i am sorry

[sphynxs]

I just want to apologise to everyone on this site, because I have done nothing but lie to you all the whole time I have been on here. I am married to a wonderful woman who would never have ever left or abandon her kids. she loves her kids very much and is the only one working to provide for what they need.. I am a liar, piece of **** who does nothing but lies and cheats on her. I steal money from her and take advantage of her, while she works her *** off. I am not a boxer. I am a lazy drug addicted liar! I am truely sorry for screwing with you all.

[babe3]

i dont think this was really john... sphynxs if you are there, pls check your messages

[stilltrying1965]

I think your right, i just had a look and its a different type of writing, its like when lesa knows kims typin for me eh lesa ! kim gets all er spelling and full stops right but iv got a spell check now lesa lol

John lets get the real you back on or both John and his wife as we are going round in circles here John i want you back here to help you my friend. I can tell there is somthing not right here we only want to help .................James

[dominosarah]

Something still isnt right here.....The style of writing is different too.....

[kimbraveheart]

Well done John and like Lesa said let it out and lets get this mess sorted . That took courage my friend. Let us no whats going on We are here to help you John .......Your buddy .......James

[10356]

Thank you for coming back.. That took courage and you can take pride in this.. I know I'm proud of you......

[10356]

I'm going to go out on a limb here and entertain the idea that the wife had posted this.. If she did it tells me that sphynxs has been in full blown active addiction and she is sick and tired of his lies.. understandably and if this is the wife.. Welcome to the forum. we have wife's husbands fathers mothers sisters aunts the list goes on.. I read in this whoever wrote it frustration and fed up.. again understandable... but I have to say it is a beginning.. open communication with the truth from whomever it is.is a start.. but I also Have to say that  sphynxs himself has got to want this as bad as the wife.. I can imagen right now a battle is being waged and all kinds of things are being felt and said.. but none of them matter until one our both of you come back on and communicate with those of us that may be in the position to help/support you whatever your future plans are.. there are children involved and addiction and adultery are not a game.. we do not know each other from a hole in the ground so really what can it hurt to come back and speak.. You came here for a reason.. well lets get on with it and come up with solutions... we can do this but we need your participation and willing spirit.. lastly I would like to say I'm sorry for the pain that you feel as I can imagine it is tremendous but you are not alone.. warmly lesa

[avisg]

well now you have come clean ...... we are not here to judge U are U still using or are u clean

[pharma9]

we have real sympathy for you regardless of your lies.We want the best for you and to help you in your recovery.Please stay here and we will help you.You must want to improve your life or you would not have come here.
This is a wonderful site and everyone is super great in helping and understanding.
We still love you and stay in touch.

[dominosarah]

Then tell us who you really are.....you wont get any sympathy but we will help you get into recovery.  Do you really want to get better or is this just a game?

[sphynxs]

I understand all of your disappointment. the only thing I can say is that I made up those lies to get more sympathy. I did not want to admit to myself or anyone else the real me. I just wanted to pretent I was someone else and not admit what i really am.  sorry

[stilltrying1965]

I think you may be right Sara I think John should come back on ,,,,,James

[dominosarah]

Something isnt right here......

[stilltrying1965]

John are you ok bud ? we hope so you need to come back if you need help with your addiction. we are not here to judge you my friend,but we are worried about you. So you told some lies no big deal as others have already said. If you want to deal with your addiction we are here to help cmon John you my friend can also do this as i said we,im here for you let us no that you are ok your friend ,,,,,,,,James

[narla]

Wow,I just reread the post,it does sound like someone else may have written it.If his wife found out what he was writing I'd completely understand.  

[avisg]

sphynxs ...
are u still around? the more I read your poist the more I wonder if u wrote it so why dont u let us know u are there ....

[narla]

I'm glad you have come clean with the truth about your life now It's up to you to do something about it.I would never judge you or anyone else we are not perfect that's why we post here.I have been judged here in the past so I know how it feels,but 99% of people on here would never judge,we are here to support no matter what.Get back to us and let us know what you are going to do to change your life.  

Denise

[trying2go]

It sounds to me like the wifey got some reading in today on hubbys computer and didn't like what he was telling everybody so she had to try to set the record straight for herself. Either that or he had to do it to calm her down when she saw it.  I don't know for sure, but my instincts are usually right. I don't think he would've straightened out all those points at one time in one paragraph building her up and taking back everything he had said bout her and their relationship in one breath, sounds like someone got their feelings hurt. If you did write that then I'm sorry you are having a bad day and so down on yourself today. Don't give up because tommorrow is a new day and you might feel a lot different. Don't let this stop u from talking to everyone and continuing your search for help. U gotta keep trying. That's what all of us are doing on here. We all have felt hopeless at some point. u are not alone.

[jt808]

hey if u did lie u came clean an let uys now kno the REAL you... but i have a strange feeling tht someone mite of goten on his computer just a guess so either way hope to hear ya post agsain

[stilltrying1965]

Its ok bud , im permanently confused LOL ,,,,,James

[GA Guy]

Sorry for the confusion James...they say in NA that "We Do Recover"...well, it's still taking place in my case :)

[stilltrying1965]

10 out of 10 for telling us the truth. I just dont understand WHY!!!!!..We are all here to help and the help starts with the truth bud.We would still have tried to help you even if you are still taking drugs, you dont have to be clean to come on this site. I came on here a hopeless heroin addict who lied through my teeth to anyone just to get money for heroin, but i never felt the need to lie to anyone here as nobody judges you here, but we do tell each other the truth as you must be truthful to get the proper help you need. Thats the thing about this site, its the only place i also can be comletely truthful and know i wont be judged or frowned upon. i have made many mistakes and relapsed but have always been encouraged here no matter what. If you still want help or just to talk, ill be here but theres nothing you could tell us that would shock us as we have all been there. Ill be here for you john if you want any help and wont ever judge you.....James

Ga ga guy...Its not me, Sphynxs name is John. Stilltrying is James lol

[avisg]

As addicts yeah we lie remember this is the one place you can come that u can be honest however u get so used to lying sometimes its had to tell the truth but if you are going to get clean its time to come clean .I am sure we have alot more members here that both have lied are lying and judge others ALL of the time ..Its not right its too bad but it happens all of the time.  All every member can do is there part to be honest and as non judgemental as possible and remember we all are the same we are addicts trying to figure it out ..  sphynxs I am sure that was not easy to do why did you decided too are u truly ready to come clean to get clean if you are we will be here ? Get it all out start rebuilding your life.

[Sleepless813]

i 100 percent accept your apology you are valued you are loved if jesus forgave me of all my sin how can inot forgive you please turn from your lies get some help and move on

[Beccabeccalynn]

Sorry to hear it, telling the truth is always good. Unfourtunatally addicts seek sick attention . So why tell the truth now? To be honest I don't know what to think. Is this a way of seeking more sick attention or is the life you first told us about the life you want to live? Do you know why I like this forum? Cause I don't have to lie I get to tell it as it is, and I am still encouraged to do better and stay in recovery. Sorry that you cheated yourself.
Becca