i fu***d up

To anyone out there who thinks that coming off hydro is easy i say walk in my shoes once. Been on them three yrs now and today was only day one for me and i found three 5/500s and paid ten bucks for them how stupid is that!!!! I just needed to feel normal so to speak that i got desperate.bottom line i cant even make it three minutes and that is pathetic, sometimes i feel there is just absoulutly no hope for a person like me.  I just had to share that I messed up and pry always will, addiction is in my blood i guess whatcha all think let me know
is it possible that some never recover?

signed very depressed and paniced

[thelida]

Hey my boyfriend has been doing and feeling the same way for a long time.  He has tried to stop with oxys/tabs many times, and always broken down and bought something else.  I wish he were here to give you some support, but comming here freaks him out because he says it will make him jones for pills. He fu**ed up many times, felt like a complete peice of garbage, would ask my why he is so pathetic...
He's finally made some progress though.  I know you can too.  I know you feel weak, but you have to tell yourself you can do it.  With him I pretty much had to lock him away in my bedroom for a few days to keep him from fu**ing up again.  I still worry my head off now when he's not here.
I wish I could give you more support or advice.

[creek]

breathe....ofcourse you can recover.  I'm sure there are ppl who fight this their entire lives.  But you have made a step here to ask for support and suggestions.  That tells me you are scared and ready to quit.  You can fight this and succeed.  Mostly we are good at making excuses.  So in your blood or not, you are not happy in your life.  YOU can change that.

man, I have been so desperate...the money...ya, its insane.  But you will read here about ppl that are in the process, ppl that are in active recovery, well just about at any stage.  I hope you keep posting.  Take baby steps if need be, one day at a time and keep reading here,  Your not alone.

Peace~   And you are not crazy.  Just a junkie, like me.  

[Peete1974]

I know I have been there.  Had to go to the pawn shop and sell 35 DVD's to get a couple because I couldn't wait for my script in the morning.  You are not alone, and I believe that we can accomplish whatever we want to if we want it bad enough.  good luck
peete

[married2me]

i feel ya i traded my addiction to tylenol w/codeine for vics.now im taking around 4or5 500s a day.i get mine for 2$ each.its a very expensive habit.the money just keeps adding up but the money is worth avoiding the w/ds.   nichole

[beachtowel]

welcome to the forum,,,,,

It took me 36 years to stop and I didn't do it on my own a Judge insisted on helping me..........

The first step states : To admit that your are powerless against your drug of choice and that your life has become unmanageable...

two words Powerless and Unmanageable or the keys if you really think about it and are honest you can apply these to your own lives........