i feel so sick

[grievingwidow]

i don't know what the deal is, not enough meds, too much?  but i feel so bad today, barely functioning and obviously not going to make my 1200 line count by midnight. i have a headache, not horrible, but i just feel bad.  don't see how it could be withdrawal, i have had 30 mg total of methadone today and 10 mg of percocet.  would love to take another perc but really trying to make my RX last as long as i can.  i just know that somehow it is "dope related", why do we keep taking this stuff if it makes us feel so bad?  all i do is sleep, work, watch couple hours t.v., then all over again. never leave the house, have not had a phone call from a friend in years, only hear from my kids.  my hubby's family never call.  i went from one extreme last night to another, looking up online pharmacies for hydrocodone and diet pills (for energy), then looking up rehab sites.  obviously a woman confused, right?  well, just had to tell somebody what a shitty day i am having and i am not even doing the c/t thing like so many of you, how dare i complain, right?

Love, Cindy

[jasww]

ttyy

[Stephen823]

I am on day 2 of suboxone and let me say I feel very good -
It is expensive but I feel unable to cold turkey -
I hate the pills that made me a slave and always hated running out of them and then dealing with withdrawels.

I am glad to do something good for myself.

Thank you for you honesty -
Steve

[grievingwidow]

ggin - thank you for your kind words, i need them right now.

fish - i am glad you brought that up, i am seriously considering suboxone, now you are on that right?  still taking it and do you feel "well" on it?  I am especially interested in the cravings deal - you don't have any while on it, right? i did check once to see what doctors in my area can prescribe it and the few that were listed are not very well thought of, I would probably have to go out of town.  my head is killing me right now, considering going to the ER but I hate doing that, I have to be in really bad shape first.

thanks again for everyone who posted.  i appreciate you.

love, cindy

[fishmeal]

Have you done any research on suboxone... go to the site and get infor there

http://www.suboxone.com/

they also have a couple of videos go watch

[ggin35]

Feel better sweetie!!

[grievingwidow]

Thank you both so much for taking the time to help me.  Just knowing someone cares means so much.

Love, Cindy

[FLaddict]

I think your body and mind are trying to tell you something.. I know for me the pills used to give me soooo much energy I would go run around and do stuff all the time.. In the end I was home alone in bed avoiding phone calls and sending my hubby out to do stuff with my friends.. sending him to dinners, birthdays, BBQs would make up for me not being there... Sucks.. Now i realize how much I have missed and how the pills confused me and my body.. I think that may be what is happening to you...stay away from the diet pills, try doing a body detox like "the master cleanse" or a juice fast... way healthier and you will feel better and lose some lbs... my hubby did the master cleanse and lost 14 lbs the first time and another 12 the second... he said he slept better felt better overall and stopped smoking..
If you need anything I am here for ya..

[lonote]

Its strange how we isolate ourselves. Sounds a little like my world. Same old
thing day in and day out. Any hobbies? I was once (more than once) told that
I need to get a hobby. I said defensively thats what my plants are!. I'm here to listen.