health insurance. Neither of us has been to a Doctor in over 5 years for anything. I have read this forum off and on since about August.... and only had the guts to post today... and only cause I am on the evil things right now. I hate that I need them. Thank you for reading my rant... any help or advice would mean so much. I think you are all VERY brave, and just reading your words comforts me... But I am soooo very, very scared..... *sigh*



-Vamp

by teeitup, Dec 18, 2002 12:00AM
To: Vampy
Hello and welcome to our world,



I to am fairly new to this site, 12 days and have been on hydro for 6 years. A couple of hints, post on the top question even if it does not directly seem to be your question and only post once.



Look through all the questions and you'll find different ways people are getting off hydro. Some go cold turkey some taper, since you inpatient treatment is not an option look for something called the Thomas Recipe in this forum. I don't remember what question it's under but sevral members swear by it.



Like I tell everyone, do less today than yesterday and keep reading the post and keep posting. It's very theraputic.



Goodluck!

Teeitup!

by JHydroHelp, Dec 19, 2002 12:00AM
Good afternoon everyone... how are you all?  I hope those of you that are detoxing are feeling much better..  I went to the doctor today and told him how I was doing but still having pain...  he gave me four facet injections..  I know you all said to buckle down and embrace the pain.  does anyone have any suggestions on how to?  I dont want to go back... I WONT go back.. anyone  please?



Thanks

Jason

by Rex1, Dec 20, 2002 12:00AM
To: JHydroHelp
Where are you in your detox Jason, and where are you feeling the worse?



1. Thomas Recipe

2. hot tubs

3. Streching

4. Distractions

5. Ibuprofren

6. Prayer



Good luck.



Rex

by JHydroHelp, Dec 20, 2002 12:00AM
To: Rex and all
today is day 7..  still getting the cravings like crazy..  and the pain that the pain meds were masking is there all of the time..  the aches and pains from the w/d seem to be going away although I get them towards the night..  thanks guys..  Im rooting for you all to make it to day 7 with me up here..  it feels good to not have your mind cloudy...



Thank you all for everything

by Rex1, Dec 21, 2002 12:00AM
To: JHydroHelp
Day 7 - way to go!



Now things will really start to improve quickly for you. Just stay the course.



Think of it this way. You have just gone through the worst and if you give in now, not only do you have to go through it again, but the next time it will be even worse!



DO NOT GIVE IN.



Look at your calendar, and at Jan 1st - 10 days from now. If you are like me, you will 4x or 5x better than you do today. Do whatever it takes to get through the next ten days, even it means sleeping more and living in a hot tub somewhere.



See you in your new (recovered) life in 2003!



Rex

by chembiosafety, Dec 21, 2002 12:00AM
Finally.  After 9 months of chewing down 4-8 vic 7.5s per/day I quit via fast taper.  Last Saturday 4 ea, Sun 3 ea, Mon 2.5 ea, Tue 2.5 ea, Wed 2.0 ea, Thu 1.0 ea and Friday ZERO, today ZERO.  Felt like trash, but worked all week and even exercised throughout.  I feel much better tonight and hope to sleep more than 2-3 hours.  It will be a clean holiday!  Make no mistake I have read every post here and it all helps.

by Rex1, Dec 22, 2002 12:00AM
To: chembiosafety
Great job. Please tell others here about your success.



Rex

by chembiosafety, Dec 22, 2002 12:00AM
Add a ZERO for Sunday – now at 72+ hrs!  Sleep is still way off track though –not more than 3 hrs/night since Wed.  I will take 1 Ambien tonight and hope to get circadian sync back on track.  I really believe that the exercise regime is helping expedite detox since it speeds up metabolism.  Very challenging though.

by chembiosafety, Dec 24, 2002 12:00AM
Add a ZERO for Monday!

by Upwards, Dec 24, 2002 12:00AM
Gotta tell you all there is hope.  I have been off of Hydrocodone for five months and even though things are not great yet I am told there is a way to "fix" my brain. I was told when I left rehab that my brain would need opiates in order to function, but God but someone in my life who believed differently.  I feel like I am an experiment but I am on medication to retrain my brain cells. I know that it will take time but it beats every alternative. I did hydrocodone every day for three years and towards the end I was poppping 20 to 30 of the 7.5's depending on how many I could get.  They were not even working for me any more.  I just want you to know there is hope.  Please don't give up.  Some days are better than others.  This will be my first sober Christmas im many years, and even though I'm not looking forward to it, I know that I am going in the right direction.  Hang in there, Happy Holidays and it feels so good to have hope that I wanted to share it with everyone!

by teeitup, Dec 24, 2002 12:00AM
To: Upwards
Congratulations!

by FaraBell, Dec 27, 2002 12:00AM
Hello To All- First, I just want to say what a terrific site this is. It really allows people with Vicodin addictions to express themselves and allow others in, whereas in "the real world", that can not easily be done.  Others who do not struggle with this just don't understand it.  People who have an addiction such as this one NEED to talk about it because nobody really likes who they are while they are doing this. Maybe they do in the beginning (remember when it used to be fun once?!) but as they continue on that bumpy road, surely that will change.  I mean, who ENJOYS downing 30-40 pills a day or MORE?  I certainly didn't.  Well, in the beginning, it was great.  Here is a pill that allows me to be a Social Superwoman.  I can do anything AT ALL....just as long as I have a few extra pills in my pocket.  I started taking hydrocodone 7.5 for herniated disks in my lower back.  Then, I just damn well enjoyed the way they made me feel.  And so I graduated.  I moved onto the 10/325mg.  That was good for a little while UNTIL I discovered they make 15/325mg.  I was taking about 20 a day-7 just to get out of bed and start my day.  Finally, when I went to the island of Jamaica and, instead of enjoying the fun and sun, I was worried about my pill supply running out and I could not get out of bed before taking 6 pills to remove the withdrawl symptoms that were there lingering, waiting to attack me within the hour, I finally HAD IT with these "white devils".  I got home from Jamaica on a Saturday and I checked into a 7 day inpatient detox on that Monday.  I was sick and tired of being sick and tired.  They had me on a methadone detox which helped me somewhat.  I was still sick for the first 3 days but NOTHING compared to what I would have been like had I done it alone at home.  I know this from prior attempts on my own.  I went into the detox on 11/11/02, got out on 11/19/02 and started outpatient groups 5 days a week on 11/22/02.  I am currently in the outpatient group but now I go 3 days a week so that I can work a few days a week as I get to know the "me without pills".  I haven't known that side of myself in a loooonnng time.  And more importantly, I AM CLEAN and FREE.  Because as long as you continue to take these pills, you are never free, never your own person.  You make no decisions, the pills decide everything in your life for you.  Everything!   There are now some days I feel good and others I feel really bad.  And it's on those bad days I hear my addiction calling me to it, trying to entice me back in.  Those days are some of the hardest I have ever had to deal with.  I never thought I would be able to get off of the Vic's in the first place and now here I am, clean for over a month.  So, what keeps me from succumbing when those pills scream my name, you ask?  Here's my secret: think of the things in your life that you want to happen and think of the things that are really and truly reachable and tangible.  Think about the way you want to be towards your family and friends.  Think about what you'd like to bring to the table in the relationships in your life.  What do you want to offer to them?  What would you like to be able to give back to these people?  Well, once you stop taking those pills, you will be able to do the things you want to do, be the way you want to be, give back to others what they give to you, and aboveall, you will actually be pleasant to be around.  Even-tempered!  Imagine that one?!  It will not happen overnight, it will happen slowly but SURELY.  Hey, you didn't start out popping 20-30+ pills a day, did you?  You had to work up to it.  And if you committ yourself to this, you will work up to the point you want to be at.  And with each passing day, you will feel better and better.  Some days might feel like the end of the world, but that's life.  THIS IS WHAT LIFE IS LIKE when you live it normally, without any mood-altering substances.  And although sometimes it sucks, it still feels great...to FEEL again.  I will be more than happy to help anyone of you and to answer any questions you may have, whether it's about addiction OR recovery.  It all goes hand in hand.  And remember, the only way you can successfully quit is if YOU want to do it and YOU-yourself- have had enough of living in hell.  You cannot "do it for" your wife, husband, kids, sister, nephew, mother, etc...it is ALL ABOUT YOU!!  Thank you for reading about my experience.  Remember that every day is a journey...and a gift.  Stick around and see what's in store for you!!

by drummerman7032, Dec 27, 2002 12:00AM
I posted this somewhere else but I figure it might help hears my story







Hello I thought this might give people on this sight hope and seeing that I do this everymonth maybe it will help someone and it can work for you . Right now I haven't taken my vicoprofen 7.5/200 6 a day for my heiniated dics in my back for 3 dAYS. Each month I have a presciption for 180 tablets . The last week like clockwork I take the last five days and flush them down the tiolet . Reason why I do this is my mom will give them to me when she see me in pain and so will my friends . I Buy one bottle of advil and take the maximun prescipbed dose possable . It does not take away the pain but it limits it . I started doing this 6 months ago after being in my doctors office and seeing this one woman shaking in such a bad need for pills that see was asking people in the office if they had any . It scared the Sh** out of me .





Let me give you my back ground on how I had to start taking this medication . I was hit by a cop running a stop sign . I dealed with the pain for three years without any presciption medication finally I gave in . I need a operation but it is to risky at my age and the location it is in . I am ewaiting on a new fda prosedure to be passed and then I an getting the surgery .





Now you may ask if I am going out of my mind now after taken 6 7/5/200 vicopropfen for 24 to 25 days and not taking anything . To be honest I am not feeling myself . I am a little depressed and tired . and I have pain . But when ever I think of how I feel . I think of how pissedd off I would be at myself going back to the doctor early and the embarrassment it would be explaining I need meds early and that one woman who was shaking in my docs office . Now what do I use to get me thur this well I take advil of course and viavirin it's a over the counter stay awake aid in the morning but the night I am beat and fall asleep not every night but when I don't I stay up and think trhat one day it will be all over and I will be able to not think about meds . And believe it or not by the fifth day I have energy and when I am suppose to go back to the doctor for a refill the only reason why I do it is because the advil will not work any more . But I think because i never constantly stay on it I have been able to deal . I will tell the truth the five days I don't look foward to but it helps each month to keep me from getting addicted .





P.s sorry about my pucntuation and spelling I was never really good at typing .















P.s.s what is this thomasa recipe I am interested in it maybe it will help me even more . And remember someone watching all of us and looking out for us it doesn't hurt to know there is a hugher power that won't give us more then we can handle . Next time someone on here has "that feeeling if you know what I mean "think you could be worse off

by Bungee7, Dec 31, 2002 12:00AM
I need help. I am 20yo and have been addicted to Hydrocodone for a  year and a half. I have tried quitting sevral times....each time it seems to get worse. To date the longest I have gone without any hyrdo is 2 days, and during those 2 days I felt so awful I would have sold my soul for a pill.

I feel as though I can do nothing but continue to take the pills. Taking them have completely messed up my life, now my life is getting back on track because I now have the support of my boyfriend. Anyway...I guess what I'm asking for is any advice to get off this drug?

by teeitup, Dec 31, 2002 12:00AM
To: bunge7
read all the questions, there is good info under each of them. when you post do it under a top question, it does not have to pertain to the question. More people will see it and respond. You can either taper or try cold turkey, if you try cold turkey you will need to use the Thomas Recipe which is listed in one of the top questions. keep reading and posting, this forum is the best therapy I've ever found. i try and live by the motto "less today than yesterday"! good luck!



have a happy new year!

teeitup!

by JHydroHelp, Jan 01, 2003 12:00AM
hey guys..  figured I would stop in and say hello.. day 19 guys.. Im feeling really down right now and have alot of pain from my neck and head.. Ive been using my zanaflex to help with the spazms but it feels just soo easy that in a phone call I could have that magic pill... these mindgames and pains are getting bad.. anyone have any suggestions?  please



you all have helped so much and Im sure I speak for everyone when I say thank you..  Rex, you're an inspiration to us all.. I saw your post in one of the other sections about degenerative disc disorder.. I feel for you.... I have 2 herniated discs in my neck which cause very nasty headaches..



Thanks alot

Jason

by HelpMeHelpHer, Jan 03, 2003 12:00AM
Hello... My girlfriend has been on Hydrocodone for 10 years now.  She had a head on collision 10 years ago, and it messed up the fasets in her neck. It also threw spinal fluid to the front of her head, and that has formed into a cyst on her brain in the front.  She is 100% disabled from the Army, since the accident happened on Army time on the base.  



She says she is not addicted to Hydro... that when people really need it for chronic pain,  they can't get addicted...  So, I have believed her.  However...  Since I've known her-  she has increased her dosage from four or five 5's a day... to six to ten 10/'s a day.  



She can not function without the hydrocodone... and her doctor doesn't give her enough to get her through a week, much less a month.... so, I have been buying them from a co-worker who gets a ton of them somehow.... It is MY fault that she is on 10's now, instead of 5's.... my fault...  Because I am getting them for her.  



Without the hydrocodone,   she can not get out of bed.  the pain is so bad, she sits up holding her legs against her chest, and she rocks herself and cries.   She vomits... she doesn't eat... she doesn't sleep.  IF she falls asleep, she has terrible nightmares and wakes after only an hour of sleep.  



Her VA doctor retired, and she has not been assigned a new one.... the temporary dotors canceled all of her medications.... Hydrocodone, Ambien, and Zoloft.   My co-worker hasn't had any to sell for the past 2 weeks.   She has been without medication since Christmas.... So....  About 2 weeks now, with NO pain medication at all.   This has been the worst 2 weeks of her life...  



She called me today, crying... She wants to kill herself.  But, she can't because of her son... I pray that she doesn't kill herself.   But I'm terrified.    I asked her to go check herself into the VA Med Center's psych unit,  but she can't... She can't leave her son alone at home, and she can't leave her farm unattended... I live 2 hours away, and I can't help in that area due to my own job.  Her son has to stay there to stay in school... So she can't check herself in.   Plus,  she won't even admit to herself that she is addicted.  



My co-worker should have his shipment in tomorrow or Saturday, and I am supposed to buy some for her... But, then I am prolonging this problem....  But, the pain she is feeling now is too much for her to bare....   Shouldn't the physical withdraws be subsided after so many days?   She is still in so much pain, and agony... so maybe she really does have chronic pain and needs the Hydrocodone.  But... her liver is going bad, and her kidneys are going bad....  I'm killing her by helping her.  



Should I NOT buy the pills and let her continue cold turkey???   I would have to tell her the supply dried up or something....  How long does cold turkey take for the chills, vomiting, headache, imsomnia, and all the other symptoms to go away??



Or should I BUY the pills and only give her a few per day to wean her down to a lower dose.  I could Mail her like 5 a day, then 4 a day,  then 3... so on and so forth.  



I am going to talk to her about the withdraw symptoms, and point out that withdraw is what she is experiencing... and it's not pain from the accident...   I would like to have her do the Thomas recipe,  but she doesn't have access to Vallium or any other perscription.... since her VA doctors don't care.  Plus, since she is getting the meds from me, illegaly... she's afraid that she will lose her VA benefits if they find out.  She's stuck between a rock and a hard place... But I am determined to get her through this.



Please,  Help me to Help her.   I don't want to lose her to suicide,  or liver failure.  



Thank you VERY much!!!



B

by alone, Jan 03, 2003 12:00AM
To: HelpMeHelpHer
I am sorry for what the two of you are going through. I am on a withdrawl from Norco. I couldn't take any more and found a specialist in "Addiction Medicine", called them this morning, and they got me in this afternoon. I also told my own Doctor that I was going to go to this other Doctor (about 85 miles away). My Doctor was very good about it, and the Addiction Specialist was great also. He Prescribed Clonidine for me and told me how to take it. The Doc says it (Clonidine) is amazing stuff, non-addicting, and will help with the withdrawl symptoms. Maybe you could do some research for her and find a Specialist in Addiction Medicine in or near her area. A good web site is Asam.org. The site was a little difficult for me to navigate at first, but I figured it out, and that's how I found this Doctor. I can't tell you yet how the Clonidine is working. Every one is different, and Clonidine may not be the proper course of treatment for her. But you have nothing to loose by trying to find her a Doctor. It WILL be worth it. No one should suffer so terribly when there IS Professional Medical Help available. Like I said...I had to drive 85 miles to see this guy...But it was worth it.

by Rex1, Jan 03, 2003 12:00AM
To: JHydroHelp
Jason, you can try this suggestion and see if it helps.  I am just warning you, it may not or it may make things worse even.



However, I read about this on a bodybuilding site and it makes complete sense so I tried it and it worked.  I had started to exercise recently and really overdid it on my chest and upper back.  This may sound ridiculous to you but I was in quite a lot of pain, from the lactic acid that builds up in the muscles.

The suggestion is to do 2 things:



1.  Get a complete stretch of the affected area

2. Invert your body such that your legs are higher than your chest, your back, and your head.  I accomplish this with my recliner. I just sit in it and have one of my kids slowly flip it backwards.  I end up in the position that a typical astronaut would be an immediately prior to the shuttle launch, if you know what I mean.



Yesterday, after I stayed in this position about 10 minutes I got back up, and about 20 minutes later I really felt good.



Stretching and inverting yourself allows more blood to flow through this area than normal.  If you stretch out your upper back and neck muscles, this alone should allow more blood to flow through the area, but when you add inversion to this, you are really pumping more blood through this area! a higher blood flow allows your body to flush out the lactic acid, plus other undesirables in the affected area. More blood is a good thing.



Because I have been incredibly fortunate to have been off work since the 19th, I have also hit the Jacuzzi two times every day whether I thought I needed to or not.  I know this is helping too.



Good luck to you - let me know if this helps at all. BTW, this is the basic premise for the inversion tables sold by a lot of Chiropractors...



Rex

by Cindy_Lou, Jan 05, 2003 12:00AM
Hi,  I am addicted to liquid Hydrocordone (codiclear). I want to try detox at home.  Is there anyone with any information on detox for the liquid form of Hydrocordone?



Thank you,

by HydroGirl, Jan 11, 2003 12:00AM
To: HelpMeHelpHer
Hi there, I would say to NOT stop giving her the hydros  . in other words not cold turkey, I hear this can actually harm your body to do this.... I have been on 10's for the last year pretty much for my ankles ... I take about 4 a day and I ran out 1 day early . but when I seen I was running out early I tappered so that I would have some .... this is the FIRST TIME I TAPPERED and this is THE FIRST TIME I have had NO WITHDRAL Symptoms and I had them before.... Im not sure why ... but I know Im doing OK... and the FIRST SIGN of addicition is Denial :-/ I am in denial, but I am also in CHRONIC Pain I took 2 darvocet's today **YUCK** and I get my perscription tommorow, my doctor "post Dated" it for me. I would say it would be better for you to tapper her.... withdrawls are HELL! Please keep in touch!

by Esmith28, Jan 18, 2003 12:00AM
OK I wished no one had mentioned getting meds online...cuz now I am really thinking that is what I should do...that is scewed up...getting narcotics without a prescritpion is that right??????? NO it cant be!!!!!

by jessica7195, Jan 18, 2003 12:00AM
To: xanax
Question.  Can anyone tell me if it is a problem or if I'd have withdrawal if I stop taking xanax.  I only take 1/4 of a 1 mg pill to go to sleep at night.  It has been so great to not have a fear of going to bed.  I finally sleep everynight.

Thanks

by JennC, Jan 19, 2003 12:00AM
Hey guys, I'm new, and I've posted on a different thread, but I just wanted to say that reading this thread has made me realize that what I have is an actual problem. I've been addicted to vicodin for a year, and until I found this site, I've been telling myself stuff like "it's not as bad as some people, yet, so I'm not doing anything wrong". Now I know that considering I panic when I run out of pills and can't even go to work, I have a problem and it won't be easy to stop. Thank you for your candor, you guys have changed my life. I just turned 23 last week, and you guys are the best birthday gift I could have asked for.

by Esmith28, Jan 19, 2003 12:00AM
To: Jenn and Janet
Welcome...I just was led here by the grace of God about a week ago. OK Janet I dont thinkthat xanax iz going to do any hard...I take them once in a while. But be careful I would try to stick to that only for short time and only at night...good luck...Jenn welcome and I am glad your here...it is aaaa ugly addiction...escpecialy since it was legal (for some) easy and needed. read about see what you find out!!

by oxic, Jan 19, 2003 12:00AM
To: JENNC
Good Day JENN!!!!



I was really thrilled to read your post just now.....admitting that you have a problem is such a HUGE STEP.



Now, we can tackle getting off these lit'l suckers!!!



Keep Posting



Percs

by JennC, Jan 19, 2003 12:00AM
To: oxic, esmith
Thankyou so much for your replies. This is so great. Last night my mom gave me 20 vics for my birthday. (more on my mom in the lifeisgreat thread). so, back to square one. This sucks! I keep saying, oh when my finaces are better, vitamins kick in, job is less hectic (mortgage company), then it will be easier to quit. But I've been on that kick for over a year now. I think I'm justifying. It's never going to be easy to quit, is it? Is there ever a point where I will enjoy life sober? Where I quit calculating and obsessing over the pills? I miss my life. I can't believe I ever had happiness without them. I'm just afraid that now that I know what life is like with them, I will be disappointed with life without them. Does that make sense? I can do everything better on vicoden! I am a better friend, girlfriend, employee. Especially my daily life, errands, etc., is so much easier with vicoden. I think sometimes maybe I should stay on it, if that's the only way I'll succeed at life. Anyone have any input on these thoughts?

Thank you, jen

by Esmith28, Jan 19, 2003 12:00AM
OK Had to let you guys know I feel great today...day 6 almost...yahoooooo it feels great..had craving this morning went away now I feel so good....keep it up all it WILL get better!!!

by J. E. W., Jan 19, 2003 12:00AM
To: JennC
This is the mind of an addict. It always plays tricks on you. I was on vics. percs. whatever I could get to keep me going.. This is a road to death! You tell yourself oh Ill stop tomarrow, but tomarrow never comes cause we talk ourselves right back into yesterday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You have got to set your mind to stop and follow through with it. otherwise you never will. Youre on the right path because your asking for help.. You need desperatly to get away from your mother at this time.... Im so sorry about that buttttttt she is dragging you down with her. You have to totaly stop and suffer the aches and pains and never go back!!!!!! Youhave to take this one day at a time.. Its hell and you think your not goig to make it at times but its well worth the aches and pains.. Im on day 9 and already feel alot better!! This is my 3rd. time. But Im going to stick to it this time.. Everytime is worst than the time before was.. So once you do detox dont fall back.. Always remember what youve gone through,1.Worrying where your going to get it from.2..How long are they going to last.3.Will I be able to get more. I could go on all night. And dont you dare give into your mom on that rx. fraud or you might end up in jail detoxing with NO ONE tohelp you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!         God Bless.. Ill be praying for you.          J.E.W.

by J. E. W., Jan 19, 2003 12:00AM
To: JennC
By the way, HAPPY  BIRTHDAY  sweetie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! J.E.W.

by percsnomas, Jan 20, 2003 12:00AM
To: JENNC
Hey Jenn,



You've described that seemingly never-ending cycle of justifying our useage...that we all experience.  Again, just recognizing that is an accomplishment.

To answer your question about how hard it is to quit; yes it's hard, BUT when your desire to quit exceeds your desire to chase that increasingly elusive high, YOU WILL DO IT.



Now to answer the second part of your question, regarding living a normal and HAPPY life without pills.....YES ITS POSSIBLE(I, as well as millions of others have done it). I cannot speak for anyone else, but I can tell you, all the things you've described (like being a better employee, etc) I've also felt. Percocet controlled my life for many years. BUT now that I've been clean for 5 months, I live my life with a renewed vigor. I swear I'm not blowing smoke up your ass....MY LIFE OVERALL IS GREAT. That is a pretty powerful statement, when you consider that last year I lost my best friend/ mother(suddenly), and one of my best friends was murdered(as well as 3 other close family/friends' deaths) In one of Thomas' posts the other day, he said:

For those of you with much shorter exposure to these drugs, know that the road home is not open forever. Return to who you were while that person is still within you. I killed the person I used to be and now I don't know who I am. But, hey, that doesn't mean my life is meaningless. Meaning comes from many people and activities in my life, not the least of which is passing on what I know so that my fellow addicts don't have to make a journey like mine.



Thomas



PRETTY COMPELLING STUFF



Jenn, you are right where you need to be to give it a try!

by Esmith28, Jan 20, 2003 12:00AM
OK Why is mom giving you meds? LOL

by luccido, Jan 20, 2003 12:00AM
I'm not trying to be "Cute" or disrepectful, but:



In a situation where a person needs "Pain Relief" such as myself, the need for powerful drugs is all that works.  The results of a neck injury and also having Osteoarthritis causes me to crave some form of medication that works.... believe me when I say, asprin doesn't cut it!  Here's the Sour Grapes.... Without the Pain Relief, I would be a basket case!  I'm not kidding about that one bit.  Now, I shall cut to the chase...

Why would I want to "Kick the Habit" of Percoset or Oxycodone and end my dependence upon those drugs??????  When, If I do... you could kiss my sanity good bye!  



For the person that wants to take away the use of Pain Killers, I say:  Let me hit their fingers with a hammer every few seconds for several years and tell them:  No More Drugs!!!!



No sir, I'll not kick the habit...........

by J. E. W., Jan 20, 2003 12:00AM
To: luccido
You have the mind of an addict but are not at the point in your life to give it up. Yes there should be rx. pain meds. but not for us to abuse like we do. Some people have no problems taking them. While others cant even take one or they get right back on that long and dreary path called addiction.                      God Bless you.... And Ill be praying for you.          J.E.W.

by Esmith28, Jan 20, 2003 12:00AM
To: Hey Lucci
Listen sweet friend of ours we are not here to ask ANYONE to quit doing what they do...we are just here in case you want to do what we are trying to...welcome to the forum... :)))

by JennC, Jan 22, 2003 12:00AM
To: J.E.W
Thank you for the Happy Birthday! You are absolutley right, I have to get away from my mother. But... I am moving back in with her this week, renting the top floor while I finish college. So, ****. But, I figure that if I got myself into this, I will be the only one who can get myself out of it. I just need to learn to resist the temptation, after all, succumbing to temption is the reason I am in this mess. I figure I will be ten times stronger if I can beat this while living with mom and staring it right in the face. Thank you for the kind words. You are my rock.

by luccido, Jan 22, 2003 12:00AM
Thanks for the Vote of confidence by being understanding and patient with my desperate sounding post earlier.

It's true, I take Oxycodone....10/650, 6 times a day.  I don't get a "High" from them, but I certainly do get enough pain relief that knocks the edge off enough to be somewhat productive.  Living with constant severe pain is very depressing.  I have severe Osteoarthritis and Osteophytes are growing into my cervical and lombar spinal cord.  In addition to that I had a Injury that broke my neck.  I'm not trying to use this thread to complain, but I'm sure all of you can imagine the pain that I going through and these "Bone Spurs" are grinding up my Spinal Cord.  I also must take sleeping meds to get me through most of the night, Halcion!  Believe me, them puppies put you to sleep!!!!  When morning comes, I have to start all over again with the Oxy.. and sometimes taking up to 2 hours before I am able to move around again.  I appreciate the support that others are not attempting to get me to stop the Oxy and detox, but I would have to resort to illegal drugs if I could not get this medication anymore!  I have tried to stop taking this Oxy and can't.  I stopped for over 6 mos and nearly died with pain.... so to speak!  My Doc has been very supportive to prescribe what I need, but I think I would do much better by using Oxycontin instead of the Oxycodone.  It is more powerful, but slower release med.  The problem is the cost!!!!  I would not survive the surgery necessary to repair my problem....

I suppose, the point I'm trying to make is:  I'm not having a problem with the Oxy, and I feel I can't stop using it!  Not, for the reason of trying to "Kick the Addiction", but I must continue for the purpose of not having an alternative for pain relief.  Therefore, I am opposed to programs that attempt to reduct the Pain meds for persons that need them.  Oh... and I'm not a Cry Baby!  Years ago, I suffered with "Cluster Headaches" for nearly 20 years.  If there is anyone here that doesn't understand what pain is.... just ask me!  That is little that takes away the pain of a Cluster headache!

Thanks for listening.......

by JennC, Jan 22, 2003 12:00AM
To: percsnsomas
Thank you so much for these words. I am going to print them out and keep them with me as my bible! You are very wise. What Thomas said scared the s**t out of me. Wow.

by JennC, Jan 22, 2003 12:00AM
To: Esmith28
Good question. Ready for a great answer? My mom gives me vics in order to justify her own use. She sometimes will say, "oh, I'm such a bad influence", but I told her a year ago that I felt like a depency was forming on my part, and she seemed concerned and told me to quit immediatley. Then the next day she gave me some.

It doesn't stop with my mother. My aunt is addicted, and my grandmother was addicted to percs and darvocet. There's a study in genetic trends for addiction!

I didn't even know about my mother's use (though I had a feeling) untill about a year and a half ago. My aunt's and grandmother's came as a complete surprise.

by Esmith28, Jan 22, 2003 12:00AM
To: Luccie/Jenn
Jenn...I understand yes addiction can be a family affair...so be careful and God bless..any time you need us just holler..LOL



Lucci...I am sooooo sad to hear how bad your pain is...I dont think we understood your situation earlier...anyway..your right just to be have quality of life sometimes you have to live on meds...God bless...

by percsnomas, Jan 23, 2003 12:00AM
To: JENNC
Hey Jenn!!

You are certainly mature beyond your years...

We're here any time you need us!



Percs

by J. E. W., Jan 23, 2003 12:00AM
To: luccidio
Im so sorry I miss understood you. You are very right you will be on pain meds. for the rest of your life.. Hopefully you can always get what you need.. Ill be praying for some releif for you..         God Bless....             J.E.W.

by Shed Man, Jan 26, 2003 12:00AM
To: luccido
Hi. It all started with cluster headches for me. After years of those suicidal thought producing torture machines, I had constant neck pain. I finally found the cure for my clusters. Lithium. The last to cluster cycles I had, I started taking Lithium as soon as I had the first few headaches in a row, and they stopped within days. This compared to the cycle before which lasted about five months of six to ten a day. Now I'm on Elavil, Klonopin, and Nuerontin, and just got cut off by my Dr. after twenty one months of four to six 7.5 hydrocodones a day. He also had me on Buspar, which I just ran out of, and won't refill because I just lost my job and health insurance. I had no idea it was going to hurt this bad. I did recreational use of illeagals in my twentys, and when the time came, and my kids, I just quit, no problem. That'a what freaks me out about this being so difficult. Now I just turned 36, and I can't tell where my pain ends, and the withdrawal begins. I hope you have your clusters under control. This sucks, but those are crushing. This is my first day off of them, and my first time on this site. Love and Prayers.

by EssexOat, Apr 02, 2003 12:00AM
I've been on hydro's for approx. 6 months and I want to quit. Can I quit cold turkey without any physicaly harm to my self?

by whorehey, Apr 19, 2003 12:00AM
Hello,

     First I would like to say this is the hardest thing I have ever done.  I have had 3 operations, one on each of my knees and one on my right shoulder.  I have osteoarthritis and have been prescribed Hydros.  I have taken them for years and never had a problem.  Then I met some guys who introduced me to snorting them.  Now I can't stop.  I have started going to more than one doctor to get more.  I am getting 100 10's from one doc. and 120 7.5's from another and it is still not enough.  I end up buying more off the street.  I can not live like this any longer.  I had an uncle and my mother die from liver failure and fear I am going down the same road.  It is to the point now I have terrible mood swings and take it out on my family.  This is my last chance to prove that I can beat this or I am going to lose the life I have worked my whole life for.  What do I do?  I will do anything.  I am tired of living this way.  Help me. Please.  I started cold turkey yesterday at 1:00 and it is killing me.  I feel weak, I have the runs, my nose is bleeding and raw.  How do I stop?  Do I tapper down?  If I do, do I still snort them.  I really need some help.  I want this to end.  Anybody please, help me.  I know I can do this.   Whorehey

by whorehey, Apr 19, 2003 12:00AM
Hello,

     First I would like to say this is the hardest thing I have ever done.  I have had 3 operations, one on each of my knees and one on my right shoulder.  I have osteoarthritis and have been prescribed Hydros.  I have taken them for years and never had a problem.  Then I met some guys who introduced me to snorting them.  Now I can't stop.  I have started going to more than one doctor to get more.  I am getting 100 10's from one doc. and 120 7.5's from another and it is still not enough.  I end up buying more off the street.  I can not live like this any longer.  I had an uncle and my mother die from liver failure and fear I am going down the same road.  It is to the point now I have terrible mood swings and take it out on my family.  This is my last chance to prove that I can beat this or I am going to lose the life I have worked my whole life for.  What do I do?  I will do anything.  I am tired of living this way.  Help me. Please.  I started cold turkey yesterday at 1:00 and it is killing me.  I feel weak, I have the runs, my nose is bleeding and raw.  How do I stop?  Do I tapper down?  If I do, do I still snort them.  I really need some help.  I want this to end.  Anybody please, help me.  I know I can do this.   Whorehey

by zaninzandell@aol.com, Aug 16, 2007 08:34AM
To: anyone reading
i just finally decided to stop cold turkey on taking my vicadins. I feel so sick right now my body has gone completely mad.My body aches in ways i ve never felt. I 'm so cold but can't stop swetting.Direreha, Vomiting I can't sleep and I'm so tired. What can I do to make this detoxing go by faster and smoother.I need to come off theys pills they have took charge over my life.I guess the only way to get better is to get worse.

by Terrified442, Nov 09, 2007 10:52PM
To: Anyone out there
I have had chronic pain for to many years to count, so has my husband.  This has been made worse I think by years and years of pain medication.  I have been reading that the pain medication actually makes the pain worse.  The more pain medication you take, the more your body craves.  So, am I really in pain?  I don't know.  I know that now my insurance company is hounding my Dr., saying "she is a junkie" - yet, I am in pain!  So, I am forced to pay cash - paying hundreds of dollars for medications.  Without them?  I feel horrible.  I long for the days of not feeling this way.  I feel like a junkie.  I think it is time to quit.  I am going to try.

by Crocket127, Dec 18, 2007 04:17AM
To: Prosperity
I have been clean for 14 and 1/2 days now, cold turkey. I was up to 24- 750 m.g.of hydro's a day, easy, for over a year. I tried the medications from my doc to get off and they worked but, if you have a choice to be sober or high, you will get high. The best way, is not to be able to get the vicoden anymore. First thing you need to do, is too make it impossible to get the dope for yourself. Tell the people you don't want to tell because they care about you and don't want anything bad to happen to you. Tell your job, I have an addiction and you want to get help. They will not allow you back to work without a clean bill of health. You see, you won't stop as long as the drug is available for you, it's just too dam hard. I went through the flu symptom's and they suck, they last for about 4 to 5 days Then paranoya sets in and high blood pressure, weakness, no strength to do anything, deppression sets in. Sounds fun huh? This still after 14 & 1/2 days cold turkey. Even though the dope drove me crazy, if I had some in front of me now I would take it. My advice  is too make it impossible to get it and have alot of chocolate around.. Once the first five days are conquered, do things that once made you happy. Try to keep your mind occuppied. Try to remember old songs you liked as a kid and find them, watch movies, comedy shows, read. The hardest thing to do is get your mind off the dope and the only way to do that is to do something you used to really enjoy. If you don't make it hard for yourself to get it ---YOU WILL NOT STOP TAKING IT! And for those who have legit pain, figure out what is causing it and stop doing it, i.e. if your back hurts from bending stop bending. If your job requires it you'll need to find something else to do. It won't be easy. I know this sounds easier to say than do but, think about it. Do you want to worry about  popping a pill every couple hours and worry about running out every time you take a pill. That's not living, that's dying a slow death. You haven't felt real pain in a long time probably and it isn't easy to deal with. I don't know an easy way to get off the vicoden other than not being able to get it. For me I lost my wife, my car, my home and then I had to move in with some friends who would not allow me to live with them if I continued to use. So, I quit my job because of phisycal requirements hurt my back. And after all I have lost and destroyed because of that white horse pill, if I had some in front of me now I would still take it to escape from all my problems just for a few hours. So good luck to you all and I hope you find peace.

by Greatgreebo, Dec 18, 2007 11:07AM
To: Crocket127
This postg is 5 years old. These people are not here anymore. Start a new post and share with the group :-)

by worried941, Jan 07, 2008 06:30AM
To: Anyone
These posts are 5 years old..........I am nt sure if this even works anymore.  My question is this, I have been on hydrocodone for 7 weeks following knee replacement surgery.  I have followed the script, no more than recommended dosage and I still have 25 pills left.  The pain was not as great in my knee so I decided not to take them (based on "war stories" about addiction).  Now I feel like I have restless leg syndrome all over my body.  I haven't had any for 72 hours, how long will this last, or is it even withdrawal I am experiencing?  No ofther side effects except I am moody as hell.

a little worried

by upperduck, Jan 10, 2008 02:41AM
To: Anyone
I am about to work with my son to get him off hydrocodone at home....  please give me your suggestions in working with a 20 year old to get off this stuff.  I will have him read this entire web page for starters.  Any more suggestions?  Should I contact a doctor first?

by upperduck, Jan 10, 2008 02:41AM
To: Anyone
I am about to work with my son to get him off hydrocodone at home....  please give me your suggestions in working with a 20 year old to get off this stuff.  I will have him read this entire web page for starters.  Any more suggestions?  Should I contact a doctor first?

by bmc1976, Jan 10, 2008 05:16AM
To: Upperduck
Start a new post with your questions. This post is really old and might get over looked. You'll have more people answering if they see it is new.
I have had to come off of hydrocodone 4 times. It all started for me due to a back injury. When the pain stopped I would stop taking but the pain always returns. The withdrawals are probably one of the hardest things he will go through. The thing is, he is gonna have to want to stop taking them. When he goes through withdrawals be as supportive as you can. Make sure you don't preach to him and say he never should have gotten in to this mess. Give him his space if he when he needs it. Don't get upset if all he does is lay around. Part of the withrawals is being so tired without energy but not being able to sleep. You could contact a doctor because there are different medications that help with withdrawals.   The more comfortable he is, the more likely he will be able to succeed. One of the times I came off of them I tapered down and had little to no withdrawals. If you decide to do this you must hold on to the pills and give them out as needed. It is so hard to taper and takes a lot of willpower. My problem was if the pills were there, I'd take them. Make sure you get him on this forum and have him tell us his story and any questions he has. The people on here are wonderful and do not judge at all. What seems to help people the most is relating to each others experience. Everyone on here is so supportive and have great knowledge to help during this time. You make some great friends that care so much. I wish you the best of luck during all of this. Don't forget to make a new post dedicated to you. You'll be surprised of the wealth of information you'll receive.

by Mia1962, Jan 20, 2008 09:11AM
To: everyone...
Hi,
  I am new to this site...I've been taking vicodins for about 2 yrs. now, and have decided to quit cold turkey. I'm on day #8 now, and feeling better everyday. I thank God for finding this site and reading what everyone has to say...God Bless You All..

by Mia1962, Jan 21, 2008 11:06AM
To: ALL
Ok...day #9, and I am actually feeling "naturally high" once again! I am starting to enjoy the things that used to give me pleasure..i.e. being around people, cooking, interacting and being social. It was pure hell for me for the first 4 days...felt SO sick and had the craving BAD! Things aren't still 100% yet, but I know I am on the road to being better. I still get the "craving", but it goes away quicker than before. I am actually sleeping well once again and I feel as though my thoughts are not always on getting that "high". I've been taking vitamins and drinking lots of herbal teas. (helps ALOT!) I know right now, it's more "mind over matter" for me, and with positive thoughts and reinforcement, I KNOW I'll get through this...Good Luck to ALL!

by hatesthis, Jan 29, 2008 02:53PM
i am new here, and its nice to know that other people feel the same way i do. i have sciatica and legitimate pain, but i guess thats how it starts. im to the point where i know im abusing the vicodin instead of using it when needed. ive been on it for over 2 years, and can take up to ten+ a day. i want to get back to only taking it when im in severe pain, but i am so afraid of the withdrawls. i have experienced them for a short time before, and its horrible. i need advice on how to get through this and get back down to only when in pain? no one in my life knows, which makes it worse and lonely. any advice?

hatesthis

by vicoaddict108, Jan 30, 2008 11:55AM
I am a single mother of two kids. I have been taking vicodin for a bad back for about 3 years now and recently found out that I have a degenerated disc and degenerative disc disease. I started with 5/500 and was taking as many as possible to keep the pain away. Then about 3 months ago the doctor upped it to 10/500 and I am taking 6-8 a day. I want to stop taking them cause I know there will come a day when I will have to and i have run out a few times and have felt some of the withdrawals..leg cramping..sleeplessness etc.I dont like how they make me feel. I am so tired all the time and have no energy for daily life. I dont think I can quit cold turkey cause I cannot afford to miss that much work. I would like to taper off but am not sure how much to taper in a week. Someone please help.

by IBKleen, Jan 30, 2008 11:58AM
Vico...this post is very old. Please go to the top of this page and hit the post a question button. Start your own. You will find a lot of help in the forum. Hope to see you out there....

by lostsoul2, Jan 30, 2008 12:05PM
To: vicoaddict108
A taper is possible, but takes tremendous willpower, as each step down you will be fighting the urge to take more.  The slower the better.  If you have access to enough pills then find a starting point and go down maybe a half pill every 3 or 4 days.  If you have someone to hold them for you it will be easier, as the temptation to take what's in front of you will be high.  I tried tapering and was doing well, but ran out of pills and refills and had to go c/t.  C/t sucks, but sometimes is the only way.  If you do taper, start taking a lot of multivitamins, drinking some herbal tea, eat healthier, take some amino acids, exercise if possible right away, during the taper, that way you will be replenishing your body as well, and when the taper is over you may only suffer minimal w/d's.  It's just a suggestion as I am no Dr.  Keep watching the posts and checking the forum.  Others will have good, if not better, advice.  Good Luck!!

by nurseaddict, Mar 11, 2008 10:59AM
To: anyone who is there
i am a nurse.  i am very ashamed of what i have become.  i am an addict and i feel like an absolute failure.  i started only smoking weed....that helped with my anxiety that i have always had.  i never took pills or anything like that.  i graduated from nursing school and started working in an icu.  i then was introduced to vicodin.  i started with just a few.  it would help me sleep and help me get through a shift.  i found that instead of making me sleepy or giving me an upset stomach, they gave me energy and a quick boost to get throgh a 12 hour night shift.  fast forward to six years later and i find myself taking norco 10/325 (the less tylenol for my liver!!!!) (such bull **** thinking by the way...).  i was up to about 20 per day.  i was getting them thru illegal connections, and false prescriptions.  i quit several times before and this is about my third withdrawl.  I am finally on day five and am starting to feel a bit more normal.  I was talking to another nurse addict last night who is trying to work a 12-step program.  we have agreed that we are going to start working this together.  the detox i think is the easy thing,  my hardest battle will be staying stopped.  please pray for me and all of those fighting this same monster.  God bless you  all.....

by mimi1313, Mar 11, 2008 11:05AM
To: Nurse
I would definitely start your own post. There are so many great people on here that can give advice or just listen. Good luck to you and please keep posting.

by nurseaddict, Mar 11, 2008 02:07PM
To: mimi1313
thanks for the reply.  i appreciate it alot.  it helps to know people are listening....God bless.

by kraut67, Apr 03, 2008 10:58AM
To: Everyone
Hi,
I wanted to tell anyone in the medical field addicted to Vics, Percs etc.
If u have come to the point where u are calling in false Rxs or writing them. STOP NOW! u WILL get caught eventually and its a terrible thing to happen not only u but everyone around u. It happened to me.I was caught and my name was smeared all over the paper not to mention the embarassment for my kids and hubby. I had to go to jail and was labeled a drug seeker.Once labeled, u will not EVER work in the medical fiel and you wont be trusted. Also in jail u dont get to taper. you just suffer cold turkey.
PLEASE listen to me. you may not get caught today or tomorrow. But eventually you will get caught.
Ive been clean and soaber for over a year. Dont do it my way

by kraut67, Apr 03, 2008 11:03AM
To: nurseaddict
hi there nurseaddict, if u would like to talk to me at all feel free to do so. i was a nurse addicted. i posted another comment with u and other nurses in mind.
Love kraut67

by Astal, Apr 03, 2008 12:27PM
To: OP
I have a huge amount of respect for you. I was addicted to ultram for a week and it was probably the hardest thing in my life next to me realizing im diabetic. If you kick this while continuing to work you should recieve a fing medal in my opinion cause that is nothing short of heroic.

by Confessions, Jun 04, 2008 01:27PM
My whole post just got wiped away so I'm going to say this again in a nutshell.

I'm not ready to tell my hubby about this but I would not be surprised if he's also not addicted.  We've both been using his 10/375 hydrocodone since his back surgery 4 years ago.  I have currently only taken a total of 7 each day but this week I was determined to cut back.  At work, I notice the withdrawal symptoms.  Monday I took 3 at work, 3 at home.  Tuesday it was 2 at work, 1 at home.  Today I had none left in my purse so I sit here in a small amount of agony and it's only 1:30. :(  My neck hurts, I feel like stretching like there is no tomorrow, my ears are ringing and I'm getting a headache.  I prefer to just taper off but I just may do that and once down to maybe 2 a day use the Thomas Detox method as I saw it posted back in 2002.

Now I realize it is not even close to what some of you are experiencing and I do feel for you.  I'm just seeing how thankful I am that I started looking now for help instead of waiting until I had to get it off the interent.  The doctors have taken him off the hydrocodone and we have 3 months supply left.  Kinda nudges me to get the message!

by EyeOfTheTiger68, Jun 04, 2008 01:47PM
To: Anyone
I just took the lat of my Vicodens this morning. I took three up till 10am or so. I have been taking this **** for years (pain) I came off a few times and was fine. That was a long time ago. I would run out for a day or so, but somehow managed to find more through people or Dr's. I'm so SICK of taking them. I hate it so much! I know I have to stop NOW - Cold turkey. Can anyone tell me how long the duration of crappy feeling symtpoms last, and other than seeing a doctor for feeling better meds (sleep etc) is there any thing over the counter I can take. I know I will feel the effects tomorrow for sure. But I WANT OUT!!!!!!! BAD.

Looking for advise, and maybe someone else whos going through or been there.

Thanks

by GoingToMakeIt, Jun 04, 2008 01:52PM
To: Confessions
Welcome to the Forum. This is a great place to share and get support.
You have posted on an old post. Copy your post and go up to post a question (green) at the top of page. We don't want oyur new post to get lost in this old one.

by lisachristina, Aug 15, 2008 11:52AM
To: Help
I am new here and had a ?,, I was diagnosed with, Degenerative disc disease, Osteoarthritus, and fibromaralgia . I started hydro at 5mg then 7mg and now 10 3x a day,,,I have noticed I am slowly building a tolerance (need more),,,what is one to do when my body is in so much pain,,,are there other alternatives? My problem is I am bed ridden naturally (w/out meds)  ???? Help.

by Jan0309, Aug 17, 2008 03:02PM
To: Help me with a question
I wanted to ask, I have taken Hydro 10mg once a day, I notice that if I don't take the medicine, then I start to have headaches. Is this a withdrawal symptom?

Thanks

by fargo1234, Sep 09, 2008 04:53PM
To: Jan0309
How long have you been taking hydrocodone and is it only one per day?  I'm on day 4 of hydrocodone withdrawal and headaches are not part of my hell.  If anyone is reading this, please tell me how long this is going to take until I can feel normal again?  I dont even care about "normal" I just want to stop feeling so damn sick!  I have been taking at least 10 a day for about a year.  I didnt taper, I just decided one day to stop cold turkey and gave my husband the rest of the bottle to throw away.  Im so glad he did, I'd be right back to 10 a day if I hadn't.
Today I had to leave work again, I admitted my addiction to my boss and I was sent home.  I feel horrible about being a drug addict but my doctor is the one who gave me the pills for my back problems.  
WHEN WILL THIS HELL GO AWAY?

by Dlmarsh0109, Sep 29, 2008 01:43AM
To: Anyone
Hello all. It is about 1:30 in the morning and I found this site. I had a 2 level back fusion on March 6th 2002. I have been on 10/325mg Hydrocodone for over 6 years now. I just recently went to my doctor and asked to be winged off my meds. I couldnt do it. My refill is in 13 days and I only have 3 days left. I did not follow the tapering schedule. I hate being on these meds. It is so damn hard to not take my daily dose every day. Which is 10 per day. Now the question I am faced with is how do I stretch 30 pills for 13 days. I want to thank everyone for comming forward with their stories. Reading these stories has given me a real hope that I can kick this habit. I am one of those that has to do this without going to a treatment center. I work full time and I have a wife and 3 kids. If anyone can offer any suggestions to getting off these pills I would forever be in your debt. I have tried before and made it 3 days with no pills before having to go to the hospital. The withdrawals were too bad. Good luck to all.

by Dwight140, Oct 12, 2008 03:51PM
To: Help
I had an anterior back fusion 6 months ago and have been taking 4 to 6 5/500 hydrocodone daily, along with an occasional Soma and Robaxin and Tramadol and valium. My doctor wants me off the hydrocodone and to use Tramadol (which he claims is non-addictive...oh sure!). The surgery was a bust. I have the same level of pain in the same location as before the surgery. Some days (they are rare) I can only use 1 hydrocodone tab a day, but other days I take enough pain meds to drop an elephant to its knees, but the pain doesn't go away. There are 2 things that really drops the pain level to where I am not miserable. One is to take 1 soma, 1 10mg valium, 2 tramadol, and 2 hydrocodone all at once. That usually does it. But I can't do that every day because soma and valium are so addictive and hard to get off of. I have to take something for my back pain or the pain becomes intolerable, but I have been on these drugs too long. I have had 6 epidural injections and only the first one helped. If I didn't have to work full time to support my family, I would be able to control the pain better by staying home, using ice packs and heat, plus bed rest. But I am in sales and constantly on the go, sitting on airplanes and driving long distances. My work days can be 16 hours long. I usually have to take 5mg of Ambien to sleep. I was once addicted to Ambien and went through hell getting off of it. But to sleep after my surgery (the pain meds kept me awake), I went back on Ambien. It looks like a no-win situation for me. If I stop the pain meds, I can't function because of the high back pain level. If I stay on the meds, I'll become a genuine addict for sure, and over time will have to take more and more to control the pain. I believe in God and have put my case into the hands of the Great Physician; but He hasn't seen fit to heal my back pain. I am starting to feel helpless and hopeless. Does anyone have anything to offer to help me with my situation?

by Dwight140, Oct 12, 2008 04:14PM
To: Help
I forgot to mention the second thing that can bring my pain level down to 0. It is by taking a 12.5mg Ambien-CR (time release) plus a shot of whiskey or rum. That's how I got addicted to Ambien. I'm not going there again. But it sure killed the pain. Most people think of Ambien only as a sleep aid, but when combined with alcohol, it can be one of the best pain relievers out there. I tried to quit Ambien cold-turkey, and became a basket case. My doctor put me back on it and tapered my off. Hydrocodone is getting to where, by itself, it doesn't help the pain level much, unless I take more and more. I don't want to go there, either. My doctor assured me that the surgery would fix my back pain, but it hasn't helped a bit. I wonder if large doses of aspirin (6 to 8 extra strength Bayer aspirin) would help me get off of the hydrocodone??? Wow, life can really be a bummer. I am 62 years old, and I sure miss the days of my youth when I was out climbing high mountains.

by jw272, Apr 30, 2009 01:28PM
To: everyone
well i am here to tell all who do not posses the power of struggle, i have been taking hard narcotics for 6 1/2 years those drugs made me do horrible things and things i am not proud of but i stand here today sober and clean and no more withdrawl feelings. i started out playing semi pro football and got injured with a spinal cord concussion and 2 lower herniated discs so that means yes i got prescribed oxycontin,vicodin,percocet,darvocet,roxycet,loritab,and methadone. and please anyone who is thinking about going to a detox place, please think twice about it. if you want them to fill your body with horrible drugs just to get you hooked on something else, its not worth it. there is no hope in clinics. i see doctors as drug dealers the more you come in the more they get payed especially right now in this economy. people i have taken oxycontin 80 mg 9 times a day, and 10 mg of percocet and vicodin 15 times a day, i was almost a freakin vegitable.
look plain and simple you are the one in control of your life narcotics are the devils drug, my withdrawls lasted almost a full year till my body got back to normal, the hard withdrawls where the famous feeling like a dead fish flopping outside of the water, cold chills, shaking badly after i woke up, couldent or dident want to move at all, throwing up for no reason, peeeing out of my rear end, pure hell..and like i said take control of your life and just stop, the reason your body is doing the withdrawls is because its doing its best to get back to its "a" game. what helped me was my strong will to survive i did this to myself and now i had to clean myself....there is hope pray to god or whatever you believe in. you do not need depression meds you do not need more drugs, shut up sit down and survive. i am clean now for almost 2 years now i have no cravings i do not want that again....point blank if my arm gets shot off, just pass me the tequila and a couple of advil
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